What She Desperately Desires
Ever since Magical Girl Spica appeared, there had always been one topic of debate that never cooled down. 'Has Magical Girl Spica undergone a Special Awakening?'
Special Awakening was the term used for the power-up a magical girl experienced when she shared love with a romantic partner. Unlike a normal awakening, which occurred the first time a girl transformed into a magical girl, a Special Awakening didn't change her appearance or grant entirely new abilities. The grandiose name existed for one simple reason: the amplification of magical power was enormous.
At minimum, it increased her strength by more than ten times. Sometimes, it reached into the hundreds. It was only natural that the Magical Girl Association maintained separate rankings for those who had experienced a Special Awakening and those who hadn't.
Spica was the sole exception.
Worldwide Magical Girl Ranking: 13th place. The undisputed number one among all non-awakened magical girls. Her magical power was simply too overwhelming to claim she hadn't undergone a Special Awakening. As a result, a rather convincing theory had gained traction among the public: 'Perhaps Spica didn't awaken through love for a specific partner, but through her love for all of humanity?'
"Sihyun-ssi. As you know, I have become the world's number one magical girl this time."
"Yeah. I know. Congratulations, Spica."
That wasn't the case. While someone's thesis and hard work had been reduced to tear-stained scraps of paper, the couple cuddling at home remained blissfully unaware.
"So, I have a favor to ask... but could you please consider forgiving me for even bringing it up?"
"?? Just say it."
"As a celebration for reaching first place, there's something I'd like to request."
Sihyun had sensed from the moment Spica knelt down with that nervous expression that this was going to be a perverted request. It couldn't be helped. Wasn't it all because he was simply too adorable? Resigned, he decided to at least hear her out.
Spica bowed her head and shouted, "Please let me do it raw without a condom!"
"Huh. No way."
It was an immediate answer.
"Hello, Senior Spica."
"Hey. Come on in, Luna."
Spica greeted her junior warmly as she entered the waiting room. Even though she saw her every day, she was still happy to see her today.
"Why do you look so dead inside from the crack of dawn?"
"Sihyun-ssi won't do it raw without a condom."
"This is insane."
Today, the moment her junior stepped into the waiting room, she already wanted to go home. She had thought she was getting used to the fact that her respected senior Spica's brain had turned into a flower garden, but apparently she wasn't. It seemed to be getting worse.
"No, Senior. Why are you in heat first thing in the morning?"
"Isn't it Sihyun-ssi's fault for being too sexy?"
"What exactly is turning you into this?"
"Love... It's love!"
"You mean lust, right?"
Spica thought about it carefully for a moment. No, it really was love.
"No, listen carefully. Once you hear this, even you'll understand."
"This again?"
"Of course."
Luna looked at Spica. Those cloudy eyes made it obvious that more nonsense was about to spill out, but since there was nothing else to do, she decided to listen.
"A few days ago, through sharing love with Sihyun-ssi, I realized something. Sex isn't just for physical pleasure. What's truly important is two people sharing their hearts and feeling each other's affection and trust. Only then can you experience true happiness."
"And?"
"So, to take our relationship with Sihyun-ssi to the next level, shouldn't we rediscover the fundamental meaning and essential value of sex?"
"Ah. I see."
Luna gave a soulless response. She already knew where this was headed and that every word was complete nonsense.
"Yes. And that is..."
"...Doing it raw?"
"No. The fundamental value of sex. It's pregnancy!"
"Ah...?"
It made her even angrier because none of the individual statements were technically wrong.
"I want to get Sihyun-ssi pregnant."
"Senior?"
"I'll have him give birth to at least three children so he can't leave me. That way, even if he's holding one in each arm, there will still be one more, so he won't be able to leave."
"Senior! Snap out of it!"
- Slap!
"Ouch!"
"What on earth are you thinking?!"
"About Sihyun-ssi..."
"If you're thinking about your partner... you should be thinking about what would make him happy!"
"....Ah!"
The sting on her cheek from Luna's slap helped Spica regain a bit of her senses. She wasn't sure if it was because of the burning pain or because of the tears streaming down her junior's face.
"You kidnapped him without a word, turned him into a woman, imprisoned him, and now you're thinking about forcing an unwanted pregnancy on him?!"
"I... What the hell have I been..."
"Have you come back to your senses?"
"I'm fine... I've returned to my right mind!"
"Senior! You're back to normal!"
Luna hugged Spica tightly. Spica hugged her back, expressing her gratitude.
"It felt like something had possessed me. I almost acted without considering Sihyun-ssi's feelings."
"I've heard that right after a Special Awakening, thoughts can sometimes run wild like that."
It had just been an ordinary outburst of sexual desire. It was a common occurrence for magical girls who had undergone a Special Awakening.
"Thank you..."
"Please trust your partner a little more. Talk to him."
"Yes. I'll do that. Thank you."
Thanks to her junior's passionate persuasion, Spica was able to escape her selfish thoughts. Today's external conscience had done its job.
"I almost did something without considering Sihyun-ssi's heart."
"It's okay. Since you haven't actually done it yet, if you talk to him, I'm sure he'll understand how you feel."
"That's right! Sihyun-ssi has such a big heart! He'll definitely understand!"
"Exactly!"
Luna had never met Sihyun, but she knew from hearing stories from Spica and others. That he was either an angel descended from heaven or a fairy who had lost her winged robe. Kidnapping. Human experimentation. Imprisonment. Rape. Sexual assault. Contract forgery. The list of crimes Spica had committed was far from short. The fact that someone could live with her and still become her lover meant he couldn't possibly be an ordinary person.
"I'm not giving up! I'll persuade Sihyun-ssi!"
"...About what?"
"First, I'll persuade him to do it raw on safe days. Then I'll sneakily do it raw on dangerous days and sneakily get him pregnant!"
"So in the end, you're still planning to sneakily get him pregnant."
"I'll persuade him with love! If I speak from the heart, Sihyun-ssi will definitely understand!"
"...Even if he understands your sincerity, that doesn't mean he has to fulfill it, you know?"
Luna was gradually getting fed up as their waiting time came to an end.
- Ding-dong-dang-dong
"Well, I'm heading home!"
Watching Spica dash home like a bolt of lightning, Luna gave up on trying to persuade her senior.
"Ah... Yes. This is Luna. Yes, yes. I have something to report about Senior Spica."
Instead, she decided to file a report. Today's external conscience had done its job once again.
"I'm back~"
"Welcome home, Spica."
The moment Spica stepped inside the house, she realized something was wrong. She could tell because Sihyun's usually bright smile looked strangely stiff.
"Spica."
"Yes, Sihyun-ssi."
"I think we need to talk."
"Yes."
Spica naturally knelt down in front of Sihyun and sat. Something... something was very wrong. How had he found out about her plan to casually initiate skinship, turn him into a lovestruck mess, and take the first step toward building a happy family? Who was responsible? Who was the mastermind?
"Wouldn't you rather sit comfortably?"
"No! This is comfortable for me!"
"...? Well, if you say so."
Sihyun decided not to worry about the minor details. She seemed to be misunderstanding something, but having a conversation was far more important.
"Spica. I heard something sad."
"Yes. I'm sorry."
"No. You don't need to apologize. We just need to talk."
Sihyun simply looked down at Spica with sad eyes. Only then could Spica truly feel regret. After hearing all those stories, instead of getting angry, he was simply sad... What had she been about to do to her sacred goddess?
"Spica."
"Yes!"
Sihyun bent down and pulled her into a tight embrace. Spica, who had been expecting anger or a lecture, was so surprised she couldn't do anything.
"You've been worrying a lot, haven't you..."
"What?!"
"I heard that you were worried I might suddenly leave you."
This was news to Spica. Had she said something like that? She couldn't remember.
"So you wanted a baby as proof of the bond between us."
"Yes..."
Spica couldn't quite remember, but as she listened while wrapped in Sihyun's warmth and scent, she gradually started to feel like maybe she had said something like that.
"Still, you shouldn't think of a child that's about to be born as a means rather than an end."
"Yes. You're absolutely right."
"There's no need to rush our family planning. Wouldn't it be better to wait until we're truly ready?"
"Yes. I was being shortsighted."
"We haven't been together that long yet. Let's wait until even after these passionate feelings cool down, we're certain we want to spend the rest of our lives together with all the memories and affection we've built. Then we can think about it again."
"Yes. That sounds good, Sihyun-ssi."
As Spica half-listened to Sihyun's words and thought back, she suddenly remembered saying 'I want to get Sihyun-ssi pregnant' while she was with Luna earlier. She had spouted all sorts of flowery nonsense, but she now recalled that it had all been nonsense meant to convince her junior.
In the end, Spica had simply wanted to have sex with Sihyun-ssi without any barriers from the very beginning, to fill him with as much cum as she wanted. While she hadn't been lying about wanting to get him pregnant, she hadn't thought at all about how to actually raise a child. She had just wanted to see a pregnant Sihyun-ssi. In other words, she had been treating a potential child purely as a means rather than an end. Even she had to admit it was an incredibly trashy way of thinking.
"I'll try harder too, so that you can trust me more, Spica."
"No, Sihyun-ssi. It's fine just the way things are. I just... I think I was a little off for a moment."
"Even so..."
"Just hold me a little longer, please."
"......Okay."
And so the two of them stayed like that for a while, embracing each other. Sharing each other's warmth.
"Sihyun-ssi."
"What is it, Spica?"
"If it's a safe day... can we do it raw?"
"......I'll think about it."