Reluctance
There was no such thing as a “no” to start with. Right now, there was only one person in front of Seol-hwa she could cling to.
After the shower, the man’s thing was already rock-hard, ready to burst. The young Seol-hwa could guess how excited he was just by looking at it.
*Why is it so huge?*
Her first time was going to be something like this, so of course she was scared.
But at the same time, the pleasant sensations he had given her the night before kept flooding back vividly.
The man wasn’t just about to pleasure himself by forcing it in and shaking. He was the type who took his time, teasing thoroughly so she could feel everything properly.
That was why her body was reacting on its own even after seeing that terrifying thing right now.
“Come over here.”
The man’s command followed. He pointed at his rigid member with a finger while even grinning.
“Annoying.”
The rough tone came out naturally. But unlike before, Seol-hwa was now carefully watching his eyes.
*Why am I doing this… to that guy…*
This was, quite literally, instinct. The feeling a conquered female experiences when she wants the male who has dominated her.
Seol-hwa glanced sideways, but the man didn’t react much.
Releasing a sigh of relief, she wrapped her hand around his member.
This was already after he had satisfied himself plenty, so Seol-hwa naturally knew the right spots.
Every time she saw that wicked thing, her face grew hot with imagination.
*Once I do this…*
Pain and pleasure would come at the same time.
The violent act from last night, replaying that same sensation.
Seol-hwa’s heart was pounding.
She started gently stroking it with both hands, up and down with enthusiasm.
She knelt and used her hands on the part pointing toward her head.
*Is this okay? My arms are hurting.*
The young high-school girl still didn’t understand how to make this male feel conquered.
She could feel the rhythm slowly building in her hand and saw his body respond just a little.
*He’s breathing harder. Did I make him like that?*
At that moment, a low “um” escaped the man’s mouth, and Seol-hwa felt a strange surge of energy.
The more he reacted, the more she was doing right.
*No, what am I thinking! I don’t know. I don’t know!*
She denied her own feelings, but maybe she was actually happy. Seol-hwa had never experienced sex before, so even a small thing like this was enough to make her feel strangely good.
After the rhythm continued for a while and she was putting in real effort, the man’s thing suddenly moved faster than she expected. Seol-hwa reflexively pulled her hands away.
Because of all the experience she had, she should have kept them there to block, but she had forgotten and tried to do what she thought she should.
“Ah! I-I…”
She tried to lift her hands too late, but the man’s release hit her face instead.
The thick, familiar scent of semen flooded her entire face, and some even slipped into her tiny mouth.
“Ahh!”
She had no words to describe the taste. But Seol-hwa had no choice but to swallow it whole while looking at the satisfied expression on the man’s face.
After that, Seol-hwa naturally let out heavy breaths.
“Haa… haa…”
Her whole body felt hot, and a strange title settled in her mind: she had satisfied the man.
“Good job.”
Even the man’s praise as he stroked her hair.
“You’re going to do it anyway. Why praise me?”
She muttered it because she didn’t want to admit she liked the feeling.
Just like Lee Soyeon, she had realized that after experiencing all these things, it was only right to give up.
“You wanted this.”
“Funny… ugh!”
Seol-hwa reacted to the hand sliding smoothly over her lower abdomen.
And her already wet place reacted the same way.
The man teased her several times, then pulled his fingers out.
“…You’re reacting well.”
“N-no, of course. You stimulated me. You’re acting so superior.”
He was boasting, but the moment the man’s other hand started kneading her breast, an uncontrollable moan slipped out of her mouth.
“You’re definitely different when you’re defiant. That’s a new kind of flavor.”
But instead of turning him off, that defiance seemed to make him even more excited. Rather than holding back, he was pushing in frontally.
*New flavor? Is there another woman…? Uuh! Too close.*
Looking closely, the first thing that hit her was his thick, handsome face.
And as he kissed her, he began exploring her mouth.
It was similar to last time, but this time they faced each other.
Seol-hwa felt her chest tremble even more in this facing position than before.
*I’m embarrassed. If only I could turn my body away…*
If she couldn’t see him, she would feel more relaxed. But facing him made her even shyer because she had to watch his every expression.
Their tongues intertwined in a deep kiss, exchanging saliva. Seol-hwa surrendered her body to the male’s tongue that kept flicking hers.
After a while the kiss stopped, Seol-hwa opened her eyes and looked at him.
His eyes were soft, smiling as if he loved her, not the usual fierce look.
*Don’t look at me like that. We’re doing this against my will.*
The kiss and teasing started again, pushing her toward another climax.
Her already wet place led her breast up as if waiting, and even the light twisting of her nipple made the pleasure multiply.
*Breasts… stop it. It’s too much… it tickles…*
Seol-hwa’s moan came out weak, barely pushing past her narrow lips.
Today, just like when Jin Dohyuk had finished quickly, Seol-hwa was reaching climax much faster under the soft atmosphere.
“Huek!”
Plus, his hands felt warmer than before. Seol-hwa lost control for a moment at the approaching climax and her legs gave out.
“Hugh… haa…”
Why had this happened suddenly? Seol-hwa still didn’t know her own heart.
The man caught the trembling Seol-hwa and lifted her up.
Instead of putting her on the sofa, he held her.
“Why here?”
“Because it’s risky on bare skin.”
It was a kind of consideration. Seol-hwa, who had little experience, didn’t know, but this male had plenty.
Even from middle school he had to do it on the floor because he couldn’t go to a motel, and he probably remembered how the girl’s back got scratched. It was as natural to him as breathing.
But to Seol-hwa it felt like enormous consideration.
“T-thank… you.”
Seol-hwa’s face still flushed as she leaned back on the sofa and started kissing him face to face again.
Foreplay and sex were both less intense than before.
*Why? It feels gentler than last time.*
Her body reacted even more strongly.
Softly, comfortably, without pressure. She had used every word she knew and this was the limit. There was nothing else. But her body was reacting far more.
“I’m going to put it in now.”
After the kiss, a gentle voice spoke to the girl.
He had been doing whatever he wanted until now without asking, and now he was declaring it kindly?
*Too much. If he says that…*
She had been expecting it and anticipating it all along.
The moment the hot thing touched her already-soaked place, Seol-hwa even glanced sideways unconsciously.
*It’s entering.*
Seeing it directly from the front for the first time, her own thing looked pitifully small compared to his, but fear turned into a thrilling sensation.
“Ugh… ah! Hah!”
Seol-hwa covered her mouth naturally as the man thrust in hard.
The overwhelming fullness and the pleasant tingling spread through her body.
The man’s breathing grew heavier, his waist pulled back softly, then he plunged deep again.
“Ugh! Huegh…”
It still hurt, but the ratio of pleasure had increased compared to before.
Seol-hwa didn’t know why. The man carefully held her shoulders and answered with a kiss.
His waist paused briefly, then moved back in, doing piston movements several times and pushing her into a sea of pleasure.
“Haa… ah! Aah!”
Her moans were far more natural now, surrendering to pleasure.
She no longer cared, embracing him face to face.
“Huek! Aah! Ah… ugh! Too… too… uh!”
Soon Seol-hwa’s hands were holding his.
She needed to grab something tightly while he thrust hard.
The warmth between their joined hands gave Seol-hwa a different kind of satisfaction than before.
This was what they called sex between lovers. Not forced, but accepting each other and feeling the warmth.
Seol-hwa was reaching climax from that warmth she had never felt before.
The more his waist intensified, the more her hands matched it.
She held him tightly, relying on him. Because her own body was so strange and unfamiliar, Seol-hwa desperately tried to deny it.
“Ugh! S-stop… I… I’m strange… it’s strange… uh…”
But soon she was blocked by another kiss from the man and she felt her orgasm explode like fireworks.
The man responded, filling her inside forcefully, and the loving relationship between lovers had finally begun.
*
The reactions were clearly different. He had been forcing her orgasm last time, but now it was far more sensory.
Well, being taken over felt good too, but being given it so gently made the girl even more shocked.
Yeah, that was how it was supposed to feel—soft, happy sex between lovers.
But would that girl even know she had been led to that feeling?
The first time had been forced and pressured, but this time he was instead considerate, making sure she felt comfortable.
“Are you okay?”
He asked kindly on purpose, hugging the blushing girl.
It was to erase the trauma from her first experience.
Even though it was pain and pleasure, the reaction “It wasn’t that bad” pulled out the thought that she would be scared to do it again.
By handling her gently and facing each other slowly, the tension in her heart eased more than the trauma.
The result was what she was seeing now. With his hand around her neck, she was drooling with a dazed expression.
Unlike before, the hesitation to stop his actions had disappeared.
It was a psychological effect.
And Seol-hwa had fallen for it.
While gently stroking her short hair, he kissed her neck again.
“How did you manage your hair?”
“There was someone who cut it inside. It’s going to be hard now.”
“I’ll help you too. Don’t worry. In the future.”
“…Really?”
There you go. Looking up at me with the eyes she expected.
Now she only had him to rely on.
“Yeah. Still, I told you before—I’m not betraying you. Just don’t betray me.”
He lightly touched her ear, then slid down.
“Anyway, I can’t stay here forever. I’ll come sometimes. You have to wait for me.”
“Where are you going?”
“To my friend’s maintenance? The suspicious places in this situation.”
He told her about the abnormality in the Yongsan area. Seol-hwa listened like a puppy in his arms, then lifted her head again.
“It’s going to be hard to go that far, right?”
“Of course it is. But I have to go. I don’t like this kind of thing. You don’t either, right?”
“Yeah, but… if I have to leave again, I’ll be scared…”
Just like with Lee Soyeon, he had thought about asking about another woman, but not now.
When the atmosphere was this good, he didn’t talk carelessly. He just left it alone. The best time was when the body and mind truly belonged to him.
After all, she couldn’t escape him now.
The body she was holding and the girl’s heart were both his. He gave the final period.
When his lower abdomen reacted, Seol-hwa looked down.
“Um… something… down there…”
“It’s not over yet.”
He laid Seol-hwa back on the sofa and continued exploring the girl again and again.