The Illusion
The Knight Academy.
It had been quite some time since I graduated, yet the place still felt as familiar as if I had walked its halls only yesterday.
The only difference was that the ground, the sky, the buildings—everything in the world—had been drained of color, painted over in shades of gray.
“What the…?”
The words slipped out before I could stop them.
I had been talking with Lucretia just moments ago. So why was I suddenly standing in the middle of the academy?
Wait…
What had I even been doing?
That was when it happened.
The gray buildings began to regain their original hues, one by one.
Red brick and blue sky.
Windows glittering in the sunlight.
As if nothing had ever been wrong.
Was the gray just an illusion…?
Thud!
“Hey! Kael. What are you doing here?”
“Uh… Luke?”
Luke suddenly popped out from the corridor and clapped me on the shoulder.
I had seen him not long ago, yet somehow he felt strangely unfamiliar. Like someone I hadn’t met in years.
“What are you spacing out for? Come on, let’s get to joint training already. We’re late.”
“Ah…”
Joint training.
Right.
Today was the day for joint training.
“Seriously, what’s with you today? Hurry up.”
“It’s nothing. Let’s go.”
I shook my head, trying to clear my thoughts.
“By the way, where were you coming from?”
Luke flashed a meaningful grin and thumped my shoulder again.
“A pure-hearted young master like you wouldn’t understand even if I told you.”
“You were with a girl again, weren’t you? If you keep wasting all your energy on your hips like that, you’re going to flunk out.”
“Haha. That’s why I’ve got you, right? Please, just make sure I don’t fail.”
Luke laughed as if he trusted me completely and slapped my back a few times.
While I had always been too busy training to build proper friendships, this guy spent every spare moment chasing girls and living a debauched life.
I devoted every second to getting stronger instead of wasting time on such things…
How on earth had someone so different from me become my friend?
That was still a complete mystery to me.
“Anyway, today’s finally the long-awaited joint training…”
“Since when do you look forward to training?”
I had been excited because it meant sparring with stronger upperclassmen and learning more. But Luke, who usually hated the word “training,” was actually looking forward to it for once.
“Because it’s joint training! Second- and third-years are joining too!”
“Exactly, so that means… Ah. Ha… You really are something else.”
I shook my head in disbelief.
What he was really after were the second- and third-year girls.
According to him, he had already slept with half the first-year girls. Now he was expanding his territory to the upperclassmen.
“Hehe. You must have heard about them too. The Emerald Valkyrie! The Azure North Wind!”
Emerald Valkyrie.
Azure North Wind.
Those were the nicknames for the two most famous female students of this year.
The second-year Emerald Valkyrie.
The third-year Azure North Wind.
Both were top of their respective classes and undisputed powerhouses.
In that sense, I too wanted to cross swords with them at least once.
But what Luke meant was something entirely different.
And the reason they were so famous wasn’t what I had in mind either.
They were famous—and the reason Luke was so worked up—was purely because of their looks.
I had never seen them in person, but according to the crude comments from the guys who had…
『Just looking at them gives you an instant hard-on.』
That was how they described it.
When I asked what kind of description that even was, everyone just gave the same answer.
“Still, I doubt you’ll even get to talk to them properly since you can’t even spar decently.”
“It’s fine. I can just look at them and imagine it in my head.”
“Ugh…”
He really had a talent for saying disgusting things.
It was hard to believe, but the two of them were known as some of the few girls in the academy who still kept their chastity.
No one had actually slept with them yet. Only rumors occasionally circulated.
That was why most of the male students believed that whoever claimed either of them would be the ultimate winner of this generation.
The Luke standing next to me was no exception…
But how he planned to get close to two girls who didn’t even know his face and refused to speak to any male student outside of sparring was his problem to solve.
“I’m looking forward to it.”
“Yeah.”
I was looking forward to their skill.
Luke was looking forward to their bodies.
Each of us lost in our own fantasies, we stepped into the training grounds.
Since this was the first joint training since we entered as first-years, the vast field was packed with people—a sight I had never seen before.
Familiar faces from my own year mingled with countless unfamiliar ones.
Most of the upperclassmen were sneering at the new first-years or whispering among themselves.
“Hey, hey! Over there!”
Luke suddenly jabbed my side and pointed.
It was the area where the third-years had gathered. One spot in particular had noticeably fewer people, as if poison had been sprinkled there. The students stood scattered, keeping their distance.
“Ah…”
I immediately understood what Luke was pointing at.
Among those sparsely spaced students stood one figure who drew every eye.
A woman leaning casually against the wall, gazing into the distance.
『Just looking at them gives you an instant hard-on.』
I finally understood the feeling behind those words.
That said, it didn’t mean I actually…
“Whoa…”
“What?”
“N-nothing.”
No.
Wait a second.
I felt my pants suddenly tenting outward.
I admit her beauty was on a level that felt untouchable, and her figure was absurdly sensual.
But I had been living without getting close to any women, focusing solely on training to become stronger.
Could my resolve crumble so easily?
No…
This didn’t feel like that at all.
The arousal had risen as naturally as breathing.
She was standing there in her pure white third-year uniform.
Yet why was it that in my eyes, I could already picture what her underwear looked like?
What her naked body would look like?
What that dazzlingly white, bare skin would be like?
Such images flooded my mind with unnatural clarity.
It was strange.
“Figures even you can’t take your eyes off her.”
“……”
I couldn’t deny it, so I stayed silent.
It felt dirty to admit it.
“Haa…”
I took a deep breath and tried to compose myself.
If I kept staring, I wouldn’t be able to focus on training at all today.
I barely managed to tear my gaze away.
But it wasn’t just my eyes that were suffering.
While I forced myself to look elsewhere, the other guys didn’t.
Groups of male students were gathered in threes and fives, pouring out obscene comments about her.
Normally, I would have ignored such talk completely.
It wasn’t as if I hadn’t heard students harassing the girls here before.
I had no desire to associate with those kinds of people, nor any interest in getting close to the female students.
So I had always just frowned and brushed it off like the buzzing of cicadas in summer.
Then why were those words stabbing into my ears one by one today?
Why was my chest burning like this?
Why was my mind so disturbed?
“Holy shit… How can breasts even be that big…?”
“And her skin? It’s even whiter than her uniform, isn’t it?”
“I’m losing my mind. Just once, I’d give anything to suck on those tits.”
“I want to stick my dick between them and shake them around.”
“You’d be satisfied with that? Look at that ass! Her tits are huge, but her ass is on another level!”
The female students nearby frowned at the boys’ vulgarity.
But it wasn’t so much disgust as it was jealousy.
Most of them had dated at least once or twice, so their envy was directed at the girl who monopolized the boys’ attention.
And that jealousy quickly turned into vicious gossip about her.
“See? The rumors were true.”
“With a body like that… she must have done it with tons of third-years.”
“I bet her pussy’s all loose by now. You know how those girls are. Acting all innocent while spreading their legs behind everyone’s back… She’ll probably open her legs for these idiots soon enough too.”
The ‘idiot’ first-year boys immediately shut their mouths when the girls’ mood turned hostile.
They wanted to keep talking, but they were afraid of upsetting the girls too much and ending up sleeping alone tonight.
“Whoa! Kael! Kael, look over there!”
Luke suddenly smacked my waist hard.
Another beauty had just entered the training grounds.
A brown-haired girl with sparkling green eyes that matched her nickname.
Graceful flowing hair.
And beneath that, an overwhelming presence.
Yes, her figure instantly captured everyone’s gaze.
Every time she moved, people’s eyes naturally followed her.
The third-year beauty from earlier had been impossibly beautiful, but…
This girl was on the same level.
If anything, her overall aura didn’t lose out at all.
The first-years who had been silent opened their mouths again, helpless against her overwhelming body.
“Is that a person or a cow?”
“Who knows? Maybe if you squeezed them, milk would come out like a real cow.”
“Haa… I want to fuck her from behind and squeeze those tits like crazy! Fuck! Why doesn’t our year have any girls with breasts like that?!”
Luke was pounding my shoulder, completely worked up.
“I’m going crazy, Kael. I’ve made up my mind. I’m definitely going to touch those tits. I’m gonna grab them hard and suck on them like a madman.”
“Haa… Luke…”
“No! Don’t look at me like I’m pathetic—imagine it! If I grab one tit with one hand and suck on the other…”
His vulgar words made a vivid image flash through my mind for a split second.
It made me frown even harder, and a sharp pain stabbed through my chest.
It was the same nonsense I heard from him all the time, yet…
I clicked my tongue and looked at Luke, trying to ignore the discomfort.
“Both of them aren’t interested in guys at all. They focus only on training, just like me. Do you really think you can approach them?”
“Ugh! But still…”
He looked frustrated, but his eyes remained glued to the second-year senior.
I ruffled his short hair and smiled faintly.
“So stop wasting time and train with me instead, yeah?”
There weren’t many first-years living proper academy lives to begin with. Maybe this was a good chance to drag Luke in as my training partner.
If I trained hard and told him to go confess to the senior…
No, that somehow felt wrong.
A sudden wave of rejection rose at the thought.
“Kael.”
A sweet voice suddenly reached my ear.
“Ah… Rosetta?”
Radiant red hair tickled my vision.
In her fiery red eyes, I saw my own reflection—my face already flushed as I stared at her.
“Did you get back okay yesterday?”
“Y-yeah…”
Yesterday?
Yesterday…
Oh.
We had trained together until late at night yesterday, just the two of us.
The memory finally came back.
“Ugh, this is sickening to watch. I’m going closer to get a better look!”
Luke gave my side a light tap and disappeared somewhere.
Rosetta smiled at the sight and stepped closer to me.
A faint scent of roses drifted from her now that she was nearer.
“Want to train together again today?”
“Is that okay with you?”
“Yeah. I’ve been trying to work harder lately too.”
I nodded.
It made me incredibly happy to know she was one of the few people in the Knight Academy who trained with genuine sincerity.
-Should we fast-forward time a little?
“Huh? Rosetta? What did you just… wait, what?”
She had definitely been right in front of me a second ago.
What was that?
When I came to my senses, I was already walking down a corridor in the academy.
This was the first-year dormitory area…
Weren’t we just in the middle of joint training?
Was I imagining things?
My head throbbed.
More importantly, what had I been doing here…?
“Ah.”
I pressed a hand to my forehead.
I had forgotten the most important thing.
Rosetta and I had always trained together until late in the evening, helping each other improve.
But lately, she had stopped coming to training often.
Today too, she hadn’t shown up without any word, so I had come looking for her out of worry.
How could I have forgotten something so important?
It really was strange.
Moreover, Rosetta had changed noticeably recently.
She seemed somewhat dazed, her concentration lower than before.
And the occasional signs of exhaustion…
Was something wrong?
-Kael. When the hell are you two going to start dating? Confess before someone else steals her, damn it.
Luke’s words suddenly came to mind.
-It’s obvious to everyone that you like each other. How long are you going to drag this out? Rosetta must be dying of frustration by now.
Yeah.
When it came to women, Luke knew far more than I did.
Maybe he was right.
Perhaps she was waiting for my confession too…
Even someone as dense as me, someone who claimed to have no interest in women and only focused on training, could tell now.
That Rosetta and I thought of each other as special…
I let out a quiet breath.
Then I made up my mind.
Strike while the iron is hot, as they say.
I would tell her right now.
With that decision made, I started walking again.
My destination was Rosetta’s dormitory room.
I followed the corridor until I finally stopped in front of her door.
The moment I raised my hand to knock…
A faint thud came from inside the room.
“Haaah❤️! Hiiik❤️! I’m breaking❤️! My pussy’s breaking❤️! Kuuuugh❤️!”
Huh…?
“Hooook❤️! Hook❤️! My womb’s getting destroyed❤️! Save meeee❤️!”
Thwack! Thwack! Thwack! Thwack!
…….
“You fucking slut! You horny bitch! I knew it!! After getting fucked a few times, you’re already spreading your legs like a whore!”
“That’s right❤️! I’m a slut❤️! So fuck me harder❤️!! Don’t stop❤️! Haaah❤️!”
“I’m gonna wreck that cunt today, so look forward to it!”
Thwack! Thwack! Thwack! Thwack!
Splurt! Spluuurt!
I gathered my mana.
The door in front of me grew blurry, and the scene inside the room became completely visible.
Her once bright red eyes were now hazy and clouded over with white.
Her mouth, which used to speak shyly, was drooling thick semen while her tongue hung out like a whore’s.
Her naked body—for the first time I was seeing it—was covered in bite marks and bruises. There wasn’t a single clean spot left.
Thrust! Thrust!
Every time the dark-skinned man bucked his hips, her belly bulged obscenely, the shape of his cock clearly visible.
Her body trembled violently each time she was pierced, squirting a violent mix of love juices and semen from her pussy.
“Ughk❤️! Ughk❤️! Uuuughk❤️!”
The sounds coming from her mouth could no longer even be called moans.
“……”
Who was that man?
I had never seen his face before.
Probably a second- or third-year senior.
But did that even matter right now?
Whoever he was, whatever kind of person he was—did any of that still hold meaning?
I slowly took a step back from the door.
In the relationship between those two, I was nothing more than an outsider with no right to interfere.
Yeah.
I should leave.
Whether I went back to the training grounds to swing my sword or returned to the dormitory to sleep early, there was nothing I could do anyway.
But my feet wouldn’t move.
Even though I told myself I had to leave, my body remained rooted to the spot as if nailed to the floor.
“……”
I blankly looked down.
And froze.
My crotch was bulging obscenely.
“What the hell…”
My voice trembled.
I was watching the girl I liked being taken by another man.
In that case, I should have felt anger, pain, or sadness.
So why was I reacting like this?
My heart began pounding wildly.
Thump. Thump. Thump.
Along with the heartbeat ringing in my ears, my mind grew hotter and hotter.
Driven by a bizarre impulse, I bit my lip without realizing it.
“Ughk❤️! Huuughk❤️! Huuuuuuaaaahk❤️! Hahk❤️!”
Spluuurt!! Spluuurt!!
Before I knew it, I had pulled down my pants.
I grabbed my painfully swollen, blood-red cock and began stroking it mindlessly.
My eyes stayed fixed on the two beasts mating inside the room as I gradually increased the speed of my hand.
Slap! Slap! Slap!
I stroked furiously, not blinking once, burning their figures into my mind.
That wasn’t a person.
It was a beast.
That was why they were mating like that.
“Haa…! Haa!”
My breathing grew ragged.
Something was rising from my groin.
“Uuu!!”
With a sudden surge, semen erupted from my cock.
“Haa! Haa!”
“My… You really came a lot, didn’t you?”
I looked around in a daze.
“Feeling a little clearer now?”
“You are… Lucretia?”
“Was the illusion a bit too strong? Of course, most of it was reconstructed from your own memories of the past. There may be some discrepancies if your memories differ from reality… but most of it should match.”
“What is this…”
When I came to my senses, I was sitting naked on a chair back in her workshop.
She was stroking my cock.
She pulled her hand away and collected the semen I had just ejaculated into a long glass vial.
“Could you wipe yourself with the cloth next to you and get dressed? It was hard enough getting your clothes off. I don’t want to have to put them back on you.”
“Ah… Yes.”
My face burned with embarrassment as I quickly put my clothes back on.
She approached my still-dazed self and offered me a cup of black tea.
The warm tea helped calm my racing heart a little.
“I’m sorry for suddenly showing you that illusion. But I needed your direct reaction to understand it accurately… Well, missing out on love when you’re young is an experience too, I suppose.”
“An experience… Haha… Yes, I suppose so. It doesn’t bother me much now.”
At the time, it had been an enormous shock.
But I was different now.
I had two lovers I cherished.
And not just any women—the very two who had been the objects of every male student’s desire back at the academy…
When I first told Luke we were dating, his reaction still made me laugh whenever I remembered it.
He had jumped up, face full of disbelief.
Especially after all the vulgar things he had said about them in front of me.
From his perspective, the girls he had been lusting after had become his best friend’s lovers.
That was why the way his face had gone deathly pale was still burned clearly into my memory.
Honestly, watching that expression had been pretty entertaining.
“Hmm… But in my memory, I just went back to the dormitory that day. I didn’t masturbate in front of the door or anything.”
“I see. For now, it does seem that coming into contact with the Apostle of the Abyss has given you a fetish for voyeurism. That influenced the illusion I showed you… But is that really all?”
I suddenly fell silent.
NTR.
I didn’t want to say it.
What kind of man could proudly admit to having such a pathetic sexual preference—getting aroused by the idea of his own lover being taken by another man?
I couldn’t.
“Yes.”
“Alright. There are several ways to deal with it, but the best one is to satisfy the urge.”
“Satisfy it?”
She nodded.
“If you satisfy your sexual impulses related to voyeurism, it should ease the symptoms somewhat.”
“What if… I just endure it?”
“Then the remnants of the old god inside you will gradually erode your mind. It will grow stronger in the process. And eventually, you will become a sacrifice.”
“A sacrifice…”
My face hardened.
“Of course, it won’t be enough to resurrect the entity with just you. But regardless, your mind could collapse. So don’t forget that you need to relieve it regularly.”
“Is there any other method?”
“Not at the moment. I’ll need to do more research using the semen you provided. Come see me again the next time you visit this city. Maybe in about six months?”
“Six months… Understood. If I leave it alone, how long can my mind hold out?”
“Let’s see. At least two years, I’d say.”
“Two years…”
I stood up from my seat.
“Is that really everything?”
Lucretia asked once more.
I answered with a nod.
For now, I decided to satisfy the voyeuristic urges while waiting for her research.
In two years, perhaps she would find some kind of clue…
“Ah! About the payment…”
“Don’t worry. I’ve received such valuable research material. I won’t ask for money on top of that. However, when you visit again, you must tell me honestly about any changes or your physical condition.”
“Understood. Then…”
And so I left the workshop.
When I returned to our lodging, I carefully slipped into bed without waking the two women who were already asleep.
My mind remained complicated for a while…
But soon the soft comfort of the bed pulled me into sleep.