Chapter 38
Chapter 38
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Translator: penny
Chapter: 38
Chapter Title: Please Stop Hitting Me...
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Stop hitting me...
A proper orphan doesn't reach for the marshmallow right in front of them.
Of course, it's not to wait fifteen minutes and get an extra one.
These kinds of snacks were all reserved for the older kids anyway.
When thirty marshmallows were handed out to thirty kids at Incheon Orphanage, somehow twenty-five ended up with nothing—a miraculous bit of math.
Regardless of the process, the lesson learned was the same.
Take the easy path right in front of you, and all you'll get are bruises.
So, out of the two choices given to me, I opted for the lesser evil.
"...Hello, everyone."
[Another bell rush?]
[Yeah, try 100 times, it'll connect 100 times lol]
[You here? If you are, leave]
[Seo-ha, what was that important announcement from yesterday???]
[Please just bell rush 5 times and start streaming already...]
- WWUUWWU1333 donated 1,000 won!
[Seo-ha ^^ you gotta see this lololol]
- 본방키고보자 donated 1,000 won!
[No crazy show today? Do it, you have to do it lolololololol]
Getting roasted by my viewers was an inevitable future anyway.
I'd be forced to witness all sorts of reactions from other streamers.
What if I timed my stream to match the boss lady's collab?
Then I'd have to watch those videos alongside her—a total disaster.
So I turned it on early today.
To take my beating alone...
"Ahem. Not a bell rush this time. I'm actually starting the stream."
[Bullshit???]
[Do this and bell rush for real and you're dead]
[So what was yesterday's important announcement]
[What announcement did she even make??]
[Zero trust, zero trust]
[99% chance she dips suddenly]
"I'm serious. You know... I was thinking last night before bed, and it hit me how grateful I am to all of you who come watch a nobody like me."
[?????]
[lolololololololololololololol]
[Total bullshit]
[More nonsense lololololololol]
[What kinda crap is she building up to???]
[Zero soul in her words lololol]
Dealing with people is just way too hard.
They don't even recognize my heartfelt sincerity?
I'm definitely not sucking up just to get lightly beaten.
- WWUUWWU1333 donated 1,000 won!
[Did this bitch catch on?]
"...I've trusted you all. The things that happen in my stream are our precious memories. I never thought you'd leak them outside..."
[Oh, that's why she suddenly got all meek lololololololololol]
[How'd she find out lolololol]
[Who said to save replays?? lolololololol]
[Another bait?... Let us laugh together plz]
[@#$%^&* you bastards, what was yesterday's important announcement!!! @#$%^&*]
[Well, that is...]
[You don't know?? Hmm, too early to tell...]
My voice trembled without me realizing.
Since it's my first time doing this, I hadn't considered my antics spreading to other streamers.
How far did it go? One person? Two?
If my viewers felt even a shred of affection for me, they wouldn't have spread it to dozens of streamers.
I'll call this mutual trust.
- asqqdf1111 donated 1,000 won!
[Info. Last night till dawn, her crazy show and GOA talk clips got spread like wildfire to every corner.]
[lolololololololololololol]
[Ssamjang and Salman's reactions were legit gold lolololol]
[You got replays on?? lololol]
[It's off fml turn it on now]
"Everyone. Even if I ask you not to mention it, you won't listen, right?"
[Why even ask the obvious??]
[Turn on cam and I'll behave]
[Agreed, cam on and no trolling]
[Shut up and play the replays already!!!!!]
[Guys plz, can someone tell me what the important announcement was]
[Announcement: Mastered chopsticks]
[No bullshit, someone actually tell me...]
Getting beaten doesn't change anyway.
So how would a pro handle this?
"Yeah... I didn't expect anything anyway. I'll play the video donations today... just for today."
[Kya lololololololol]
[This is it lololol you're so fked lolololololol]
[GoD]
[lololololololololol]
[How does she stream 3 days and every one is pure dopamine?? lololololololol]
"But replays start at 5,000 won. If I set it too low, you'll spam forever."
The answer is to at least rake in some cash.
Gotta soothe my shattered mentality with some financial therapy...
Even after setting it to a full meal's worth, the chat's heat showed no signs of cooling.
What's so great about trolling me that they're all united in passion??
Honestly, I wanted to close my eyes and ears, but since it's directly about me, curiosity was inevitable.
In the end, I'm doomed to watch every reaction.
- WWUUWWU1333 video donation!
The long-awaited first donation barrage began.
True to my word, I clicked and played the video.
My eyes fixed on it...
A groan escaped me unwittingly.
The streamer in the video was someone familiar.
"Why... him of all people...?"
A first-gen pro gamer, a legend who'd lifted a real trophy during the official league days...
Now a retired gamer doing beginner tutorials.
Currently streaming as Ssamjang, once at the absolute peak.
(Fun fact: I practiced Triachia watching his videos back when I was a noob.)
No wonder he's familiar.
- Thanks for the replay donation! What's this? Who is it? Oh, that rank 7 player?? Yeah I know her, newbies are rare in this scene. A streamer huh?
"Stop..."
- Screen's kinda glitchy? Why so colorful? Uh, this okay to play? Gonna play it.
I know that thumbnail all too well.
The day I belted out songs at the top of my lungs.
But if it's this clip, maybe it's not so bad?
I do go off-key a lot, but I'm not a total tone-deaf disaster.
- O! Voice? It's a girl, holy—...?!
"Huh?"
It should've been a pleasant voice, but the horrific singing shredded any sense of beauty.
For the first time, I heard a recording of my own singing.
I sing this badly...?
- Wait, isn't this Triachia streamer?! Huh? She did this on her very first stream? Ant hair removal?? What the hell...?
"This is malicious editing! I don't sing like that!!"
[The crazy part is that's the raw footage...]
[No wonder he's peak talent;; How'd he survive that?? Respect...]
[Wtf]
[Hold up PTSD kicking in lololololololol]
[Must be torture lololololololol]
- Wow hold on, sorry to this lady but... too painful to keep listening. Closing it. Wow...
"Ugh...!"
Seeing my Triachia mentor in my heart genuinely baffled crushed me with embarrassment.
A torrent of curses flooded my mind.
I wanted to bash my head against the wall.
- Huh? Another video donation? From... same person.
"Stop it! Just stop...!"
In one minute flat, my mentality turned to dust.
I dreaded watching more.
All I could do was powerlessly watch my antics play out.
Like a sci-fi hero desperate to stop his past self from leaving his daughter.
This is...
Hell.
- Replay title looks sus... GOA match? Hmm, watching, closing if it's bad.
Thud! I slammed my head on the desk.
My clenched fist trembled.
The horrific part... that video wasn't live—it was already in the past.
Stopping it now wouldn't erase what happened.
- Hey hey hey! Jam! The convo, no! Minseong lost it, pfft, hold on! Dude you can't laugh at this!!
Jam, who'd been holding back laughs while following the chat,
finally broke at the combo of 'Orphans Don't Laugh Easy,' 'Pure Orphan,' and 'GOA—T.'
- Khkhk...!! How does anyone hold this in...!!! Guys, I'm not that guy! Don't send me to hell!! You laughed too!!
"Ah..."
- The real villain here is whoever sent this replay. Damn, almost died laughing at my age. Who? Nickname... 'Seo-ha Broth'?
"It was you! Gotcha you bastard!!"
They'd donated plenty before, so I'd only chat-banned instead of full permaban.
But today, that's over.
You're perma-banned.
- Seo-ha Broth donated 500,000 won!
[I'm innocent. I just wanted to share Seo-ha's charm with others...]
My finger, heading for permaban, halted before 500k.
...Even without this guy, someone else would've leaked my clips anyway, right?
No. Still too infuriating.
The temptation of cash faded as sanity returned.
In the end, a compromise: 24-hour temp ban.
Want the real stream? Log out and watch. No donations for you today.
And so I got pummeled for hours.
Assuming viewers care a bit, they didn't go beyond ten people, right?
Those villains spread clips to at least dozens.
One conclusion reached.
My first impression is beyond repair. Labeled a freak in the Soft scene.
"You've all crossed the line. You'll regret today."
[Ooh blackening ooh]
[Fml this feels ominous]
[Going dark lololololololol]
[Seo-ha plz let's make up?? ^^;;]
[We're screwed]
Embarrassment piled up until it crossed into pitch-black emotion.
World hates me for no reason?
Fine, I'll give them real reasons to hate.
Public image already trashed—no more to lose.
I'll show 'em the scariest thing: someone with nothing left to lose.
"Was gonna quit the crazy show, but since I'm already at rock bottom, making it regular content. Clips? Spread 'em. I got no backup now...!!"
[Hey hey hey hey!!!!!]
[Wait plz]
[Our bad plz]
[Not just me?? Her crazy show's kinda cute] - Banned viewer.
[Sing more!! Taking nursery rhyme requests?? Would be adorably cringy lol] - Banned viewer.
[You broth-loving bastards what'd we do???]
"Let's go all the way... Replays off now, till boss lady comes, how about some songs?"
[Bb 30 min till she arrives]
[Run awaaaaaay!!!]
[Emergency alert@@@@!!!!!!]
[Yeah sing your heart out lolol already used to replays from hell go]
[Kya lololol this is it lololol]
[Plz nursery rhymes plz!! Three Bears gogogogo] - Banned viewer.
[You mad?? Her singing is structurally impossible to get used to]
[Pure bliss lol]
"FYI, endure this song, and I'll drop the real important announcement. Decided future streams. So... you'll stick till the end, right?"
[A....................]
[Hostage situation perfect...]
[Fml]
[Was about to leave but nape grabbed...]
"I'll announce mid-song, so muting won't help. Crank that volume."
No one can stop me now.
Image already set—might as well commit.
Daily antics and folks'll get used to it.
No more embarrassment then.
If viewers had been kinder, I wouldn't be like this.
Remember—you made me this way.
- WWUUWWU1333 donated 1,000 won!
[What you doing bitch... sing already.......... ha....]