Chapter 109
Chapter 109
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Translator: MadScientist
Chapter: 109
Chapter Title: Honestly, It's Scary
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A familiar ceiling.
There was still some sedative lingering in my body, leaving me in a total daze.
Like glass walls had been erected around the ups and downs of my emotions, fear, pain, and sadness couldn't take root—they just sank quietly back into the ripples.
In the midst of it all, what caught my eye was Dad, who had been so worried about me, Seol-yun, and one empty spot where someone should have been.
This was the kind of scene where you're supposed to feel sad, but with my emotions stripped away, it was fine.
It wasn't until I slept deeply one more time and woke up that everything started functioning normally again.
I was struck anew by the realization that human emotions can be controlled so easily with drugs.
A life like a bonsai tree on a bed, stripped of all emotion by medication—how different is it from a life passionately striving for something?
When you think about the vastness of the universe and the tininess of humans, maybe there's hardly any real difference between the two.
"Sis, your hands are freezing."
The most primal method—Seol-yun gripped my hand tightly, sharing her body heat to warm mine.
"You didn't go to school today either? You're turning into a total delinquent."
"It's Saturday today, Sis."
"Oh, right?"
Dad must have gone to work even on a Saturday.
I smiled faintly.
It's true that people can't do anything in front of a gun, but it's kind of funny how guns in particular make us feel fear.
Most people in the world could kill me easily.
With tools, or even bare-handed.
That's how weak and small I am.
A fragile life that could end if someone just twisted my neck.
So this world must be built on goodwill and trust.
It's nothing grand.
Without the belief that you won't harm me and I won't harm you, nothing could even begin.
Not even sending a kid to kindergarten or leaving them at school.
What if the kid gets murdered at kindergarten...
Sometimes this world feels terrifyingly precarious to me.
Like one little misalignment and everything comes crashing down.
All the values I've believed in could flip overnight.
That's why it's a world where it's hard to love anything fully.
"I stripped off my clothes while the stream was still on, didn't I?"
It's not like I suddenly developed some weird exhibitionist streak.
I tore off everything pressing down on my chest just to breathe, to survive.
Some of it was clothes, some was those silicone fake boobs.
Did I even take it all off completely?
I should have left at least a piece on.
Otherwise, it'd violate exposure rules and get banned.
If I get banned...
Even without a ban, I probably can't stream anymore anyway.
Now the whole world knows I'm a liar.
"It's all out in the open. Everything was a lie."
Everyone will point fingers at me, curse me, and stop watching.
Nothing special about it.
Just back to the lonely days before I started streaming.
"They say there's nothing wrong with your body, so you can be discharged right away. Want to go grab something delicious together?"
With Seol-yun here, I feel so much more at ease than when I'm alone.
My reliable little sister, so much bigger and stronger than me.
We stopped at a decent restaurant and grilled some beef.
In a private room where we wouldn't run into anyone else.
She offered first, so I had a glass of booze too.
I'm not an alcoholic.
It's just sweet.
If I hadn't done something so stupid from the start, there wouldn't have been any problem.
Why did I do that idiotic thing?
Choose to show a fake version of myself.
I just shouldn't have shown it at all.
I always create my own problems, don't I?
I want to run away.
"Seol-yun. When I apologize, will you stand behind me? It's too scary to do it alone."
"Doesn't have to be behind. Next to me is fine. Even in front."
"Thanks."
But I won't make you stand in for me.
◇◇◇◆◇◇◇ How does she keep causing incidents so frequently?
This time, Jeon Jeonseol had pulled off a collaboration of two shocking events.
One was that she was a PTSD patient who had panic attacks just from watching anime.
The other was that her supposedly explosive gaming skills were actually fake.
At the time of the incident, the situation was so dire that few people made an issue of it.
The heavy atmosphere made it hard to allow any jokes, mockery, or questions.
— ㅇㅇ Wasn't that cosplay fake tits???? — ㅇㅇ Isn't this fraud? ↳ Reply Read the room, she's about to die ↳ Reply This psycho values tits over human life? — Reply Fr, total psychopath But after the manager posted an update saying she'd been safely hospitalized in her place and there were no major issues.
People started seriously debating the scam.
— ㅇㅇ Isn't this deceiving viewers? — ㅇㅇ How'd she fool everyone like that ↳ Reply She seems to have PTSD from stalking, so disguising makes sense, I get it ↳ Reply She just likes disguising tho? ↳ Reply Fuck, does being sick mean you can lie to people? ↳ Reply What'd you lose getting fooled??? You enjoyed it too ↳ Reply Fr lol — ㅇㅇ This is the victory of the surviving flat chests lol ↳ Reply They're flat — ㅇㅇ You were total chopping board ↳ Reply Chop chop chop chop chop ↳ Reply ? What you typing? ↳ Reply Sound of chopping ingredients on the board ↳ Reply Nah ↳ Reply ? — ㅇㅇ I said those height and tits don't add up lololol — ㅇㅇ No such thing as loli bigtits in reality ↳ Reply Yeah we all know you got totally duped ↳ Reply That panting during cam kills? Same girl... — Reply IP just happened to match, different person — ㅇㅇ Lolololol The logic of the condemnors: She lied, so it's wrong.
The logic of the defenders: She's a patient, so it's understandable.
If she were a celebrity, survival would be tough, but internet streaming ethics were pretty lax compared to TV or film folks.
After all, wasn't this the scene where "pure fun, if it's entertaining that's enough" vibes started?
⭐ Top Comment — ㅇㅇ The real reason Legend had to disguise .fact (Clip of stream where she almost got shot and killed) (Clip of panic attack from watching anime) This mystery that's lingered forever got cleared up by this incident Legend got shot by a stalker, nearly died but survived That's why she became a hikikomori and always defensive on stream (Article about streamer murdered by stalker) Can we really curse Legend just for faking her boob size in a situation like this? We should curse the stalker, not the victim. That's ridiculous Long shield posts like this kept popping up periodically across communities.
A few desperate fans were fired up, dying to defend her.
And people aren't as sharp-edged or lacking in empathy as Seol-a imagines.
It's just that a vocal minority of perpetually angry folks make it seem that way because they're so loud.
— ㅇㅇ No, the ones who got fooled are at fault lol — ㅇㅇ Our Legend sis did nothing wrong! (AI-retouched cam screenshot turning her chest into a cliff) ↳ Reply Seeing her face, suddenly feels innocent ↳ Reply She did nothing wrong lol ↳ Reply Agreed — ㅇㅇ She's pretty so we forgive? — ㅇㅇ Flat actually suits her more — ㅇㅇ But if tits fake, face prob makeup magic too? ↳ Reply If you got skills to makeup like that, share pls ↳ Reply Can hikikomori otaku shut-in Legend really do makeup well? Some said forgive her because she's pretty.
Not sure if that'll play positively in public opinion.
But regardless, it's a proven fact from numerous studies that better looks mean lighter punishments.
⚙ SYSTEM NOTIFICATION ⚙ [Jeon Jeonseol has started broadcasting.] [Sorry.] The evening after the incident, the stream went live.
It was such a huge deal that people flooded in from other platforms—even those who never watched internet streams.
Viewers climbed to 50k, 100k, even a whopping 150k.
Everyone swarming in from all over for the news.
Ten minutes after start, the screen—which had only "[Sorry.]" like the title—finally switched to cam view.
Striking blue hair that popped right out.
Yeah, now people got it.
The hair she'd shown all this time was always a wig too.
And probably that one as well.
The girl in a black suit and pants.
She bowed deeply at the waist.
"I'm truly sorry for deceiving all you viewers until now. Showing my real self in front of so many people was terrifying, and it still is. It might sound like an excuse, but I never thought to gain more popularity or attention from it. I'll take responsibility by retiring from streaming, and all donations will be fully refunded. Sorry once again."
⚙ SYSTEM NOTIFICATION ⚙ [Broadcast has ended.] Gather everyone, say her piece, then bitch-run!
No, check if viewers are actually mad!
They said it's fine cuz it was fun and she's pretty!
But Seol-a lacked the courage to look at public opinion or chat, so she just bitch-ran!
— Viewer Why quit streaming all sudden — Viewer Nuwa don't go nuwa don't go nuwa don't go — Viewer Public opinion's this good, what did she even see — Viewer Bet she didn't read a single chat line, stake my hand — Viewer Fuckin coward bird — Viewer Scaredy cat lololololol — Viewer Legend! I love you even if you're flat!!! — Viewer Legal loli, better for flat chest gang, upvote lolololol