Ban-cam First! A VTuber Life Begun in Reverse
This was bad. My heart was pounding at the face in the mirror... This wasn't narcissism, was it?
I traced my features with my hands. Was this really me? The sensation against my skin was vivid, alive... It was real.
I looked down, and a pair of enormous breasts filled my entire field of view.
"Whoa."
Huge. Huge, and the shape is gorgeous.
Just how big were they? I couldn't see my stomach. I couldn't even see my toes.
The moment my trembling hands touched my chest—
"Nnh...♡"
The moan that slipped out of me was so obscene I clapped a hand over my mouth on pure reflex.
What? What is this? What the hell is this?!
I was completely thrown. I may have been a lifelong virgin, but I'd heard that no woman got off this hard just from having her breasts kneaded. It felt so good that pleasant goosebumps raced over my skin. Sparks, everywhere.
"Mmph... haah. Ah..."
My voice. It's insanely lewd...
Admiring her own body. Getting turned on by her own voice. Feeling it while she kneaded her own breasts. There in the mirror stood a stone-cold pervert of a virgin.
"Nnh...?!"
No. The instant I thought pervert, I felt it even harder. At this point I was an undeniable, certified degenerate, wasn't I? Was this a side effect of becoming a succubus? Why was this body so sensitive?!
『Well, lust occupies an enormous share of the human unconscious.』
『I told you, didn't I? A dream demon is formed exactly as humans imagine her—shaped from human desire.』
"Lil...ithhh."
『Just as you wished... you've been given a body that's devastatingly obscene. So enjoy it.』
"That's... nnh. Haahk!"
A dizzying pleasure I'd never felt before washed my mind blank. My head insisted I had to take my hands away, but my hands refused to stop. Soft and yielding, and yet dense with a tight, springy weight all at once... These breasts were genuinely unreal. And as a bonus, even a little kneading set the dopamine detonating.
A trickle... Something warm and lukewarm slid down my thigh from below.
"?!??"
That unfamiliar sensation! A chill shot straight up my spine. If my chest alone felt this good, then down there...
『What are you hesitating for? You've been given the finest flesh there is. You ought to enjoy it to your heart's content.』
"G-go away!"
I snapped from sheer embarrassment, but I couldn't shake the temptation. In the end I staggered out of the bathroom on unsteady, awkward legs and lay down on the bed.
"Haah... haah..."
This is insane. The first thing I do after turning into a woman is masturbate. I'm so ashamed...
I bit down hard on my lip. My dignity as a human being. My pride as a man. All of it wasn't merely shattered—it was ground to powder and scattering on the wind. But this whimpering, aching body was chewing through my patience in real time. Heated like a live volcano, it nagged me to hurry up and taste that thick, filthy pleasure.
"Ha. Fuck."
Admitting defeat to nothing more than lust, I brought my pale, slender fingers down between my legs. What should have been standing tall was gone. An empty, hollow place. My fingers met a pretty, neatly split slit.
"....?!!"
I clapped my other hand over my mouth in a panic. Flesh soaked slick with warm, lukewarm arousal. The texture under my fingertips was unbelievably soft, quivering, alive. A feeling I wanted to keep touching. And a pleasure that stole my breath.
schlk... squelch♡ slick, schlp!
A pussy. So this is a pussy. I love it... it feels...! insane.
This was a woman's pleasure? No—a succubus's? Impossible. Even drugs wouldn't do this.
schlup! schlrrk... squelch! schlp!
"Nngh...! Aht♡ Ah, f-fuck... haahk!"
My fingers wouldn't stop. My hips jerked beyond my will, bucking on their own. Pleasure climbed from the tips of my toes to the crown of my head, crystallized, and spilled in streams from the corners of my eyes.
pssht!
"Nnghk!!"
I came. Again, and again. Arousal burst out of me like a mechanical water gun and splattered all the way to the wall. My heart... my heart hurt. The top of my head hurt too.
schlick-schlick! squelch! shlk, squish! schlup!
I couldn't even moan, could barely breathe, and still my fingers worked. At some point I'd moved my tail without realizing it; it wound tight around my waist and my breasts. Everywhere it touched, my skin seemed to grow unbearably sensitive.
pssht! psshhhh!
"Hahh... hnnnnghhh!!"
A climax I could no longer count. Orgasm. Feeling my pussy clamp down vise-tight around my fingers, I went limp and blacked out where I lay.
Had I fainted? I wasn't sure. I remembered a thin, ringing tinnitus in my ears, and that was all. My body was still hot. The sweat was still all over me. It probably hadn't been that long.
"Haaaah... I'm seriously insane. This body is no joke."
I didn't want to move so much as a finger. I wanted to stay sprawled just like this, sunk deep in the pleasant afterglow. But I was far too hungry. I had to get something in me. I forced myself upright—and collapsed right back down. My head was spinning. Just how hard, and how many times, had I come?
『Fourteen. Congratulations on the new record.』
"Don't tell me things like that! And don't congratulate me either!"
I flared, but Lilith only giggled and let it pass. Once I'd endured the humiliation—if that's what it was—and caught my breath, the state of things finally sank in. The blanket was ruined. So were the sheets. The floor and the wall were wet. The room was so thick with the smell of sex it was hard to breathe. First things first, I threw the window wide to air the place out.
"Ah...!"
Sunset. The sun was going down, scattering a beautiful orange light. That light passed through the clouds and spun the sky into colors even richer—
『Someone walking by is going to see your breasts.』
"?!??"
I'd been staring, spellbound, at the view. I yanked myself back from the window at once, and with my face burning red I rushed to clean up. I wiped the wall and the floor, threw the laundry in the washer, and took a shower.
"....."
Just one more time?
The fact that I got carried away while washing myself with body wash, got worked up, and masturbated again is a secret.
A body so lewd it was frightening. If I didn't build some patience and self-control, I was going to spend entire days doing nothing but touching myself. That couldn't happen. There was so much I'd wanted to do. This eyesight was a miracle. I refused to sink into some vulgar woman who devoted every day to getting herself off.
『Hmm? Didn't you masturbate all day even when you were a man?』
"Th-that was because there wasn't much else I could do back then! Are you going to keep teasing me?"
『What am I supposed to do when your reactions are this entertaining?』
"Argh."
I couldn't even talk back to the person who'd saved me. Seriously. Grumbling on the inside, I finished getting a meal together in a hurry. Being able to see the ingredients while I cooked really did make it much faster and easier. The colors were pretty, too.
I ate the humble spread and turned over what I was going to do next.
"If I want to be a voice actor, first I enroll at a voice-acting academy..."
『Ha! A bird, trying to learn how to fly from humans.』
"Pardon?"
『Human knowledge and technique are only useful to humans.』
『For instance... to produce a clean high note, humans train all sorts of methods, don't they?』
『But you, a succubus, don't. You simply change the structure of your vocal cords, and you're done.』
"Change the structure of my vocal cords?"
『I've said it more than once. A dream demon can transform at will.』
『Altering only part of the body is even easier.』
『Not just the vocal cords. The structure of your lungs, your nasal cavity, the shape and length of your tongue, the density of your bones—』
『You can knead all of it however you please.』
"......"
What even was that? Completely broken. At this point, even a con artist serving ten years for fraud would grimace, shake their head, and mutter, Ah... yeah, this is a bit much.
Then the voice-acting academy goes on hold for now...
If it were up to me, I wanted to walk the orthodox path—enroll at an academy, pass the open audition, sign a two-year exclusive contract—and become an official voice actor. If only time and money would allow it. My account balance was 1,973,620 won. I needed to start looking for part-time work immediately.
『That's right. You're no longer registered on the national network as a visually impaired man. You're registered as a woman with two perfectly good eyes.』
『They won't throw you out of this public rental housing right away. But the support payments and subsidies? Those are going to be cut clean off.』
"....."
I had to make money as fast as humanly possible.
If I'm going to get a part-time job, I'll need clothes first. Nothing I own fits.
A VTuber stream is out of the question, right? I'd need a good computer too... I hear people use two monitors.
An expensive microphone, an audio interface, all the software, a boom arm, a pop filter... Oh, right! I'd need a soundproof booth too.
And a VTuber avatar burns hundreds of thousands of won, millions, without even blinking...
Money, money, money. Whatever I did, it all came down to money.
『Couldn't you just ask your parents?』
That, I won't do. Absolutely not.
Raising a child who isn't ordinary is no easy thing. My parents had already sacrificed more than enough—far more. The reason I lived on my own in this public rental unit was that I didn't want them bound to me any longer. I was an adult now. It was time for them to live their own lives, and to prepare for their old age.
『There's a saying, isn't there—earn it, then pay it back. Make the money streaming and repay them.』
I said no. I was perfectly clear.
『So stubborn!』
It had taken more than half a year to persuade them to let me move out. No parent ever wins against their child; in the end they'd given in and allowed it. If I held my hand out now, they would certainly decide I was still a child they had to look after. I hated that.
『Then there's only one answer.』
"Yes. It's the only way."
『You do OnlyFans.』
"A ban-cam stream on my phone—excuse me?! What fans??"
『OnlyFans! Upload videos of you masturbating and everyone will throw money at you. We buy the equipment with that.』
"What the— are you out of your mind?!"
I was so flustered my voice shot up before I could stop it.
Thump. Thump. Thump!
The neighbor banged on the wall. A demand for quiet. Public rental housing was bad for noise between floors, and just as bad for noise through the walls. Our unit wasn't quite that extreme, but there were homes where you could hold a conversation with the people next door straight through the—
Huh?
Wait. Noise through the walls?
I felt the blood drain out of my whole body in one cold rush. I... I had spent the entire day moaning and masturbating!
『Let's go collect from the neighbors. We treated them to a lovely sound. We ought to be paid.』
Please, I'm begging you, stop saying insane things!!
I screamed it without a sound, then opened the door just in case. Sure enough, notes were plastered all over the front door.
"....."
What the hell is wrong with whoever wrote the bottom one.
I was mortified. I wanted to just drop dead on the spot.
『What's a code?』
Please. Just for this one moment, be quiet. I'm begging you.
I peeled the notes off and crumpled them into tight little balls, choking on self-loathing.
I swear. I'm going to make money, and I'm going to move somewhere with no noise through the floors and no noise through the walls.
The first step toward a grand dream. And it would begin with a ban-cam stream, filmed on nothing but a phone.