No Time for Half-Hearted Apologies (4)
I didn't have time to listen to apologies like that. Yeah, fuck it. The hymen was already broken, and there's no turning that back. For now, I'd enjoy it and worry about the consequences later. Nothing's more pathetic than regretting something after you've already done it. If you can't avoid it, enjoy it—that's the saying. Besides, to calm this body down, I'd have to creampie her and use Rabbit Hole just like I did with Ska. Thinking of it that way made Lapis feel like a tool to soothe my body... kinda weird.
If the one impaled on my dick right now had been the usual Lapis Julie, I wouldn't have felt this guilt-like emotion. But the Lapis currently clinging to me like a cicada, her breath hot with pleasure, wasn't her normal self.
"S-Sunbae♡ I wuv you so much♡ Your warm sweat smell is so good too♡ I wuv how your dick pokes my womb so deep♡ It's my first time♡ But it's my first time, I shouldn't feew this good♡ I wuv you, Sunbae♡"
With a voice overflowing with aegyo to the point of bursting, she kept confessing her true feelings nonstop. Before I knew it, her lips were pressing kisses all over my upper chest—smack, smack. Honestly, she was fucking adorable. Could you believe this was the same bitch who started every day at work with something like, "Seeing sunbae's face first thing in the morning? Guess my day's off to a shitty start as usual. Unlike sunbae, who must be thrilled to see me right from the start"?
Even back when I didn't know the Hypnosis App was fake, Lapis would switch modes under hypnosis, acting cute and serving me. But her "cuteness" then was just linking arms, nuzzling my shoulder, or a bit of a childish lisp. Nothing like this—overwhelmed with love, practically desperate. And I hadn't even ordered her to serve me this time. Everything she was doing right now was her pure, unadulterated heart, with no excuses.
......Damn it.
The first thing Lapis said when she arrived and saw me was, "I'm sorry, sunbae." I cut her off before she could explain what for or how sorry she was, but I could tell her apology was genuine. I'd never seen that expression on her before—watching me nervously, her clenched fists trembling, dry lips confessing her mistake. Anyone could see it was sincere remorse.
She'd gone out dressed in a pretty dress I'd never seen before, to have dinner with her officially engaged fiancé. We ran into each other by chance, I congratulated her, and we parted ways. What the hell happened after that to make her come apologize to me so earnestly? No idea.
"Hoo...."
But right now, that didn't matter. What mattered was that Lapis had apologized to me sincerely. I gave an order to the Lapis who was nuzzling her nose into my neck and licking my collarbone with her tongue.
"Lapis, lift your head and look at me."
"Hauu♡ Nng? Y-Yes? Why, Sunbae?"
Seeing her raise her head and meet my eyes, blinking wide, I had no choice but to admit it. I didn't want to forgive her. But I did anyway.
Honestly, I'd acted all cool like, "Sure, apologize and I'll let it slide," but I'd worried what if her apology didn't actually melt my resentment? But hearing it, and seeing the fear of rejection deep in her eyes even now... the ice around my feelings for her thawed completely.
Was I too easy? Part of why I could forgive her so readily was because she was drop-dead gorgeous and insanely hot, plus I was dying to fuck her brains out. People change based on the situation, after all.
That said, I wasn't planning to take back the forgiveness once the sex was over and the arousal faded. That'd be too pathetic.
I wrapped one arm tight around Lapis's waist and stroked the back of her head with the other. She was light enough that I could keep thrusting leisurely like this, and my well-trained physique shone in moments like these.
"Hnnng♡"
She shuddered like a cat at the head pat, wrapping her limbs tighter around me. Still gazing up at me with those eyes, I looked back and asked,
"You said you were sorry to me. Was that for real?"
Up close like this, eye-to-eye, you can tell if someone's lying. Untrained people always give some tell. My instincts, honed over 15 years enduring Ska's torment, could read someone like Lapis effortlessly.
She'd say yes, of course. But if it was a lie, I'd knock her out with Rabbit Hole, take what I need, and send her packing.
But if it was sincere remorse and begging forgiveness again...
"Hic...."
"Huh? Eh?"
My thoughts shattered at the sudden choked sob. Looking at me with teary eyes, shoulders shaking—it was like an abandoned puppy. No way, tears already? Just like that, out of nowhere?
First instinct: comfort her. I'd felt it yesterday too—Lapis's tears were pure honey. Tear power wins, for real. Too OP. Would it work this well if I tried it? Maybe test it next time Ska bullies me—get a grip and cry?
I was panicking with weird thoughts like that. She'd been acting babyish earlier, but seeing real tears streaming down now, it felt like her mind had regressed to actual baby mode.
I wiped her tears with the hand that had been stroking her blue hair, whispering gently into her ear as kindly as possible.
"Don't cry. Okay? Cut it out. Lapis, can you tell me why you're crying? What made you so sad?"
Thinking of her as a baby made me talk like one. Might feel patronizing to a 24-year-old woman. I worried for a second if it'd piss her off, but thankfully, her response wasn't cold anger—just more baby talk apology.
"Hiiiing.... S-Sunbae, sowwy.... I was bad.... Sniff. I won't do it again.... Fowgive me...."
Mixed in with her sobs was a heartfelt apology aimed straight at me. She truly regretted it, felt sorry to me from the bottom of her heart. She'd repented.
I couldn't be the type to tell this cute junior begging forgiveness, "Yeah? But if words fixed everything, why do we have cops and laws? I'm not forgiving you. Just fuck off, bitch."
Fine. It was a long, dense grudge, maybe too much for one apology... but it melted anyway. No helping it.
I gave a gentle smile to the teary-eyed Lapis staring up anxiously, helping her calm down. Her tears stopped at my smile, and I seized the moment to press my lips to hers.
Smack.
Startled by the sudden kiss, Lapis's ice-blue eyes went wide. She'd sucked my dick so greedily, kissed with so much slurping... but this surprises her? Fucking adorable.
After enjoying her cute reaction, I ended the light lip-touch kiss. Her tears had already dried.
"Mm.... Chu....♡ H-Huh?"
Instead of tears, she looked confused by the situation. I smiled faintly again and spoke the words to reset our year-long strained relationship.
"Alright, you're forgiven. Not forgiving someone talking that cute would be the real unforgivable thing."
"S-Sunbae.... Nngh♡ Too, too happy! I wuv you!"
Beaming with pure joy, she puckered up and peppered my cheeks with kisses. Smack♡ Smack♡ Smack♡
"Kuh. Ahahaha."
"Sunbae so kind♡ Wanna keep kissing fowevew♡"
Ticklish but pleasant, I chuckled, feeling smug about my magnanimous decision. I was fucking cool, if I do say so myself. Forgiving a year's worth of resentment with one apology? Where else you gonna find a guy this chill? No wonder girls fall hard. Well, not normal girls—bitches with personality issues.... Nah, exclude Lapis since she apologized. The other bitches fell for me.
They were stunning beauties on the outside, every guy's dream partner, so yeah, brag-worthy. If choosing between a life loved by Liar's Trap's female S-rank awakeners or a boring normal one, I'd pick the harem without hesitation, obviously.
Anyway, enough random thoughts. I'd gotten her apology, cleared the resentment—time for proper sex. But before the unavoidable creampie to normalize my body, there was one thing I had to do.
Sorry to reveal it now, but I had to be honest. The reason for creampie sex with Lapis was to heal my body. Using my cute apologizing junior as a treatment tool without telling her? My conscience couldn't take it.
Would've been ideal to say before thrusting in, but my rationality couldn't hold out then. Ska's heat vaporized an F-rank like me's self-control. No time to explain—I just slammed in. Only now, mid-thrust, did I have the mental leeway.
Yeah, late, but we gotta address it. If Lapis hears me out, gets disappointed, and refuses sex? I'd accept it. Sex requires mutual consent. If she changes her mind midway, respect that.
Resolved to accept any reaction, I told the Lapis still slurping kisses on my cheek, refusing to let go, the true purpose of this fuck.
"Hey, Lapis, there's something I need to tell you. About why I suddenly wanted to have sex with you.... Wanna hear it?"
At my question, she planted one last deep kiss on my cheek, pulled back, and nodded vigorously and cutely.
"Chuuu....♡ Yes! Teww me! I'll listen to anything sunbae says!"
"......Thanks. Okay, gotta start from when I had sex with Ska...."
"What? Sex with who?"
Eh?