Chapter 40
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Translator: Ebonarch
Chapter: 40
Chapter Title: Vivian's Taming Journal (5)
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'Bath... bathroom...'
Vivian bit her lip hard as she hurried down the hallway.
The slightest stimulation felt like it would make her burst right then and there.
It was because she'd drunk so much water from the tension ahead of today's sparring class.
In truth, she'd wanted to go since morning, but without Lucia's permission, she couldn't even pee on her own.
Finally, after enduring through two more classes, she'd barely gotten approval to use the bathroom.
'Hurry... hurry...'
She moved at the fastest speed possible without jarring her bladder.
The moment she pushed open the door to the bathroom she'd finally reached, familiar faces came into view.
"...."
It was Yuria's gang.
She wanted to slam the door shut and leave immediately, but they'd already locked eyes with her, and her bladder was at its limit—there was no way she could make it to another bathroom.
In the end, she stepped inside, and Yuria shot her a sharp glare.
—Swoosh
Vivian naturally lowered her gaze.
Memories of getting beaten here flooded back, making her body tremble.
And that wasn't all.
Recently, something had happened.
Lebuzz, who was grinding her teeth right now, hadn't shown it openly, but she suspected Lucia was behind the textbook urination incident in class.
"....."
Yuria looked down at Vivian silently for a moment.
"....Let's go."
And with that, she led her gang past without doing anything.
'Haa...'
Vivian let out a sigh of relief.
But the moment her tension eased, she nearly wet herself.
"Eut...!"
Shaaa—
The instant she flung open a stall door and sat on the toilet, a fierce stream poured out.
"Pair up in twos."
Professor Loreos announced from the center of the training grounds.
...She really hated this, but sparring class had begun.
Everyone started forming pairs, but no one wanted to pair with her.
Lucia's protection only went as far as not outright bullying her.
No one would choose to pair with her here, of all places.
Still, with a faint hope, she glanced at Eugene—only to see Yuria talking to him.
"...So, Eugene, how about pairing with me today?"
As much as she hated to admit it, in Class 5 at least, Yuria matched him best in terms of family background and looks.
'Eut...'
Seeing Eugene slowly reach for Yuria's outstretched hand, she whipped her head away.
There was no need to watch something so obvious and get hurt.
As she inwardly sighed, thinking she'd pair with Professor Loreos again today, an unexpected reply came from behind.
"Sorry, I've already got someone."
And then, approaching footsteps.
Soon, their owner tapped her shoulder.
"Vivian. Wanna pair with me?"
It was Eugene.
"...R-Really? It's okay to pair with me?"
Stupid Vivian...
If only she could speak without stuttering even in moments like this.
"Yeah, I couldn't find anyone else. Oh, have you already paired up?"
But Eugene didn't mind at all and even lied for her sake.
His consideration made her feel so sorry and grateful.
"N-No... No one's with me. Let's do it together. Thank you... for asking me, Eugene..."
"No need to thank me."
Eugene grinned and offered his hand.
She hesitated, unsure if she could take it, but Eugene stepped closer and grabbed hers first.
"We're friends, right?"
Friends...
Could she call him that?
Could someone like her—who'd given up her humanity and become livestock—stand by Eugene's side?
"So, anytime you need help, just say the word."
His voice was so kind that she desperately fought back tears.
"Yeah..."
That evening, for the first time in a while, I was dressed in front of Lucia.
Not that there was no training.
If anything, in terms of torment, this session rivaled the worst so far.
"Uek... uk... euk."
Gags kept bursting out.
Even after swallowing, its size was so pronounced it showed clearly in my throat.
I'd practiced a lot by now, but the sculpture modeled after Master's—Master's Master's cock was just too massive.
"Deeper. Swallow it all."
"Uuk...."
The moment I took it to the hilt, my windpipe compressed, and I couldn't breathe.
"Kk... kkeuk... kkig... euk.."
Grotesque noises leaked from my mouth, my limbs twitching wildly.
I endured with thoughts of just one more second, one more second... pushing to my limit, but that was it.
"Ueeek... hek... hek..."
In the end, I spat out the sculpture like vomit and sucked in air with all my might.
Lucia looked at me and said,
"1 minute 14 seconds... Eh, not bad. But don't think you can pull out like this when Master uses you. If Master wants it, endure even if it kills you."
"...Woof.."
I nodded.
I mustn't delude myself.
I was just a semen receptacle.
Even giving everything I had, I couldn't match a single drop of his seed.
"Now, final prep. You've been emptied already, but better safe than sorry."
What Lucia pulled from her bag was a glass jar the size of two fists combined.
Inside writhed a translucent creature.
"...."
A slime.
A rare magical beast that fed on filth, dead skin, urine, feces, and other waste, turning it into nutrients—harmless to humans.
Especially a blue-tinted one like this, a premium breed rarely seen even in houses like Beatrice.
"Put it in."
As she unscrewed the lid, the slime slithered out.
"...Woof.."
As trained, I got on all fours, pulled my panties halfway down, and exposed my anus.
The slime, now close, extended part of itself like a tentacle and tapped my hole.
Tap, tap, tap.
After a few taps to confirm it was safe, it plunged inside in one go.
"Heugr... gruk... eut...!"
A moan escaped, but there was no pain.
Still, the sensation of something entering through an exit, and it being a monster, sparked an inexplicable terror.
Wriggle— wriggle—
The slime thrashed wildly inside to clean my guts.
"Heut..! Ah..! Uaahga...!"
Nonsense spilled from my mouth with each movement.
Mucus and intestinal fluids mixed with the slime's slime, sending waves of mind-melting sensation.
"...Kkeut.. ugrut...! Haa..."
A while later, done with its task, the slime crawled out and back into the jar on its own.
Creak—
Lucia closed the lid on the slime jar and said,
"This is a gift for you. Well then, Vivian. Shall we go see my Master?"
"..Haa.. haa... Woof..."
Leashed, I followed behind Lucia.
Her footsteps echoed loudly in the empty hallway.
On the spotless floor gleamed my reflection, crawling on all fours like a bitch in heat.
"...Heuk..."
Was it because the end was truly near?
Tears suddenly flowed.
I was scared.
No matter that he was Master's Master.
I didn't want to give myself to another man.
...At least my first time, I wanted to give to the one in my heart.
Eugene's face flickered in my tear-blurred vision.
—So, anytime you need help, just say the word.
'Eugene...'
The moment his face surfaced, my legs grew heavy; I couldn't move anymore.
"...Vivian. What do you think you're doing?"
Lucia spoke sharply as I stopped.
Terror froze my body, but I wiped my tears with my hand and stood on two legs.
"Ha..."
Lucia let out a hollow laugh, more incredulous than angry.
"Vivian. I'll give you one chance. Get down."
Her icy glare nearly burst my tears.
So I kept my eyes down and opened my mouth.
"...No... I won't."
—Slap
Lucia's hand swung after so long.
Still vicious; my mouth burst open, filling with the taste of blood.
"...I... can't do it.."
—Slap
"...S-Sorry.."
—Slap
"Sorry...."
—Slap
After silently slapping my cheeks, Lucia finally stopped and sighed.
"Haa... Vivian. Disappointing me right at the end."
"...I.. really... s-sorry... Lucia..."
I wanted to kneel and beg forgiveness right now.
But...
Still, I didn't want to give my first time to anyone but Eugene.
"Fine. Do as you like. Leave if you want."
My eyes widened.
Words I never expected from Lucia, who I'd thought would never allow it.
"But remember this, Vivian. The moment you leave, as I said at the start, I'll report everything to the academy and your family."
Sadly, I'd anticipated this reaction.
So, steeling myself, I shut my eyes tight and spoke.
"...Th-Then I'll... t-tell them everything that's happened too."
I figured if I reported what she'd done to me, even Lucia couldn't touch me recklessly.
....A truly foolish thought.
"Ahahaha! Vivian? ...Are you threatening me right now?"
After laughing maniacally, Lucia's hand seized my throat in an instant.
"Go on, try it."
"..Khek.. heuk... heuk..."
"You think that pathetic Beatrice family can protect you? A discarded failure, no less?"
Lucia sneered and continued.
"I swear on my name and family. The instant you utter a word about me, I'll destroy your house."
Lucia's words, as the confirmed next head of Ursula, carried the weight of southern law.
"Don't misunderstand. It's not just ruining your family—that's merely the start. I'll crush everything. Grind you down until you're barely clinging to life. And don't think of escaping through death. If you die, next is your sister, then your father, then your cousins—I'll repeat this until every last person bearing the Beatrice name is dead."
With that, Lucia released my throat, flashing her usual smile.
"If you still want to leave after that, I'll respect it. Choose, Vivian. What will you do?"
"....Sorry..."
My knees buckled on their own.
"....Sorry... I'm sorry... I'm sorry.."
My forehead hit the ground.
"I-I... hik... m-must have gone... crazy for a moment... P-Please... forgive me."
I begged desperately.
No matter how precious my feelings were, I couldn't take responsibility for all those lives.
"Haa.... Vivian.."
Lucia's heel ground down on my head.
"This must be the first and last time you defy me."
"Hik.. Y-Yes... Th-Thank... thank you."
"Ha, thank my Master, not me. It was his will that saved you."
"Y-Yes... Thank you.. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry...."
The light faded from Vivian's eyes.
She despaired at herself for failing to protect even the first love she'd ever harbored.
She apologized to Eugene, who had been kind to her.
But above all, she hated the world that had made her this way.
In that moment, deep within Vivian's despair, something stirred.
—Clack
At the same time, a man's footsteps echoed from the end of the hallway.