Chapter 21
Translator - Zofu
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Today passed, and tomorrow came.
The break is over. Han Ye-rin fidgets with her legs while looking at me, returned from 'Black Sun' to 'Geum Tae-yang'. And from my seat, no less. Han Ye-rin glances toward her own seat, signaling me with her eyes to sit down quickly.
"Ughhh..."
When I sit down, Han Ye-rin's face flushes red as she puts on a happy expression.
I fucking can't understand it. I pinch my forehead with my hand at the complicated emotions. At the same time, anxious feelings rise up in my chest.
'No, right? Fuck, not today, right?'
Today, we'll have sex at the mansion, right?
The anxiety keeps eating away at my chest. Somehow, my goal has changed from 'not having sex' to 'having sex at home'. That fact hurts my chest painfully, and I chew my lips. My legs tremble, and cold sweat runs down my head.
Han Ye-rin, sitting next to me, looks at my side with a broad smile, as if something is making her so happy. I hold back a sigh about to escape and look at the professor entering through the classroom door.
Just for today, I must focus on the lecture.
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The daughter of Lee Cheon-hwa, head of Ije Group. Lee Ah-rin.
"Sigh..."
I can't... concentrate on the lecture right now.
Curiosity piles up, and questions burst open.
More than the pleasure felt mentally, I'm curious if physical pleasure might be greater, so the professor's words don't reach my ears. I usually only half-listen to lectures, but today it's worse.
Seriously, I'm so curious I'm going crazy.
I don't even know why I'm like this. I think, shouldn't it be fine if they're just small, cute, and adorable? Yet, the intense sex that's enough to throw away ten years of love... keeps stimulating my curiosity.
Maybe they'll do it today too?
Since they had sex in the classroom yesterday, maybe...
It's possible.
The intense moans, from Han Ye-rin. The gap created by those moans from the supposedly noble Han Ye-rin gives me new stimulation. They'll do it today too, right? My legs tremble.
"Umm... are you okay...?"
"Huh? What?"
The witch sitting next to me, Han Seol-ah, looks at me with worried eyes.
"You seemed... a bit anxious..."
"I'm fine."
"Really...?"
The witch doesn't let go of her worried expression.
She looks at me, then turns her head to the blackboard. But she keeps glancing at my trembling legs.
"If you have worries... can you tell me...?"
I'll... listen to you...
The witch asks about my worries.
"No, I'm fine, it's nothing."
There's no way I can say it.
So, what is my worry?
Sex with Kim Tae-ho. Specifically, what Kim Tae-ho and Han Ye-rin do.
It's classroom sex.
I can't foolishly say something like this.
If I said, 'Actually, I want to see the top and second-ranked students having sex in the classroom, and I'm anxious they won't do it today,' even that good-natured witch would be disgusted with me. Fuck, even I think it's a ridiculous worry.
My face stiffens awkwardly. Either way, it's the worst.
So I can't answer.
"Thanks for worrying, Seol-ah. But I'm okay."
"Okay..."
Seol-ah looks at the blackboard again.
I also look at the blackboard.
For now, the lecture... let's focus on the lecture.
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Please just
Stay still.
I think I'm going crazy.
For some reason, Han Ye-rin keeps touching me during class. She strokes my thigh, pokes my side with a pen, tickles the back of my hand with her finger. Seriously, fuck, I can't concentrate on the lecture at all.
"Um... are you okay...?"
"Is something wrong?"
"...No."
Smiling broadly, Han Ye-rin looks at me.
I feel like I've become Han Ye-rin's toy. As Han Ye-rin keeps stroking my thigh, her finger catches on my dick. I flinch and move my body to the side to avoid it. Cold sweat runs down.
"Oh my."
"..."
Somehow, her voice is slightly excited. A warning rings in my head.
I glance at Han Ye-rin's expression.
"...Ugh."
She's turned on.
Cold sweat keeps running. I take out the handkerchief from my pocket and wipe my forehead.
"...Just a moment."
Suddenly, a cold voice.
I flinch, my shoulders trembling, and turn my head to the side.
"Who is that?"
The excitement that has been rising all cools down, and a face cold as a freezer looks at me.
"That, well."
"Forget it."
"Huh?"
"I was going to do it in the 'classroom' today. But since you're anxious, that won't work."
Let's do it at the mansion. Give me that handkerchief.
I couldn't resist.
But... is this okay?
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"It doesn't seem... okay..."
Useless thoughts keep stirring in my head.
I can't focus on the next class either, and I nervously run my hand through my hair. One or two strands of blue hair fall down.
"If it's hard... do you want to go to the nurse's office...?"
I turn my head to look at Seol-ah.
Right, if the friend next to you is in this state, of course you can't concentrate. I've caused her trouble. For now, it seems right to lie down and cool my head.
"Sigh... that seems right."
"Right...? I'll call the professor..."
"No, no, I can't rely on you that much. I'll call. Professor Yu Mina!"
"Huh?"
"Um... I'm not feeling well, can I go to the nurse's office?"
"Oh, sure?"
As soon as I hear the answer, I open the classroom door and go out to the hallway.
My head feels fuzzy.
First, let's... rest a bit.
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I want to rest.
Han Ye-rin puts away her cold expression and continues playing with me. The target is mostly... my thigh. More precisely, the dick between my thighs.
"Hehe."
Please just leave me alone.
You fucker.
Contrary to my will, the constant stimulation makes blood rush to my lower body. Even though I want to suppress the erection, I can't. As my dick gradually grows, Han Ye-rin's waist trembles slightly. Then, Han Ye-rin tightly grabs my dick with her hand.
"...!"
I look at Han Ye-rin next to me with shaking pupils.
Han Ye-rin is smiling.
Fuck, absolutely not!
"Professor Yu Mina!"
"H-huh?"
"I'm going to the nurse's office for a bit!"
"O-okay!?"
I must escape from this hell.
With my erect dick unable to hide,
I quickly flee outside the classroom.
Let's go to the nurse's office.
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I've arrived at the nurse's office.
Yesterday's sex keeps coming to mind.
Even though I want to forget it, I can't. Sighs that feel like the world is ending fill the room. I tell the school nurse I'm not feeling well and lie down on the bed. My short blue hair reflects the sunlight from outside the window, shining a light blue.
Strangely intense.
An intense stimulation I've never had before. Sex that's just animalistic pleasure, not sex with love and mind. Sex where the man leads, not where the woman leads. Strong sex. Not the dick being wrapped by the pussy—
The dick thrusting into the pussy. Dick-led sex.
The overwhelming sex that's different from the pussy-led sex I've been doing.
"Sigh..."
I think I'll be thinking about sex all day today.
It is then.
Bam—!
A man opens the nurse's office door and comes in.
"Hahh... hahh..."
A familiar breathing sound.
"I'm not feeling well..."
A familiar voice.
"Could I... use a bed..."
...Kim Tae-ho?
My half-closed eyes in the sunlight snap open.
With a flustered expression, I yank open the curtain blocking between the beds.
"Huh?"
Kim Tae-ho is really there.
And—
"Huh? Lee Ah-rin?"
Below, a bulging weapon.
The monstrous dick is slightly throbbing. The giant dick I briefly saw yesterday. Right in front of my eyes.
My face instantly flushes red.
"U-uh, uwahhh!"
Let's run away first.
Hiding my flushed red face, I hurriedly shove my shoes on. I push Kim Tae-ho aside and go outside the nurse's office.
"What... the hell?"
Leaving the flustered Kim Tae-ho behind, I head to the rooftop.
Seriously.
I think I'm going crazy!
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Seriously.
I think I'm going crazy.
Fucking Han Ye-rin.
Are you out of your mind? Sighs pour out. For now, I want to lie down. Lie down, calm my erect dick. I just want to cool my head quickly. That's all I can think of.
Running down the hallway, I habitually look back to see if Han Ye-rin is chasing me. Thankfully, no one is there.
I'm out of breath.
This isn't breathlessness from physical exhaustion. It's breath exhaled to cool the pain because my mind is in agony. The lecture is out of the question.
No, fuck.
Why grab my dick when students are clearly here! Public sex is absolutely not allowed. It's much better to go to the nurse's office once and get scolded by Han Ye-rin.
As I run, the nurse's office comes into view.
I roughly fling open the door.
"Hahh... hahh..."
The school nurse, startled by the loud noise, looks at me with flustered eyes.
"I'm not feeling well..."
More precisely, my heart hurts.
"Could I use a bed..."
Before I can finish speaking, the curtain on a nearby bed is roughly pulled open.
"Huh?"
Lee Ah-rin is there.
She looks at me with a flustered expression, wondering what's going on.
"Huh? Lee Ah-rin?"
Her gaze drops down.
Then, her face flushes red.
"U-uh, uwahhh!"
Hiding her face, she pushes me aside and runs out the door.
"What... the hell?"
I'm flustered.
For now... let's rest.
With a sigh, I lie down on the bed.
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With a sigh, I lean against the railing.
When I try to forget, Kim Tae-ho suddenly reminds me of yesterday's events.
A cool breeze brushes past my forehead. My heated head throbs.
Is there a way to end this pain?
Curiosity, questions, wonder. Is there a way to pull the imagined dick, tormenting me in various forms, out of my head? I think deeply. No... I don't know. I'm half certain I'll keep imagining it. It will chase me to the end of my life.
"Wait a moment..."
If this fucking question keeps following me. Then...
Shouldn't I just get 'used' to it?
My head lights up.
No matter how curious, no matter how questionable. If I can't solve this, shouldn't I just get used to it like air? Just get used to it, and if I become nonchalant, won't this pain become 'nothing'?
It's a crazy idea.
But it's worth trying. Yesterday, I couldn't even have proper sex with my boyfriend. Because that sex keeps coming to mind, I feel like I couldn't please my boyfriend that much, and with slight defeat and self-loathing, I couldn't... have sex to the end. No, wait. Then.
If I learn... wouldn't it work?
More precisely, just that 'feeling'. What if I learn it? I've watched various videos too. A man being done by a woman. A woman being done by a man—I've seen various plays. But none of those videos could even compare to the sex I briefly saw.
I just watch secretly.
And use what I learn in sex. Maybe my boyfriend will be happy too. Since he's a masochist and I'm a sadist.
If I just reverse the genders in that sex Kim Tae-ho did, we can complete a higher level 'SM play'.
My face flushes red.
Yes, that's it.
Turning crisis... into opportunity!
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