The White-Haired Goddess Who Loves Me Blindly
I lay sprawled in the darkness, drooling mindlessly. It felt like waking from a long, deep sleep. Everything was hazy and pleasant, as if I were being held in someone's arms.
Are you feeling alright, my benefactor?
No. I really was resting my cheek on someone's lap. The voice that came down—powerful yet gentle—made me nod dreamily.
A woman…? Even though I knew it was rude, I kept my cheek pressed against the thigh that carried a thick, feminine scent and simply listened.
I'm relieved there are no aftereffects.
When you collapsed, it looked like you had a concussion. I was worried there might be something wrong with your brain.
You seemed quite unwell, no matter what had happened to you. Ah, but don't worry. I've already fixed that part, so you won't feel any pain anymore.
Right now you're sleeping comfortably. When you wake up, your body will be healthier than it's ever been.
You can relax now.
I didn't understand what any of it meant. I tried to get up, but I had no motivation. Instead, I just acted spoiled toward a woman whose face I couldn't even see. What if she reports me…?
The moment that stupid thought crossed my mind, the other side reacted with a start.
Report you? As if I would ever do that~!
I survived thanks to you, my benefactor!
The truth is, when we first met… at that station? Subway? Whatever it was, I was on the verge of death there.
I only wanted to take a short trip, but I never expected this world's ecosystem to be so incompatible with my body… That's why I ended up in that state.
That state… Did she mean that octopus-like lump of flesh?
Mm-hmm~! I showed you such an unsightly form, benefactor!
Right now I'm borrowing your body to recover!
At those words, I tried to jerk upright in shock, but I only managed a slight twitch before falling still again. Instead, slender fingers gently stroked my cheek.
Don't be too startled. I only possessed you for a moment. Once my recovery is complete, I'll leave right away.
Anyone hearing that would probably feel anything but reassured. Out of a hundred people, maybe five would actually calm down. But I did. For some reason, my heart simply sank into perfect peace.
I'm currently creating a new body using your DNA, benefactor.
Once it's finished, I'll be able to move freely in this world as well…
DNA, possession, it all sounded like something out of a sci-fi story. And that grotesque form from earlier… Was she really an alien?
Alien? How rude. To say such a thing to a beautiful young lady like me.
My face moved. Until now I hadn't been able to, but it seemed the woman whose lap I was using had loosened her control.
How is it?
This appearance… it's exactly to your taste, isn't it~?
I finally saw her. Long white hair cascaded down, brushing against my cheek. Her face was exquisitely sculpted, with pale, flawless skin. Those slender, cool fingers were still gently caressing my cheek. Her eyes were jade-green, her eyebrows long and white. Just looking at her felt like being sucked in. No matter how you saw it, she wasn't a person from this world.
The thigh I had unconsciously placed my hand on was thick and soft, and her breasts were large. She was the very picture of a perfect beauty. And yet she was caring for me completely naked, which stirred up my lust. She was clearly reading even these thoughts, but I couldn't hold back my desire.
"It's fine, it's fine. As a living creature, you're showing the proper reaction. How wonderful~♪"
Her voice, which had seemed so distant before, now sounded right beside me. Proof that I was facing her directly.
"By the way, this is a bit late, but I've been reading your thoughts all this time. If it bothered you, I apologize."
It was a strangely belated confession. Strangely enough, it didn't bother me at all. If anything, having a beauty like her look after me felt like a gain.
"Is that so? I'm glad you feel that way."
But benefactor? Had I really done something that amazing?
"To put it in terms my benefactor can understand… it's like being thrown naked into empty space. My body simply wasn't compatible with this world's environment. I was dying when I happened to latch onto you and survived. Many other people had passed by before you, but they all kicked me away in disgust. I was truly on the verge of death—"
Well, with that appearance, of course no one would touch her. Anyone would have thought she was an alien.
"—Even though it was pure coincidence, without that tiny stroke of luck, I would have met a truly miserable end. The hand you reached out at the last moment was what you people call a super save. If not for that, I would have died right then and there."
I only understood about half of what she was saying, but it seemed that final moment had been a lifeline from her perspective.
"Mm-hmm! That's right~! So, going back to the main topic… I did fix your body, but that alone didn't feel like enough repayment. I was trying to figure out how to properly return the favor when I found a way. That's why I went chu-chu-chu-chu~☆ and fiddled with your brain to read your thoughts."
When she put it like that, it sounded genuinely terrifying. More than that, I was scared to know exactly how much she'd seen.
"Don't worry~! I've seen everything from your dark history to your entire life up to now, so there's nothing left for you to hide in front of me! I know all your sexual preferences and hobbies! The AVs and doujins you've been watching lately, and even this appearance—I made it to match your tastes~♪"
—Whoa, and she tells me not to worry! What the hell is this white-haired alien doing?! I never imagined my privacy would be violated like this!
"But you don't dislike this body, do you? Your penis… or rather, your cock is standing up nice and stiff~! You're even thinking about that video you watched earlier, aren't you? Your tastes are rather hardcore, benefactor. Do you have a lot of stress in your daily life? It seems all that pent-up frustration has manifested as sadistic tendencies."
Fuck… She's just assuming whatever she wants… This is so embarrassing… Kill me… Please just kill me…
"I can't let you die. No matter what, you are my benefactor, and I intend to repay this debt. From what I can see, despite saving me, you've been living such an uncomfortable life. A hero who saved the world deserves proper rewards, so I've been thinking of providing you with every convenience."
Uh, saved the world? That title sounds way too grandiose…
"Didn't I tell you? Despite how I look, I am a god from another world. To be more precise, I belong to the evil god category. If I had died in that state, the organs accumulated in my body would have spilled out and cursed this land. It would have caused an absolutely catastrophic disaster."
For example?
This world would have become filled with things like this.
The fingers that had been gently stroking my cheek suddenly transformed into the writhing lump of flesh I'd seen earlier. It squirmed in a sickening way. Terrifying… On the outside she was more beautiful than anything I could imagine, but on the inside she was that… Still, thanks to her, I finally understood a little of what she meant by coming here on a trip.
"Your comprehension is quick. As expected of my benefactor. In that case, I'll get straight to the point… Would you like to receive my repayment?"
"…Repayment?"
"That's right~!"
With a sinister kukuku~♪ laugh, she whispered sweet words into my ear.
"You've been struggling every single day, haven't you? No matter how hard you tried, no one appreciated it, and people kept drifting away… Even then, no one comforted you. The parents who should have supported you gradually became burdens instead… The uncertain future ahead tormented you, frustrated you, piled up until it created those unnecessary sexual fetishes, didn't it?"
—Chururururu♡
"Haven't you asked yourself countless times why reality is so unfair? Somewhere in the world, people live happy lives just by having good parents, yet even though you listened to your own parents and did everything right, this is the life you got… Doesn't the sheer unfairness of it drive you insane?"
"Ugh, ah, aah… Uuuugh…!"
Her long tongue dug into my ear. My brain was melting.
"That's why you lost yourself in those embarrassingly convenient stories, didn't you? Suddenly dropped into another world, gaining incredible power without any effort, showing off to everyone, being admired, and finally building a harem—heave ho, heave ho~♡ …Truly the ultimate male power fantasy. Of course you couldn't hate it."
"Th-that's…"
"It's alright. Why are you embarrassed? Because the stories you love are like that? Ufufu, who would blame another's tastes? Especially when it comes to my benefactor's life—if you wanted to escape into such things, that's perfectly understandable. I won't deny any of it, so don't worry."
The tongue that had invaded my ear wriggled and scratched~♡ while somehow making the inside feel refreshingly cool. Like it was performing a service, its pleasant movements poked at something vital inside me.
"Aaaah… Aaaaaah……"
As pleasure suddenly flooded over me and I drooled in delight, the temptation grew even stronger.
"In this world, there are people who obtain happiness without any effort at all. There are also those who obtain it through hard work, and those who gain it through sheer luck. In that case, isn't it perfectly fine for my benefactor—who helped save a world—to obtain convenient happiness~?"
Scratch♡ Scratch♡ Scratch♡
"You like it, don't you? That kind of convenient development."
My vision blurred. At some point she had begun stroking between my legs. The sensation of her perfect female body made my whole body tremble with joy.
"Luck that makes everything go exactly the way you want. A handsome face that turns heads and a flawless body with nothing lacking. The fame that comes with it will make everyone worship you. And if there are plenty of refreshing events where you can vent your frustrations through violence, what a delightful life that would be~♡"
It was exactly like the stories I'd been devouring for years. The kind of content that would make adults frown and call it pathetic. Embarrassing delusions I couldn't let go of even after becoming an adult.
"Even those sexual preferences of yours that could never come true in this world will be fulfilled there. Of course they will, right? The women in those stories will do anything for the man they love. No matter how excessive or extreme the content, in a convenient world packed with male-supremacy spice, anything is possible~♡"
My glans was gripped tightly~♡ as she continued whispering. Her hand moved up and down, making me tremble like a premature ejaculator.
"I will help you. You are my one and only benefactor. In other words, the person who saved a god. Spending a century with you would be nothing to me, so I will personally grant you every convenience♡"
"Ugh, ah, uwaa…"
"Don't you want it? A comfortable life obtained without any effort. People who adore you. Lewd beauties who rejoice at everything you do. Events that keep you from getting bored. A convenient story where everyone who received your grace grovels at your feet the moment they see you…"
She whispered to me. With a sweetness that melted my brain, the evil goddess whispered to me.
"…Speak. You may speak. My benefactor. Tell me your desires."
I didn't even stop to wonder if it was okay to say it, if it was okay to demand it. I simply answered.
"…Really? Really, even so… it's okay?"
If it had been someone satisfied with this world… someone like a protagonist from one of those stories… they probably would have said no, that it wasn't right…
"Of course~♪"
"I-I want it… No, please let me have it… Please…!!"
I practically begged. I had spilled out my shameful wish. After all, a chance like this would never come again. I had no room to think of anything else.
It was pathetic.
"There's no need for polite speech. After all, didn't I say I would give it to you?"
"Then… really? You're not joking…?"
"Though I am an evil god, I do not lie. Much less would I ever harm my benefactor. That would be absurd. As a god who favors those honest with their desires… hehe, but you know how it is. There are always those who reject such a wonderful offer and say 'That wouldn't be right.' Those who deny corruption. I dislike that sort, so I was nervous wondering if my benefactor might say something like that~♪"
In other words, the moment I had refused even once, it would have been over.
"Hehe… Ufufufu… But I'm glad my benefactor isn't like that."
As I felt relief, she seemed to feel it too and gently bit my ear.
"Truly a man worth repaying~♪"
With those final words, my vision blurred again. As my consciousness sank into a swamp, one last sentence remained burned into my memory.
When you wake up, you may feel confused. You might even feel wronged or afraid. But don't worry.
Everything will unfold conveniently for the sake of later enjoyment.
And the one providing that convenience is none other than me.
The Evil Goddess · □□□□
──Now then, my benefactor. Enjoy my repayment to your heart's content♡
That was my final memory. Along with her declaration of repayment, I fell into a long, deep sleep.