I'll Claim You First
"Mmmph, mmm—"
I had the foolish notion that if I just moved my mouth to try speaking, she'd let me go.
But her tongue kept thrusting deeper, tangling with mine.
It was a familiar sensation, yet different at the same time. Everyone's tongue length and movement patterns were different— a bit of a thuggish observation, maybe, but still. It couldn't be helped. Even the way she forced open the fist I'd clenched and laced our fingers together for the kiss was like that. Even if I couldn't feel love, she made it so I could at least delude myself into thinking I did.
"Mmph, mm—"
I wanted to speak. To say it wasn't like that, so please just calm down a little.
"Ahhet...!"
But Soyeon showed no intention of stopping. It seemed like she was determined to do nothing but kiss the entire time she was doing this. So even with those clumsy, first-time-like hand movements, it didn't take long for them to reach down there.
"Hep—"
She pressed hard on my clitoris. A familiar vibration zinged through my whole body, twisting my expression into something strange. My mouth was still sealed, so I tapped her back. Of course, there was no reaction.
"Kkeuh—!"
I urgently tapped Soyeon, putting every ounce of meaning into those knocks: please, just for a moment, let me speak.
Soyeon was hurriedly trying to pull down her pants. The pants came down. With a soft thud as they hit the floor, her hands grew even more frantic as they headed for her underwear. Annoyed by them catching on her legs, she shook them off without using her hands— so as not to break the kiss— and flung the pants far away.
"Uh, uu...!"
I shoved her shoulder hard the other way. I felt the slick of love juices flowing. Maybe from the force I was putting into it.
"Ah... why, why...?"
The difference in strength was truly clear— I couldn't win— but Soyeon finally had no choice but to pull her mouth away. Because I was pushing her away with all my sincerity. I was glad she seemed to feel that sincerity.
"Th-that, Soyeon-nim— no, Soyeon. That's..."
"I'm not going to listen to any useless talk."
Soyeon seemed to have wanted me to say something else. In other words, she didn't want to hear refusals or compromises or anything like that; she only wanted to hear things like "my back is too cold" or "this position is too uncomfortable."
Her lips eyed me for a moment, then approached again—
"Ah, no!"
"..."
"Th-that's. It's too su-sudden, so—"
"Unnie."
Had I wasted the chance I'd just gotten? Soyeon opened her mouth.
"Sorry. Actually, I know all about you being bullied. I know everything. I just pretended not to."
It was a confession. In other words, if it was Minseo and Jiu, they already knew the situation— but I hadn't expected her to know about the security team relationship either. I'd tried to hide it as best I could, to not show it at all.
Of course, I had absolutely no intention of blaming Soyeon. From the start, whether it was even controllable was a problem, and more than anything, the benefits far outweighed the costs. If I just set down my tiny, useless dignity, everyone could live happily.
I wasn't a saint. Of course I didn't like only taking losses. But, as you can see, this was a planet on the far opposite side of the universe. What good would it do for only me to survive in a place like this? No matter how I thought about it, objectively and subjectively, just accepting the scraps that fell my way was the most advantageous and most prosperous way for me to live.
Soyeon had paused in taking off her underwear. It wasn't touching, but that hot heat was clearly reaching my lower abdomen. So goosebumps prickled. That thing was going to go inside? Regardless of likes or dislikes, it was a thing where not getting hurt would be a miracle.
"So, I'm going to make Unnie mine. Heh…"
"Nehe?"
At Soyeon's words that followed before I could even feel those goosebumps, my breathing pattern completely broke without me realizing, and that sound came out.
"I'll, I'll protect you. Okay? Right? It's hard, hard for you. Right?"
"Wh-what? No, it's, it's not that bad, not really."
"You'll definitely get tossed around here and there. Because Unnie is incredibly lewd."
Her face was getting closer and closer. Every time Soyeon formed a syllable and spat it out, warm air touched my face. There was no strange smell— but that wasn't what was important.
"Th-that kind of thing, I, I haven't been through...!"
"Mm. No. Eventually you will. Once that line is crossed, everyone will probably start fucking you. Definitely. Yeah. Absolutely."
"No...!"
Soyeon was spitting out horrible stories casually. Of course it wasn't an entirely impossible scenario...
"So, I'm going to use Unnie. You. First. Before other people get ideas, me first."
"..."
Soyeon's face was now close enough that our noses almost touched. As if she still had more to say, I felt her forehead tap against mine, and at the same time, swish. Rustle. And. The sound of her underwear finally slipping off her hips and falling to the floor.
"If I, if I have Unnie first, other people won't touch you at all, at all."
Soyeon's breathing was strange. Probably because she was pouring out words without even being able to swallow her saliva. The hot air I'd felt earlier seemed laughable compared to the scorching air now touching my lower abdomen. Of course I crossed my legs and tried to cover below with my hands— but it was a completely meaningless action. The force needed to brush those hands away was truly tiny.
"I'll, I'll protect you. Okay? How about it? It's the right thing to say. Right?"
"Hey, th-that, calm down—"
"I won't, won't hurt you. I'll loosen you up enough first...!"
"Aeup...!"
In the end, before I could even answer— in other words, after finishing only what she wanted to say, Soyeon lunged at me again. It was similar to a declaration that she wouldn't listen to my answer. And the thing touching my lower abdomen, thanks to the height difference, started moving her hand below the thing touching my solar plexus. As if to loosen me up enough, just like she said.
She pressed hard on that tip again, then used her thumb to lightly pinch and rub it like an eraser, and finally tapped with a wet, sticky sensation. It was something I couldn't control at all. Because the body's arousal level wasn't something the frontal lobe was involved in.
...Honestly speaking, I didn't feel fear or anything. Whether that absurd campaign of getting used to dicks was effective or not, even toward that object lightly touching my solar plexus and throbbing, the disgust was faint.
"Heup, heu...!"
Her tongue kept thrusting in. The bumpy, slippery sensation kept clouding my head. How to put it, it felt like playing a very unfair sex game. Like those things that only come out in the deeper parts of adult media, enduring for a few minutes in a state where you absolutely can't hold back climax— that kind of thought came to me. Like those scenes where the punishment after defeat becomes part of the sex, scenes you inevitably have to go to.
"Heut...!"
My body started trembling. My whole body was dominated by that tiny point of the clitoris. Things with only hearts drawn in the speech bubbles kept leaking out around my mouth. Then eventually, I couldn't defend against those fingers slowly coming in.
Unlike with the woman earlier, there was no tightness or foreign feeling at all, accepting the fingers smoothly as if it was truly designed for intercourse. I felt saliva suddenly flowing over from Soyeon. Whether it was from smacking her lips or intentional, I didn't know—
The fingers that entered like that still stayed at the entrance of my vagina, pressing from both sides as if gripping my lower body with index and thumb.
"...!!"
My knees knocked together. Strength filled my body so that the sound of finger joints cracking came from somewhere in my feet. So I tightly gripped Soyeon's still-on top. With that, the love juices that had been building up thickly flowed out all at once. It was definitely because of the full strength going into it.
How much time had passed? Time had flowed until the muscles that had eventually been happily responding to that entangling tongue were sore.
...
I came three times. I don't know if all women's climaxes are like that, but at least this body seemed to keep stacking relatively mild climaxes. There wouldn't be no limit, but at least I was sure that just the approaching climaxes alone wouldn't cool my body down.
So. Well. I thought Soyeon kicking her clothes far away was amazing. It meant that even in this situation she thought about her clothes getting wet. Or maybe she just kicked them because they were annoying.
"..."
Now I couldn't even hide it, so even while our mouths were connected I was letting out strange sounds like heut hek ahik. Only then did Soyeon's eyes that had been so close they seemed ready to devour me pull away. Between us, mixed saliva that hadn't even stretched flowed down, creating a gray line that bisected Soyeon's top.
"...Is it, enough now?"
Her voice couldn't tremble that much. Even when I first said I didn't remember anything, it didn't seem to tremble like that.
"Hm? F-for now, for now. Can you try standing properly? If you fall, that wouldn't be good..."
Soyeon said that. Sorry to say, but my lower body no longer listened to me. Noticing that, Soyeon grabbed my waist and pulled me up. One step back. Then moved one step again.
The wording was a bit strange, but the upper part of that thing touched my soaked pussy. It was at a height where it was pulled down this much so that the starting point of that thing was positioned below me—
Soyeon completely wrapped my waist and lifted me up. Or should I say embraced me. The floating sensation of being lifted by another person, a nostalgia-like feeling I hadn't felt since I was very young, made my waist tremble. Just from my body moving for a moment, I felt that the wall I'd been leaning against had been warmed by my body heat.
And so, just when the thought that this shouldn't be happened to come. Soyeon, who couldn't even kiss and instead brushed her lips over my cheek, chin, philtrum, nose as if caressing them, pushed me against the wall as if my weight was heavy.
"Heeek—"
I opened my mouth as the weight was offset.
"I'm putting it in. If it hurts, t-tell me."
I felt my mind returning. I hated that thing enough that my mind, which had been dizzy to the point of haziness, returned. But, well. What could I do? We were already this far. That soft yet hard glans had already found my vaginal entrance and approached to the point of just thrusting in.
I neither affirmed nor denied. I just moved my tongue as if asking her to kiss me until I was sick of it. Chuuup. Tongues mixed, and the thing pushing in hard as if to suck in everything around the entrance. That. That...
Tok. Tears burst out. I didn't know why. Rationally it wasn't a situation for tears to burst. The thing was entering. No, the dick was entering like that.
I felt a sensation I'd never felt even once in my life. The soft hill struggled somehow to enter—
"Eu, eup...!"
As it passed the widest part, the width that had opened the most as if facing a cliff suddenly shrank as if sucking.
"Heut, heueu...!"
My legs stretched out straight. They didn't touch the floor. That pillar was so hot I thought I might get burned. Even so, only the glans had barely entered so it wouldn't close right away. Just an enormous, overwhelming foreign sensation. Even with a body that had melted from being teased so much, it seemed hard to accept such a thing all at once.
"Eu, heu. Heueu. Heueu...!"
Soyeon's breathing couldn't be that rough. It even felt like artificial respiration. Far more carbon dioxide than air entered my lungs again under that pressure—
Ah, right. That was why. So my breathing had no choice but to be this insufficient.
I stretched out my arms. No other reason. Just, in case she dropped me and I got hurt. I stretched my arms between Soyeon's shoulder and arm and hugged her tightly. The soft breasts wrapping my chest felt good.
Whether she took that as some kind of signal, Soyeon's body moved a little more. It was amazing how much the vaginal walls opened. Vaginal walls that had never allowed such a thing even once, parting from the opposite side for the first time in my life, moved following the shape of the glans like an esophagus moving food—
It touched something. At Soyeon's movement pushing as if to smash that obstacle right away, I hurriedly pulled my mouth away and looked at Soyeon.
...
I had nothing to say. More precisely, it seemed like there was something I wanted to say but I couldn't remember. Looking at Soyeon's face flushed red, and the corners of her mouth wet with half of what was mine—
It was like that.
"..."
My mouth opened and closed repeatedly like a goldfish, then inevitably I improvised a sentence.
"Fi-first. Time. So. Ge-gently. Please..."
I said.
Only today, and only a little while ago that I first learned it was in my body— that membrane-like rubber band was pushed hard. Not something thin like a fingertip, but pushed with that wide surface area. Gradually. The rubber band stretched. Stretched to the limit.
Definitely. It felt like it would hurt enormously. A terror like pulling the skin on the back of your hand to the limit and holding a knife next to it suddenly seized my body enough to freeze it—
"Higeuk...?!"
A hot pain as if the inside was being cut was felt. But it was far more nothing than I thought, a pain that seemed like a shot would hurt more, spreading a faint signal like sand grains thrown onto a lake.
Once that momentary pain passed, just with the maddening foreign sensation and the delusion that my body had been pierced— that it must have gone up to my chest for sure— dominated my head.
"Hueeeu..."
Soyeon's eyes, letting out a deep exhale, gazed steadily into the inside of my eyes.