Everything I Say Is a Lie
The words I utter are all lies.
The girl holding a paper bag stood in front of the door with a rather awkward expression on her face.
Her face was so stiff that one might think she was about to cry.
“Come in for now.”
She opened the door and said.
She wasn't even holding the doorknob or glaring at her, so perhaps the misunderstanding had been cleared up.
After all, I'm not a villain, so there's no need to do that.
“Coffee? Shall we drink some?”
The girl nodded absentmindedly.
After boiling water in the electric kettle, she added stick coffee from the store inside the school grounds to the heavy mug and poured hot water.
The cheap coffee aroma filled the room.
Meanwhile, the girl was looking around her room.
Thinking about it, she hadn't cleaned at all, so the room was a mess.
“W-what are you doing in a place like this..?”
“Last time, you didn't stutter at all and spoke fluently.”
“……”
“If you're asking what kind of place this is, well, there are people who live not in the dormitory but elsewhere, right?
Or perhaps the places where high-ranked Awakened live are different.”
Im Hyeyeon didn't answer.
Of course it would be different.
She had heard that it was a very spacious place with luxurious furniture, not this chicken coop-like room.
Just because she could produce water or lightning from her hands.
“Did you come alone?”
“N-no, I didn't come alone, but I was waiting downstairs.
By the way, last time when I came to look for you, the room wasn't like this...?”
She probably didn't come up with her.
In the end, the person who should apologize is you, I guess.
“What do you mean? It's the same as last time.”
Even before, when I did something wrong to someone, I would take them along, but I wouldn't stand beside them to help.
The person who should apologize is themselves, I was told.
“Ah, be careful because there are glass shards on the floor there.”
Before those words could finish, the girl was picking up the glass shards on the floor.
At the end, there was blood from her wrist.
Seeing her staring blankly, I approached and snatched it from her hand and threw it into the trash.
The coffee aroma covered the blood scent, and I thought it was fortunate.
“What are you looking at the trash for.
If you're standing there, pick it up and throw it away.”
“……Same as last time, right?”
“Yes.”
“Eh, the scar on your face..?”
At those words, she touched her face as if hearing it for the first time.
She probably restored it by mistake while sucking on the pills.
Was it not caught on the surveillance camera.
After all, I always keep my head down, so it might not have been caught.
“I didn't have any grudges to begin with, what are you talking about.”
Anyway, at those words, the girl's face became gloomy.
I don't know what she's thinking, but at least it's clear that the situation isn't going badly for me.
“You are.
I did such a thing, but you, aren't you scared..?
Without hesitation, you let me into the house...?”
She suddenly froze and should tremble with a knife in her shoulder or something.
It seems like she should be quite scared, but with her wide tolerance, it seems appropriate to overlook it.
According to Si-hyeon-ssi, the school atmosphere is like that.
Instead, coming here to say something is strange in itself.
“It's just that I'm mustering up courage.
Even if I'm F-class, I don't want to show a trembling appearance to humans like you who only rely on strength and bully others.”
At those words, her mouth twisted like a goldfish.
“So, what sudden thought made you come find me?
Even alone. Ah, wait, you said it wasn't alone.”
“……Perhaps, it was a hallucination.”
“If someone suddenly says something weird like that, what should I respond?”
“What I saw. It seemed like a hallucination.
You, you killed all those kids who were bullies to you, right?”
To the girl who kept her mouth shut for a long time and trembled, I brought coffee.
I thought the coffee I gave might not be drunk, but when she took it and immediately took a sip, perhaps she was thirsty.
“You were killing people with sticky blood, like turning them into balls...
In an instant, with sharp things. Creepily.”
The girl said that and started trembling a little.
“I, I ran away because I was too scared because of old memories and was crying, and Seojun, Seojun knows? Because I met him first.”
I nodded.
The more I heard, the more irritated I felt, and the forced smile was about to break.
While listening, I took out one pill from the bag in the closet and chewed it.
The smile came back quickly. Although I felt like my head was loosening a bit.
“Eh, you were really scolded. After being tricked by the hallucination, you blamed an innocent kid.”
“Was the captured human a hallucination artist?”
At those words, she nodded.
The corner of my mouth rose unconsciously.
I tried to lower it, but it didn't work.
I just gently buried the rising feeling and walked around the room restlessly.
Then, I stepped on the broken glass shard, but it was only slightly painful.
“I told you. Why are you doing this to me suddenly.
When I was tied up, you answered by pulling out the blade.”
I approached and continued talking while poking her chest with my finger as if teasing.
“If you resist even a little, I'll cut you right away.
Like now, without stuttering at all.”
Her body was pushed back, but she just bit her lower lip and looked at me without saying anything.
“I came all the way here just because I wanted to meet the person I couldn't meet.
Whether it's this person or that person, they don't leave me alone.
They even put false accusations on me and try to kill me.”
I've heard many such things through the glass window.
Her eyes were full of sympathy.
“You should treat 'fool' treatment appropriately.
What are you going to do if a human who has everything does this to me?”
Where do you see me as pitiful or pitiful?
Instead, you're interrogating a human who has lived much more healthily than me just because they have everything.
Still, I couldn't endure the poking, so I grabbed my right arm.
The towel I had wrapped around slightly loosened, and a little blood seeped out.
“...Ah. Sorry. Really. Really.”
Feeling the touch, she was startled and quickly pulled her hand away, but the expression was a bit funny.
“It hurts. Can you let go?”
“I'm really sorry. I came to apologize.”
“If you're sorry, there are things you should do.
Apology or compensation or something. Hmm. There's nothing worth receiving.”
Money is not necessary.
Perhaps Si-hyeon-ssi would break into the bank to give it.
Or I could go.
I don't want to see a pretty girl kneeling naked.
It would be a spectacular sight if a pretty girl did it.
Since she's not attached below, it feels lacking.
For now, while I'm Yu Harin, I always think that I'm thinking as I think.
All the words I say are lies.
I'm covered with lies and believe them as true.
Perhaps I wasn't close with my childhood friend to begin with.
Just like how I'm saying lies now, perhaps I lied to myself that I was close with Seojun.
Or perhaps not.
At that time, I was a very kind and good child, knowing many bad things but having never done them.
But if I had remained like that child, I would have died long ago.
Instead of someone else dying, I would have been killing myself.
Still, I didn't change like this then.
I wasn't the kind of person who deceived the other, mocked, or thought how to make them miserable, but a kind and gentle human.
“Ah, this is fine. Please be my friend.”
She hid her wrist behind her back and said softly.
With a bit of laughter, as if genuinely happy.
“I was a little lonely.
I'm the kind of person who doesn't make friends because of a hole in my shoulder or something.”
What do you do with friends normally.
Nothing comes to mind, so I recalled what I wanted to do with my childhood friend when I was in the slums.
I approached and gently pushed her shoulder to make her lie on the bed, brought my face close, and waited until she opened her eyes.
And when our eyes met, she laughed loudly for a long time.
“Just. Please do one favor for me later.
Even if it's like this, being friends with someone like me who is F-class is not good, right.”
At those words, something lively came into her eyes, and the girl continued speaking clearly without stuttering.
“……I can be your friend anytime.”
****
The girl who said she would help me get revenge.
She told me to go find that woman I suspected and attacked and apologize.
I laughed mockingly.
You're being fooled.
I don't know why, but she said I was a villain who infiltrated the school by faking my rank.
Then, after a couple of days.
The villain who sneaked into the school was caught.
And, all her ability could do was show hallucinations.
It was a catch that wouldn't be caught if you were a little alert and cautious.
But there didn't seem to be any human who was constantly alert and tense inside the school.
After refreshing training, or finishing a tense sparring match, or hanging out with friends, you eventually have to relax.
Including me.
No matter how strong the magic power, if you cast spells over several days, you couldn't avoid being caught.
That's how the villain brought stronger or prettier girls than herself to the room and did unspeakable things and killed them, and buried the humans she would spar with somewhere.
Thanks to that, she pinned innocent kids as villains and almost committed an irreversible act.
Clearly, the room I saw was very clean.
Clearly, there were many wounds on that kid I saw that would take quite some time to heal.
At first, I denied it, but if they had the ability to recover or regenerate wounds quickly, they wouldn't be F-class.
Why didn't I think of that.
Clearly, the kid I saw was, yes.
Instead of simply accepting, she was a kid who could fight even while tied up using her abilities.
But she couldn't do anything.
She only said it hurt and begged to be saved while tied up.
Clearly, what I saw was...
Yes, I only saw with my eyes.
Me alone. Just, maybe I was catching some weird person.
Because of being trapped in old memories.
The kid I tormented was a very painful kid who couldn't even make an excuse that it wasn't her fault.
Her eyes were hollow, her body trembled because of me, blood flowed from her wrist, broken glass shards and trash overflowed on the floor...
I didn't make her like that originally, but she probably entered this school because she became a little stronger.
Even if I sincerely said sorry, it didn't seem to have any effect on that kid.
She was a kid who seemed to need someone by her side, but no one was there beside her.
Exactly like someone.
So, if I want a friend, I can do as much as that.