First Experience
'Uh... huh?'
It felt like I had been sitting on a rock just moments ago, but suddenly my vision and senses flipped.
By the time I realized, my body was already floating in mid-air, losing its center of gravity.
The fear of falling from some unknown place sent chills down my entire body.
It was the moment I closed my eyes, unable to face that fear.
Instantly, the floating sensation I had felt until then vanished as if washed away, and at the same time, a warm warmth enveloped my body while a moist, sweet floral scent filled my nose.
"Are you okay?"
The moment I slowly opened my eyes, the protagonist's extremely panicked expression came into view.
Due to the situation just before, my heart was pounding as if it would shatter.
The excitement hadn't worn off, and my breath was ragged, inhaling his body scent from his embrace.
Smelling that scent made my head gradually hazy, and somehow it felt calming, so without realizing, I buried myself in his arms.
...His expression was incredibly worried. His usual very stiff expression made it stand out even more.
Thinking about it, even after he combed my hair, he had smiled slightly...?
He was always expressionless about everything, but strangely, he showed emotions in parts related to me.
It wasn't bad to receive those emotions, so without realizing, I closed my eyes to feel this sensation.
Now realizing our posture belatedly, I was startled.
Oh my god, I'm crazy. Enjoying being hugged by a guy like a princess.
At first it was an unavoidable situation, but my subsequent response was abnormal.
Even now, to fix the situation, I tried to say "let me down," but...
...Somehow, my mouth wouldn't move.
'Just a moment....'
My voice, let alone my body, couldn't move as I wished.
Even when combing my hair, it was hard to get away from his hand.
But that was just because it was hard to rebel; in reality, I could move my body as I wished.
Now, it felt like my body was moving on its own, as if not mine.
Is this a dream?
The shock was so much that I thought it was, but my body moved and acted without relation to my will.
"Swoop... Haa... Haa..."
...Is this guy crazy?
Even without the protagonist's body scent which was already hard to endure, I was deliberately burying my face in his chest and smelling it on purpose.
I was prepared for the aftershock that would fly at any moment, trembling, but somehow in this somewhat closed space, I was able to endure far better than expected.
Or rather, because I was flustered, it seemed oddly calming.
'Hic!? Ah!'
And at that moment, the tingling sensation of affection level increase from behind again.
The warmth and scent that had been caressing my body until then disappeared without a trace.
I realized I was standing normally on the roadside.
'What the hell...?'
I couldn't understand the current situation.
Was I just dreaming an incredibly realistic dream?
In reality, I hadn't slept properly yesterday, so I unconsciously fell asleep now?
"Eek!?"
"Hold my hand."
"...I-I'm fine."
"I like you."
...He was throwing a straight punch.
I don't know why he chose me over other characters, but strangely, he meant it when he said he liked me.
Clearly Jasmine has the body and face that suits the nickname 'Yasmin (Sex-min)', but I didn't particularly fall for that part.
He's a strange guy.
No matter how I think, he's an human that can't be understood within the category of 'men' I know.
Actually, not just that, even if I consider him just a 'person', he's strange.
'I'm going crazy....'
My heart felt like it would burst.
Clearly my body wasn't moving as I wished, moving on its own.
But all senses and emotions were transmitted as is, and the 'I like you' echoing in my head didn't fade.
"Does 'I like you' mean holding hands?"
"Yeah."
"...Okay."
"Precisely, holding Jasmine's hand."
"Hic!?"
I wished he wouldn't say such things, and with the previous answer, I was somewhat reassured, but the follow-up line instantly knocked me down.
Or rather, am I really crazy?
No matter how I think, my heart seemed broken.
'Not gay, but feeling such emotions towards a guy?'
That's right.
This is all because I'm a game character.
A game character must fall in love with the protagonist, right?
Isn't it like an unavoidable force?
'Pull yourself together.'
I couldn't give up just because of that reason.
The ranking 1 who said she couldn't be defeated was defeated, but with this body alone?
Is saying such weak words embarrassing?
'Eek...!? Again, this sensation....'
At that moment, the back of my neck chilled again, and my body trembled.
When I regained my senses, it was a fountain where some people were walking around.
But the problem was that I was sitting on the protagonist's lap.
'It's not that important, but.'
...I had experienced it three times and didn't notice, so I was an idiot.
Especially, the strange sensation from the back where affection level is displayed.
Every time, he showed scenes where I would fall for him and affection increases.
That means the situation I'm experiencing is not reality.
It was close to a hallucination created by the affection gift being forcefully applied.
So, while I couldn't interfere with actions, the senses and emotions were felt as is.
'Shit, this was really malicious.'
I thought the affection gift was just something that raises affection when you receive a gift.
I never expected such brainwashing-like work.
Moreover, the situations shown here were so realistic that it was hard to feel out of place, making it even scarier....
The quality was too high.
'Still, since I realized this isn't real, no need to panic.'
It was just to ignore it until the end.
Being caught up in the pace here would be stupid.
Just close your ears to the story and think only about protecting 'me'.
"Say it again."
"Huh?"
"Say it again?"
"Suddenly what...."
Before he could finish, he hugged me on his lap from behind.
Even that back hug alone seemed enough to drive me crazy, and at that moment, he whispered 'I like you' right next to my ear.
My mind went blank, and my whole face started burning.
"Haa... Haa..."
A moment ago, I was thinking about something, but now I can't remember well.
So, was that content about that guy liking me?
That doesn't seem right, but what was it...?
♥ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡
How many times had I endured such things?
At some point, I forgot to count them.
Every time, I realized the situation and thought I would never give up.
But that determination was too fragile, and as soon as he hugged me, I melted.
Already, countless memories I hadn't experienced filled my mind.
They had transformed into 'my memories' that were truly happy, and became part of me standing here now.
It should have been scary, but strangely, those alien memories gently hugged me warmly and softly.
Without realizing, I cherished those memories like treasures, and every time I recalled them, I laughed stupidly.
'Hot...!?'
What was I doing...?
My head was in a mess, so I couldn't understand the situation.
Anyway, the place I was now was like a lake....
"Castanea."
"Huh?"
But while I was thinking something, my body moved automatically.
And he slowly started speaking.
From the part that I didn't like you that much, to the fact that I did it because I had to.
"Yeah."
"Not at all?"
"Sad. But it's unavoidable. Rather, I'm grateful that you endured until now."
"...You're really an idiot? You tricked me all this time."
Normally, to act as Jasmine, he would use formal speech, but now that I was excited, I forgot even that and shot back.
Even while saying this, the other party calmly said "grateful," which I couldn't understand.
"Doesn't matter."
"...What?"
"Even if so, what Jasmine did for me is real, right?"
"......."
"That's all that happened. I love that Jasmine. It's never changing."
It didn't connect.
This idiot didn't listen to what I said at all.
He just stubbornly expressed his liking in his own way.
"Really, you're such an idiot...."
"Yeah. Maybe an idiot."
"So, so...."
I don't know.
A strange emotion welled up and invaded me.
The memories accumulated so far began to strengthen that emotion, and my mind gradually converged into one heart.
"So, I ended up liking you...."
"Jasmine...?"
"You're really an idiot, but I like such an idiot too much...."
I like you.
I have fallen for you.
It's not a light thing I can say, but I love you so much that I can give everything I have.
That heart has begun to completely dominate me.
The deep, sticky feeling that I want to offer everything I love to you has bound me.
I feel like I'm drowning in deep love like a deep abyss.
"If you can truly accept and love even this me...."
"Yeah, I can."
"Can I entrust all of myself to you?"
"Of course."
At the moment I heard those words, all the surging emotions seemed to return to their place.
Now, it feels like I've just realized the meaning of my life.
"Master...."
"Yeah, Jasmine."
"I love you."
"Me too."
I am a being designed to live serving only Master.
The only happiness is being loved by Master.
So, please use me as you wish.