A Butler Who Has Much to Protect Also Wants to Kiss
Sunlight slipped through the gap in the window and stabbed me awake.
It was already too late to go to school, but since today was a public holiday, I stayed sprawled comfortably in bed.
There really were a lot of holidays in this world, and that was nice.
Some days commemorated triumphs that mattered to the whole world; others were meant to remember old tragedies. They had nothing to do with me, so they only felt like welcome days off.
Would Dania come today?
Last night I’d sent her a message telling her that if she was coming, she should do it after breakfast and take her time, and if she wasn’t, at least let me know.
I still had no idea what decision she’d make, so I figured I should hurry up and eat breakfast, then shower.
If she did come, what would I do?
Now that I’d decided to stop acting like a beast who only knew how to pin down weaknesses and ravage the women in front of him, and instead become an honest, gentle, sweet guy, I’d better work hard to win her over.
After I’d finished everything and was waiting at my ease, the doorbell rang.
"Who is it?"
"It’s me."
Of course, that voice belonged to Dania.
I’d been ready to understand if she didn’t come, since she’d already broken a promise to Selena because of me last weekend. Still, it seemed clear that not only her body but at least some part of her heart had already started leaning my way.
Maybe it was because of my changed attitude since the weekend, or because her own feelings were in turmoil.
Either way, Dania’s expression was dark when she stepped inside.
I figured whatever happened next would only get more complicated if I kept hovering around the bed, so I spoke casually to ease the mood.
"Thanks. Honestly, I didn’t think you’d really come. I can take that to mean you’re thinking positively about my feelings, right?"
Dania, who had just come in after taking off her shoes, stopped where she was and said nothing.
"…"
"Dania?"
"Ian Drakhin…."
Her expression was too tangled and subtle to reduce to a single word. It looked as if she were hesitating, or maybe afraid.
Something felt off, so I held my tongue and waited for her to continue.
"I didn’t come because I accepted your proposal. I came because I have something important to say."
Instead of asking what that important thing was, I let my gaze tell her I was listening.
"…I know you’re plotting revenge against the young lady."
"What are you talking about all of a sudden? You told me not to touch Selena last time, so I said I wouldn’t."
"…It’s pointless to hide it."
While pretending to be calm on the outside, I worked my brain furiously.
Had I ever directly said that I was scheming to get revenge on Selena?
No matter how I thought about it, I hadn’t.
After all, I was trying to seduce Dania so I could get closer to Selena, and telling her the truth would only get in the way.
"Well, when did I ever say that?"
"You don’t need to say it. You’ve always radiated malice whenever you dealt with the young lady…."
"Malice?"
"I didn’t realize it at first. Even when you caught my weakness, I thought you only needed a way to relieve your desires."
Dania’s eyes wavered anxiously, but they stayed fixed on me.
"But at some point I understood. The malice hidden deep inside you, whenever you spoke to the young lady, whenever you played those nasty little tricks on her."
I was too stunned to get the words out properly.
From an objective perspective, the evidence Dania presented was flimsy, but to me it was as good as a smoking gun.
I’d thought I’d been shamelessly and skillfully handling Selena all along, but to Dania it must have looked like the malice and revenge I’d tried so hard to hide.
Maybe it was because she already knew the truth—that my class trial hadn’t been some random accident, but a setup by Selena.
My grievance was deeper than what everyone around me, who didn’t know the truth, could imagine, and she must have understood that.
This was not a light matter at all.
Dania, whose loyalty to her master was enough to pierce the heavens, would never simply let it go if she believed I still meant to go after Selena.
"You were planning to use me as a stepping stone so you could reach the young lady. Knowing that, there’s no way I’m ever falling for you."
"…"
"If the day comes when you try to harm the young lady, I’ll have no choice but to stop you. And in the process, she might learn my secret. If that happens, I’ll kill you and then take my own life. The young lady would surely despise me."
There wasn’t the slightest hint of lightness in the way she spoke of killing me.
Her sincerity pressed against my skin, and a chill ran straight through me.
"But…."
Her voice trailed off, and her expression grew even heavier.
Not knowing why, I could only wait until her lips opened again.
"The situation has changed…."
"…What do you mean?"
"At first, I thought it would be enough if I just endured it myself. I believed I could solve your grievance and your anger by sacrificing myself, on my own."
"…"
"But at some point I realized your thirst for revenge couldn’t be stopped at that level. Even so, I thought as long as I alone didn’t waver, I could still protect the young lady from you. So I planned to ignore your hidden intentions and bear it in silence."
The fact that she was speaking in the past tense meant something had changed now.
As if to confirm my thought, Dania went on.
"But foolishly enough, my heart keeps wavering…."
"You mean…."
"I’m starting to lean toward you."
To me, that was wonderful news.
But it was so sudden, and the mood around us was so strange, that I couldn’t bring myself to respond right away.
"I know your cruelty toward me, and I know your kind words whispered in my ear, were all meant to harm the young lady. And yet I keep wavering. To the point where it’s hard to hold myself together by sheer will alone."
As if she were speaking to herself, Dania’s eyes slowly closed.
Even while she kept talking without pause, I could feel the many thoughts grinding away in her head.
"I said that if you tried to harm the young lady, I’d have to stop you. But right now, I don’t want to hurt you any more than I want to protect the young lady."
After that, silence filled the room in place of her words.
Her eyelashes trembled precariously while her eyes remained gently shut.
A moment later she opened them again, and even then her face still carried endless distress.
"I don’t want to believe it, but that’s how much I’ve come to care about you. I denied it over and over, but it’s already happened…."
I said nothing, only looked at Dania.
Her worry and conflict were so heavy that even I, a mere outsider, could feel them, and it made it hard to speak.
There was also the simple fact that I couldn’t tell exactly what she wanted to say, which was why I kept my mouth shut.
"I don’t know when it started. Maybe it began long before I even noticed…."
And finally, I heard the words she had truly come here to say.
"…Ian. Please. Swear to me you’ll give up revenge against the young lady. If this keeps going, no matter which side wins, something miserable is bound to happen."
"What…?"
"Honestly, I don’t know how heavy your grievance and your longing for revenge are. It must be so deep I, who am not the one suffering, can’t possibly measure it."
"…And you’re saying that knowing that?"
"And yet the young lady is still more precious to me than anything else. If you try to hurt her, I’ll have no choice but to hurt you, against my own heart."
"…"
"I’m not asking you to ease your revenge for nothing. I’ll take that revenge onto myself. I’ll do whatever you tell me to do, and I’ll accept whatever you do to me. Just swear you won’t lay a hand on the young lady…."
What on earth was Selena to Dania?
What kind of presence was she, that Dania would be willing to sacrifice herself to protect her?
Even looking at her desperate expression, I still couldn’t grasp it.
Still, the moment Dania’s desire became clear, I was finally able to think properly and make a judgment.
…Nothing has changed.
No, if anything, this is better.
Dania had poured everything she had into me, and in doing so she’d leaned toward me strongly enough that she wanted to protect not only Selena but me as well.
Confirming that was undoubtedly a good thing.
Of course, she had caught my real intention to take revenge on Selena.
Her loyalty was much stronger than I’d expected, so that would definitely become an obstacle.
To overcome it, I’d probably need some special method, but in the end the direction of what I had to do didn’t change.
…For now, I should just act like I’m going along with her.
While I kept closing the distance between us, I’d look for the decisive way to turn her loyalty toward me.
"Got it. I’ll do as you say."
"Really?"
To hide what I really felt, I nodded with a serious face.
"I see… That’s such a relief!"
All at once, Dania’s face brightened.
It was such a luminous expression that it made the tension from just a moment ago look almost silly.
She even clasped her hands together as if thanking God.
"Thank you, Ian Drakhin! I was so worried you’d refuse my request. Thank goodness…. That means I can protect both you and the young lady."
She must have been terribly tense, because now that she’d relaxed, the words just kept spilling out of her.
Still, I was glad she’d accepted what I said without suspicion.
Seeing how happy she looked, maybe she simply couldn’t doubt it because this was the outcome she’d been hoping for.
"You don’t need to thank me. I like you."
"Th-that kind of lie isn’t necessary anymore."
"It’s not a lie. Like you said, I did approach you at first because of Selena. But over time, I really started to like you yourself, Dania."
That was the truth.
I’d said it before, but it was impossible not to feel drawn to a woman as attractive as Dania while doing this sort of thing in the first place.
Of course, I already had Michel as my lover.
And on top of that, even if we hadn’t made our relationship official, there was Anna, whose feelings were no different from a lover’s.
In that situation, having this kind of feeling for Dania too might not have been the right thing to do.
But could the human heart really be controlled that neatly?
For now, I wanted to blame the fact that Dania was simply too attractive, and be honest with my own feelings.
Of course, that didn’t mean I was going to ruin my revenge plan.
Being honest with my feelings only mattered so long as it didn’t interfere with revenge.
"Is that really… so?"
Dania, her face red as a strawberry, lowered her eyes and murmured the words.
It was as if she were rewinding what I’d just said in her head.
So this was what Dania looked like after she set down the burden on her shoulders.
Before I knew it, I was staring at her.
"If you really give up on Selena, you’ll do whatever I tell you to?"
"…Yes."
There was tension in Dania’s reply to my question.
"Then you’re basically my butler now, aren’t you?"
"N-no, that’s not true. My only master will always be the young lady. I made that request for her sake, did I not?"
"Right, got it."
It seemed the word butler carried a much heavier meaning for Dania than it did for other people.
If necessary, I’d have to strip the title of master away from Selena somehow, even if it meant killing me.
That said, as I’d already decided, I would need to come up with some special and decisive way to change Dania’s intense loyalty first.
Maybe that was why things had calmed down a little.
Between us, an awkward silence settled.
Dania stood there with her eyes fixed on the floor, motionless, like a stone figure that had grown roots in place.
Then, all of a sudden, I found myself curious about her real feelings.
What exactly had changed inside her for her to make that decision?
"Dania."
"W-why? Are you already trying to make me do something…?"
Dania, who’d been fidgeting in place, got needlessly flustered and asked that.
"From what you’re saying, it sounds like you like me too, doesn’t it?"
"…"
After a brief silence, she answered with a deeply thoughtful expression.
"Honestly, I’m not sure. It’s a feeling I’ve never experienced before in my life…. One thing I do know is that my resistance to your touch keeps growing weaker."
So she was still confused about her own feelings.
Maybe she simply didn’t want to admit it yet.
"W-well, I’ve said what I came to say, so I should head back now. Thank you for listening to me."
Then she suddenly turned toward the front door, and I hurriedly caught her shoulder.
I wasn’t about to let her go yet.
"Hold on. You’re just going to leave?"
"My business is finished…."
Her voice trailed off, and it was obvious she was aware of what she was doing even while pretending otherwise.
"I told you that if you came today, I’d let you do whatever you wanted with me all day. Don’t need that anymore?"
"That’s…."
"Do you have something urgent to do?"
"Not really. I’m allowed out until dinner. Still, I’ve been away from the young lady’s side too often lately…."
"If you’re fine until dinner, then wouldn’t it be okay to stay until then?"
"…"
Unable to say anything, she just worried her lips between her teeth, and I couldn’t help laughing.
"Then stay a little longer."
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I took off my clothes and lay down on the bed.
Between my comfortably spread legs, my already-erect cock was lifting its head toward the ceiling.
Dania sat in front of me, covering her most intimate place with her hands.
"…"
"What’s wrong? We’re not exactly the kind of pair that needs to hide anything."
"I-I don’t know. For some reason, it feels more embarrassing than before."
Since I’d told her I’d let her do what she wanted today, I hadn’t ordered her to take off her clothes.
"Then keep them on. You can do whatever’s most comfortable for you, anyway."
"They might get dirty…."
"What exactly are you planning to do that makes you say that?"
"…"
She glared at me with that fierce expression of hers, but it didn’t scare me at all anymore.
"I’m joking. Anyway, I’ll only do what you tell me to do, so just do whatever you want."
"…Understood."
With a serious face, she slowly moved closer to me.
What, exactly, did Dania want to do?
I’d heard that the positions and methods men and women preferred could differ quite a bit, so I was curious about her taste.
Was she going to start by sniffing my scent?
No, it wouldn’t be strange if she went straight for my cock and put it in her mouth from the start.
She might even surprise me by wanting to put it in and start moving right away.
While I was thinking that, Dania had already come close enough to wrap both arms around my neck.
Then the world went dark, and I tasted her on my tongue.
"Chuup, chup… chuup."
Dania’s lips leisurely bit at my upper lip.
She sucked lightly, as if tasting jelly candy, then let go and came back to cling to my lower lip.
…I hadn’t expected her to choose kissing first.
As though she were showing me why she’d chosen it, Dania’s tongue slipped between my lips.
Lost in bliss, I stuck my own tongue out before I realized it, and she was quick to coil around it, tasting my saliva.
"Chup, chuuup… chuooop… chup."
This was the third time we’d kissed.
But this was the first time she’d been this proactive, clinging to me on her own, and that somehow made it feel special.
As we kept tasting each other, it became harder and harder to restrain the throbbing in my groin.
Dania was lying over me while I stretched flat beneath her.
Even kissing alone was hard enough to endure, but now I could feel the softness of her body and breasts against me, and my lower half was growing more restless by the second.
Because I’d said I’d do as she asked, both my hands itched with the desire to grab her ass or her tits, and I had to force myself not to.
Dania, completely unaware of a man’s desperation, kept greedily tasting my lips.
Her unusually bold behavior made me even more aroused, but it also only made the arousal itself worse, which was becoming a real problem.
In the end, my instincts won out, and both hands seized one of her plump cheeks each.
"Hah!"
Startled by my touch, Dania broke the kiss and looked down at me.
…Was she angry?
Thankfully, when she spoke again, her voice was calm.
"Y-you want to touch them?"
Well, of course I did.
Even when this butler lets herself be held like that, she still knows nothing about men.
For a man, kissing is less an exchange of feelings and more like the appetizer before sex.
Who would be happy if you never served the main dish and just stuffed them with appetizers until they burst?
"…Understood. Touch them gently."
With permission granted, my fingers came alive and began kneading Dania’s ass.
Maybe I was rougher than she expected, because she let out a soft nasal sound and then covered my lips with hers again.
"Chuuup, chup… chuuuup…."
And so we kept kissing for a long while longer, but could any man really endure this just because he was squeezing her ass?
My third leg was standing hard, protesting that it wanted the main course.
"I-Ian…."
"Yeah?"
"Your, your thing is hot and looks like it’s about to burst. Are you all right?"
"…Of course I’m not all right. I’m going crazy because I want to cum."
"S-sorry! I’ll fix it right away."
So this was finally happening!
My lips, buoyed by the thought that mouth or pussy, either one was fine, overlapped hers once more.
Again with the kissing? How much do you even like kissing?
And then, at that very moment, a soft touch that made my whole body twitch wrapped around my cock.
It was her hand.
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