Chapter 41
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Translator: penny
Chapter: 41
Chapter Title: 5.3 Sister's Heart
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"Guhhh..."
Late at night.
I was rolling around on my bed in my room, tearing at my hair.
I recalled what had happened in the bathroom earlier that evening.
The atrocity I'd committed against my own blood sister.
The moment I'd defiled the person I was supposed to protect—with my own hands.
"Aaah~!"
Naibusu, that scum, had finally crossed the line.
I'd always known Naibusu was trash.
But I never imagined it'd actually come to this.
...No.
It wasn't Naibusu.
It was me.
I was the one who'd pounced on Sis, hurt her, and defiled her.
I was the one moaning in pleasure, bucking my hips, and spilling my filthy seed.
There was no one else to blame. It was all me.
"Damn...!"
I stuffed a pillow in my mouth and mumbled into it.
I couldn't make any noise, or Sis would worry.
Part of me wanted to swing Moonlight at full power and lop my head off, but Sis would be heartbroken if I did.
...And.
This wasn't the first time I'd done something like this to Sis.
I'd done it to Sana too. To Akatsuki-sensei. To Mizuki the prez and Shinoshino. To Nanami and Reika as well.
Before I knew it, I was defiling all the women I'd sworn to protect.
As if I'd been possessed by something.
The women around me were falling, one after another, into my hands.
...At this rate, I'm not just playing the thug—I'm the genuine article, the Golden Sun himself.
Aaagh! Damn it!
How the hell did things end up like this?!
All I wanted was to protect everyone...!
"...Because this world is a trash game's world...?"
Is that the reason in the end?
Because the worldview is trash, no matter how much I struggle, all I get are trash developments and trash outcomes?
Were all my actions completely meaningless in the end?
Has the only change been swapping out the trash rapist scum for trash Naibusu as the one defiling the heroines?
"...Haa..."
Calm down.
Life goes on.
This trash game is still playing out, and right now, those rapist scum are lying in wait for their chance.
They're waiting for the moment I weaken.
If I give up, it's all over.
"Phew."
If I've got time to regret the past, better spend it thinking about the future.
There has to be a way to turn this around.
A way for everyone to get a happy ending.
Figure out what to do next.
Think, Naibusu.
──First things first, about Sis.
Why did this happen? And what should I do going forward?
"Why, Sis...?"
I'd known Sis harbored some peculiar sex fantasies.
For example, ones about her little brother—me—forcing myself on her. Rape wish kind of stuff.
But Sis wasn't the only one with fantasies like that.
Any woman has her libido, and surprisingly, rape fantasies aren't that niche a kink.
Most of the girls at the academy who lock eyes with me end up imagining me pouncing on them.
Probably because of my thug image.
And a lot of those women actually enjoy the fantasy.
The ratio is unrealistically high.
Even Sana, who seems so prim and proper. Even Hina, who looks so young and innocent.
Girlfriends with boyfriends, married women, girls close to me or on bad terms—it doesn't matter.
Just listening to their minds makes it feel like every last one of them secretly wants me to rape them.
But.
You can't mix up fantasy and reality.
That's precisely why fantasies are enjoyable—because they're fantasies.
'Guhehe, you're loving this deep down, aren'tcha?' That crap only flies in manga.
Take Sis, for instance.
She'd gone down on me... like that.
But there wasn't a shred of joy or pleasure in the thoughts coming from her mind.
Nothing but worry and consideration for me.
...But that was exactly what confused me even more.
If Sis had wanted it herself, I could've understood.
But all I could sense from her was pity for me.
So why the hell did she do that to me?
If my memory wasn't distorted, it wasn't me assaulting her—it was Sis assaulting me.
She'd grabbed me as I tried to run away, forcing herself on me.
Even reading her mind, it only came across as: 'If I leave him be, Naibusu might do something awful! Better that it be me first!'
I couldn't figure out why she'd jumped to the conclusion that I'd do something awful if left alone.
No, I could sort of understand the thought process.
Right after the semester started, over ten guys got tangled up in sex crimes and ended up dead.
With the already low number of male students plummeting like that, it must've come up at the faculty meeting.
It wouldn't be strange if infamous Naibusu topped the list of prime suspects for the next victim—or perpetrator.
But I'm different from those rapist scum!
I'm the one who killed those trashes!
Why won't Sis trust her little brother?!
And even if she'd reached that conclusion, why did it lead to 'Better that it be me first!'?
Wouldn't it be better to just let me die?
Hell, wouldn't killing me before I caused trouble be the smarter move?
My life versus Sis's purity.
No need to even compare which one's more valuable.
Why didn't Sis just kill me!
Why'd she let her purity get... defiled...!
...No.
Sis's purity hasn't been defiled yet.
Who's the bastard doubting Sis's purity?
I guarantee it—Sis is pure!
If she's got her hymen, she's a virgin!
These words come from the Unicorn King himself, so you know it's legit!
Call me a hypocrite all you want! Sis is pure!
...But.
This is one thing I can't let slide.
If things keep going like this, Sis will repeat the original story's tragedy.
So I have to make it crystal clear to her.
Sis's purity is heavier than the Earth itself.
She can't just hand it over so easily for the sake of a trash little brother like me.
I steeled my resolve and stood before Sis's door.
-Knock knock.
"Sis."
"Naibusu?"
After what happened in the bathroom.
Sis had been radiating a mind full of loneliness and regret.
Not regret over the act itself, but worry that she'd hurt me with something so sudden.
Probably because my attitude when I left the bathroom hadn't exactly been thrilled.
I'd looked all sulky, like the victim.
『What's Naibusu doing here in the middle of the night? ...Ah! Could it be!』
"Ahem. Come in."
Her voice was trying to hide her delight.
What was she expecting, anyway.
I didn't want to know.
-Click.
I opened the door and stepped in. Sis was waiting for me, dressed in mature pajamas.
To put it bluntly: sexy as hell.
There was nowhere safe to look.
I'd seen her body inside and out just a little while ago, but that didn't make seeing her in what was basically lingerie any less impactful.
『Mother. Today, I become a woman.』
...Sis, you're already a woman. What do you mean "become" one?
You're not Yuuki or anything.
"Naibusu. Sorry about earlier. Sis just got scared all of a sudden... But I'm fine now. Sis is ready."
For some reason, Sis reached for the strap on her pajama top, trying to loosen it.
I clung to my fading sanity.
"...Sis. I'm not here to do that."
I grabbed her hand to stop her from undressing.
Her hand felt a little cold. And it was trembling.
"I came because I wanted to talk with you, Sis."
"Talk?"
"Yeah. Please, just listen first. Don't jump straight into the naughty stuff."
"Naibusu! Don't talk about your sis like she's some perv who only wants that!"
"If you don't want to be treated like one, then listen to what I'm saying!"
I let out a light sigh.
Good.
I'd been worried things would get awkward between us after what happened.
But the mood had lightened up a bit.
I sat down on the bed next to Sis.
Leaving just enough space that our hands wouldn't quite brush.
"Sis. There's just one thing I want you to know. You're the most precious person in my life."
"Naibusu..."
It was embarrassing to say, but I had to get it out clearly.
Conveying true feelings is hard.
Even for me, with the Mind Rune letting me read thoughts, I still struggle to fully grasp people's hearts.
The more important the talk, the clearer I have to make it.
"So, Sis—no matter what happens, please don't throw your body away like that. I'm begging you."
I'd chosen my words carefully, or so I thought.
"...Naibusu. Do you think your sis is some woman who throws her body around whenever she feels like it?"
Sis shot back, sounding a little angry.
I knew she hadn't done it lightly.
I added on to clear up the misunderstanding.
"Not 'whenever she feels like it'—I mean 'no matter the situation.' Like, don't fall for crap like 'Sacrifice your purity to save Naibusu' or whatever. No matter what. Never."
Sis fell silent at my words.
『Why's Naibusu saying stuff like this? Has he already committed a sin big enough that he deserves to die?』
"...Obviously, I'm not saying this because I've committed some capital crime. I just hate the idea of you going through something awful way more than me dying. No matter who it is—even if it's me."
"You mean that? Be honest with Sis. You haven't already done something to Nanami, have you...?"
"Sis!"
I cut her off seriously, and Sis grinned.
"Kidding. Sis knows you wouldn't."
She knows, huh. Even though she was doubting it inside.
"Promise me, Sis. No matter what, you won't throw your body away."
"What're you taking me for?"
"This is serious. Promise."
"Fine, I promise. No matter what, I won't do it rashly. Happy now?"
Her tone was still light, like she was joking around.
She clearly wasn't taking it all that seriously.
"...Sis. For example—just hypothetically."
"Hm?"
"Armed terrorists take over the academy."
"...Hm?"
"And the terrorist says, 'Guhehe. Teacher, you're a looker, huh? Strip, or I'll blow this kid's head off.'"
I pointed a finger-gun at my own head.
Like a hostage student.
"...In a situation like that, what would you do, Sis?"
Sis peered into my face, quietly sizing up my intentions.
Then she spoke.
"...I'd do whatever it takes. Just please, spare the students...!"
"Ah, come on! Sis!"
I grabbed her hand again to stop her from undressing.
"What part of 'no matter what, don't do it' did you not get?!"
"Huh? I thought you wanted to role-play something like this?"
I tore at my hair, watching her tilt her head cutely.
"Oh, God."
Sis burst out laughing at me.
"Okay, okay. Even in a situation like that, I won't, got it?"
Her tone was still light, like it was all a joke.
"...Sis. I'm being dead serious right now."
Normal people just don't get it.
The heart of a pure love unicorn.
The weight of these words.
Or the fact that something like this could actually happen in the near future.
"I promise, I promise. Pinky swear~ There, happy?"
Sis hooked her pinky with mine.
But there wasn't an ounce of sincerity in the gesture.
"I'm serious, Sis. If you break that promise, I'll off myself right there on the spot. No joke."
"Why say something so scary? Sis is serious too. Okay?"
"...Fine. I'm heading to bed."
I got off the bed after hearing her so-called affirmation.
No point pushing it further—I knew it wouldn't get through.
And staying in this room any longer would just invite bad thoughts.
"Goodnight, Naibusu."
"Night, Sis."
I sighed lightly as I left the room.
Her mind waves felt a bit warmer and more at ease than when I'd arrived.
Glad to see Sis's heart had lightened up a little.
But the contents? Not exactly to my liking.
『Sorry, Naibusu. To you, Sis is more precious than your life. To Sis, you're more precious than her life. I don't think I can keep that promise.』
...Yeah, figures.
Before a situation like that arises, looks like I'll have to kill them all myself.