It's Not My True Feelings — It's All Because of the Incubus...
Something's wrong.
Up until the moment Hyeok-jin came back, my body had been perfectly fine. No foggy, dazed feeling clouding my head. No heart hammering like I was having an arrhythmia. And my lower abdomen definitely wasn't this wet.
...What's different?
While Hyeok-jin was away, I hadn't given a single reason to turn into a female in heat. Same as before, for that matter.
I'd teased him with my soft, luscious tail, sure. But that was just the kind of prank friends pull on each other. I only did it sometimes because the guy likes furries. Absolutely not because I liked him.
A few days of sleeping under the same roof and I'm already descending into female corruption? That doesn't make any sense either. Every time he tried to climb onto the bed, I kicked him off to sleep on the floor. The only body part I even allowed him was my thick, fluffy tail.
So then why does looking at that guy make my chest and my lower half tingle?
I thought about it for a second, and the answer came surprisingly easily.
"The incubus put something weird on my body."
There's no other explanation. Because I don't like that guy. Not yet.
But what kind of dark art did the incubus cast to make me feel this desperately worked up? An aphrodisiac, like those classic adult manga tropes?
No, that's not it. I carefully touched my erogenous zones the way I would during happy time, but the pleasure was barely any different from when I masturbate.
So is it just amplified sexual desire? Come to think of it, heat season had a bit of this feeling too. A female's instinct to receive a strong male's seed. A beast's instinct to birth more children and reproduce. And finally, love...
...Yeah, no. Not that one.
Anyway, once I'd figured out the curse on me, I tried to put distance between myself and him. The closer I got to Hyeok-jin, the stronger the scent of a powerful male and the aura amplifying my lust became — pushing me to jump him.
So I silently, carefully started edging away from him. He tilted his head and strode right toward me.
"Hey, you hurt anywhere? Nothing weird going on?"
That gentle, worried voice, and the sudden rush of his scent flooding into my nose — I couldn't help it.
"Hnn..."
My head went blank.
This... might be bad. If just the smell is enough to make me dizzy, what would it feel like if we actually did it? Dangerous. I have to get away from him somehow. Otherwise, otherwiseee...
"Haaah...♡"
Schlick!
A jolt hit my lower abdomen and my mind went white all over again.
I can't keep going like this. While I still have a scrap of sanity left, I need to put distance between us. Clinging to the brief moment my thought process returned to normal, I asked him to back off.
"Hey, don't ask why... j-just stay away for a second. Please, I'm begging you..."
I barely managed to hold down the lust surging up again as I pleaded, but Hyeok-jin shook his head.
"I'd love to. But the thing is..."
He showed me the thick, luscious, deeply sinful fox tails wrapped around both his arms, both legs, and his waist, and let out a sigh.
"I peel them off, peel them off again, and the tails just keep curling back around me. How am I supposed to get away? Do something about those tails first."
My childhood friend, already resigned, like there was nothing he could do. At his words I tried to release the restraints I'd made with my tails — but those luscious tails that normally obeyed me so well refused to listen this time. And beyond the tails, even my body started moving on its own, outside my control.
No. If I get any closer, I'm really going to lose my mind. I need to escape while I still have a shred of reason left...
Or so I thought — but before I knew it, my body had closed the distance to Hyeok-jin, tightly embracing him and eagerly drinking in his scent.
Sniff — haah.
Thick and sweet like honey, a feeling that numbed my reason. Is this what doing drugs feels like? I wondered, pressing myself a little tighter against him.
Good. The smell is so good. How happy would I be if I could live my whole life smelling this?
...Smell alone isn't enough. I want to taste it too.
Carefully, very carefully, let's try a lick. If it smells this intoxicating, there's no way it tastes bad, right?
I started searching for the place where the scent was most intoxicating. Lower. A little lower. The further down I crouched, the thicker that intoxicating smell became. When I found the spot where the scent poured out densest, I stuck out my tongue and licked once.
Lick.
And what hit the tip of my tongue was the rough, dry taste of fabric. I frowned in disappointment.
...Tastes bad.
How can something that smells this delicious taste so weird? Unpleasant. Annoying.
Was I just sitting there, smelling him and looking regretful? Hyeok-jin looked down at me with a sigh and slowly began drawing up his energy.
"If you keep going I'm not gonna be able to hold back, so this is a no-go. I'm purifying you right now — brace yourself for the shame that's about to hit."
"Shame?"
I just smelled an intoxicating scent. What's the problem with that? I tilted my head in confusion, and he quickly chanted a spell.
Soon my head cleared, and everything I'd just done came flooding back. Clinging to him and sniffing his body odor like an animal. And even licking him all over like a beast marking its territory.
...What the hell did I just do?
Even if I was drowning in lust, I did that kind of insane shit to him?
"AAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
I screamed under the crushing self-loathing and shame, staring at my ball-buddy. He smiled like a sage and opened his mouth.
"It's fine. It's a female's instinct — these things happen."
"Bullshit. My body's female but my mind is male, okay? This self-loathing is fucking killing me."
I spat out a string of curses and shook my head like a madman. He approached with a pitying look and chopped the back of my neck with the edge of his hand.
"Go to sleep. You'll feel better when you wake up."