Chapter 28: The Anxieties of the Literate
What is it? Hurry up and tell me. Before Yerin comes out.
"......"
Her sister’s sharp eyes.
No matter how old I get, her sharp eyes are still terrifying.
If it were normal, I wouldn’t be able to push back, but right now I’m not being unreasonable, so I can’t really argue.
“I had a drink.”
“Drink? What kind?”
“You know, the wine I had when eating steak.”
“Oh, that? Why?”
“I got drunk from that…”
“What if I drank something that strong on my first drink?”
“I thought it would be fine…”
Sure, drinking over twenty percent wine on my first try would make me get drunk quickly…
But the problem isn’t that.
“So, you got drunk and Yerin got drunk too?”
“No, I didn’t get that drunk.”
“Yeah… Let’s assume you didn’t. So.”
“Um…”
“Hurry up. Don’t drag it out.”
“…I just ran up to you.”
“Yerin ran up to you…?”
“Yeah.”
“Was that why…?”
“I didn’t do anything. Nothing at all. I just comforted her.”
“Haa… Okay. If that’s the case, it’s fine.”
I almost had a disaster.
If the uncle, who is my dad, found out that he kissed his own daughter, it wouldn’t have ended with just surprise.
“So you fought over that?”
“I don’t know… I just did what I thought was natural.”
“…I see.”
Her sister’s already dark face grew even darker.
After all, if it were me, I would have been quite shocked if my son ran up to my sister.
“That kid ended up doing it… I knew she had feelings for you.”
“What are you talking about?”
“……No.”
“What? Tell me.”
This time I spoke.
What is it with all the sighing.
“Hurry up and tell me. Before Yerin comes out.”
“……I know, so drop it.”
I unconsciously let go of my sister’s wrist.
It started to make me tense up for no reason.
“Yerin… is actually your daughter.”
“…….”
She knew.
That Yerin was our daughter.
That she was born from that day’s mistake.
It wasn’t just my secret, so maybe that was why I felt a strange mix of emptiness and relief.
“You don’t seem surprised at all.”
“…I knew.”
“What? How?”
“We did a paternity test together. Quite a while ago.”
Chuseok.
The night when I had my first long conversation with Yerin.
At Yerin’s own request, we did a paternity test.
And the result was ninety-nine percent certainty of paternity.
“Haa… You were eavesdropping, weren’t you.”
“What? About my sister?”
“Yeah… about Yerin being our daughter.”
“…What do you mean ‘she did it’?”
“Maybe that’s it. She always said she likes people who look like her family. But since you’re not her dad, she couldn’t just give up easily.”
It was exactly what Yerin said at the time.
Normally, people like people who look like their family.
Yerin just liked the family itself.
And she clung to me using the power of alcohol…
“…What about the uncle? Do you know?”
“I know.”
“What…?”
“Who else would I have told about this? No one but you, oppa.”
“…How did you know?”
“…It was a blood test.”
“…….”
All the gears fit perfectly.
The reason she asked me if I was her dad, just because I didn’t look like her dad.
The reason she didn’t receive her dad’s love.
The reason there was no second child.
And the reason they were sexless.
“Why didn’t you tell me… why.”
“I’m sorry.”
It won’t end with just that.
No matter what price I pay, it won’t heal her wounded heart.
Even if she committed suicide right in front of me, the brother wouldn’t accept it.
“Why didn’t the uncle tell me again.”
Normally, if that was the case, he would come with a knife or at least cause a big scene.
Why was that exactly.
“Wh, what did he say?”
I said it while suppressing the anger and panic that seemed like it would burst out at any moment.
“If it’s my child… he said it’s okay.”
“What kind of nonsense is that.”
“After all, I can’t have kids… so he said it’s okay because it’s with you who gave birth to the child…”
“Was it over just like that? With just one sentence?”
“It wasn’t… a lot happened.”
“…….”
During that time, what kind of eyes was the uncle looking at me?
He was definitely someone he wanted to kill.
Even if I was in the uncle’s position, I would want to kill him.
Why did the brother save me?
Not only that, why did he accept me?
Did he like our sister that much?
Or was there no one else who could accept the uncle besides our sister?
I couldn’t understand any reason.
“Haa… I’m crazy, I’m crazy…”
“Be quiet. Yerin will hear.”
“Yeah… sorry.”
Somehow, because I was thinking about taking responsibility for Yerin, I barely managed to maintain my sanity.
Even that thought was necessary so I wouldn’t commit suicide right here.
“…I’m leaving.”
“Yeah. Be careful.”
“…….”
I thought it would be better if I got hit by a car and died, and opened the front door.
“Eh, brother-in-law. You worked hard. Thanks for taking care of Yerin.”
“…No. It’s nothing.”
I need to say it.
Why didn’t you say anything until now.
Why did you save someone you wanted to kill until now.
Why did you raise a child whose blood is not mixed until now.
“Is the wife at home?”
“Yeah… my brother is waiting inside.”
But my mouth wouldn’t move easily.
To be precise, I didn’t want to say it honestly.
Even though it’s peaceful like this now, I didn’t want to go home with a grudge and cause a scene.
“Ah. Okay. Come in!”
“Yeah… see you next time.”
So, I, who promised not to keep it, headed home like a vicious criminal who committed a heinous crime, being chased by people’s gazes.
“Uncle.”
“Yeah?”
“…Um. My sister said not to worry. She understands.”
“Ah, a… ah~ you two had counseling~ sorry. I made you worry for nothing.”
“No… go in.”
“Yeah. Be careful~”
In the end, my mouth wouldn’t move.
♠
“Oppa. Really, you don’t have to go?”
“Yeah. I don’t have to go. I went during Chuseok too, and mom met her personally.”
“Thanks.”
Yerin’s house has few relatives, so she said she wouldn’t go this New Year because she went during the end of the year.
Since I had no plans either, I met Yerin who had an empty schedule at the right time.
“Are you going to be home today?”
“Where are you going?”
“No, if it’s hard for you, you can stay home.”
“Thanks.”
It had been more than a month since I lost contact with Yerin and didn’t contact my sister.
Now that I don’t have to pick up Yerin on the way to work, I came back to how it was before.
“Want me to cook something? I learned one thing from watching a video.”
“What?”
“Right away~ Crispy Samgyeopsal!”
“Oh. I wanted to try it once, want to try?”
“Yeah. It looks delicious.”
Crispy Samgyeopsal.
It’s a dish where you fry the samgyeopsal skin like chicken, and eat it crisp and delicious.
“So, shall we go buy together?”
“Yeah? No. You can rest at your house.”
“Even though we met, it’s better to shop together.”
“Oppa…”
Even though I said that, Yerin hugged me, probably because she wanted me to go with her.
We left the front door together in a good atmosphere.
“Hmm… this should be good?”
“I think we’ll finish it in a day.”
“Then what were you planning to eat for several days?”
“Yeah.”
“No. You have to finish this in a day or you won’t get fat.”
“Is that so…?”
Personally, I like to stack delicious things and eat them.
After all, frying oil-rich food in oil isn’t going to be low in calories.
“Sit and wait~”
“Okay.”
While Yerin was cooking in the kitchen, I set the table.
The delicious smell vibrated in the room, informing that the crispy samgyeopsal was ready.
“Hmm~ it tastes good?”
“Really?”
“Yeah. It turned out exactly like in the video. Crispy and the meat is juicy. It’s super delicious.”
“Glad to hear…”
Yerin, who heard my opinion, started eating with relief this time.
As Yerin said, if I ate this for several days, I would have become a pig in an instant.
It was so delicious that I wanted to keep eating.
“Huu… thanks for making it. I ate well.”
“Yeah…”
After wiping the table and doing the dishes, the noisy house became quiet.
The warm atmosphere unique to holidays and the warm temperature rising from the floor made the body languid.
And it narrowed our distance.
“Oppa. Do you have that?”
“What?”
“…You know.”
“Ah… that?”
It was pointing to the cabinet on the opposite side, saying it’s in there.
Yerin opened the cabinet and took out one condom.
“The expiration date hasn’t passed, right?”
“You bought it less than two months ago, what are you talking about.”
After buying it when I was taking the CSAT just in case, we couldn’t use it all because we were busy.
Since Christmas, we haven’t used it at all, so more than half is left.
“Whoo…”
Naturally, Yerin climbed on top of me and kissed.
The tongue that wrapped around as if waiting for this moment calmed my anxious heart.
I took off the wine-colored knit, lifted the khaki bra up, and buried my face in it.
“Oppa… I really like your chest…”
“I’ll use it a lot later.”
“What are you saying… ugh…”
I tormented her hard nipple, feeling Yerin’s body temperature.
Even though it was a little, I felt the softness of the raised peak as much as possible, and took off all the remaining clothes and laid her on the bed.
“You’re pretty active today…?”
“I was holding it in…”
“Did you hold it in because I was coming…?”
“Hmm… I’ll say so.”
“Pervert.”
Actually, it was just accumulated because I didn’t have that feeling.
Since the woman I saw for the first time in a long time was Yerin, the accumulated feelings exploded.
“Want me to use my mouth?”
“Yeah…”
I grabbed the top of the condom, put it in my mouth, and inserted it as if sucking my penis.
The tightly rolled condom expanded and wrapped my penis.
“Since I was holding it in too… put it in.”
“Yeah──”
Uung. Uung. Uung.
At the moment I tried to insert my penis, the ringing phone.
Normally, I would have ignored it and inserted it, but for some reason, I had to answer the phone because I felt uneasy.
[Yerin]
The number of Yerin that I had stored since some point.
Was there something that happened because of the conversation we had then.
If something big happened at home, the sister would have called.
While I was hesitating for a moment, the call ended.
“Who is it?”
“Ah… no. I cut the call with my cousin.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
After lightly kissing to adjust the atmosphere again, at the moment of insertion.
“Ah…”
“Oh, oppa… are you okay?”
“S, sorry, wait a sec──”
“Oppa. Why are you like that.”
“Yeah… it’s not that…”
“Oppa! You’re sweating cold sweat!”
The penis that was lively just a few seconds ago withered instantly.