#18. Virgin (2)
#18. Virgin (2)
"I'm a virgin... you fucking bastard!"
Na-eun clenched her fist tightly and yelled at me, not giving a damn that her neatly trimmed pubic hair was blatantly on display.
Han Na-eun... a virgin?
"Haa... Na-eun-ah. I admit calling you a slut was too harsh. But let's not lie to each other like that."
Everyone lives their life holding onto some kind of belief.
And my belief is...
"Why are you pretending like you have no experience? Huh? That's really not okay. That's super sensitive for guys."
Virgin. Non-virgin.
For me, an Erotic Novelist, nothing was more serious than this.
I was like the leader commanding tens of thousands of the Unicorn Legion.
No matter how real life is, you don't cross that line. Na-eun-ah.
"I'll really apologize for calling you a slut. But don't insist you're a virgin."
"Nooo... I really am..."
One drop. Two drops.
Suddenly, tears started streaming from her eyes.
"I'm really a virgiiin..."
Even when her ass was getting smacked, she'd responded so toughly, but now she burst into sobs.
...What the hell is this situation?
I couldn't help but panic as Na-eun started crying so pitifully.
Not caring if her face got messed up, she sobbed with her slender shoulders shaking.
Was calling her a slut that bad?
I mean, yeah, it could be, but after calling me a total perv and a bastard earlier today, do you really have the right to cry like this?
The vibe was that I needed to comfort her somehow, so I slowly approached her...
Me. Thinking about it, I've never comforted a girl before?
The process of making a mosol ada isn't that hard.
In elementary school, you just spin your indoor shoes bag around absentmindedly while going to school,
Then in boys' middle school, you scream about sex with your friends and hang out at PC bangs,
In boys' high school, you sleep all day slumped over until senior year when you cram like crazy for the college entrance exam.
Boom. A 20-year-old college freshman with zero experience is born.
After 20, some guys figure out how to talk to girls, find a partner, and take off, but that didn't apply to me.
I wasn't good with words anyway, and I didn't like meeting people much.
Even in college, I just drank with the partying guys all the time, and then my enlistment notice came flying in.
Fuck.
Even now, I can't forget the day I got that enlistment notice.
I don't even want to think about what came after.
The face of that dogshit senior flashed by.
When I got discharged, I was damaged goods.
Still unopened... but damaged.
When I went back to school, my title was "mister," and freshmen started avoiding me.
And now.
This moment where I have to comfort a girl.
I felt so pathetic with zero experience.
Well, even if I'd had a normal girlfriend, I probably wouldn't have made her cry by calling her a slut.
"Na-eun-ah..."
I placed my hand on her shoulder.
"What?"
"I'm sorry. Okay?"
"Oppa... Oppa doesn't believe I'm a virgin..."
But you're not, right?
Huh? Who'd believe a slim, cute girl like you at 24 has never done it? Realistically.
Just looking at the outfit she wore out today screamed something guys would go crazy for.
Hell, it'd be more believable if I called myself the reality Sex King.
Nah, maybe not. Anyway.
"No, no. You're a virgin. Just. Na-eun-ie virgin~ Smile~"
I wasn't sure if this was right, but I figured just affirming she was a virgin was the quickest way to stop her crying.
"...You believe me now?"
Na-eun rubbed her eyes with her hand while sniffling and asked me.
"Yeah, yeah. Brand new! Unused! Fresh off the factory line!"
I figured something like that might give her some comfort.
It felt kinda crazy, but I was already in a state where I couldn't tell if this was a dream or reality.
I'd spanked her ass red in her one-room until it was beet red.
"Yeah... I still have my hymen intact..."
Na-eun muttered in a tiny voice.
Seeing her calm down a bit made me relieved, but I also started sensing I was fucked.
If what she said was true, then I'd...
All the shit I'd done to her, thinking she was a slut, came rushing back.
The first time at the motel, I'd shoved my dick down her throat, and today I'd flipped her ass over and spanked it.
Oh. Fuck.
Na-eun's reddened eyes.
Her lower half still completely naked.
I...
"...You should go today."
Na-eun glared at me and opened her mouth.
"Huh...?"
"I said go. We're done now."
She got up and turned her back, and I could see the red handprint from my palm still there.
"Don't you have to prep for the Design Deadline? Not going?"
"Yeah, I do. Uh."
I checked the time, and more had passed than I thought.
If this kept up, I might not finish the manuscript.
She plopped down on the bed and covered her lower half with the blanket.
Curled up like a wounded animal, Na-eun wouldn't even look at my face as she said it.
"...Go. You perv oppa."
"Hey. I'm... sorry for hitting you. Sorry for calling you a slut. Na-eun-ah. I'm heading out first."
"Before you go, repeat after me once."
Suddenly?
"Repeat it."
"Got it."
What's this, another weird thing?
"Na-eun-ie is."
"Na-eun-ie is."
"A virgin."
"A virgin."
...Na-eun-ie is a virgin?
"Now say it two more times alone."
"Na-eun-ie is a virgin."
"Na-eun-ie is a virgin."
Like some hypnotic Erotic Novel, I repeated her words like a chant and watched her reaction.
"Okay. Remember that and go for real now."
"...Yeah. I'm going."
Grabbing my stuff and leaving Na-eun's Officetel, I was swept up in an indescribable mood.
Na-eun...
What the hell is she?
I had no clue what kind of girl she was.
I'd thought she was pretty experienced up till now.
That's why I figured her calling me a mosol or ada was just provocation.
I thought even a mosol like me had to squirm if stepped on, so I channeled Lee Jin-seong inside me, but if Na-eun's a virgin...
First, before writing the novel at home, let's write a suicide note.
Sorry. Please don't forgive this unfilial son. Mom, Dad.
To my countless readers. The author lived as Lee Jin-seong for a very short time.
Don't ever follow my example, and just stay home jerking off quietly.
If you don't want your life to go to shit.
Pondering the menu for my last meal before suicide, I arrived home before I knew it.
I had to meet the Manuscript Deadline, so I sat at my desk and let out a deep sigh.
The title on the screen for this chapter.
Han Na-eun (1)
The image of Na-eun crying and insisting she was a virgin flickered in my mind.
I'd fled her place like my life depended on it, and now Han Na-eun was waiting for me again.
This is just...
Anyway, just like I'd told Na-eun, I had to create the busty platinum blonde, kind Han Na-eun from my novel.
Yeah. The Na-eun in my novel is...
As soon as Minho oppa left, I couldn't help but tremble with how pathetic I felt.
I should've held back.
I should've told him I was a virgin some other way, but I couldn't hold in the grievance and went full throttle.
You idiot Han Na-eun.
A bitch who can't even hold back an orgasm right before getting fucked.
A bitch who dressed up all flashy to seduce him cockily and got treated like a slut.
What will oppa think of me after I cried and declared I'm a virgin?
If oppa had stayed in my room, it would've turned into comforting petting sex no matter what.
In the end, stuck between a rock and a hard place, I sent oppa back home.
Tomorrow I'll have to go back to school and face him again.
My head was already pounding.
He'll treat me like a half-crazy girl. Probably.
I wanted to be like Kang Suyeon, the haughty and arrogant first heroine, but the tears ruined the concept.
But... but...
I really couldn't stand him saying I wasn't a virgin.
How long had I held back so hard.
The virginity I'd protected all this time.
Saying he wouldn't take it even if I offered because I seemed like a slut was too much...
Even thinking back, it hurt so bad I felt like going insane.
I hate you... Minho oppa...
My ass stung from where oppa hit it, but as I sprawled on the bed wishing he'd hit me again, I closed my eyes.
Ugh...
What time is it now?
Not long after oppa left, I'd fallen asleep, so I checked my phone.
[03:37]
Woke up at a weird time.
Habitually pulling down the top bar, I checked notifications.
[I Imprisoned Her] has been uploaded! Check it out!
Subscription notification...
Nothing to do in the middle of the night, so I tapped it and opened Novel World.
And today's episode.
Han Na-eun (1) was uploaded.
The Han Na-eun Episode that Minho oppa might've written.
With a bit of tension, I went into the latest chapter.
The more I scrolled down, the more a smile bloomed on my face.
Because I'd...
Discovered proof that Minho oppa is the author Han Gyeo-ul!