My Hyung Is an Alpha Male, But Still...
My older brother, who was born just one year ahead of me, had an entirely different caliber.
In elementary school, he sailed through the gifted academy with no special preparation whatsoever.
He won the national tennis tournament.
From a young age, his striking looks had already earned him offers to be a child actor.
Whether it was studies, sports, or appearance, Cheon Yuseong was simply a star✧ overflowing with innate talent.
But the true measure of my hyung’s worth lay in his personality.
He never once looked down on me, who was always inferior to him.
Instead, he accepted every bit of my mischief without complaint.
Even those who resented my hyung would soften and open up when they spoke with him.
He was the quintessential born insider, surrounded by friends at all times.
Whenever the topic of gifted high school or science high school came up, he would show me his business card.
“What’s this?”
“Haeseong-ah, I got a proposal to become an idol.”
“Hyung is an idol? And it’s a new agency I’ve never heard of?”
“It’s not like that. Haha…”
In my hyung’s first hesitant expression—the one I had never seen before—I found myself cheering for him.
Of course, it wasn’t sincere.
It came from a spiteful desire for his luck to turn sour.
To me, mediocre in studies, sports, and looks, my hyung was the constant target of comparison and inferiority.
The people who approached me were always only those hoping to get close to my hyung.
I wanted my hyung, Yuseong, to fail at least once, thoroughly.
But…
Although it was a bit late to start as a trainee, within just one year he debuted in the refreshing-concept boy group Uranus.
He shattered the limits of small-to-medium agency idols and caused a massive syndrome from the very beginning.
“Everyone was negative. At that time, my younger brother told me that if it was hyung, he could always do well. That was like priming water for me.”
“Whoa! What a cool younger brother.”
Watching the debut first-year anniversary interview, I let out a bitter smile.
I realized it again.
This man was truly extraordinary.
Even if I devoted my entire life to it, I could never reach even the tips of his toes.
“Can you give me hyung’s contact?”
“Can you pass this on to Yuseong?”
“Give me an autograph. My younger brother is a fan.”
After my hyung debuted as an idol, more people began approaching me.
I decided not to harbor the luxury of wanting them to see the real me, not my hyung.
I knew that if it wasn’t my hyung, I was nothing special.
They would look at me, not my hyung.
I thought that having just one or two real friends was enough.
Until I accidentally overheard my ten-year childhood friend talking with some girls.
“You hang out with Cheon Haeseong often, right? Are you dating or something?”
“No. If I get close to him, I can see oppa.”
“Oh~. A strategist? You’re going after the young master first?”
I had a vague suspicion.
The reason this girl was associating with someone like me was because of my hyung’s existence.
Or because of the short moment when she came to our house, smiled, and greeted my hyung.
I actually knew, but I turned away, believing it was friendship.
…Still, my heart hurt terribly.
By middle school, there was some incident.
That day, I finally confessed to my parents the things I had been thinking about all along.
“What are you saying! You’re going to live independently in high school far away! What can you do properly? You’re not as sharp as your brother, and you don’t have cuteness like your younger sister……”
Your mother used to be a classical vocalist, so her voice was always loud.
Her angry tone rang piercingly in my ears.
“If you want to try, go ahead.”
My father, who still preferred paper newspapers, didn’t look away from the paper.
“Do you remember when you were little? Aunt, you’re the aunt to you. I entrusted you to that house.”
“A little, yes.”
I nodded.
It’s a tourist city in Cheongpo-si in the Yeongdong region, adjacent to the East Sea.
“That person passed away and left it to me. If it’s okay there, go live there.”
“Why are you saying that! You too! This kid needs to be educated. He’s not good at anything else!”
“Enough. If you’re going to do it halfway here, it’s better to go to the countryside. Don’t meddle.”
When the professor father said it decisively, the mother closed her mouth as if displeased.
“However, if you leave your parents’ home, I can’t provide living expenses. Earn and spend it. Are you still going to go?”
With that indifferent remark like “you wouldn’t dare go,”
“Yes. Father. Please send me.”
I answered without hesitation.
Anywhere was fine as long as it was a place where no one knew about my relationship with my hyung.