Get Out of My Head
I'd heard Lua call me a pervert plenty of times over the years, but I could say this with absolute certainty.
The number of times she called me a pervert today far outstripped every previous instance combined.
"Pervert bastard, pervert bastard, pervert bastard…"
"I said I was sorry… It wasn't even on purpose…"
"Not on purpose? That makes you even more of a pervert bastard."
"How does not being on purpose make me more of a pervert?"
"It means that kind of behavior just came out of you naturally, you pervert bastard."
Lua's fury, while she was still wearing my pajamas, left me with nothing I could say in my defense.
In the end I averted my eyes a little and tried to change the subject along with them.
"…Are the clothes okay? Not too uncomfortable?"
"…They are uncomfortable. Way too big. You pervert."
Something about those words, strung together like that, felt weird.
I felt like my mood was about to go somewhere strange, but I managed to ignore it and decided to just study instead.
"……Let's just study."
"Hmph. Pervert bastard."
That's harsh. I'm really not a pervert.
If I were a pervert, right here and now I'd… to Lua…
……No, better not go there. A pervert and a sex offender are different things. I'm an innocent civilian.
I resolved that train of thought and started studying again.
Scratch, scratch. Scratch, scratch.
With only the sounds of pencils and pens filling the room, Lua asked me another question.
"…Jinwoo."
"Yeah."
"By any chance, are your parents or your older brother not coming home today?"
I thought carefully about that question—where my brother and mom and dad had gone, that is.
My brother had said he had so much coursework that he'd be staying overnight at school, so he probably wouldn't be back. Mom and Dad had each gone out with their own friends.
"……They'll probably only get back pretty late."
"Really? Then I should leave as soon as I can."
"Why?"
"Why do you think, you pervert."
Only after hearing that did I look at Lua properly.
My top, which looked like it could barely contain her ample chest.
And the pants that were so oversized they seemed ready to slip down at the slightest wrong move.
"……Sorry."
"Hmph!!!"
I apologized, but thinking about it, I wondered why I even needed to.
I hadn't done anything wrong. I felt a little wronged for no reason.
Yeah—if I overthink it, I lose.
I decided to just keep studying.
I tried to study, but…
…It was distracting. Insanely distracting.
So distracting it was driving me crazy. Seriously.
Come on, how was I supposed to not notice when my pretty childhood friend was wearing my clothes?
So I snuck a glance to the side…
"Don't look, you perveeeert…"
Lua, who until a moment ago had been venting every ounce of her temper, was now speaking in a voice that sounded extremely embarrassed.
Why was her reaction so intensely shy this time?
There was a reason for that.
Lua in my clothes made the chest area look extremely tight. Separate from the sleeves being too long, the chest part couldn't be helped.
But the whole point of oversized clothes was that the pants were oversized too.
And the timing of my glance just happened to be when Lua was pulling the pants back up.
"…This time, I'm really sorry."
"Really… take responsibility for real, you pervert bastaaaaard…"
Hearing Lua's voice thick with embarrassment made me feel even more guilty, and I shut my mouth.
There was no way for me to take responsibility, and I didn't even know what I was supposed to do in the first place.
So all I could do was keep my mouth tightly shut. That was the only apology I could offer.
After that brief silence passed, Lua stood up from her seat while still holding onto the pants.
"Lua…?"
"……Do you have anything bigger, maybe?"
"What?"
"The clothes… the pants. They're so distracting I can't study……"
"Ah, uh, r-right, just a sec…"
I handed Lua the biggest clothes I had.
She looked them over, then nodded and said to me,
"Turn around."
"Yes."
"And don't you dare peek."
"Should I wait outside…?"
"…Yeah, go outside. Please."
I immediately left the room and stood in front of the door.
The moment I stood there, I heard the sounds of Lua changing clothes.
I never thought I'd end up thinking this, but I was amazed that the sound of someone changing clothes could sound so stimulating and lewd.
That was when it happened.
-Beep-beep-beep~
The dryer I'd set earlier finished its cycle.
At that sound I knocked on the door and called out to Lua.
"Hey, Lua."
"Ah… don't come in yet, pervert Jinwoo…!"
"No, it's not that… The dryer's done."
"Really…?"
"Yeah."
"Th… then, bring them quick…! And don't look inside the room…!"
"Got it, got it."
With that I hurried to the dryer and picked up Lua's clothes.
Her clothes, now soft and fluffy, felt warm and pleasant. But also somehow lewd.
Surely any trace or scent of Lua should have been washed away, yet just having her clothes in my hands made it feel like I could smell her.
…Am I actually a pervert?
Hearing her call me a pervert over and over was making me feel like I'd become one for real. Even though I'm not.
I shook my head vigorously and went back to the door where Lua was waiting.
"Hey, Lua."
"Ugh… yeah…!"
"Here. Your clothes."
I handed them to her, and she snatched them away like she was grabbing them.
"I'm going to change again, so… I'll tell you when I'm done…!"
"Uh… okay…"
After our conversation ended, I sat back down in front of my room door and waited for her.
How much more time passed? Lua's voice came from inside.
"I'm done changing…!"
"Okay, can I come in?"
"Yeah…"
I opened my bedroom door with extreme care, and inside I saw Lua wearing her own clothes again.
For reference, the clothes of mine she'd been wearing were neatly folded beside her.
"…You didn't have to fold them or anything."
"Still… I borrowed them, so…"
Lua trailed off like that, then apologized to me.
"Hey, Jinwoo."
"Yeah."
"Sorry…"
"For what?"
"For getting mad… Strictly speaking, I was the one in the wrong…"
I shook my head at her words.
"No, I was wrong for not saying anything either."
"That's not really a mistake… I could have seen for myself…"
After that stretch of mutual apologies passed, I spoke to Lua almost like I was announcing it, to break the awkward atmosphere.
"Let's just study… We've wasted too much time."
"Yeah… Let's study right away…"
After that, Lua and I studied without a single break for nearly four hours straight.
We kept at it all the way until Mom came home.
"Well, I should get going…"
"Yeah, take care."
The moment that conversation ended, Lua went straight out of the house, and I just stared blankly after her.
After seeing her off and returning to my room, I found myself picking up the clothes she'd worn earlier without thinking…
-Sniff sniff
And taking a whiff.
"……I should wash these quick."
Because her scent was on these clothes.
An unbearably sweet scent, and for that reason all the more stimulating.
The moment I got home, I threw myself onto the bed.
"Im Lua, you've lost it, lost it, lost it, lost it…!"
Thump, thump, thump, thump
I mercilessly kicked the completely innocent bed with my feet as I recalled earlier.
The look on Jinwoo's face as he stared at me after I'd been completely drenched by that water.
At first I'd been so flustered I'd branded him a pervert, but thinking about it now, the bigger pervert was me.
I was the one who'd been wearing a white shirt that showed my underwear.
And despite that, after even borrowing clothes from my childhood friend, I'd just kept calling Jinwoo a pervert out of embarrassment. When the real pervert was me.
"……He didn't get disappointed, right?"
That was important, but actually more important was the color of the underwear I'd been wearing.
I'd been wearing white underwear. Childishly pure white underwear.
Better than yellow or something, sure, but it definitely wasn't a mature color.
I was worried whether Jinwoo had been disappointed by that color.
"I'm the crazy one, I'm the perveeeert…"
Thinking things like that made me feel even more like a pervert myself.
"……Those clothes earlier. They smelled like Jinwoo."
Even while being shocked by my own perversion, I couldn't stop the thoughts.
I'd known Jinwoo since we were really little, but this was the first time I'd ever worn his clothes. The first time I'd smelled his scent, too.
The scent of Jinwoo I'd felt when I put on those huge pajamas of his had been so thoroughly masculine.
When we were little I'd been taller than him, but at some point he'd shot up past me and become this cool guy.
My height isn't all that great to begin with, but compared to Jinwoo I'm way smaller.
Was that why putting on his clothes had made them feel even bigger?
And also…
"…It felt like he was hugging me."
Wearing Jinwoo's pajamas had felt like he was wrapping his arms around me.
"I'm the pervert…"
Yeah, I'm the pervert. Not Jinwoo—me.
If anything, Jinwoo has a bit of a prim, gentlemanly side. Even after seeing me like that earlier, he'd looked away and gotten embarrassed himself while still taking all the abuse I threw at him without complaint.
"……I should eat something."
Yeah, I'll eat and then power through for the stream.
If I stream, I won't think about Jinwoo.
……Except Jinwoo watches the streams too. Jinwoo is part of the Luludan.
Seo Jinwoo, you're driving me crazy for real.
How do I get you to disappear from my head even for a little while?