A Body That Can No Longer Find Satisfaction
…Have I really become a body that can no longer be satisfied? NTR. Short for Netorare. It's a genre where a third party shows up between passionately loving lovers, and the beloved is stolen away by that third party—a super stimulating one that people either love or hate. There's a famous line that embodies everything about NTR stories.
"Ahh… No, no more… I can't be satisfied with my boyfriend's XX anymore…!!!"
The person who came up with that line has to be a genius, right? That's what I think. So why am I suddenly saying this?
"…Have I really become a body that can no longer be satisfied?"
Because I just said that line on stream.
# The day after conquering the massive hurdles of freak food mukbang and horror games.
In the brutal struggle of the horror game, I'd bid farewell to my beloved chair after its heroic end and was seeking viewer advice on stream for a new one.
"…You're really telling me to buy this?"
And exactly 31 minutes later, I regretted that choice.
"Even so, this is way too expensive!"
I never imagined they'd recommend a chair costing over 2 million won.
"That's hot as hell! A chair ain't! I'm not one of those weirdos who gets off on castle walls in chairs!"
I keep scrolling through the incoming chats. Then I look back at the 2 million won chair.
……Hmm.
"…What's so special about a 2 million won chair? But once you start using something that pricey, the reverse aftertaste hits hard later—you end up unable to be satisfied with a 500k one."
That's what I say, but I can feel my heart swaying like a reed in the wind. Have I always been this fickle-eared? No, pull yourself together. That chair could buy, what, several 1/7 scale figures? Go cheap and you could snag ten.
Better to buy a cheap chair and spend the rest on figures…
"…Link?"
Someone posted a NewTube video link in chat. Spam? Ad? But then a donation flies in from who I assume posted it.
Anonymous donated 10,000 won!
"Blocking guides, so they detour like this. …I'll watch this time, but no more after. What's the difference from guiding?!"
I click the link, and up pops a review video of the exact chair the viewers just recommended. My heart's already wavering, and now this? Makes me wanna buy it for real.
…Should I pull the trigger right now? Dude talks so entertainingly. Like, suction power or something.
…Ah, screw it!!!
"Fine, I'll buy it! Happy now?!!"
…Gonna have to live frugally for a while now.
"Anyway, Part 1 today is, like I mentioned last time, scouting games to play until Raider's official launch. Ideally something that works as a sub-game even after starting Raider?"
Rabbits don't dig just one hole. They dig many to prepare for the worst. Borrowing that wisdom.
Why didn't I borrow it for Night Rise? Didn't know insurance mattered back then… Bitter pill. I take a sip of water and check viewer chats.
Short playtime game, huh. Yeah, those are perfect for subs since playtime's so low. But…
"Not necessarily short playtime—anything fun for me and entertaining for you guys, I'm down!"
"Nah? Aria of Iron Chains is fun for me to play. So of course I'll do it!"
"Ah, don't recommend spitting. It splatters on your monitor, and the comedown hits hard when you see it."
How do I know? ……No comment, for my honor.
"No, I didn't spit! No spit!"
ScreenKisser donated 1,000 won!
I hurriedly skip the donation message, speaking in a slightly higher pitch than usual.
"Alright, let's jump straight into Aria of Iron Chains!"
Shouldn't have said that…!
# Core-type games. The genre that dominated early otaku mobile gaming, now relegated to the backroom geezer status.
The biggest feature of core games? Grind time, and you can get almost every character without paying a dime. And the one I'm playing now, Aria of Iron Chains, is one of those core games.
So, my take on revisiting this nostalgic game after so long?
"…Romanticizing the past is scary as hell."
It's outdated. Way too outdated. UI, character designs—pretty much everything that makes the game.
And I'm not alone; viewers are reacting the same.
This is a prime example of how terrifying it is when sales tank and maintenance, fixes, improvements grind to a halt.
…And there it is. I let out a light sigh.
"Don't compare to other games when I didn't even bring it up. Even with it in the rules, people still do."
I slap a 10-minute chat ban on the viewer who compared. I get it, mobile game quality's averaging up, so comparisons are inevitable. But why ban if I understand? Dragging in unrelated games is bad enough, but the tone dissing both Aria of Iron ChainsandTournament of Fate? 10 min is merciful.
Figured they'd spam "bow your heads," but checking chat, reactions are a bit different.
"…Ah!"
Right, that was a thing. Back when Night Rise trolls swarmed, scraping nerves with "why play this crap?"—pinned it as a broadcast rule. Still there, huh.
"Times change, rules should too. …Done!"
New broadcast rule #6: No Raider hate. I nod satisfactorily at the updated rule.
ComradeMerhenLeader donated 1,000 won!
"Almost perma-banned on instinct. Funny, so you live."
I close Aria of Iron Chains.
"Lesson learned: Memories shine brightest left untouched. That's it for Aria of Iron Chains. Time for the real show!!!"
# 3 hours pass.
……I'm dying of sleepiness.
Why? Boring.
Why? Not feeling the fun.
No fun in the game means tension drops naturally, tension drops means stream goes limp. Forcing it up now, but how long?
…Something's off. Really off. Even games I enjoyed recently feel meh now? Why? How?
Cuz I've tasted them before? Nah, Project Singing was fun enough.
"…Hold up."
A hypothesis pops in my brain. Along with a recent game.
Raider. ARPG with tons of controls. Top-tier graphics. High control difficulty depending on situation.
Someone who loved that for days straight, now playing lighter games with less playtime and inputs?
…Bored, right?
"…Have I really become a body that can no longer be satisfied?"
It slips out unconsciously.
"Ah."
Seeing viewer reactions, I finally realize what I said. The moment "NTR Heroine Streamer Merhen" gets added to my nicknames.