The Guard
Min Serin sobbed, then refilled her glass and began to drink again.
"Serin? Just stop for now. I don't think you should be drinking anymore..."
I stood up to get her some tissues so she could at least wipe her tears, but Min Serin grabbed my sleeve.
"Are you okay, Sunghyun?"
"Pardon?"
"I... honestly, I've been having nightmares every single day since that day..."
"That day?"
"Yes... the day I killed someone for the first time."
"Ah..."
I sat back down in my chair without a word.
It seemed Min Serin had been crushed by the guilt of taking a life ever since the mission at Baekgwang Construction. And Min Serin’s question—asking if I was okay—hit me quite hard.
'Come to think of it, why am I so unaffected?'
That day, I had been terrified at the thought that I might have to kill, and my hands had shaken. But once I actually did it, strangely enough, I didn't feel much of anything. Those bastards had come at us with weapons, intent on killing us, and I had simply swung my sword.
If anything, I even felt a sense of relief, thinking I had killed people who deserved to die. But no matter how I looked at it, Min Serin was right—it was strange to feel nothing after committing murder. Thinking about it, Min Serin was the normal one, and people like me and Lee Seung-jun were the abnormal ones.
"It's so hard for me... They were bastards who deserved to die, and they came at us to kill us, but ever since I actually committed murder that day..."
Min Serin couldn't finish her sentence; she began to cry again and downed her drink.
I poured myself a drink, tossed it back in one gulp, and spoke to her.
"I only thought about it for the first time after hearing you, Serin... When I was young, there were no adults around to help me form proper values, and I entered the training camp at a young age and only received training. I suppose that's why I'm a bit dull in that regard compared to others."
Perhaps because of the alcohol, I began to tell Min Serin about my dark past.
"So... it's not that you're weak, Serin, it's that I'm the strange one. Maybe... if I had had an adult to properly educate me on those things when I was young..."
As I continued, something welled up from deep within my gut. Min Serin began to fill my glass without a word. Then, she filled her own and raised it.
Clink.
We toasted and downed our drinks.
"Senior, whenever I hear news that my juniors got hurt in a gate! My heart just drops... People call me a genius and all that... but I'm just a coward..."
"I didn't even know this mission was dangerous. I just thought it was guard duty until the damaged headquarters were repaired... How was I supposed to know about the association's internal affairs! Dammit... I got played by the officer in charge... No, wait, I'm just a fucking idiot."
Min Serin patted my shoulder and said, "That... officer is completely... lacking in professional ethics. Let's! Let's go find them together after this is all over! Let's just go and have a word with them...!"
"That sounds good... Yeah, let's go together!"
Between the two of us, we emptied five of the six bottles of Drops that Min Serin had brought. My head was spinning, and I didn't even know what I was saying anymore. Min Serin seemed much drunker than I was, as if her tolerance was lower.
"Ugh... the last bottle..."
Min Serin popped the cap off the final bottle and began to fill my glass and her own.
"Serin... I can't drink anymore..."
"Hey...! Come on! Just drink this last glass. Then that's it."
"Haa... I'm going to die."
Clink.
I felt burdened by the way Min Serin was looking at me, so I had no choice but to toast and down the drink.
"Ah... I'm thirsty..."
I didn't know when I had fallen asleep, but I had passed out slumped over the desk. When I woke up, my head was spinning, but my mind felt clearer than before, as if the alcohol had worn off a little.
I stood up, drank a glass of water, and looked at the desk; the last bottle of Drops was already empty.
'Did I drink that all by myself...?'
Min Serin was nowhere to be seen; she must have gone back to her room.
'She left her socks and tie behind. Well, I'll give them to her tomorrow...'
I stood up and stumbled toward the bathroom.
Click.
"Huh?"
The door was locked.
Click. Click.
"Haa..."
It seemed the door was broken.
"It's a hassle, should I just wash up in the morning..."
I turned around to head back to bed, stumbling again, when I heard the sound of the bathroom door opening behind me.
Creak.
"Huh? What the..."
Thinking I might be hearing things because I was drunk, I turned my head. Min Serin was standing there.
"I'm sorryyy... I locked the door by mistake..."
"Oh..."
Before my eyes was Min Serin, her robe undone, wearing nothing but her underwear. I turned my head away and spoke to her.
"Ah... I didn't know you were going to wash up, Serin. You go first..."
"Eh... Supervisor, aren't you going to wash up? Why are you turning your head?"
Min Serin was beyond tipsy; she was pickled in alcohol. It was obvious she would regret this in the morning. For now, it was impossible to send her back to her room in that state. I couldn't bring myself to dress her and take her back to her room. It would be better to let her sleep in my room tonight and send her off in the morning.
"I have to wash up too... First, could you at least tie your robe? That way I can..."
Soft.
As I was speaking to her with my head turned, Min Serin approached and hugged me. Her breasts felt soft against my chest.
"W-wait, Serin, why are you doing this...!"
Min Serin looked up at me while still in my arms and said, "When you hugged me earlier and said everything was okay, I felt so at ease..."
"What?!"
No matter how much I searched my memory, I had no recollection of hugging Min Serin. Even when I closed my eyes and rummaged through my memory, I couldn't remember anything after drinking that glass she had poured for me.
'I hugged her first? Ah, I'm going crazy...'
I grabbed Min Serin, who was clinging to me, and pulled her away.
"If it makes you feel at ease, Serin, I can hug you as much as you want. But first, please, your clothes..."
"Whyyy... You said you'd hug me whenever I was having a hard time, Sunghyun..."
"..."
Caught in a trap, I couldn't answer. I wanted to split my head open with an axe to see the fragments of my memory, just to know what on earth I had done.
Soft.
Min Serin pulled me into a hug again with force. I could have pulled away if I used my strength, but I didn't want to risk an accident, so I didn't resist. Min Serin was not in a state to make rational decisions right now.
"Serin... we both made a dark history tonight, but the behavior you're showing right now is..."
"Umm..."
Min Serin made a strange sound, then threw off even her robe and hugged me again.
"Are you listening to me?"
"I feel at ease because you're holding me..."
"You're not listening."
As Min Serin's breasts pressed against my body in her drunken state, my cock naturally hardened. To prevent the disaster of my bulging cock poking her stomach, I took on a pathetic posture, awkwardly pulling my waist back.
Min Serin had been holding me in her arms without a word for about five minutes.
'Is she sleeping?'
"Serin?"
"..."
I could feel her breath against my chest through my short-sleeved shirt, but I couldn't tell if she was asleep or awake.
"Serin... are you sleepy?"
"..."
When Min Serin didn't answer, I cheered inwardly.
'Now, let's carefully pick her up and lay her on the bed.'
I carefully picked Min Serin up. She had her eyes squeezed shut.
"Phew..."
A sigh of relief escaped me. I slowly approached the bed, bent at the waist to gently lay Min Serin down, and just as I was about to pull my hands away from her waist—
"Eh?"
Min Serin opened her eyes, grabbed both my arms, flipped me over, and climbed on top of me.
"I'm not sleeping... I'm going to keep holding you..."
"Wait, wait, wait, really, not right now. No, in this position, just for a moment...!"
The moment Min Serin lowered her hips and settled on top of me, my bulging shorts pressed directly against her pussy line.
Press.
"Please... Ah! Serin...!"
"Hnnng...!"
Surprised by the sudden stimulation, Min Serin let out a short, intense moan and her body shuddered.
'Fuck...'
We stared at each other for a few seconds without a word. I couldn't think of what to say. Honestly, it would be stranger if a healthy man in his 20s didn't get an erection when a woman in her underwear was clinging to him. At the very least, I wanted to tell Min Serin that this situation wasn't my fault at all... but my mouth wouldn't open. We just stared at each other in silence. I could feel cold sweat trickling down my temples.
"Look, Serin... now..."
Press.
"Haaaah...!"
Min Serin lowered her hips again and began to rub her pussy line against my shorts, which were revealing the outline of my fully erect cock.
"Hnn...! Serin...!"
Perhaps because of the alcohol, even though it was just her panties rubbing against me, the stimulation was transmitted through my entire body.
Slop, slop.
Before I knew it, Min Serin's panties, soaked with juices, began to make obscene, stimulating sounds as they rubbed against my shorts.
"Haaah! Hnn! Haaaah!"
There was no focus in Min Serin's eyes. It was clear that, with her reason completely blown away by alcohol, she was simply being led by the sexual desire in front of her and was shaking her hips. I, too, was losing my grip on reason, led by the alcohol and the pleasure transmitted to my lower body.
'No... even if it's just you, you have to pull yourself together...'
I closed my eyes and shook my head repeatedly, trying to regain my senses, but the obscene sound of clothes rubbing together and Min Serin's moans grew louder and louder. I had regained my senses for a moment after seeing Min Serin in her underwear, but the alcohol seemed to be intoxicating my body all over again. My head was spinning, and my body began to lose its strength.
Thud.
Something fell onto my closed eyes. I grabbed the object with my hand and opened my eyes.
"Ah..."
Min Serin's bra had fallen onto my face.
Slop, slop, slop.
"Hnnng! It feels strange down there! Heeeek! Hnn! Hnn!"
Min Serin, oblivious to the fact that her underwear had been removed, was drooling, shaking her breasts, and swaying her hips. Her pussy juices had completely soaked her panties and were now soaking my shorts as well. The damp, warm liquid was seeping through my shorts and into my underwear.
"Hnn... Serin... Hnn..."
I couldn't resist the pleasure, which felt much more stimulating than usual, and simply surrendered my body to the pleasure, staring at Min Serin's swaying breasts.
Slop, slop, slop.
"Heeek! Haaaaah! Feels good! Heeek!"
"Serin... Hnn... just a moment..."
My cock seemed to have reached its limit, and my entire body, starting from my thighs, began to tremble. It was clear that if I kept this up, I would disgracefully ejaculate inside my underwear, but I couldn't put any strength into my body. No, perhaps even though I could have used my strength, my instincts were refusing because I couldn't give up this pleasure. I called out to Min Serin, but she was lost in her own world, moaning, as if she couldn't hear me.
"Hnn! Hieee! A strange feeling is coming up! Hnn! Heeek! It's strange! It's strange! It's strange...! Hnn! Hnnng!"
"Hnn!"
Splurt, splurt.
Min Serin reached a clitoral climax, stopped her hips, rolled her eyes back, and began to tremble all over. At the same time, I also shuddered and disgracefully sprayed my semen inside my underwear.
"Hnnng... Hnn... Hnn..."
Whoosh.
Min Serin must have wet herself, as her panties were soaked in a warm liquid. She then collapsed on top of me, closed her eyes, and began to breathe heavily.
"Haa..."
As the post-nut clarity hit, my head began to cool down.
'Fuck... what just happened? What did I just do?'
Should I call it a blessing in disguise? Min Serin had fallen completely fast asleep. I laid Min Serin straight, covered her with a blanket, and trudged toward the bathroom.
"Fuck..."
I turned on the shower without a word, took off my shorts and underwear, which were covered in juices and semen, and began to wash them. Sitting crouched in the bathroom with my ass exposed, washing my shorts and underwear, a sense of self-loathing washed over me.
'This is all because of the Drops... I tried to resist... but I couldn't put any strength into my body.'
I tried to rationalize it in a pathetic way, but my heart didn't feel any lighter. Whether it was because there was a lot of dust in the bathroom, strangely, my eyes began to fill with water.