I Won't See You as My Junior Anymore
I couldn't refuse.
More precisely, I had no grounds to. Reason was screaming that I had to turn her down. But the instinct that moved my body simply stood aside and let it happen.
"Sunbae..."
Baek Ah-rin. My junior. The boyish tone she always used was gone without a trace. Nothing but a thoroughly feminine voice brushed against my ears now.
I needed to say something... but my mouth wouldn't open. I couldn't let it, because I had no idea what might come out if I did.
Her long, slender fingers. Her soft palm. Both of them were stroking my cock with devoted care. Her hands were hot, but mine was even hotter, so her touch felt cool against it.
"Sunbae... how does it feel?"
"I... I don't know."
I gave a short answer and shut my mouth again.
"That's disappointing... I practiced a lot, you know."
"Why would you... practice something like this?"
"So I can take the seed from this big, dependable cock of yours."
"C-cough!! Cough, cough!!"
I choked in shock. It was the word she'd just spat out.
"Hey...!! What kind of...!"
"What's wrong, sun.bae?"
"You... that... that..."
A word I couldn't possibly bring myself to say.
"Ah... you mean cock?"
Her hand began to grope and stroke me this way and that, slow and thorough.
"How can you... use a word like that..."
"Why? Am I not allowed to use words like that?"
A long, sliding stroke. Then another.
"No... that's not... nnngh...!!"
I have a powerful ability to suppress erections. It's a skill I picked up naturally while raising my daughter alone.
The junior I trust and rely on — Baek Ah-rin — was not the woman I knew. She had become a woman faithful to her instincts. Which meant she would do anything to arouse me, the male.
The word she used. Cock. A vulgar term for a man's penis. Regardless of gender, uttering that word in ordinary social life is taboo. Even between dating couples.
When I was still a family with my ex-wife Park Ah-young, our sex life dropped off sharply at some point. Her irritation grew right along with it. The real reason was that she'd been freely enjoying herself with a young gym trainer, but at the time I blamed myself. I thought it was because I'd been too conservative in bed that she wasn't satisfied. So I tried using more stimulating language to please her.
But all I got back was a look of contempt. I really hated that look. If she hadn't been my wife, I would have raised my voice and fought her on the spot. It was from then on that I pathologically stopped using words like that.
Stroke. Stroke.
"Sunbae, what's wrong? Your cock is getting bigger and bigger, you know?"
Was it the rebound from such a strong seal? Hearing that vulgar word in my junior's coquettish, swaying voice was so alien... and maddeningly stimulating.
"Cock. Cock. Cock."
The hand gripping me began to feel it swell, little by little. My ability — the one that kept my cock from getting hard no matter how filthy something I saw — was being rendered powerless.
"Aha... so this is the word you're weak to, sunbae. Cock."
"S-stop it."
"Why?"
"This... this isn't like you, Ah-rin."
"And what is 'like me,' exactly?"
I almost said the junior I know, but I barely held it back. The moment those words left my mouth, she would take a wound that could never be undone.
"Th-that's..."
"So what is it, then?"
Her hand never stopped. Stroke. Stroke. Stroke.
"No... first... if you could just stop your hand..."
"And if I stop? You were going to say we can't have sex because you can't get it up, weren't you?"
She'd hit the bullseye.
"Did you think I wouldn't figure that out?"
"...No... that's not it..."
"Do I look that much like a child to you?"
"No. That's not... what I meant at all."
"I know you're holding yourself back."
She pulled her hand out of my pants. Then I heard the sound of her undressing.
"Wh-what are you doing?"
"I'm going to get you even more excited."
She stepped out in front of me.
"Ah... ah..."
A gasp that absolutely should not have escaped burst from my tightly sealed lips.
Ah-rin's naked body stood before my eyes.
Fair, milky-white skin. Pink breasts swelling in gentle mounds. A slender waist set against wide hips. A taut, springy ass. And legs whose lines were made even more striking by the way she rose onto her heels. It was an exquisitely beautiful woman's body.
A sudden throb. My cock started to respond.
"...I'm glad."
"You..."
"I was worried about what I'd do if you didn't react to my body."
"That's... hey..."
"But even with you holding back like that, your cock reacted this much... that makes me so, so happy."
She threw herself into my arms.
"It's powerful proof that I can function as a woman for you, sunbae."
She started undressing me. One by one, she began undoing the buttons of my shirt.
"Hey... hey... don't... hey..."
But they were only words. I didn't stop her.
"It's too late."
Her fingers moved even faster on the buttons. Then both of her hands slid inside my shirt. Warm, soft skin — her hands and her arms — slipped deep against my chest.
"Now... let's get this cumbersome thing off, shall we? Sun.bae.nim."
Whoosh. My shirt went flying, flung far across the floor by Ah-rin's hands. She seemed determined I wouldn't be able to pick it up and put it back on.
"You've seen me naked, so..."
Her hands now went for my pants.
"I should get to see you naked too."
The unzipped pants melted off me in her hands and dropped to the floor with a thud. The only fabric left on my body was a single pair of navy boxers.
"The underwear has to come off too, right?"
Whip. Just like the pantsing games I used to play with friends as a kid, she grabbed my boxers and yanked them down, flinging them toward where the pants had landed.
Naked. Me. Ah-rin too. Not a single thread left on either of us.
"Ahh... I knew it... your body is exactly what I imagined, sunbae."
Her hands approached my body. They hesitated for a moment, then her left hand went to my chest and the other toward my waist.
"I don't even know why I was trying to get your permission..."
Her fingers lightly scraped across the skin of my chest and waist, as if tickling me.
"Nngh...!"
"I used my wish, after all... so this body is mine tonight."
Her hands began to roam every inch of me. Ten fingers. Each one became a tiny wriggling creature, playing across my skin.
"N-nnnngh...!!"
"Don't hold back, sunbae. Surrender your body to my lead."
"This... isn't your first time?"
"It is."
"Then... how are you this..."
"Good at it?"
I managed a strained nod. She laughed as if my reaction amused her, then brought her lips toward my face. Her lips were moist and plump.
"Wh-what are you doing!!"
"What's wrong, sunbae? Did you think I was about to kiss you?"
"Th-then what else would it be?"
Her lips pressed against my ear as if they'd been glued there. A sensation like cold water touching the ear. A strange feeling I'd never experienced in my life, transmitted through the thin cells of my ear, instantly eroded my brain.
"The re.sult of practicing... for you, sun.bae.nim."
Her lips left my ear. She smiled. But I could only hang my head, my face burning red.
"Do you understand now?"
I was embarrassed. Honestly, when she'd said she wanted to have sex, I'd let my guard down a little. First times are always clumsy. She'd said she'd never dated a man. That would make this her first time having sex. I, on the other hand, had only ever been with my ex-wife — not much after we got married, but countless times before. And yet here I was, being completely overpowered by her skilled lead. A complete novice staying composed while the veteran panics...
Fine. At this point, I had no choice but to admit it. And no choice but to go through with it. Sex with Ah-rin. But there was something I had to make clear first.
"Ah-rin."
"...What? If you're trying to stall again..."
"No. It's not that."
The seriousness in my voice made her stop talking.
"I'm going to be honest with you."
"Okay..."
"You're right. I was going to say I probably couldn't have sex with you because I couldn't get an erection."
Her eyes narrowed slightly.
"That was on me. I said I'd grant your wish... and then it would've been no different from playing a trick on you."
"...Thank you, sunbae. For being honest with me, even now."
"So I'm going to do it with you now. The thing you want."
"Sex. Right?"
"Yeah."
A short answer. And... what I was about to say now was the real thing.
I swallowed dryly. A brief silence. But she looked at me without any change in expression — as if, compared to waiting ten years, this was nothing. But I couldn't rest on that.
Before my lips, already gone dry, could seal my mouth shut, I spoke.
"Just because we... have sex right now... doesn't mean we're dating."
"...Then what?"
"I've never seen you as a woman. I accepted you as a friend. As a colleague."
Her brow furrowed slightly.
"And what is that supposed to mean, sunbae?"
"It means that to like you as a woman... no, to love you... I need time."
Her brow furrowed openly now.
"Isn't that just wordplay, sunbae?! Was all the time we've spent together until now nothing?!"
"That's not it!!"
Force against force. I met her fierce cry with one of my own. Another small silence.
"...Then what?"
"I'll see you as a woman."
"Ah..."
Her face instantly softened.
"And I'll figure out whether you're someone I can spend my whole life with. Whether this is a love that won't change with time. Those kinds of things."
"That's... that's what all the time we've spent together until now...!"
"It won't take long."
"...Ah..."
"A month at most. So just a little."
I took her by the shoulders.
"Can you wait just a little?"
Tears began to fall from her large, round eyes. Plop. Plop.
"The moment I'm certain, I'll ask you again."
The sound of water hitting the floor grew.
Tears streamed down both her cheeks. And she smiled as she answered.
"Yes... yes...!!"
She wrapped her arms around my neck.
My dry lips and her moist ones... came together.
