Chapter 2: The Smell of Dad
I had entered the study a long time ago so that my daughter couldn't know. I locked the door.
Because if my daughter saw what I was about to do in a little while, it would cause tremendous problems.
This place was filled with the scent of books, so it was more than enough to hide my embarrassing scent.
Most of them were my major books.
Although they were things I no longer needed to look at...... I left them here because it was a waste to throw them away.
- Beep -
- Chrrrrr -
Even though we were in an era using memory storage media, this computer still moved with a hard disk.
It was simply left as information search, so I didn't feel the need to upgrade it.
Click click.
I moved the sluggish mouse to search through the folders.
"It should still be there."
The secretly hidden video.
It was an AV video.
That is, ya-dong.
It was the video that helped when my wife and I had sexless times.
"...It's there."
It had been nearly 10 years, so it was hard to find, but luckily I found it.
The name and folder were mixed with general system files, so it was quite a hassle to search through them...
"Turn the sound down as much as possible...... Okay. It's coming out."
Japanese-made ya-dong.
It was a rape story where a woman who borrowed money from a loan shark and fell into the abyss paid her debt with her own body.
Watching the video now, it was a bit outdated, but it still stimulated my genitals.
There were two reasons I chose this ya-dong.
First, the actress resembled my ex-wife.
And second, the feeling of subjugating my wife from the actress being raped.
When Min-ah was 9 years old.
It was a time when it hadn't even been a year since the divorce.
I was being mentally pushed.
As much as I was recognized in the workplace hospital, my work kept increasing.
It was hard to handle.
But I couldn't fully release the stress from work at home.
Precisely, it would release but then twist.
The reason stress released was because of daughter Min-ah
And the reason stress twisted was because of wife Ah-young.
"Why can't you even earn money to support me? If you don't use time or money for the family, why did you marry me? Huh?"
At first, I tried to turn the story around, but by this time, she was openly ignoring me.
Even thinking about it now, I never thought I was earning little money back then.
But she said I was earning little.
There were reasons.
Because I was charmed by a young health trainer and gave her all the money.
On the surface of my ex-wife's dirty side, there was a plausible justification.
This was all to pressure me for our family and children.
It was so hard because of such a wife.
I was mentally pushed to the limit.
Should I kill myself?
I even thought of such wicked thoughts.
But whenever I saw Min-ah, who always smiled and came to me, I always regretted it.
Yes.
Our daughter.
How much would Min-ah be sad if I disappeared?
The only reason I fought with my wife was because of the daughter.
That is, instant rice.
Retort side dishes.
Freeze-dried soup.
It was okay for her to prepare it for me like this.
But the problem was that this widow prepared it the same way for my daughter Min-ah.
In the end, I couldn't hold back and exploded.
"What kind of thing is this to feed to a kid?!"
"You bring home little money!!"
Min-ah went into her room during our fight.
She didn't cry or try to stop it.
Should I say she was being adult-like?
Peeking.
After the couple's fight seemed over, Min-ah slightly opened her room door and looked outside, sniffling.
"Dad... don't fight... I'm scared... Min-ah... sad......"
"Aigoo, our daughter... Sorry... Dad is sorry."
I hugged my daughter.
Min-ah buried her face in my chest wildly.
Like a puppy I raised when she was young.
I got angry again at the widow who fed such wicked things to such a cute child.
"Dad... are you separating from mom?"
"No. It's not that. I just did it because I wanted mom to treat Min-ah better."
"Are you separating?"
Min-ah's eyes looked at me.
Her eyes were a bit strange.
Like she was expecting something.
But under that gaze, there was overflowing sparkling tears, so it definitely sounded like a plea not to separate.
"No. It's not like that. Dad, Min-ah, and mom will live happily together forever."
Wahak.
Min-ah hugged me.
"Dad..."
"Yeah?"
"Dad, I love you."
"I love Min-ah too."
Kkuuk.
Again, Min-ah tucked her head into my chest.
Daughter's tears began wetting my shirt.
"Dad... you can't abandon me."
I was startled.
She was only 7 years old.
Because such a young child saying such unfamiliar words.
"Who taught you to say that! Huh?! Who said abandon! Don't abandon! Why abandon our daughter!"
"Mom said... if you don't listen, she'll abandon..."
To a child who hadn't even entered elementary school yet...!
"Damn widow!!!"
"Dad... don't get mad... I did something wrong!! Sorry...!! Sorry!!"
My anger surged to the top of my head, but I couldn't explode.
It was to soothe Min-ah who started crying again.
From that time on.
Min-ah started checking with me like a habit that I wouldn't abandon her.
I wanted revenge.
I hated my wife who was pushing me into a corner like this.
But because of the daughter... the only choice I could make was cowardly revenge.
Stress.
Anger.
Sexual desire.
The only thing that could solve all of that was the adult actress who resembled my wife being ruthlessly violated in the rape video.
And that revenge was still valid even in this moment.
"Ahng...! Haa!! Yame te (don't)...!! Hiccup!!"
The actress in the ya-dong was a wicked woman in the story who cheated on her husband, borrowed money, and spent it lavishly with a gold tiger.
But the loan shark and gold tiger who lent the money exposed the scam, and in front of the tied-up husband, she was raped by many people.
"Huuup! Huup! Huuuup!!"
Watching the actress crying while being violated in both mouth and genitals, I felt an indescribable ecstasy.
My lower body started sticking out from under my pajamas.
"I didn't know you'd do it like this content."
When I first saw this ya-dong, I thought it was just AV, no way something like that could happen.
But a year later, I actually experienced something similar.
My wife was using the huge economic power I entrusted to her to have an affair with a young health trainer man.
Not only that, she had a plan to get pregnant and run away from me.
"Shit woman... shit woman......"
The wife in the monitor was covered in semen from the men.
Her face unable to open her eyes and screaming, that sight started stimulating my sexual desire madly.
I took out my swollen penis.
Usually, it's a very small size, so people don't know how big mine is.
It gets insanely big when erect.
Long and thick.
Even though it's not thick, it's thicker than toilet paper, and longer than 15cm.
That's why I try not to get it erect.
If it gets erect... a great disaster would occur.
The penis that had grown to its limit was hotter than my hand.
I started rubbing that penis up and down.
"...Hidoi (too much)... Hidoi yo... Haet!! Hak!!"
The wife covered in semen in the ya-dong started thrusting from behind again.
The water, whether semen or love juice, dripped heavily to the floor.
Chak chak chak chak.
"Huep... huep..."
Thud! Thud! Thud! Thud!
The wife in the screen, her butt like mashed rice cake, repeated coming back to the same spot.
The more it happened, the faster my hand became.
"Huhuhu... Ikku...! Ikku yo ot!!"
"Huaaaaaang!!!"
"Huuueup!!"
Pusushusshut! Fyushut!!
White semen flew out inside and outside the screen.
"Idiot... I should have prepared tissues...!!"
Because it had been too long since I last ejaculated, I forgot to prepare tissues.
The result of not blocking the outlet of desire with tissues... was that my white semen was splashed on the keyboard and screen like the semen sprinkled on the wife in the screen's face.
It was still good.
Tremendous satisfaction.
Accomplishment.
And a feeling of domination.
The AV actress who resembled the wife in the screen.
And my semen on top of that screen.
It was due to the illusion that I was violating the wife who is no longer here.
I stared at it for a long time.
And realized.
It was ultimately my illusion, and what remained was only emptiness.
Suddenly, irritation surged because I had to wipe the semen splashed on the monitor and keyboard.
But there was nothing I could do.
I wiped my penis with tissues and wet wipes, then pulled up my pants.
And started cleaning the semen splashed on the screen and keyboard.
After all, this computer is only used by me.
There's a separate good-performance computer for the daughter.
No reason to use this.
Originally, the daughter would never come to this place.
So I cleaned it roughly.
After all, semen isn't dirty.
Because in sexual love, there are lovers who eat it too.
"...?!"
Suddenly, I turned around.
Someone... had a feeling of watching me.
Fortunately, no one was behind me.
There was no other choice.
I locked the door.
Since no one entered when the locked door opened.
"Was it just my imagination."
I finished cleaning.
I put the processed tissues and wet wipes in the trash.
And slowly opened the door to the room.
Dang.
Suddenly, my heart dropped.
What sound was that?
It was a sound from Min-ah's room.
I slowly walked to that place.
Through the slightly open door, Min-ah was sleeping soundly.
Good.
Min-ah hadn't woken up.
The tension that felt like a special operation was relieved.
At first, it was to relieve the sexual desire from washing Min-ah, so there was guilt.
But the last time, I relieved the sexual desire with the feeling of revenge on my ex-wife, so that guilt washed away like the tide.
I returned to my room and lay on the bed.
King size bed.
The couple's bed I prepared when I moved to this house was discarded during the divorce.
Because the bed stained with my ex-wife's scent was not something I wanted to see.
[I'm scared if I sleep alone. I want to sleep with Dad.]
So I bought it again.
It was the largest bed size in Korea, the king size bed.
[Big bed is good. A very big bed where I can roll around with Dad.]
Min-ah was very satisfied.
So until middle school, Min-ah and I slept together.
But... when I was in 3rd year of middle school, something happened.
[Dad... what is this?]
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Eun-hyeok's study.
There was a heavy silence there.
2 a.m.
Both Eun-hyeok and Min-ah were at the time to fall asleep.
Kii.
The door of the study opened.
The person who entered was Min-ah.
Min-ah, who circled the study once, left without saying a word.
Her face was stiff.