Chapter 158: White Christmas (10) [R-18]
Translator: RaidenTL
Chapter 158: White Christmas (10) [R-18]
Right before we were about to have sex, words I’d never heard before in my life popped out of her mouth.
Asking me to tell her what would please me…
“So, what you’re saying is… you want me to tell you things you can do that would make me feel good?”
“Y-Yes, that’s right.”
A faint pink blush colored her face. It seemed she knew just how embarrassing those words could be.
“It’s a little shameful to say, but… even at my age, I… I have no experience with men.”
I’d known that for a while.
There’s a clear difference in the way a woman who is used to men carries herself versus one who isn’t.
Occasionally, an unpredictable virgin specimen might appear, like Shin Yu-jeong, who seems to know no shame, or Im Na-eun, who has very peculiar sexual tastes… but those are rare exceptions.
Blushing at the mere mention of the word “date,” freezing up at a light touch, her spine ramrod straight…
Her behavior toward me was the textbook example of a virgin.
As she struggled to get the words out, something seemed to occur to her, and she frantically shook her head, waving her hands dismissively.
“Th-That’s not to say there’s something wrong with me! I’ve been confessed to by a lot of guys since I was young, and many have asked for my number.”
It was a funny excuse.
One look at her face and body was enough to know she must have been popular.
But I was a little curious.
If so many men had approached her, surely there must have been at least one who was tempting.
“Then why didn’t you date any of them? Was there no one you liked among the men who confessed?”
“Of course, it wasn’t that I disliked all of them, but…”
Her expression clouded over slightly. It seemed there was a reason she was reluctant to speak about it.
“If it’s difficult to talk about, you can tell me later.”
“…Thank you.”
Her face gradually began to regain its composure.
“A-Anyway… getting back to what I was saying… I don’t know how to please a man.”
“So you want me to teach you?”
“Y-Yes, that’s right.”
She wanted me to teach her the things I liked.
It felt a little strange at first, but after thinking it over, my mind changed.
I began to wonder if there could be any words more erotic than these.
I closed the distance between us until we were infinitely close.
So close that the breath escaping our noses and mouths tickled each other’s skin.
“Can you do whatever I tell you to?”
I whispered, looking down at her. She swallowed hard and gave a quiet nod.
It was something I’d felt for a while, but she was a person with strong passive tendencies.
To be more precise, she was the type to move proactively within a larger framework once it was set for her.
In other words, if that framework wasn’t established beforehand, she was prone to losing her way.
I didn’t know if she was born that way or if her personality had solidified over time, but she was better suited to be an aide supporting a leader rather than the leader who stands at the front and guides everyone forward.
“But there’s something you should know, Ji-an.”
“Wh-What is it?”
“What do you think it means to learn only the things I like?”
A large question mark seemed to appear over her head.
We often describe someone with no experience in something as a blank white canvas.
We say that because nothing has been drawn on it yet, anything can be.
Her asking me to teach her was no different from handing that entire canvas over to me.
It meant she was letting me do as I pleased with what was drawn and colored within it.
The meaning was clear.
“It means you’ll be completely colored by me.”
“Ah…”
Her blank white canvas would be completed solely in the style and colors of Kim Do-jin.
Of course, if the canvas were taken away before the painting was finished, it would remain incomplete… but I have no intention of giving or lending what’s in my hands to anyone else.
“If you become filled only with the actions and preferences I like, you’ll essentially become exclusively for Kim Do-jin… Don’t you think it’s a little early for that?”
The words I offered were a piece of advice, a warning, born from my last shred of conscience.
Of course, even if Yoon Ji-an were to retract her words, it wouldn’t change the fact that she would become mine.
It would only change the path to the summit.
Even on the same mountain, the scenery you see and the feelings you experience change depending on the route you take.
In a way, I was simply asking her what kind of scenery she wanted to see on her way to the destination.
“Exclusively… for Do-jin…”
It seemed she hadn’t thought that far ahead. Her expression, as she quietly mulled over my words, was tinged with bewilderment.
I savored the momentary silence and the look on her face as she wavered between the two choices, and I waited for her answer.
Sex holds a much larger place in life than one might think.
There’s a reason appetite, the need for sleep, and sexual desire are called the three great human desires.
Depending on the choice she made here, in the worst-case scenario, she might never be able to have a satisfying sex life again.
So it was understandable that it would take her a long time to choose…
“…’s fine.”
Hm?
“What did you just say…?”
“I-I said it’s fine.”
“……”
After a not-so-long period of deliberation, the answer she gave was that she didn’t mind being colored by me.
“Are you really okay with that?”
“…Yes. I’ve thought about it carefully, and I… I like you that much, Do-jin.”
Her eyes, which always seemed so cool and collected, now held a warm affection.
I liked that look in her eyes.
The warmth directed only at me, and the desirous gaze that seemed to crave the same from me.
Honestly, I didn’t get it.
I couldn’t figure out what I had done for her to conclude that she liked me that much.
At the same time, I knew that understanding wasn’t what I was supposed to do here.
What I needed to do now was to respond to her feelings.
“Yoon Ji-an.”
“…Yes, Do-jin.”
I reached out, gently wrapped an arm around her waist, and pulled her deeper into my embrace.
“Hngh…!”
A breath mixed with surprise and affection brushed against my chest and neck before scattering.
Looking at her flustered face, I spoke as if delivering a sentence.
“From now on, Yoon Ji-an, you are mine.”
She nodded, a dazed look on her face.
“I-I underst—mmph…!”
Before her answer was even finished, I stole her lips.
* * *
Everyone has a different perspective on love.
If there are ten people, there are ten different views; the same holds true for a hundred, or a thousand.
For Yoon Ji-an, the first thought that came to mind when she thought of love was devotion.
To give everything to the one you love without holding back.
This was also the reason she had kept men at a distance until now.
Because she knew a pitiful soul who had devoted herself completely, only to fall without receiving anything in return.
So what was the reason she broke the vow she had so firmly kept and accepted Kim Do-jin?
It was because of a single sliver of pleasure that had slipped through the cracks of her closed heart when she wasn’t paying attention.
The first time she saw a man’s face drenched in pleasure, she felt it.
Just by seeing that expression, her actions had been worth it.
The ecstasy that had torn through her heart like a lightning bolt even made her deceive herself.
‘With Do-jin… I can trust him.’
It clouded her cool judgment, and she found herself feeling a blind trust in the person who had first made her feel that pleasure.
She believed he would never let her be unhappy.
“Haah… heu…”
From the moment her lips met Kim Do-jin’s, she felt as if she were already being rewarded.
As his soft lips crashed into hers and his wet, hot tongue stirred inside her, she let out moans she’d never made before, and her whole body began to heat up.
While their lips met and their tongues tangled relentlessly, Kim Do-jin would occasionally give her commands.
“Wrap your tongue around mine, tightly.”
“L-Like this… heu, you mean…?”
“You’re doing great.”
Every time he praised her with that warm gaze, all the strength left her body.
For her, who did everything so perfectly, praise was commonplace.
‘Do-jin’s praise is somehow different…’
No matter how much she heard it, it felt like it wasn’t enough. It made her crave more.
Was this what it felt like to be addicted to a drug?
For this, she felt like she could do anything he wanted.
‘I wish this moment would never end…’
Just as she was wishing that this moment of kissing him would last forever, the world cruelly snatched Kim Do-jin’s lips away from her.
Startled, she chased after his retreating face and asked.
“Ah… d-did I do something wrong…?”
But Kim Do-jin just smiled lightly and shook his head.
“You’re doing great. That’s why… we’re moving on to the next step.”
“Ah…”
She had forgotten.
She wasn’t here just to enjoy a simple kiss with him.
Her heart, which she thought had just started to get used to this, began to pound even harder.
Kim Do-jin took off his coat and reached out his hand.
The coat she was wearing was easily slipped off his hand and fell to the floor.
His hand stopped there.
“Now, you take the rest off yourself.”
The rest was up to her.
She calmly took a breath and slowly pulled up the form-fitting knit sweater.
Showing her naked body to a man was incredibly embarrassing, but at the same time, she was curious.
What would he think when he saw her body, the one her friends were so envious of?
The moment she pulled the sweater over her head, revealing her upper body completely.
“You’re so beautiful…”
His gaze, filled with an unbearable desire, and his sincere, muttered words rang sweetly in her ears.
Compared to other women, her shoulders were a little broader, and her body tapered down from there, creating an inverted triangle physique.
The thin, smooth line of her shoulders, her large breasts, her slender waist, and the distinct lines of her abs.
It was a body toned by exercise, similar to Shin Yu-jeong’s, yet different.
I wanted to lay her on the bed right now and ravish her to my heart’s content.
But today was her first time, and a day of education.
It had to be a moment of engraving, stitch by stitch, how to satisfy me, rather than just blindly indulging in pleasure.
It was a worthy investment.
As time went on, the pleasure she would give me, having come to understand me better, would only deepen.
“Now, kneel before me.”
“Yes…”
She gently knelt down.
Even though it was a position that could feel humiliating, she didn’t seem to mind in the slightest.
“Now, reach out and take off my pants.”
“O-Okay.”
She swallowed hard and extended both hands.
She brought them to his waist, which was at her eye level, unbuckled his belt, and pulled down the zipper.
‘It’s already hard…’
Every time her palm brushed against his lower half, she could feel the hardness through his pants.
The feeling made her thirst, reminding her of the day she first saw it.
No sooner had she pulled his pants down than the tip of his taut underwear swayed right in front of her nose.
“Th-The underwear…”
“Of course, you have to take that off too.”
She grabbed the waistband and pulled the underwear down.
As she barely managed to pull it past the tautly stretched part, his erect cock finally revealed itself before her.
The moment she saw it, she was utterly shocked.
‘It’s… much bigger… than before.’
There was a significant difference in size between the cock in her memory and the one before her eyes now.
Its length, its thickness—everything was so much more intense that the one in her memory felt cute in comparison.
‘If I put that in my mouth…’
As her imagination was taking flight, wondering what kind of expression Kim Do-jin would make if she opened her mouth wide enough to swallow that cock, as if her jaw might dislocate.
He spoke in a commanding tone.
“Suck it.”