Cut Your Own Underwear!
23. Cut Your Own Underwear! [Hospital #6]
Ah-young’s hospital room. A silhouette of a woman buried beneath the blanket on the bed was visible. The outline trembled ceaselessly. She had hidden her entire body under the covers and was shaking violently.
“Hic… hah… hngh…”
People saw me… I took off my pants… everything was exposed… and they took pictures…
Ah-young had been forced to commit an act so cruel in front of countless people. As a woman, she had done something she should never have done. The shock of her own actions was driving her mad. Not only had she removed her perfectly intact hospital pants and panties, she had walked around with the panties hooked around her knees, legs spread wide. It was behavior no ordinary person could even imagine. And the one who had done it was a young woman—Lee Ah-young herself.
Moreover, Ah-young had ignored every one of Lee Ji-yeon’s instructions and returned to the room without a word. It was a clear case of “failure to obey orders,” a violation of the absolute submission Ji-yeon had so heavily emphasized. Of course, the commands given to an “ordinary civilian woman” had been far too harsh. Ordering a young woman in her twenties—especially a conservative Korean woman—to walk among the public in an outfit more revealing than nudity was essentially forcing her to gamble her entire life as a woman. With the internet and smartphones so widespread, the sound of countless camera shutters had rung out toward her. What if her face had been captured? What if that shameful, perverted image ended up online? What if her life wasn’t just three years as livestock, but a lifetime branded as a pervert? The mere thought filled her body with terror.
“Hiiiiik! No! I don’t want to! Stop! Stop it!”
Yet Ah-young’s position demanded she obey even such orders without question. Though the instructions had been given to her while posing as an ordinary person rather than livestock, there was no practical difference from being Special Livestock. She was still forced to submit absolutely to every command.
“Kgh… kgh…”
Moans of pain continued to leak from beneath the blanket. Every time she recalled the situation, Ah-young felt overwhelmed. The actions she had taken were horrifying enough, but the punishment awaiting her for “disobedience” terrified her even more.
“N-no…”
The Clitoris Massage flashed through her mind. That punishment had been more agonizing than death. The thought of such a horrific penalty coming for her made Ah-young feel as though her heart would tear apart.
“…Ah-young-ssi?”
“Hic!”
Ah-young hadn’t even heard the door open. Lee Ji-yeon stood right in front of the bed. At the sudden call, Ah-young’s body went rigid. She froze completely beneath the blanket.
“Did you run away? Without properly carrying out the instructions?”
The rigid Ah-young couldn’t give any answer.
“Lee Ah-young-ssi. At least respond. To think you’ve already ruined the very first instruction.”
Ji-yeon’s voice was low and heavy with anger, the sound drilling into Ah-young’s brain. Ah-young crawled out from under the blanket and looked up at Ji-yeon’s face.
“I-I’m sorry! I’m truly sorry!”
Excuses—that the orders had been too cruel, that someone had photographed her, that the panties had been too flimsy and torn—would be meaningless. Even while pretending to be an ordinary person, Ah-young was still livestock. She had no choice but to participate in this research. The higher-ups who had planned the study knew her true status, even if Ji-yeon did not. They had hidden her Brand of Livestock. They had temporarily made her an “ordinary person.” The people who would punish her already knew she was livestock. What Ah-young truly feared wasn’t the woman standing before her, but them—the people who knew Lee Ah-young was Special Livestock.
In the end, what Ah-young had to do now was beg for forgiveness. Of course, she didn’t want to beg the woman in front of her, who believed she was just an ordinary person. But she had to avoid punishment at all costs. The only path left was to continue participating in the research diligently. It was a cruel reality, but Ah-young had no other solution.
“…Ah-young-ssi, is that how you apologize?”
Ah-young sat on the bed, half-covered by the blanket. Ji-yeon’s expression was one of disbelief. An apology? What did she mean? Even if Ah-young had done wrong, did she really have to beg forgiveness from Ji-yeon? This woman was only delivering orders from above. Ah-young’s mind grew complicated. Her own expression looked just as incredulous as Ji-yeon’s. But the only thing she could do right now was avoid punishment. The terror of the Clitoris Massage still lingered vividly in her mind.
Ah-young climbed down from the bed. She stood with her hands neatly clasped and bowed her head toward Ji-yeon. Her pride was being shaved away. She was bowing to the woman who had given her such humiliating orders. Ah-young… hadn’t always been this kind of woman.
“I’m sorry. I failed to properly carry out the instructions… I’m truly sorry!”
Ah-young had never once in her life offered such a humiliating apology. She had always been the one receiving them. Because she was beautiful, wealthy, and academically gifted. Because she had been perfect. Even when she made mistakes, she had never been forced to apologize in such a degrading manner.
“…I asked if that was how you apologize.”
Ah-young’s bowed head trembled. What had she done so wrong? Officially, she was merely an “ordinary woman” participating in research. She had tried her best to follow horrific orders, then fled when she couldn’t endure it any longer. Yet she had to bow her head to this female researcher? Did this woman even have the right? Ji-yeon wasn’t Kang Ju-hyeok—she was just an employee.
Ah-young’s mind filled with questions. Then Ji-yeon spoke again, her tone making it clear that this wasn’t enough. Ah-young lifted her head and looked at her. Her expression was filled more with confusion than with pleas for forgiveness.
“…What?”
“I asked if that was the proper attitude for an apology.”
Ah-young’s mind went blank. What did this woman want from her? Money? That was impossible. Or did she want her to prostrate herself on the floor…? That was something Ah-young’s pride could never allow. No matter how much she was participating in the research, she was still just an “ordinary research participant” to Ji-yeon. There was no justification for having to bow so deeply. The more she thought about it, the more absurd it seemed.
“…What exactly do you want me to do?”
“…Hah, honestly!”
Ji-yeon clicked her tongue with an incredulous expression. She glanced upward briefly before looking back at Ah-young.
“Take off everything you’re wearing and apologize again. That’s the proper attitude for someone who’s apologizing.”
“Eh?”
Ah-young feared the punishment that would come. But that punishment was supposed to occur as part of the “Despair Research,” not something she received personally from Lee Ji-yeon.
“If you don’t apologize properly, the punishment will proceed as planned. Do your best.”
“…Eh…?”
No matter how many times she thought about it, Ji-yeon was not Kang Ju-hyeok. She didn’t know Ah-young’s status as livestock, nor did she hold the power of life and death over her. So why? Why was she ordering Ah-young to strip naked and apologize? What right did this woman have?
Ah-young’s head throbbed painfully. The truly tragic fact was that she had no choice but to obey. She was livestock, after all, and during research participation, she had to submit absolutely. She couldn’t drop out of this study. And the word “punishment” was far too terrifying for her. Even if it was punishment, she had to avoid it.
“…Yes.”
Ah-young immediately began unbuttoning her hospital gown shirt one by one. Tears welled in her eyes. These tears were different from those born of the shame and humiliation she had felt earlier. Her pride was being trampled. Right now, she wasn’t livestock. As an ordinary person, Lee Ah-young was stripping to beg forgiveness. Button after button came undone. When the last one was free, she removed the shirt. The cheap pink panties and bra she had worn earlier were already gone—she had changed into the black bra from her belongings box after returning to the room. The elegant black bra was revealed. It was an expensive luxury brand. Before becoming livestock, nearly everything Ah-young owned had been high-end. The price was likely something an ordinary office worker could never afford. This underwear had been the last thing preserving her pride. And now… she had to remove it in front of Ji-yeon. Again. Stripping again.
“Oh, Lee Ah-young-ssi… you’re wearing some nice underwear.”
Ji-yeon’s expression shifted strangely. Something malicious seemed to flicker across her face. She looked as though she had just come up with a wicked idea. Ah-young stood before her, shirt removed, wearing only her bra. Her large breasts, wrapped in the black fabric, were on full display. The soft, pale flesh contrasted beautifully with the dark bra that cupped the underside. Even with her arms crossed to cover herself, Ji-yeon’s command wasn’t finished. Tears streamed down Ah-young’s cheeks. Her pride continued to be crushed. After having her Brand of Livestock hidden and her belongings returned, her pride had somewhat recovered. But now she had to surrender even that to Lee Ji-yeon.
Ah-young lowered her pants. She remembered how Ji-yeon had stripped her pants off in front of everyone earlier.
“Kgh…”
The same woman who had removed her pants and panties in front of the cafeteria and thrown them away was standing before her now. And this time, Ah-young was voluntarily stripping in front of her. She had to beg forgiveness from this cruel, vicious woman while completely undressed. The one who had done wrong… wasn’t it the woman standing in front of her? Such thoughts invaded Ah-young’s mind, but her hands never stopped moving. She pulled off the hospital pants completely. Unlike the tacky pink panties from earlier, a sophisticated black pair was revealed. Matching the bra, these panties were also an expensive luxury brand. Her well-toned legs and smooth thighs were enviable even to another woman.
“…Your body is really something else… Pfft!”
Ah-young’s body shrank inward. She heard Ji-yeon’s mocking laughter but couldn’t even get angry. She bowed her head toward Ji-yeon once more, begging forgiveness.
“…I’m sorry! From now on…”
Ah-young bowed deeply again. According to Ji-yeon’s orders, she should have removed her underwear as well. But her pride had reached its limit. She couldn’t bring herself to become completely naked on her own.
“Good! Excellent, Ah-young-ssi!”
Before Ah-young could even finish her apology, Ji-yeon cut her off and clapped. Clap! Clap! Clap! Ah-young, still wearing her black underwear set, looked up at her with her head bowed.
“Even though you understood my words, you still refused to get completely naked. Did I perhaps tell you to apologize in your underwear? Of course you should have stripped bare. If you’ve done wrong, you should properly beg forgiveness.”
A single tear fell from Ah-young’s eyes and dropped to the floor. She had been told to strip completely. Her last shred of pride was on the verge of total collapse.
“…I’m sorry… I’ll take them off…”
“It’s too late! That means your sincerity was only that much. I will proceed with the punishment. Your reflection has not occurred at all.”
Goosebumps rose across Ah-young’s skin. Punishment? Ah, no…
At that moment, Ji-yeon pulled a large pair of scissors from her back pocket and held them out to Ah-young.
“Here! Take them!”
Still with her head bowed, Ah-young accepted the scissors. The word “punishment” had already filled her with considerable fear.
“…Scissors…?”
Ah-young stared at the trembling scissors in her hands, trying to understand what they meant.
“Take out all the underwear you brought from home and lay them out on the floor.”
“Eh…?”
“Research participant Lee Ah-young-ssi. Do you not understand the word ‘absolute submission’? Do you even intend to participate in this research? Why do you keep questioning me?”
Ji-yeon’s tone was utterly rude. Ah-young clenched both hands into fists. Anger surged within her. But so did the terror of punishment.
Why… why do you get to… and punishment…?
“Lee Ah-young-ssi. While I’m still speaking nicely, I suggest you do as you’re told.”
Ji-yeon smiled while hiding her anger. Ah-young’s face showed a storm of conflicting emotions. Ji-yeon in her uniform. Ah-young in her underwear. The gap between the two women was vast. Though they were both women, one was no different from a slave. Ah-young approached her belongings box and began taking out the sets of underwear, organized neatly. Rustle, rustle. One by one, Ah-young’s underwear emerged from the box. She placed them on the bed.
“I told you to lay them on the floor. Not on the bed! Are you not going to do it properly?”
Ji-yeon shouted at her. Anger flashed in Ah-young’s eyes. She gritted her teeth, her hands trembling with tension. But she couldn’t express that anger. She had to obey this woman. And… she had to accept the punishment… Ah-young couldn’t refuse. She moved the underwear sets from the bed to the floor. Her pristine underwear was laid out on the dirty floor. One by one, all of them. From black and white to yellow, red, green—every set was an expensive luxury brand. These were the underwear Ah-young had owned before becoming livestock. The precious belongings that had been returned to her this morning after she joined the research.
“One, two, three, four…… thirteen including the ones you’re wearing…? Why did you bring thirteen sets of underwear? Planning to do a fashion show? With panties hooked around your knees? Hahaha!”
Ji-yeon counted the underwear lined up on the floor, then hurled mocking words at Ah-young. The panties around the knees… Ji-yeon herself had ordered that. Ah-young hadn’t even realized she had thirteen sets until now. In truth, her house had far more. It seemed someone had selected only the most expensive, famous brands. Only Ah-young’s favorite expensive underwear had been brought here. Wait… did that mean someone had entered her house without permission? A chill ran down her spine. Ah-young’s clenched fists looked ready to strike Ji-yeon at any moment. Her entire body trembled with rage. Every single word from Ji-yeon was an insult. But Ji-yeon’s next words were a command more horrifying than anything she could have imagined.
“Now, take those scissors I gave you earlier and cut all the bras and panties.”
“Eh? Wh-what…?”
“Cut the center connection of the bras, and slice the panties straight down the middle! A woman who can’t even follow orders properly and shows no reflection doesn’t deserve such expensive underwear. It seems Lee Ah-young-ssi has no right to wear underwear at all. You’ll have to cut them yourself and throw them away.”
Ah-young’s face turned ashen. These were the underwear she had only just gotten back. The black set she was currently wearing. It had been so long since she’d worn her own clothes. And now she was supposed to just cut them? All of them…? These things… how expensive they were… and she had to cut them? Ah-young’s anger transformed into fear. She couldn’t speak. Had she misheard Ji-yeon? S-surely not…
“C-cut them…?”
“Yes. Honestly, they’re expensive, so I considered just confiscating them, but your breasts are unnecessarily large, so there’s no demand for them anyway. They’ll all be disposed of. Cut them yourself and throw them away, Ah-young-ssi.”
“Aah…”
With the scissors in her trembling hands, Ah-young stood frozen. Cut them herself? She had to… cut them herself…? Despair washed over her once more. She couldn’t bring herself to do it. Why… why did she have to listen to this woman? Why did she have to cut her own underwear? Ah-young glared at Ji-yeon.
“Why… why do I have to cut them…?”
“It’s punishment for failing to follow the instructions. Lee Ah-young-ssi. As punishment, from now on you may only wear the underwear we provide. Wearing such high-quality items is forbidden. I thought it would be best to cut and dispose of them in advance. Kyaha!”
“Aah…”
Anger rose to Ah-young’s throat. She couldn’t do it. She couldn’t cut her own precious belongings with her own hands. But she couldn’t refuse either. If this was punishment… was it better than something like the Clitoris Massage…? No… this was too much… Cut them herself? Her bras? Her panties? The underwear she had cherished so much because she rarely got to wear them… she had to cut them herself? Ah-young’s anger had nowhere to go. It was a punishment she could never have imagined. A punishment that completely crushed her pride.
“From now on, cut all the panties and bras. Cut them all right in front of me.”
Ah-young lowered her head deeply. Tears of anger had completely transformed into tears of despair. She was so sad. The underwear she had only just gotten back—she had to cut them with her own hands after only a few hours. She had been so happy to receive them… truly… she had been happy, even if only for a moment… and now she had to cut them…?
“Hic, hic… hic…”
With her head bowed, Ah-young burst into tears. Tears poured out. She felt wronged. So terribly wronged and sad.
“Hngh, hngh… hic…”
“Crying won’t help. Cut them quickly.”
Ji-yeon unfolded a folding chair that had been in the corner of the room. She sat down a short distance from the crying Ah-young, crossed her legs, folded her arms, and stared at her. Ji-yeon’s expression was genuinely intrigued and amused. In contrast, Ah-young’s face was surrounded by despair. Ah-young… began to sob loudly.
“Hwaaaang! Uwaaaah!”
Still wearing only her panties, Ah-young collapsed onto the floor. Spread out before her were the underwear she cherished most. She had to cut them all to pieces after having them back for only a few hours. The Lee Ah-young from before the kidnapping—the traces of that perfect, beautiful Lee Ah-young—had to be cut away by her own hands.
“Come on! Start!”
Clap! Along with Ji-yeon’s smile, her words, and the sound of her clapping, Ah-young’s “underwear cutting showtime” began. Scissors gripped tightly, Ah-young’s violently trembling hands revealed her inner turmoil.
“Hic!”
Snip! Snip! Snip! Ah-young’s first pair of panties was sliced apart by her own hands. She cut straight down the center where the cleft of her buttocks would be. The panties split into two pieces and fluttered to the floor. Her expensive panties had instantly become clothing waste.
“Hic, hah, hah…”
Sniffling, she cut her own underwear. While sitting on the floor wearing only panties. Cutting her expensive belongings. And the woman who had ordered it sat with her legs crossed, watching with an amused expression. It was a pitiful sight. So terribly pitiful.
Snip! Snip! Snip! Only Ah-young’s sobbing and the sound of fabric being cut echoed through the room. Ah-young, who had been angry at Ji-yeon moments ago, was now sitting on the floor as ordered, pathetically cutting with scissors. As if taking out her anger on the underwear she cherished most, she wept sorrowfully while slicing through them with the scissors. Thud! Thud! Snip! Snip! Snip! Snip! Snip! Snip! The panties that wouldn’t cut easily, the metal parts of the sturdy bras—she hacked at them all with the scissors. To make them cut, she rubbed the blades against the fabric.
“Kgh… kgh…”
Letting out strange moans, Ah-young mutilated her own underwear with scissors. Her heart was being torn apart. The underwear being cut to pieces… as they were shredded, it felt as though her own heart was being shredded along with them. She forced the sturdy panties apart. She forced the solid bras apart. Thud! Snip! Snip! Snip! All of them were expensive underwear she had worn during her time as an ordinary person. Ah-young was cutting away the evidence of her happy past with her own hands. Her memories and her heart were being sliced apart.
“Hic, hngh, hngh…”
Snip! Snip! Ah-young’s white bra was cut in half and fell away. The next set she had to cut was her twelfth pair of panties and bra—a pretty blue design. Ah-young brought the scissors to the blue underwear. It was the last set on the floor, excluding the black set she was currently wearing. The scissors trembled violently. A few tears fell onto them. Sitting weakly on the floor, cutting her own underwear, Ah-young’s scissors stopped in front of the blue fabric. If she cut this too, the only thing left would be the black set she was wearing.
“No… my… precious… my… underwear…”
Tears streamed down Ah-young’s face. The underwear she liked most were the black set she was wearing and the blue set her scissors now approached. Both had been gifts from her closest friends. The remaining two. The blue and black sets were the ones she loved and cherished the most. And now she had to cut these precious things.
I… I can’t do this. I can’t…
Clang! Ah-young dropped the scissors in front of the blue underwear. In the end, she couldn’t cut them. She buried her face in the floor and began to sob. Only the two most precious sets of underwear remained for her. Cutting them wouldn’t just mean destroying underwear—it would mean her precious memories were being hacked apart with scissors as well.
“I-I can’t! I-if I’ve cut this much, isn’t it enough…? I already cut eleven. Now… now you can stop… Please… I’m begging you… hic, hngh…”
“Ah-young-ssi… it’s only the eleventh. Finish cutting the one you were working on, and cut the ones you’re wearing too.”
“P-please… the last two… they’re really precious to me… just… just leave those two… Ji-yeon-ssi… please!”
Ah-young clasped her hands together and reached out toward Ji-yeon, begging desperately. What little pride she had left collapsed completely, and her knees dropped to the floor. Kneeling, rubbing her hands together, begging. Her tear-soaked eyes looked utterly miserable. Ji-yeon looked around at the scattered remains of underwear on the floor.
“Pfft!”
Ji-yeon’s mocking laughter burst out.
“Kyahahaha! Ah, Ah-young-ssi… you really are pathetic.”
Ah-young’s hands, which had been begging on her knees, fell to her thighs. Tears streamed down. Ji-yeon was right. It would have been more dignified to cut everything and stand up naked with pride. That would have been the Lee Ah-young from before the kidnapping. But Ah-young… couldn’t endure the punishment… so she had knelt… and begged pathetically and miserably. Her pride… had been completely shattered. Drop by drop, her tears fell onto her thighs.
“The sight of you kneeling and begging while cutting your own bra and panties… truly pathetic and miserable. That’s why you should have eaten breakfast properly this morning.”
“…They’re really… precious… my friends… gave them to me…”
Ji-yeon sat with her legs crossed, looking down at Ah-young. Then, with a wicked smile, she spoke.
“In that case, instead of cutting those two sets… how about we do something fun?”
“…What…?”
“If you listen well to my commands, I’ll specially let you keep those two sets.”
“…Yes… I-I’ll do it. Please, I can’t cut these two…”
Her eyes, red and swollen, looked up at Ji-yeon. Ji-yeon looked down at her. She seemed to have another purpose in mind. Ji-yeon smiled.