8. Cycle
8. Cycle
To be a little honest, I was not confident that this method would put my delusions to rest.
That was because the guilt of asking my girlfriend for such a favor and the self-loathing towards myself were just too immense.
Even though the trait left behind by that villain converted such negative emotions into thumping excitement, I....
was afraid, and felt guilty.
"Haa... ha, aa...."
But now I understand.
This method suppresses the delusions so perfectly it gives me chills.
Pain that could not even be compared to the agony caused by such uncertain possibilities.
The confession that my lover was getting fucked by another man, obtaining pleasure she never felt when doing it with me,
making sounds she had never let me hear, while helplessly repeating orgasms over and over.
"I... is this enough now? This is super em-embarrassing...."
"Then keep... telling me."
"......."
The sound of Eunji swallowing her saliva—ggulggak—reaches my ears as well.
Raising her head slightly, keeping her gaze angled slightly away from me, Eunji's words continue once again.
"Matthew-ssi just stayed still for a moment... and waited. Because even if he didn't move, I kept cumming."
"......."
"Then, once I finally calmed down and caught my breath, Matthew-ssi started moving again...."
The frequency of Eunji's words pausing bit by bit is becoming more frequent.
Whether it's because of embarrassment, or because talking about it brought the memories from just moments ago back to her body.
"When I do it with oppa, I ca-can feel it entering... really well, you know?"
"......."
"But with Matthew-ssi, rather than feeling it enter, it's just... a feeling of heavily knocking against the inside, kung, kung."
"......."
"He's super... skilled. It's gentle and slow, but really... it felt so good that I think I couldn't hold it in and kept cumming the entire time we were doing it...."
Mid-speech, she stealthily glances at my reaction.
That must mean there's some lie mixed in here, but... could there be lies in her story so far that I haven't noticed?
That ambiguity gives me chills. It's thrilling.
"Like that, slowly, every time Matthew-ssi moved his hips, kung, kung... his dick knocked inside me... was it after about 10 minutes?"
"......."
"Matthew-ssi, who hadn't said a word, apologized and said that since it had been a while for him, he thought he might ejaculate a bit early."
"......."
"By then, I felt like I had already cum almost twenty times."
"S-So...?"
"When I said okay... he pressed his hips downward, gguuuuk—pushing all the way down?"
I can vividly picture the sight of Eunji's butt cheeks squishing down under the pressure of Matthew-ssi's hips.
And the ejaculation that followed... what was it like? I become curious whether even those aspects were entirely different from me.
"I to-told you earlier, right...? That it felt like my inside was packed tight... but after he pressed down like that, right before ejaculating...."
"......."
"It was wriggling right inside, his dick... even with a condom on, I could feel it super... clearly."
"......."
"And when Matthew-ssi ejaculated, I felt the condom swelling up full inside me completely... clearly."
"Was it... different from when I ejaculate?"
"...Yeah."
I had expected her to answer like that.
But whether that was a lie or the truth... I couldn't tell that much.
"Every time his swollen dick inside wriggled like a pumping motion, the condom ballooned out bit by bit, you know...?"
"S... So?"
"His ejaculation was also super... long compared to oppa's? Until he finished, he stayed rammed inside me and poured out... so much while pressing down his hips...."
"......."
"I... really couldn't move at all. I was just pinned underneath him like that... feeling him ejaculate, and I also cummed a little bit...."
Feeling an ejaculation that was longer and larger in volume than mine, Eunji reached climax.
The rubber membrane called a condom was far too thin to cover up the difference between Matthew-ssi and me.
"A-And that's the end!"
"...Huh?"
"I did it twice just as oppa asked... but the second time was ju-just the same."
"Ah...."
"That's because when doing it with oppa, oppa always led me... and Matthew-ssi didn't move more than necessary either."
I can understand what she means, but... it's a bit disappointing.
...No. Eunji and Matthew-ssi have already granted such an undeserved favor for me. What is there to be disappointed about?
I should be grateful that Eunji endured her shame to tell me like this.
"Then what about that?"
"Nng?"
"The thing I asked for... there was one more."
"Ah... th-that...."
It was about the request I had also made to Matthew-ssi.
To take a single photo after the act was over, for minimal confirmation.
A photo proving that the act took place, and that a condom was used.
"Matthew-ssi did take it for me... but I'm gonna de-delete it right away! Right after oppa sees it."
"Sure... you can do that."
"...Here."
Eunji gently hands over her phone.
A single photo is shown on the screen.
A photo of Eunji sitting on the bed, looking quite exhausted with a flushed complexion.
...Wearing nothing at all, holding a pair of condoms that imply she had just finished having sex twice.
"S-See it? Now I'm deleting it!"
"......."
A stinging sense of defeat feels like it's pricking at my chest.
A single photo confirming that Eunji's story wasn't made up, but fact.
The agony felt not inside delusions, but in reality... was so very sweet.
"Haa...."
"Are you... satisfied now? Do you feel a bit better, oppa...?"
"...I'm extremely satisfied."
"...Thank goodness."
Our situation is a bit too complicated to call it a relief.
Yeah. I think saying one has crossed the point of no return refers to something like this.
Because, despite obtaining enough pleasure to be satisfied without having delusions or ejaculating, I...
...was already starting to look forward to the next time.
"Th-Then let's try on the suit! I was really looking forward to it."
"Shall we?"
"...I wanted to show oppa first."
Springing up from the bed, Eunji heads into the living room, and the sound of her busily changing clothes can be heard.
Eunji's feelings of wanting to leave today's events behind and quickly return to our daily lives together—I can understand it.
I didn't even touch my erect dick, but since doing anything more right now doesn't seem like it would bring satisfaction, I just pull up my pants.
"Oppa! You're in there, right?"
"Of course."
"I... I'm coming in, okay?"
Popping her head out from behind the room door, Eunji abruptly steps out.
Eunji's hero suit, dominated by black and white with pink accents.
Eunji really became a hero.
Whereas I am....
"How is it? Huh? How is it?"
"...It suits you."
"Really? Tee-hee...."
"You're pretty. Truly."
"B-But don't you think this is too form-fitting? Thinking about going out in front of people like this...."
Eunji strikes poses while turning her body this way and that.
Then she sits back down next to me and speaks while holding my hand.
"Oppa. I'll... work hard."
"I'll cheer for you. Always."
"...I'll work hard and definitely catch that villain."
What was his name again? Ma... Ma, whatever. Is that important?
There was no mention that capturing that villain would make my trait disappear, but that doesn't matter either.
Just having a girlfriend like this makes me a lucky enough person.
Over the course of a few days, quite a few things happened.
Having finished basic physical training, Eunji has now begun participating in training to use her trait in earnest.
Ah right, although she's still receiving assistance from Dust-ssi, she was also deployed on a demonstration mission.
The sight of Eunji bouncing up and down while boasting about her performance after returning from her first mission was quite cute.
"At that time, I dashed out tak—and jumped from the building rooftop!"
"Yeah, yeah."
"And oppa, you know that pose? That pose heroes do when they land!"
"Of course I know."
"When I landed on the road just like that, people stared and buzzed with excitement...."
Eunji is still a probationary hero who hasn't officially debuted yet.
Although Matthew-ssi mentioned over the phone earlier that her code name would be issued within a few days and she'd be promoted to a formal hero....
Whether probationary or formal, there's something else more important to the two of us than all that.
"...What about oppa?"
"Me?"
"Lately, that thing... do you get those strange thoughts?"
"I'm... fine for now."
"Really?"
...Actually, I was fine for a few days, but now I'm in a slightly precarious state.
It feels like if I don't try hard to hold it in, the delusions could flicker back at any moment.
Even though I know the effort Eunji put in for me was not small....
The profound agony stemming from the fact that I lent my lover to a man stronger than myself is addictive.
"If you get those thoughts, you have to tell me, okay? Don't force yourself to hold back."
"...If I tell you?"
"Nng?"
"If I tell you... will you go do it again like last time?"
I am holding on.
I'd rather Eunji answered that she didn't want to.
Because then it could just end with me suffering alone.
However,
"O-Of course! I'm... fine with it."
"......."
Eunji answers with a smile, as if it were nothing.
The more precious someone is, the greater the agony becomes when they are taken away.
...Yeah. If she were taken away.
What if I asked for a lie like... she was truly being taken away?
So that in Eunji's words, there would be even a slight, tiny feeling that her heart had swayed toward him.
"...Haaa."
It feels like the delusions I had barely stopped are about to start again.
But delusions need a trigger. So....
I just hope that trigger comes as late as possible.