6. Favor
6. Favor
"Oppa!"
"You're back? You worked hard. You haven't used your body like that in a while, so you must be tired."
"Hehe... No, I'm not. I'm not tired at all."
Around the time the dark light began to settle over the sky, Eunji returned home.
Even as she sat at the dining table for the dinner I had prepared in advance, Eunji kept smiling at me.
"I used to do Pilates, remember? So it was actually easier than I thought!"
"Really? That's cool. You've really become a hero."
"How about you, Oppa? How was your day?"
"Me?"
"You didn't have... any of those things yesterday, right?"
"...No. I didn't."
"That's a relief! Let's eat quickly, Oppa. You must have been hungry waiting for me."
I'm sorry, Eunji.
I did have them.
...Things too embarrassing and pathetic for me to say out loud.
As if I could hold it back.
The dizzying agony is right in front of me, and my patience is powerless thanks to my ability.
Besides, Eunji isn't even here. The lover who loves and cherishes me more than anyone else is not by my side right now.
Instead... yeah, she's probably by the side of the man in this photo.
Wearing nothing but a pair of tight leggings and a tank top that barely contains those large, heavy breasts.
"Ha... ha, haa...! Ah, ah...!"
It's agonizing.
My delusion keeps asking if I can really trust Eunji, and it shows me.
A terrible possibility that could never happen.
"Ha, haa-♡ Ha, ah-♡"
Eunji's tights, as she gasps for breath, are torn.
Above the tights, where the part covering between her legs has vanished, a long, thick cock is twitching in time with its pulse.
"Huu, hu, hua...♡ It's, it's big...♡"
Big?
...Yeah. It looks bigger than mine. Definitely... bigger.
I don't know that person. I don't know his face, and I've never met him, but in my delusion, such information isn't necessary.
Only the fact that my lover is being violated by another man matters.
"Ugh, ugh, uut...♡ Hu, huu...♡"
I can hear Eunji's subtly trembling voice.
Penetration is beginning. The thick, hard glans is slowly digging into Eunji's insides.
Somewhere I'm not, Eunji might be getting fucked like this even now.
She might be granting her body to that hero colleague in the photo.
Such a miserable delusion is so... ecstatic.
"Haa, ha, haa...! Hu, huuk...!"
The insertion is slow and deep.
The cock has already gone in almost to the end, and the shaft is no longer visible.
"Ugh, unng♡ Ha, haeu, heu, eup-♡ Hu, huu♡ Hu♡ Hu♡"
Eunji, gasping for breath, quietly offers up the space between her wide-spread legs.
Last night, when I inserted into Eunji in my still-vivid memory... how was it?
"Hu, huuk... huuk, ah, ugh...."
My cock is in pain.
My cock, which has already become erect under my pants, is... pathetic compared to the cock that is filling Eunji's insides in my delusion right now.
It's not about comparing size, length, or thickness.
Unlike that cock filling my lover, Eunji, I am, while being gripped tightly in my own hand-
___tap, tap, tap-_
__
"Haaa... ah, ah...."
The delusion continues.
The long cock that has already been almost fully inserted. Eunji, who has surely embraced it all with her pussy.
"Huu, hu, hua-♡ It's, it's, full-♡"
Eunji would never say something like this.
It's clearly a fake created by my delusion to make me suffer more.
Even knowing that, I grip my hand tighter, shake faster, and immerse myself in the delusion.
The cock moves. While holding Eunji's legs, that man's waist pulls back, stretching out-
From Eunji's pussy, which had been swallowing the long cock entirely, a squelching sound, squelch-♡, stretches out.
Sticky pussy juice clings to that cock, feeling regretful.
"Hi, heu, eup-♡ Hua, ha, haa-♡"
Eunji is twitching her shoulders, trembling as she comes.
She looks like she feels good. Perhaps... even better than when she does it with me.
___pop-!_
"Ohoook♡ O, oh, ohh...♡"
With just one thrust, a lewd sound burst from Eunji's mouth.
I can understand. Just as Eunji understood my delusion.
That long cock is thrusting in, filling her pussy completely at once, so of course it would be hard to hold back.
So, so... it's okay to go further. Show me. Let me hear it.
___squelch-♡ pop-!_
__ "Ho, hoo♡ O♡ O♡ O♡"
Every time the cock is pulled out and then digs back inside, Eunji's smooth belly bulges out.
It doesn't stop at once.
It repeats, as if to let me know that the cock is reaching deep inside right now.
Every time it thrusts deep, it shows me that the depths of Eunji's pussy are being gouged out.
___tap- tap- tap- tap-_
"Haa, ha, ugh, ugh...! Hu, huuk...."
Ejaculation is imminent.
Both me and that man in the delusion.
As the speed of the waist thrusting increases, my hand speeds up along with it.
And finally, the cock is driven deep to the root, and the man presses his waist forward, press- press-
"...Ah."
"O, ohooot♡ O♡ Oh, o, ohh♡"
The delusion doesn't show me how or with what expression Eunji is coming.
Instead, it shows her unable to contain the overflowing joy of climax, head thrown back, waist trembling violently.
And, between her legs, the pussy that has clamped-♡ onto the cock, with thick semen backflowing wildly.
"......."
I... ejaculated at the same time.
I couldn't make a sound, but a thrill of ejaculation, more electrifying and chilling than ever before, filled my body.
All the miserable and painful emotions turn into addictive pleasure.
Even so, I am... unsatisfied.
"......."
"Oh right, Oppa! Where's that paper you got from Dust-ssi earlier?"
"...Huh? Ah, ah... it's over there on the desk."
"Really? Just a second~"
Eunji heads toward the desk where I was sitting earlier.
...Wait. Did I... throw away the tissues after cleaning up earlier?
"......."
"Eunji?"
"Oppa, this...."
There's no way I, distracted by the afterglow of the delusion and ejaculation, would have had the meticulousness to do that.
Three or four crumpled, dried-up tissues were lying on the desk.
"O, you did it alone? Th... that's understandable! Y, yeah."
Eunji, trying hard to smile brightly and pretending not to see.
Such consideration only makes me feel more ashamed... and the shame turns into a thumping, nervous excitement.
"Is it because I s, sent you that photo earlier...? I, it was a bit sexy, right? Wasn't it?"
"...Yeah."
"Wh... what, was that it? I thought...."
"The person who was in that photo with you."
Eunji's awkwardly smiling face stiffens.
It might have been easier to just lie and admit I masturbated while looking at Eunji's photo.
But the me right now wants pain. I want the agony of the heart.
So I say.
"I masturbated while having a delusion of that person... fucking you."
"......."
"I got an erection after hearing you say in the delusion that his cock was bigger than mine."
"......."
"...You're disappointed, right? That I couldn't even last a single day and like this-"
"No... that's not it. Don't say that."
Eunji, who had been trying to smile until just a moment ago, bites her lip and tears up.
Her eyes welled up with tears as if she were about to burst into tears at any moment.
"It's not because of you, Oppa...! It's because I, I sent that photo for no reason...."
"No. That's not it either."
We both know it's not our fault.
It's just that I, perhaps I want Eunji to blame me, to say it's all because of me, because of this ability.
"......."
"......."
Silence flowed over the dining table for a moment.
I can fully anticipate what Eunji is thinking.
She's worrying and worrying about how she can help me. Definitely.
"Eunji."
"Yeah...?"
"You said it, right? That until you do it yourself and compare... you wouldn't know which feels better."
"......."
It seems Eunji also anticipated what I was going to say.
To Eunji, who waits without a word for me to continue, I say.
"Then... will you check? Between doing it with me and doing it with someone else... which feels better."
"......."
"And come back and tell me."
"...Tell you what?"
"It can be a lie, or it can be the truth... just tell me that it felt better doing it with someone else, not me."
Only then does it feel like my desire will be satisfied enough to stop this terrible delusion.
If I don't do this, I'll just keep having worse and worse delusions and break down.
This is the way I've found to satisfy my desire and stop the delusions.
Lending my lover, and receiving her back.
...Even the precarious anxiety and fear that she might be taken away completely is included in the satisfaction of my desire.
"I know it's a selfish request. Still...."
"It's not selfish at all. Oppa, even now... you have a look on your face like you're dying of guilt toward me, right?"
"...Sorry."
"...You love me, right?"
"Of course."
"I love you too, Oppa, so... I'm granting your request."
"...Then."
Phew, Eunji lets out a short sigh.
Her expression looks very complicated, but she is still looking at me.
"It's too late today... tomorrow. Is it okay to do it tomorrow?"
"It's okay."
"...I'm scared because it feels like if we don't do at least this, you'll really break down."
"......."
"Let's talk about the small details tomorrow too... let's eat, Oppa."
A human like me is truly hopeless.
After making such a terrible request to my girlfriend, I'm already looking forward to tomorrow.
I feel like I'll be able to sleep very deeply tonight.