Chapter 106
Yeah, put simply—if senior Choi Yujin suddenly lunged at me, whipped out my cock, sucked it, and shoved it straight into her pussy, would any guy actually refuse? I doubt it. Men would all just sit there slack-jawed, letting it happen without a fight. Women probably weren't all that different, were they? If a guy like Seo Taeha raped her... it'd still feel awful, but could she accept it? That seemed to be where the real divide between men and women came in.
Han Yaseong needed to test it out.
"Eun-ah senior."
"Yeah?"
"If Seo Taeha tried to rape you, what would you do?"
"......"
"Just take it lying down?"
"......Yeah."
"You're hopeless. You're not right in the head, senior."
No matter how hot a guy was, who the hell wanted to get raped? Sure, if a gorgeous woman jumped you and did the raping, that might not be so bad... But Han Yaseong's head was spinning too much to dwell on it. Rape or whatever—he didn't feel like nitpicking right now. It was all personal taste anyway. The important thing was that Eun-ah senior was craving it.
"Don't tell me you want me to do that to you?"
"......Could you?"
"But I'm not some cool leading man like that. A guy like me couldn't even land a supporting role... You'd hate it if I tried something like that."
"Right now, to me, you're Junya."
That was the name of the male protagonist in the manga. Junya. The guy all the women in the story went crazy wanting to fuck—but he only ever screwed the heroine. And even that was by force. The heroine always got taken against her will but never ran away. She never called the cops, either. When Junya summoned her, she'd pretend to hate it but show up anyway. And once she was there, she'd get fucked every time. She'd claim she had a crush on some other senior guy, act all reluctant, but in the end, she'd climax from the insatiable protagonist's hands and massive cock. Her pussy would squirt nonstop as she blushed in shame. And the protagonist? He'd go even crazier, conquering her completely.
Fuck... Recalling the manga's plot was starting to mess with his head. He'd watched rape porn now and then, jerked off fantasizing about it plenty of times, but he'd never actually tried it for real. There was this instinctive revulsion holding him back. He didn't want to force a woman who truly hated it.
Han Yaseong was miles away from anything like rape. But Eun-ah senior wanted it. Still, he didn't.
"I don't wanna do that stuff. How could I do something like that to someone who hates it?"
"We could consent to it. I'm the one saying I want it."
"Even so, it's just... kinda gross. And the dialogue's hilarious. Listen: 'I'm gonna cum inside you. Cum as much as you want! Squirt your pussy juices everywhere! You've always wanted me to do this to you. That's your true nature!' Ugh, ew, it makes me wanna puke."
"I liked it, though. It's a killer line."
"......"
She was under the covers, rambling away. Women were such a mystery. Unless you were one, there was no understanding them. In the end, Han Yaseong just shook his head.
"I can't. It makes my hands and feet curl up in embarrassment, and my skin crawls... I prefer private lessons."
"Like a female teacher giving a male student sex ed?"
"Yeah."
"So that's your kink."
Their tastes didn't match. Han Yaseong wanted a dominant teacher type to lead him, while Jang Eun-ah craved a ruthless bad boy to manhandle her. No wonder things weren't clicking. Jang Eun-ah sighed from under the blanket. She'd been psyching herself up, too. Hell, it would've been better if Yaseong had just ripped off her panties in a surprise attack like earlier. That's what she'd wanted. But in the end, he was just a kid.
Jang Eun-ah pulled the blanket down.
"You're boring."
"Eun-ah senior's the pervert."
Han Yaseong shuddered. Why did women love those cringey lines and dialogue? Some survey had shown it: 99% of the cheesy lines women adored made men's skin crawl. That's why guys called them "butter-ups" or whatever—yet those same smooth-talkers were the ones women swooned over. They dropped those corny lines without flinching. White guys were popular for the same reason—they nailed that stuff. "You're more beautiful than a rose today. I want to kiss the depths of your eyes. Your lips are like sweet strawberries. Your lovely gaze shines brighter than the stars in the sky."
Just thinking about it made Han Yaseong's whole body break out in hives. His arms and chest itched like crazy.
Watching him squirm, Jang Eun-ah felt deeply disappointed.
"You could never pull off being a bad boy, huh. That's what women fall for."
"Bad boys are always hot, anyway. An ugly guy tries it, he just looks like a thug. That manga proves it. The protagonist, Junya—he gets forgiven for raping because he's so damn handsome. If an average joe tried it? No way it'd fly."
"Obviously not. We only wanna get taken because he's hot."
"Women are hilarious. They hate rape but love rape manga... Though, guys go nuts for yaoi, too. Man-on-man stuff. I nearly puked watching that."
"And guys love lesbian porn. Girl-on-girl."
"Fair point."
Han Yaseong liked yuri—what they called lily stuff. Real actresses doing it? Meh. But in anime, with cute girls going at it? That got him hard for some reason. He owned over 20 yuri anime titles. Thinking about it, he couldn't really judge women for liking guy-on-guy stuff. But rape manga? He still couldn't wrap his head around it.
"Senior, you really wanna get raped?"
"Yeah. At first, I wondered why I liked it, but then I figured out the reason."
"What is it?"
"My dad. I think I wanna get sexually dominated by a guy even worse than him. Maybe so I won't fear him anymore."
"Overwriting it? Getting taken by someone worse than your dad? To make him seem pathetic?"
"Yeah, something like that. I got hooked on that rape manga after the inspection. I started thinking it'd be nice if a hot guy like the protagonist did it to me. Then I'd forget all about getting inspected by Dad. And the hero's so cool—he protects the heroine to the end, no matter what. Even with all the guys and girls trying to interfere, he guards her, rapes only her. That's possessiveness. He won't let anyone else touch her, just ravages her himself over and over. I love that. A strong, bad guy who touches only me. I'd endure anything for that."
"......"
It kinda made sense. Like meeting a devil worse than the one you knew, getting saved. And loved, protected by that new devil. Even if it meant getting raped...
It wasn't like rape porn, though. That shit was nonsense—gangbanged by a bunch of guys until the woman gets turned on and takes them all. Pure comedy, and it glorified rape. This manga glorified it too, no doubt. Dramas had those surprise kisses sometimes—technically sexual assault. But if the protagonist did it, everyone forgave him. No one rioted and canceled the show over a kiss scene. They went wild: Did they kiss? No way! But if an ugly extra or side character surprise-kissed the heroine? Total outrage.
Han Yaseong got it now—this world's hypocrisy. In the end, if the star did it, real life or fiction, it all got a pass. Made him wanna try it himself, just once.
"Sigh, forget it. It's too much for you."
Jang Eun-ah figured Yaseong couldn't be a bad boy. How could this gentle guy toy with and possess a woman? Impossible. He got all flustered around girls. Hell, he was still pining for Yujin, just waiting for her to get back from Europe. No way he'd possess and ravage her like the manga's Junya.
Her momentum gone, Jang Eun-ah moved to leave.
"I'm just gonna go. This is no fun."
"Wait a sec."
Han Yaseong stopped Eun-ah senior as she started getting up from the bed. Should I really try it? His male pride kicked in. Plus, he didn't want to just send her away like this. She didn't hate him—even if he wasn't her ideal type, she wanted him to act like Junya from the manga. Since it was what she desired, the urge to give it a shot surged up. For a fleeting moment, he wanted to become that smug, kingly, ultra-handsome chaebol heir Junya.
"You cool if I really go full Junya?"
"Huh? You're gonna try? I told you, it's not for you. Not just anyone can pull that off."
It was for the elite. The manga's Junya was a chaebol heir, top of the top. The heroine was your average college girl, overwhelmed and unable to resist. In a way, it was the opposite of their situation—Jang Eun-ah was the elite, and Han Yaseong was just a regular student.
"You won't regret it if I do?"
Han Yaseong steeled himself. He'd give it a shot. Just like Junya.