Anything for My Beloved Boyfriend
Lee Siha.
From the very first moment she laid eyes on Im Hamin back in her second year of high school, she had carried a one-sided love for him. Until yesterday, every single day had felt like a dream.
They were finally dating.
Im Hamin. The boy she liked.
"Siha, did something good happen?"
"The fans are already going crazy saying our bassist’s facial muscles are ruined."
"No, not really. I’ll head out first."
"Not staying for dinner? Jongchan’s been waiting just for you…"
"I’m not hungry. See you at the next practice."
She could no longer control her expression.
The band members who had spent three years with her were genuinely shocked to see the usually stoic Lee Siha smiling so often.
Of course, that was only their perception. Inside, Lee Siha was celebrating like it was a festival.
‘Finally, with Hamin… What should I wear on our date? I should’ve bought more clothes… Should I copy Haeun’s style from Stargram? But the clothes she buys are way too expensive… Still, if Hamin likes it…’
Cool. Chic.
That was the personality and appearance Lee Siha had painstakingly crafted over time. Originally introverted and otaku-like, she had forced herself to change because Im Hamin liked that type.
He had never said it outright, but after stalking him day after day, she had noticed.
Im Hamin preferred girls similar to his twin sister, Im Haeun.
She had cut her long hair short right after second year, copying Im Haeun. She tried to match her fashion style as closely as possible too. To create at least one difference, she bleached and dyed her hair the moment she graduated.
And that wasn’t all.
The band she joined now—she had started learning bass after realizing Im Hamin enjoyed manga and movies about rock bands.
Thanks to that, at twenty-four, Lee Siha’s life had become the complete opposite of what it was at eighteen.
But she had no regrets.
‘Because Hamin complimented me.’
Im Hamin had told her she looked pretty and cool after the change. That alone was enough for her. She loved him that much.
No—she adored him.
If someone asked why she had given her heart so completely, she couldn’t point to just one reason.
‘At first, I just thought he was handsome and kind.’
He was good-looking and smiled a lot, which drew her eyes even more. He was gentle yet kind, unlike other guys his age, and never spoke crudely. When they talked, he looked her in the eyes. Even when she complained, he just smiled quietly and listened.
His hands were slender yet large and attractive. His slim, delicate frame had beautiful lines. He didn’t dislike sweets but didn’t love them either; he preferred Dr. Pepper over cola. Even the smallest things about him made her heart flutter and pulled her deeper in love. Before she knew it, she was thinking about Im Hamin all day long.
That wildfire of affection had spread so far that on graduation day, she confessed to him.
And was rejected.
‘I’m grateful, but… I don’t think I can accept it right now.’
‘You don’t hate me, do you? Is there someone else you like?’
‘That’s… not it.’
‘Then it’s fine. I’ll wait.’
Even though she was turned down, she saw hope.
Even if there had been none, she wouldn’t have given up.
From that day on, Lee Siha maintained a relationship with Im Hamin that was more than friends but less than lovers. Occasionally she would meet with Im Haeun too. After hanging out with the three of them a few times, she vaguely realized something.
Im Hamin wasn’t getting a girlfriend because of his twin sister, Im Haeun.
She didn’t know exactly what he was worried about regarding his same-age sister, and sometimes she even felt resentful about it. Still, the fact that no girl was closer to Im Hamin than his twin sister gave her some comfort.
In the end, Lee Siha’s feelings went unrequited for over six years.
Yet even so—
‘Hamin said he wanted to see a movie, right? I should clear my schedule. Practice can wait until later.’
Lee Siha was content.
Even at twenty-four, her heart raced whenever she texted Im Hamin. On days they met for a meal or a movie, she would spend over three hours in front of the mirror every morning.
Then one day.
Finally.
At long last.
Im Haeun got a boyfriend.
"Sorry for being so late. It’s shameless to say this now, but… I like you. Will you go out with me?"
"……Hic."
"Siha…?"
"Huu, huwaaang…!"
As if she had been waiting for this moment, Im Hamin confessed first this time.
And Lee Siha, unable to maintain her usual cool persona, burst into tears that day. The happiness welling up inside her was simply too overwhelming to contain.
***
Though their love had taken years to come to fruition, her feelings never cooled after they started dating. If anything, they burned even hotter.
She couldn’t put into words how happy it made her to openly call herself Im Hamin’s girlfriend.
They had already spent most of their time together like a couple even before dating, but now the distance between them had clearly shrunk.
They held hands.
They linked arms.
Before long, they kissed.
Her first kiss.
She had waited for Im Hamin until she was twenty-four, but that didn’t matter at all. His kiss melted both her body and soul.
She had wanted to drag him straight to a motel and experience everything with him right then.
But even though she tried to act cool, in front of Im Hamin she could only be a girl. She couldn’t bring herself to show that desire.
‘…What if he thinks I’m too forward?’
Still, the opportunity came quickly.
They had been exchanging feelings for years even without officially dating—a couple well into their twenties.
Going straight to a motel after a nighttime date when the mood was right wasn’t strange at all.
"You’re so beautiful, Siha."
"Really…? I’m glad… I’m happy."
Her body, which she had carefully maintained just for this day.
Simply showing him her naked form made her wet.
Soon, Im Hamin also removed his underwear and revealed everything.
‘It looks kind of cute all shrunk like that… It’ll get bigger soon, right? I heard guys’ sizes change a lot when they get hard…’
While sneaking glances at Im Hamin’s small member and engaging in skinship, she casually touched his now-warm length with her hand.
Preparing for what was to come.
However—
"Why…"
"Hamin?"
"Sorry… I must be too nervous…"
"N-no, that can happen. It’s okay."
No matter how much they touched or caressed each other, Im Hamin’s member refused to grow.
Lee Siha was a little flustered but didn’t worry too much. She had done her research online beforehand and knew that men could sometimes fail to get hard when nervous during their first time.
"We can try again next time. Let’s just sleep like this."
"…Thank you. I’ll do my best next time."
In the end, their first night ended with them simply sleeping naked in each other’s arms.
That was enough.
Being held in Im Hamin’s embrace felt so warm that even without sex, Lee Siha’s heart was satisfied.
But then—
"Today too…?"
"…Yeah."
Twice.
"I-I’ll figure something out. Don’t worry, Hamin. Okay? Should I try with my mouth? I heard guys like that…"
"…No… No… Hic… Sorry… I’m sorry…"
"You don’t have to apologize! It’s not a big deal. I’m fine…"
By the third time.
Lee Siha was more worried about Im Hamin’s crestfallen, tearful expression than the lack of sex itself.
She had been looking forward to becoming one with her boyfriend, but being with Im Hamin mattered more than anything.
That was why she felt helpless seeing him so depressed. She even blamed herself.
‘Am I not attractive enough? Does he not like my body? Is that why he can’t get hard…?’
She loved her boyfriend too much to blame him.
She would have accepted it even if he suggested a platonic relationship.
"…I’ll contact you later."
Knowing no words would comfort him, she couldn’t stop Im Hamin as he left with slumped shoulders.
Lee Siha felt like her heart was being torn apart, but she still studied.
She researched what a girlfriend could do for a boyfriend whose erection issues were likely psychological, all while tears streamed down her face whenever she pictured Im Hamin’s troubled expression.
Just as she was struggling to find a solution and wondering how to comfort him—
"…What? You want me to… sleep with your friend? Are you serious?"
Im Hamin had brought an unbelievable solution.
He was asking her to have sex with his friend—an absurd request.
Even Lee Siha was momentarily speechless.
But—
"I’m sorry… for being this kind of boyfriend… Hic… But I’ve… had this kind of fetish since before…"
"Y-you did…?"
"Still… Hic, I tried not to… but in the end I couldn’t… Huu…"
Seeing her boyfriend confess his fetish while sobbing pitifully made her chest ache as if it were being ripped apart.
"I… I don’t need sex, Hamin. If it’s too hard, I’m satisfied with just kissing and touching."
"But…"
"Still, you want to watch? Even though we haven’t done it yet, you want to see me having sex with your friend…?"
"…Just once… Just one time… After that, I think I’ll be able to hold you normally…"
"……."
"I think I’ll be able to love you properly…"
The sight of her boyfriend wishing to have sex with her so badly that he would offer his own girlfriend to his friend struck a chord in her heart.
—Thud!
"……!!"
"Please, Siha. For me… No, for us… Could you do it just once…?"
His desperate plea, kneeling on the floor, shook her to the core.
"……Okay."
She didn’t need long to decide.
Having sex with someone other than Im Hamin? She hated the idea more than death.
Especially since it would be her first time.
But if it was Im Hamin’s request… If he wanted it so badly that he would kneel and beg…
Her desire to grant his wish came first.
"I’ll do it. I’ll have sex… with your friend…"
"Siha…!"
"Just once, right? Only once…"
"Yeah, once is enough. Thank you… Really… Hic… Thank you…"
"Don’t cry, Hamin. If it’s what you want… I can do anything for you."
The warmth of her boyfriend hugging her while crying made Lee Siha feel that her choice hadn’t been wrong.
Yes.
If Im Hamin was this happy, this grateful—
Lee Siha could do anything.
‘I can do it. For Hamin’s sake.’
***
And now.
"You’re dating Haeun? Congratulations. You achieved your dream."
"You too, sunbae. You’ve been looking at Hamin since high school, and you finally succeeded."
After years apart, she found herself sitting side by side on a bed with her high school junior, Jang Hyunwoo.
He had always been Im Hamin’s close friend, so Lee Siha knew him to some extent. Like her, he had only ever had eyes for Im Haeun.
And in the end, he had succeeded in winning his first love’s heart, which had indirectly helped her own love come true as well.
She was grateful to him and felt a sense of closeness. She wanted to stay on good terms with him in the future.
If only they weren’t about to have sex right in front of her boyfriend.
"Are you… okay with doing this with me? You’re dating Haeun…"
"Well… It’s a bit hard to explain, but Hamin was struggling so much that I couldn’t just stand by and watch."
"…I see."
She was relieved it was Jang Hyunwoo.
She didn’t know him deeply, but she had never heard anything bad about him.
She assumed that birds of a feather flock together, so he must be kind like Im Hamin.
Since he was dating Im Haeun, she didn’t have to worry about him saying anything strange afterward.
He was the best possible choice.
"……."
"……."
"……."
After a brief exchange, silence fell.
Neither of them could bring themselves to speak, both hesitating awkwardly.
"Phew, we can’t stay like this forever. Let’s set some clear boundaries."
Jang Hyunwoo spoke with a stiff expression.
"Im Hamin. From now on, I’m going to have sex with Siha sunbae—just like you wanted. You haven’t changed your mind, have you? If you have, we can stop right now."
"……I haven’t changed my mind. Please do it. I’m begging you."
"Siha sunbae. Are you okay having sex with me in front of Hamin? If you can’t, we can stop. Even if we quit here, Hamin won’t break up with you."
"…No, I’m fine. If it’s what Hamin wants, I want to do it. I will."
Since Im Hamin had accepted it, Lee Siha’s answer remained unchanged.
Jang Hyunwoo nodded and continued.
"Alright. Then let’s set the rules. Hamin, I’m only here to help you and sunbae, so let’s be clear before we start."
"How…?"
"How far you’re willing to allow. Sex is non-negotiable. What about touching and kissing?"
"……!!"
Im Hamin’s eyes trembled.
But he quickly gave his answer.
"T-touching… is necessary for sex, so… But kissing… Can we skip that…?"
Lee Siha felt relieved inside.
She would do it if Im Hamin wanted, but she herself didn’t want to kiss either.
"If you don’t want it, we won’t. That’s why I’m asking in advance. So everything except kissing. Is that okay?"
"…Yeah. Please."
"You heard that too, sunbae?"
"I did. Thank you."
"No problem. By the way, I heard you’re in a band? I’ll come watch a performance with Hamin sometime."
"Pfft… Sure. Anytime."
She was grateful that Jang Hyunwoo was clearly setting boundaries while trying to ease the atmosphere.
After all, he was only here because he had been asked.
Even though he had such a beautiful girlfriend like Im Haeun.
"Then let’s start right away. Hamin, you sit there and watch. If you can’t handle it, say something anytime. I’ll stop."
—Rustle!
With those words, Jang Hyunwoo began removing his clothes.
T-shirt, pants, and then his underwear.
In an instant, he was completely naked, revealing his toned muscles and impressive member.
Both Lee Siha and Im Hamin stared with mouths agape at his decisive actions.
He approached her.
"Sunbae, I’ll help you undress."
"……!"
—Flinch!
When Jang Hyunwoo’s hand drew near, Lee Siha instinctively shrank back.
But soon she allowed it.
"……."
Because Im Hamin was watching her with an excited expression.
Because he was looking forward to what was about to happen.
Because she had come here prepared for all of this.
—Rustle…
Unlike when he had undressed himself, Jang Hyunwoo slowly and gently began removing her clothes.
Starting with her top.
—Plop
Her bra.
"Could you lift your hips for me?"
"…Okay."
Her pants.
"Lie down in the middle."
"Ugh… O-okay…"
Her face turned bright red as she showed Jang Hyunwoo the round breasts she had thought she would only ever show Im Hamin.
Following his instructions, Lee Siha lay down on the bed.
Jang Hyunwoo grabbed both sides of her panties and—
—Slowly…
—pulled them down.
"Ugh…"
As her panties slid down her legs and off her feet, Lee Siha quickly covered her breasts and private parts with her hands.
Overwhelming shame, embarrassment, and anxiety about being held by another man all mixed together, making her grit her teeth.
"Please move your hands."
"……."
Jang Hyunwoo requested.
Before complying, Lee Siha turned her head to look at Im Hamin sitting in the chair beside the bed.
And—
"Haa, haa…"
—Nod
Seeing her boyfriend’s flushed face and heavy breathing as he quietly nodded—
‘This is what he wants, right…?’
She moved her hands away.
She showed her beautiful body—maintained only for her boyfriend—to his friend.
Her breasts, her pink nipples, and her tightly closed womanhood.
All of it.
‘…It’s for Hamin.’
Just as her beloved boyfriend wished.