If Only You'd Just Kept Apologizing
(Shin Down)
That bitch Areum had me locked down tight, my body half-sunk into the mattress. No matter how hard I thrashed against the weight crushing down from above, I couldn't break free.
Her back pressed to mine, her chest to mine—her hand worming its way between the bed and my breasts. That hand squeezed and kneaded them while her face buried itself against my shoulder.
"Hnnngh…"
The disgusting moan digging into my ear, the crushing weight on my ass—a gasp tore out of my mouth.
"Hah, haah! You fucking bitch…"
Fear flooded through me. Especially the rustling sound of that cock brushing against my cunt—my whole body went rigid. And it really did lock up stiff, just lying there taking the rise and fall of Areum's hips.
"Hah… haah, hnnn, hnaaah…"
Moans spilled from her mouth, and the cheap bedsprings creaked louder and louder. The hand clutching my breast put on more force, kneading it like she was milking me.
"Hey, why—haah… aren't you saying anything? Hmm?"
"……"
I couldn't think straight with that dick rooting around between my ass cheeks. If I so much as parted my lips, I was sure that cock would drive straight into me. So all I could do was stay face-down and hold my breath.
"Hey, say something already."
"Hnnn…"
"Hah! Fuck."
A sharp little pain bloomed in my breast and a soft moan slipped out. Even that reaction seemed to piss Areum off; she rolled the body she'd been draping over me off to the side.
I felt a flicker of relief, but I still kept watching her carefully out of the corner of my eye.
"Hey, where's my bag?"
"Ah… over there on the sofa…"
At that, Areum vaulted off the bed. For a while the only sound was her footsteps splashing through the water on the floor.
"Hey… enough already. Just take this and swallow it."
She rummaged through the bag and chucked something at me.
"W-what is this…"
"What do you think, you fucker? Birth control. Just shut up and take it."
She opened the little mini-fridge beside her and tossed a water bottle my way.
"What, you planning to actually carry the kid yourself if you get pregnant?"
I fumbled around, rolled over, and picked up the pill and the water that had landed on the bed.
"Uh… this water looks recycled…"
The bottle hadn't even been opened, yet the cap was already separated from the body.
"Hah, so fucking what, asshole."
"…Isn't there anything else?"
"Just drink it. You're not gonna die. And if you wash it down with some soda and the pill doesn't work, that's on you."
"If I die, th-then what am I supposed to do."
"No, what the hell do you want me to do about it? You telling me to go buy you something to drink? You're the one who came inside."
"Th-there's a water cooler outside…"
Areum pressed a hand to her forehead and kept growling, then at my words she let out a long sigh—and a dry, ugly laugh twisted her whole face.
"Heh, hehhehheh."
Splash—splash—
She came toward me across the flooded floor. The hand reaching for me made me think I'd just done something stupid; I scrambled to twist the cap off the bottle.
"What are you doing. Get your body up, you idiot."
With a soft rustle the blanket I'd been lying on was yanked free and draped over her instead.
"Where's the water cooler."
"Ah…"
"I said where."
"O-out the door and to the right…"
"Haaah……"
Another sigh, and she started walking again. At some point a paper cup had appeared in her hand.
I gulped down the birth control pill with the water Areum had brought me. The thought that the cooler itself was probably in rough shape crossed my mind, but this time I kept it to myself.
"Hnnn…"
Even if the place I was lying was a cheap bed, all I wanted right then was to close my eyes and sleep—when Areum flopped down right beside me.
"A-again… why."
"What? I'm not allowed to lie down?"
"…No, lie down. Please just lie down."
After she'd put me through hell under the excuse of washing the jizz out of me, and after the whole wrestling match on the bed had finally seemed over, I'd thought I was free of her grip. That had been pure wishful thinking.
"…Hnn, hah, haahn."
"Does it turn you on when I touch you? Why the hell are you moaning."
Areum deliberately shoved her hand in between the blanket I'd wrapped around myself. She stroked my breasts and my sides, watching my reactions the whole time.
I was just about at my limit. I voiced a small, timid complaint.
"It tickles, what do you want me to do… j-just don't touch me then."
"Can't you talk nicer?"
"Haahk! I-it tickles… s-so just a little gent—kyaaaang!"
And that was how I learned, with my whole body, what it felt like to have a nipple twisted.
"Hnn… but seriously, why the hell did we switch."
"…Y-yeah, no idea."
"Think a little. Think. Why the hell did this happen."
This was a supernatural phenomenon. We'd already left common sense so far behind that I didn't think thinking was going to fix anything.
"S-status window!"
"…What the hell are you saying. You sound like a total nerd."
"Hah, haha… guess not."
I'd hoped, but of course nothing happened. A little disappointment was still settling in when something seemed to occur to Areum and she asked me again.
"Isn't there something we don't usually do that we did yesterday or today?"
"Hnnk! N-no… I don't think so."
"Haaah… I told you we should take separate cars, didn't I? Why the fuck did we do something we never do."
No way it was because we rode in the same car… that couldn't be it.
"Eating corn dogs together in the car is super sketchy too. You, fuck, you didn't do something weird to them, did you?"
"…I didn't. And what the hell could you even do to a corn dog that would swap our bodies."
If you really thought about what could have caused the switch, there was only one real candidate.
"Hey. Look at me."
"…What now."
"I said look."
At the growl in her voice I turned my head to the side.
"In movies and dramas they bump into each other and switch, right? Let's try it."
"Haaah… that's movies and dramas, aaaagh!"
"Ah shit, didn't work."
Areum's brainless headbutt made my skull ring with a solid thunk. She'd hit me so hard my brain rattled and the world spun for a second.
"You crazy bitch… haaah, at least warn me…"
"…Hey."
"Fuck, what."
"I think you might be a little confused about something right now."
The atmosphere turned cold and thin. Whatever little brightness had been there vanished in an instant, and I couldn't even bring myself to meet her eyes.
"What do you think happens when we switch back?"
"W-what do you mean."
"I'm going straight to Uncle and Auntie. And I'm telling them every single thing you did to me."
"…Y-you, and then what? How are you gonna look Mom and Dad in the face after that…"
"What does that have to do with anything? You forced me when I said no. Yeah, fine—I can't bring myself to file a report out of the bare minimum of decency I owe Uncle and Auntie. But I'm not just letting this go. They deserve to know what the hell their son's been out doing."
"Hey, heeey… w-why are you being so scary."
"Bullshit. Why are you suddenly acting all meek now."
I thought that if things went south I might get beaten up by Areum in this swapped body. I even thought that if her eyes rolled back she might do something really rough to me. But I had never imagined our private mess would spill out into the open.
Right now, though, the current felt completely different from earlier when she'd been casually talking about reporting me.
"I-I'm sorry! I'm really sorry!"
"Hnn, you shouldn't have done something you had to be sorry for."
"No no, haaah… I mean, hnn…"
Words my parents had repeated for more than a decade floated up. She's your little sister, look after her properly. I'd always answered that I would. And they had always treated Areum like their own daughter. If anything they'd doted on her more than on their actual son—they'd never once neglected her.
If those same parents found out about this, I was terrified even to imagine what would come after. In the best case—no, not even the best case. The absolute minimum outcome was that their report would send me straight to prison. The worst I could picture was getting beaten to death by my father, or living the rest of my life like a stranger with a few broken limbs.
"Th-then I, I absolutely, absolutely won't say a word about you doing that streaming, so please, can you just keep this a secret from Mom and Dad…?"
"Hah… are you trying to negotiate with that right now?"
"Y-yeah, uh-huh. I-if we call it even with that, mmph! Mmmph!"
It happened in an instant. Areum's hand wrapped around my throat and started to squeeze. Instinctively I tucked my chin down and grabbed the hand that was choking me.
"Mmmph! Hhk! Hnnnph!"
"Haaah… you fucking piece of shit… if only you'd just kept apologizing, hnn…"
Areum's half-reclining body slowly rose. The weight pressing down from above increased, and breathing got harder and harder.
"Hey, how about we just keep living like this? Then I'll go tell the whole world you're White Rabbit. How's that sound? Doesn't just imagining it get you excited?"
"Hnnph! Hnnnph! Uurk!"
"Haaah… what the hell are you even saying. I can't hear a damn thing."
Slap-slap! Slap-slap-slap—!
I was desperate. It wouldn't have been strange if I blacked out right then; strength was draining out of my body.
"Mmmph! Haaamph! Mmmph!!"
And not long after, I realized it. There was no way I was getting free of this on my own strength.
"Hah, haahk… hnnnph…"
They say it's easier once you give up. Everything started to feel like too much trouble. In the end the only desire left was the wish to just let go of living.
And not long after even that last desire faded and I had given up on everything—when there was no energy left in my body at all—somewhere a fierce rush of water sounded.
Shiiiiiiiiisss—
"H-hiiik! Hagrk, hnnnk…"
Something warm soaking my lower half sent a strange, blissful heat blooming through me. And right around the time I thought it might be fine to die like this—when I'd given up on breathing and simply closed my eyes—
"Puhhaaaah! Hoo, hah, hooo! Haaah…!"
The blocked airway opened and I shot upright like a spring. I started frantically hauling the oxygen I'd been missing into my brain; my heart hammered like crazy, and my hands and feet shook violently.
"Hoo-hah, haah, hoo! Haaah! Hooo! Haaaaah…"
"For fuck's sake, the shit you pull… dirty bastard."
Spit that had pooled in my mouth ran down the corner of my lips. And the weird smell of the pussy juice soaking my crotch drifted up into my nose.
"Hnn… hah-hnn, haaaah… hnn…"
I couldn't calm down at all. My mouth kept gulping short, sharp breaths, and my heart swelled like it was about to burst.
Shiiiiiiiiisss—
Whether it was because the tension had left my body or for some other reason, this time something that was unmistakably urine started leaking out from below.
"Haaah, go to the goddamn bathroom. Why the hell are you doing this on the bed."
"Hnn… haah, haah, haahk, hnnn…"
I scrubbed the spit off my mouth with my wrist. Then I looked at Areum's face as she sat there scolding me.
"Hey, heeey… I, just now I really, hnn… almost died…"
"Hehheh… hey, people don't die that easy. Always with the fucking theatrics."
I slowly brought my trembling hand to my throat. Under my fingertips I could feel the skin swollen and rough.
"Hah, haaaah…"
Thud—
I let my back sink into the bed and closed my eyes.
"Haaahn…"
Nothing came to mind. The rage, the terror, the fear toward Areum that had flared up like fire had already long since burned out. I just wanted to rest like this. I just wanted to keep my eyes closed like this. I just wanted to fall asleep like this.