A Vulgar, Sweet First Kiss
“For the first kiss, it has to be nothing but a vulgar, sweet deep kiss.”
“Use this towel when you come out of the shower. It’s new, so it’s soft.”
“Thank you for taking care of me…”
“From now on, I won’t set foot in this room. Once you’re mentally ready, lie naked on the bed and call for me. Remember, you can stop anytime.”
“Yes, Hansol sunbae…”
“Calling me ‘sunbae’ feels a bit stiff. How about just calling me ‘oppa,’ like you do with Ha-jun?”
Lee Ha-neul had never called any man besides Lee Ha-jun “oppa.” She had never even been close to another man. People sometimes whispered that she was a bro-con because she clung only to her brother, but the reason was simple. Aside from Lee Ha-jun, who had been her brother since birth, she had always been afraid of other men. Unlike women, they were bigger, had deeper voices, and possessed strength she could never match. In her fantasies they always played the role of roughly violating her, so getting close to any man felt like an unbearable burden. The only man she was close to was Lee Ha-jun, and because he was family, he didn’t scare her. Even when others called her a bro-con, even when Lee Ha-jun himself teased her about it, she never cared. It was true that she had no real interest in other men.
Until now.
“Hey. Who the hell are you, hitting on my precious junior?”
The moment she heard Jang Hansol’s voice in that tense situation, she felt a strange sense of relief amid the confusion. Ah… somehow, I feel safe… His broad back shielding her from the other man’s gaze gave her an odd sense of security. Even though another man might have used her weakness to blackmail her, he had brushed it off like it was nothing and shown consideration for her embarrassment.
Maybe I judged him too quickly just from what I saw yesterday.
Lee Ha-neul thought, Jang Hansol is a good person. They had only met twice, and this was the first time they were alone, yet it was enough for her to sense his character. She finally understood why Lee Ha-jun had said, “He followed me to the bathroom during the MT when I was throwing up and helped me. He looks like that, but he’s actually a kind guy.”
Yeah, if he’s pent up, it makes sense he’d do something like that at the store. I couldn’t hold back either. Hansol sunbae is a good person.
And today, he had accidentally discovered her secret—that she was perverted enough to bring a rotor to school. It was a shameful side of herself she never wanted anyone to see, something she had planned to hide for the rest of her life. Even though she had consulted him about such embarrassing things, he simply said:
“That must have been hard.”
Though they had only met twice, he had listened seriously to her absurd confession. Most men would have looked at her with dirty eyes or lust. But there was no ulterior motive in Jang Hansol’s gaze. As someone who shared the same perverted tendencies, he had earnestly tried to help her find a solution. When he suddenly offered to help her masturbate, she had doubted him for a moment, but then he said:
“Let’s not turn today’s events into something with ulterior motives or turn it into a romantic relationship. The goal is purely to relieve your frustration through treatment. You’re okay with that, right?”
She understood and accepted his sincerity. Lee Ha-neul’s heart pounded so hard it felt like she had finally found someone who understood her for the first time in her life. Not the kind older brother she had known for twenty years, but a senior she had only met twice—Jang Hansol.
“Yes… Hansol oppa…”
“Hearing Ha-neul call me oppa feels pretty good. Ah, by the way, you said you have a lot of lewd fantasies when relieving stress, right?”
“Yes… it’s embarrassing, but…”
“If that’s the case, how about imagining me opening the door without permission while you’re taking your clothes off after I leave?”
“Huh?”
“Of course, I won’t actually come in without your permission. I just think using me for your fantasy might help relieve your frustration.”
“Do you really think so?”
“Probably. Let’s try it once. I’ll stand outside the door and make some realistic sounds and movements.”
“If you’re willing to go that far… okay. I’ll try it.”
“Good. I’ll be outside. Call me if anything happens.”
He gently patted her head as if she were a cute little sister. There was something strangely comforting about the careful touch of his hand.
He only touched my head, so why does it feel like this? How strange.
Unfortunately, after patting her a couple more times, Jang Hansol let go without hesitation and left the room. Before entering the shower, Lee Ha-neul neatly folded the clothes and underwear she had been wearing and placed them in a small basket.
Right now, I’m completely naked in a man’s house like it’s nothing.
The thought made her heart race more than it had in years.
—Thud, thud, thud.
—Haa… hah…
She could hear footsteps and rough breathing outside the door. Hansol oppa was deliberately making noise so she could hear it. Because of that, the things she had only imagined felt like they were becoming reality. It was completely different from lying naked in a safe room, telling herself nothing would actually happen. Outside that door was a man who could physically overpower her. If he wanted, he could easily open the closed door and come in.
—Click!
“Hiiik!”
The moment the doorknob moved, Lee Ha-neul collapsed right where she stood. She quickly pressed her thighs together, covering her crotch with one arm and her chest with the other.
“……”
But the door didn’t open—only the handle had moved. That was the action he had taken to make it feel realistic, just as he had promised. The dizzying situation of thinking he was actually coming in made Lee Ha-neul’s body gradually heat up.
“Haa… this is completely insane…”
She hugged her own body with both arms, trembling as she let out heated breaths. Her body had suddenly flared with heat and was now slowly cooling down. In truth, Lee Ha-neul wasn’t without the desire to be violated by a man and turned into a sex slave. But that had always been just a fantasy. She knew how to distinguish between imagination and reality. She had thought such things only excited her because she knew they would never come true. But now, imagining that it was Jang Hansol—the man who had made Yoo Ra give him a blowjob at the bar—coming in…
—Drip.
“Huu, huuht…”
If it was that bold man, the moment she asked him to fulfill her fantasy, he might actually turn her into a sex slave. Her body had grown burning hot at the thought. Her hand reflexively moved downward before she caught herself.
“Ah! I must be really crazy…”
She hurried into the shower. It wasn’t enough that she had indulged in lewd fantasies in a man’s house—she had almost masturbated because she couldn’t control her lust. Shame and self-loathing flooded her. Yet, surprisingly, the frustration in her chest had decreased significantly.
“It’s true…? I only fantasized, but… just like Hansol oppa said, the frustration really went down.”
She realized his eccentric behavior had truly been for her sake, and that made him seem even more trustworthy.
If I just follow what Hansol oppa says, I’ll definitely be able to get rid of this frustration completely.
Even though Jang Hansol had told her she could call him whenever she was ready, Lee Ha-neul washed quickly and came out. She didn’t want to hesitate when there was a chance to relieve her frustration. She lay naked on the bed in a proper position. Feeling a bit embarrassed about calling him, she covered her private parts with her left hand and her chest with her right arm before speaking.
“Hansol oppa. You can come in now.”
“Yeah? Are you lying down naked right now?”
“Yes.”
“You’re okay with me seeing you, right? I’m coming in?”
“Yes. I’m ready.”
—Click.
The door that should never have opened swung wide, and Jang Hansol entered. It was embarrassing to show her naked body to a man, but the shock of seeing him made the embarrassment vanish. Lee Ha-neul was stunned. She never expected him to come in completely naked. She couldn’t take her eyes off his body. Every muscle was perfectly defined. And the male organ she had never seen except in family bathhouses as a child.
It’s hanging down, so that must be the non-erect state, right? But I heard it gets a lot smaller when it’s not erect…
Lee Ha-neul recalled what she had read online. The average length for Korean men before arousal was about 6–8 cm, but it grew to an average of 12–13 cm when aroused. Just looking at the length of Jang Hansol’s right now, it already seemed to be at least 13 cm. That meant it was already erect, yet it wasn’t standing up like in the videos she had seen—it was hanging down, which felt strange.
Does it look different for everyone when they’re erect? If it’s this limp, it probably wouldn’t even go in properly.
She had seen Jang Hansol’s genitals at the bar yesterday, but because Yoo Ra had taken the whole thing in her mouth, she hadn’t been able to see it clearly. So Lee Ha-neul accepted that this was his erect state. But then she realized how wrong she was when she saw what happened next.
He strode toward her as she lay on the bed. After examining her body closely, his penis suddenly twitched and began to grow larger. It hardened and rose high into the air.
Huh! So that wasn’t even erect?!
It was at least 20 cm by rough estimate—big enough to appear in some 19+ manga where they exaggerated the size. Seeing Lee Ha-neul’s flushed face, Jang Hansol spoke.
“This is just a physiological reaction. Don’t worry about it. I’m not going to penetrate you.”
“I-if that’s the case, it’s fine… but why did you take your clothes off?”
“I thought you might feel embarrassed being the only one naked. This way it’s fair, right? Doesn’t it feel less awkward?”
“Ah… yes.”
So that was the reason. She was once again impressed by his thoughtfulness in stripping to spare her embarrassment.
“Now, can you move your hands away? I’m about to start. I’m going to do some even more embarrassing things, so if you’re shy about being seen, we won’t be able to do anything.”
Lee Ha-neul removed her hands as instructed and lay properly.
“What should I do from now on?”
“You just need to enjoy feeling my touch. From now on, I’m going to touch your breasts and pussy… sorry. Can I speak more directly?”
“I’m fine. Please continue.”
“Thanks. I’m going to touch your breasts and pussy. I’ll do pretty much everything except penetration. Your body will gradually heat up, but you don’t need to try to hold back your arousal. This is meant to make you feel refreshed, so holding back would be pointless.”
“…You’re right.”
It was true. Trying to suppress her arousal out of embarrassment would only build more stress. This was about releasing all the pent-up sexual desire with his help and completely relieving her frustration. He was telling her not to be ashamed and to show her true self.
“And one more thing. From what I can tell, you seem to have a masochistic tendency—you get aroused by shame or coercive situations. Am I right?”
“Yes…”
“Once we start, I’ll use rough words and actions to stimulate that side of you. If you don’t like it, you can say so. Just don’t take it too seriously and get hurt.”
“…If it’s for treatment, I’m fine with anything. I’ll follow your lead.”
As soon as she answered, Jang Hansol climbed onto the bed. He straddled her legs, and his face slowly drew closer to hers.
Finally, it’s starting. This is just a treatment. I shouldn’t develop any strange feelings for Hansol oppa.
She was about to show her pussy—something she had thought she would only show to her future husband—to Jang Hansol first. It was a little embarrassing, and even though it was treatment, she was aware that she was engaging in lewd acts. But she had no choice. It was to get rid of her frustration.
His lips were already right in front of her nose. Since he had said he would do everything except penetration, she thought he might kiss her.
It’s a shame my first kiss has to be like this, but…
Thinking it couldn’t be helped, she gently closed her eyes. That was when it happened.
—Grab!
“…?!”
He seized both of her cheeks firmly with one hand. Lee Ha-neul’s cheeks were squished outward by Jang Hansol’s grip, leaving her with a dazed expression.
“Whoa, our Ha-neul closed her eyes thinking we were going to kiss? Cute. Alright, let’s have a real deep kiss with this oppa.”
“H-Hansol oppa, this kind of thing… mmph?!”
Jang Hansol grabbed her cheeks with one hand and forcefully shoved a deep kiss into her mouth.
“Huuuht…! Hup…”
“Chup… Ha-neul. Don’t be shy, stick out your tongue. It’ll feel even better.”
He had said he would use rough words and actions, but she had assumed it would be at a level she could accept. She never imagined he would suddenly grab her cheeks and force a kiss on her. She needed to tell him to stop.
“Hak…! W-wait… just a sec… mmph… chup…!”
But even when she tried to speak, her lips were pressed down by his strong force, and he sucked and nibbled on them. The chilling pleasure she felt in that moment surprised Lee Ha-neul. She never imagined her first kiss would be ruined like this. But—
“Huuuung…!”
She could only moan and tremble. An ecstatic pleasure so intense she couldn’t keep her mind clear was slowly melting her body away.