Chapter 18
Translator: True Detective
Chapter 18: Cry. Cry and Prove Your Sensibility.
That was writing a diary.
Because she had severe forgetfulness, she developed a habit of recording and checking if she forgot anything through a diary.
Even so, forgetting things happened, and eventually, she got dumped by her previous boyfriend because of that.
To never let that happen again this time, Enya wrote her diary meticulously, recording everything about Lawrence.
With what feelings she was meeting him now, what happened with him, and even that Lawrence secretly liked sweets despite looking like that.
She recorded in detail what she wanted to do when she opened her eyes tomorrow morning.
It felt a bit obsessive to call it a habit, and it felt more like a record of life than a diary.
Perhaps… she might have instinctively foreseen something.
Leaving detailed diaries, Enya feels happy in her cohabitation with Lawrence.
Amidst that, Enya declares, “This man is my man! I don’t want to have children unless it’s with this man!”
「Shall we get married? Yeah, getting married would be best.」
「Cough!」
Seeing Enya propose while eating, Lawrence ended up coughing.
It wasn't that he disliked it.
Actually, Lawrence was also gauging the timing.
He was secretly looking into wedding rings, and he planned to get a proper job by officially joining the Guild instead of being a daily worker carpenter.
The interview he had last time also had quite good results, and at this rate, he was getting ready to proudly greet Enya’s parents.
He was truly thankful and grateful to Enya who chose him, the man she loved, over her family, but because of that, he wanted to marry amidst parents’ blessings, not opposition, even more.
While he was working hard for that, at Enya’s sudden proposal, Lawrence felt caught off guard and drained.
「Since you confessed first, it’s okay if I propose first, right?」
「So, the answer? You will marry me, right?」
At those words urging him to answer quickly, Lawrence smiled bitterly and nodded.
「I will make you happy.」
「Dummy, I’m already happy.」
The two people’s hands overlapped.
Having hardened their resolve, Enya and Lawrence decided to boldly hold a meeting between families.
Of course, even if it’s a meeting between families, Lawrence’s mother had already died of syphilis and he didn't even know who his father was.
So, dressed in the suit he got on the day they met again after parting at the dessert shop, he went with Enya to meet her parents.
Although Enya’s father was displeased, everyone gathered at the meeting place as if practicing the saying that there are no parents who win against their children, thanks to his wife’s persuasion.
Contrary to worries, the two seemed to live well together while cohabiting, and Lawrence had also secured a job at the Guild.
With this much, it seemed they had no choice but to acknowledge it.
Above all, Enya had already cohabited with a strange man.
Rumors had spread everywhere in the neighborhood, so her chances of marrying anyone but Lawrence were ruined.
Truly the happiest and brightest moment.
But at that moment,
「My god, is that woman peeing in the restaurant right now?」
Enya’s forgetfulness── no, her illness crossed the critical point.
Beyond the level of forgetfulness, Enya’s brain began to cause regression to infancy.
As if a thick fog covered everything, Enya forgot everything in an instant.
People, situations, places, even herself.
「Ah, uh….」
As if she truly returned to being a child, she stood blankly on the spot and relieved herself as is.
An appearance of pure innocence itself, completely unaware of what she was doing or what the problem was.
Seeing that, other customers around were astonished, and even her parents were shocked and didn't know what to do──.
「I apologize. I will compensate.」
Lawrence took off his coat filled with memories, used it as a rag to wipe Enya’s mistake, and handled the situation.
「Enya… we will take care of our daughter, so you meet someone new….」
And moving locations to Enya’s family home.
With appearances unable to escape sadness and shock, Enya’s parents advised Lawrence to break up and live his own life.
They knew their daughter’s condition to a hateful degree due to today’s event.
They knew well that Lawrence loved Enya too.
But because of that, they wanted Lawrence to live his own life even more.
They didn't want a good young man like Lawrence to waste his life caring for a sick person without even enjoying a proper newlywed life.
「Enya is my woman. I will take care of her.」
Naturally, Lawrence refused that proposal flatly.
It was Enya who let him know what love is and what happiness is in his life that was only desolate and desperate.
Now it was his turn to repay that happiness.
Even though Lawrence learned that Enya was suffering from a serious illness, he loved her without wavering and wanted to marry her as is.
However, Enya, who returned to her parents' home in the worst form after a few months, refused to return to ‘home’, unlike such a Lawrence.
Locking her door, she declares a unilateral breakup to Lawrence.
Naturally, at those words, Lawrence forced the door open and faced Enya.
「If you really want to break up, look straight at my face and say it. Say you hate me now. Say you don’t like me.」
「Sob….」
「If that’s not it, it doesn't matter. Whatever problem you have, I won’t give up on you.」
「Uwaaang…!」
Enya, who was always confident and strong, becomes a frail woman only for now and cries loudly in Lawrence’s arms.
「I’m scared, I’m so scared! I’m so scared I might forget you, forget even the fact that I love you…!」
「It’s fine. Because I remember. Because I will love you. Even if you don’t recognize me, I will make you fall for me again every time.」
At those words telling her to rest assured, Enya sobbed herself to sleep in Lawrence’s arms.
Taking such a her, Lawrence returns to their home just for the two of them.
「Take… good care of our daughter.」
To the leaving Lawrence, Enya’s father, who opposed their relationship, said that.
「You do not need to worry, Father-in-law.」
The sorrowful newlywed life of the two began.
No matter how sad and desperate love is, as if reality is cold, Enya’s forgetfulness only got worse and worse.
Stopping mid-cooking and forgetting what she was doing, almost causing a fire, the situation worsened.
People around pitied them saying she should be sent to a sanitarium right away, but Lawrence steadfastly used his carpentry skills to assist her memory.
Hanging memo boards all over the house so that even if Enya forgot, she could see the memo and realize it quickly.
But that was only a temporary measure, not a fundamental solution.
The two met healing priests of the temple or mages of the magic tower and tried somehow for a cure and improvement.
To such two people, a mage researching human mind or memory at Gran Ark Academy gives advice.
The condition will get worse and worse, and she won’t even know who she is or recognize her family.
No matter how great love is, what can’t be helped can’t be helped.
Unable to endure the mage speaking like that, Lawrence grabs him by the collar.
「So? So what?! Are you telling me to give up?!」
At that anger, the mage calmly gives ‘advice’.
「So if you intend to be together until the end, harden your resolve. Because this fight makes the people around harder than the person suffering from the illness. So that your heart doesn't break in the long, endless fight.」
At that remark seemingly coming from experience, Lawrence lets go of the mage’s collar as if realizing something.
「I couldn't do that.」
A patient with severe symptoms lives without remembering anything as if trapped in a fog for 365 days, but very occasionally, the fog lifts and they find themselves.
At that time, the mage’s wife took her own life for her struggling husband.
What would be the reason for researching such a disease that is minor beyond measure?
It’s just obsessively researching after sending the person he loved so much first.
Even if he finds a solution, his wife is already not in this world.
「Is there… is there no way?」
「Unfortunately, the reality is there isn't even a way to improve it. Slowing down the progression as much as possible is the best we can do.」
It might be fine now when burning with love.
But no matter how much heart you pour, the partner will come not to know who you are.
Can your heart not break even then?
The mage’s words to harden his resolve firmly came too heavily.
Lawrence, who lived without knowing what love is.
Maternal love, paternal love, Lawrence survived barely without knowing such things.
He barely came to know love thanks to Enya, but the person who let him know such love forgets him?
Can he endure that sense of loss?
Realizing anew the fact that Enya could forget him, Lawrence was so afraid.
For such a Lawrence,
「Let’s make our baby.」
Enya decided to leave a precious existence that would love Lawrence and whom Lawrence could love even if she forgot everything.
Before it was too late.
At Enya’s appearance seemingly preparing for farewell, Lawrence was so painful and sad, but he decided to follow her words that she wanted to know a mother’s happiness before forgetting everything.
Thus, Enya succeeded in pregnancy.
On the way back from visiting the temple for postpartum care──.
「Enya?」
She encountered her ex-boyfriend.
And the moment she saw him, the film called Enya’s memory became even more tangled.
Enya, whose memory reverted not to married woman Enya but to herself in her single days enjoying dating.
「How is it? This time I didn't forget and came properly for the date, right?」
Smiling like that, she links arms with her ex-boyfriend.
「What?」
The flustered ex-boyfriend.
「Let’s go quickly. Before the limited edition strawberry cake I like runs ou──.」
Enya, who was dragging his arm while smiling, saw Lawrence who came out looking for his wife who strangely wasn't coming even though he waited.
「Ah….」
And her memory broke down completely.
「Uh…? Who…?」
He seems like a precious, truly precious person, but she can’t remember.
That is so scary, hard, and sad that tears flow endlessly.
But soon,
「Why am I crying…?」
She forgets even the reason why she is crying moment by moment.
Eventually, what they worried about happened.
Still, the two didn't give up loving, and thanks to that, Enya adapted to her condition.
Enya wrote and wrote diaries to remember Lawrence, and Lawrence tried to make her fall in love with him again every time Enya forgot him to keep his vow.
At the end of it, the two could smile in sad happiness.
Reading the diary she wrote last night like reading a letter from her past self, Enya grasped the situation she was currently in.
That she became one person’s wife, one child’s mother, and how happy she is right now.
So, seeing the content of the diary asking to protect that happiness, Enya acted as if she remembered everything for the request of herself and others.
And the moment she saw Lawrence, her husband, cooking for his son and wife,
「Good morning, Enya.」
She truly fell for that domestic appearance and fell in love.
A precarious love.
“Finished writing…!”
The story marked with a period.
With a satisfied smile, Noel put down her pen.
Clearly, it was broad daylight when she started writing, but it is already dark night outside.
I hate canning! I’m going to write leisurely as a hobby while playing!
As if screaming like that was a lie, she finished the story in a flash sitting in one spot.
Even though she wrote referencing movies she saw on Earth….
Let’s put aside bad words asking if she wouldn't be canned like this.
“This is my new work… I was curious how it would look to men. Could you read and evaluate it once?”
Noel called the adapter trio and held out the completed draft.
Instead of always evaluating them herself, she wanted to switch roles and receive evaluation from the trio this time.
The result was,
“Keuheuk, heuk, sob…!”
“Ah, right, this… this is love…. Sniff.”
“Such a story…! Tears, the tears won’t stop──!”
The three men, unable to hold back tears while reading the romance novel written by a girl, ended up wailing loudly.