True Feelings
True Feelings
"Hngh...!"
"Lunia-ssi!"
My hand suddenly went to my chest.
And without realizing it, I gripped my breast.
At the moan that escaped, Mari urgently called out, jolting me back to my senses.
"Ah, ah..."
Only then did I come to, instinctively realizing that I had ultimately given up half of my defenses.
So I hastily tried to remove my hand, but
".....Huh?"
My body wouldn't obey.
My mind clearly commanded my hand to lower, but from my right shoulder to my arm and fingers, they wouldn't move.
To be precise, it wasn't so much that I had lost control of my body, but rather that my instincts were rejecting my reason.
"Lunia-ssi, no!"
What did she mean, "no"?
The question only lingered for a moment, as I was already unfastening my own bra.
And as the cool, unique breeze of the cave brushed against my nipples and areolas,
"Hwaaah❤️"
A rather refreshing sense of liberation washed over me.
That feeling of liberation was so sweet that I forgot Mari was watching, and my whole body tingled as if static electricity was running through it.
"Lu, Lunia-ssi....."
Mari was staring at me with a rather bewildered look.
Did she think she couldn't help me?
Or was it because Reed, who would soon return, would have to see me like this?
Whatever it was, it was no longer my concern.
I felt sorry for Mari, but I had already succumbed to my lust, and I had no intention of stopping.
And this is a bit of a secret, but perhaps because Mari was watching.
I felt a little more aroused.
"Haa-ngh?!"
After my defenses had already crumbled, the aftermath was disastrous.
It was a situation where I couldn't control myself even if I wanted to.
It was like trying to repair a dam that had already burst, which would take far too long.
I endured and endured again.
Even when it felt like I would burst, I held on longer, and the pleasure that finally erupted was incomparable to anything else.
Perhaps this was the beginning.
The beginning of me losing myself in my own masturbation, not caring if Mari watched, or if Reed returned from scouting.
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I roughly kneaded my breasts again.
Are breasts just lumps of fat?
No, I'm sorry, but breasts were not just mere lumps of fat.
They were meticulously arranged with nerve cells, softer and more pliable than simple fatty tissue.
And most importantly, the sensation felt from roughly caressing the breasts and the nerves transmitted by the friction of skin against skin connected directly to the brain via the spine, allowing for ecstasy.
And that ecstasy took precedence over most other emotions.
The very dangerous and thrilling sensation was as addictive as a drug, hard to quit.
"Hngh, hngh~!"
After kneading my breasts myself for a while, I naturally craved greater stimulation.
But my hands weren't tied, and my mind no longer interfered with commands to stop.
So, quite naturally, I caressed my entire breast, then angled my thumb and forefinger to lightly touch my nipple.
As my body heated up, the nipples were the part of my body that had undergone the most physical change.
Therefore, my nipples, already engorged with blood, were incredibly easy to pinch between my fingers.
And finally, I put strength into my thumb and forefinger, twisting them slightly—
"Kyaa-hngh?!!"
I felt an unbelievable pleasure.
"Lu, Lunia-ssi....."
Was seeing my masturbatory act shocking?
Would a friend, someone as beautiful, pretty, and outwardly perfect as me, someone with whom she had built a close relationship by spending every day together for a month, if not years, feel that my masturbating after succumbing to an Aphrodisiac was vulgar?
Or would she at least despise me for stripping in front of people like a whore?
Perhaps I was aroused by the fact that Mari was watching me,
And with the inexpressible emotions I felt from Mari, my body began to heat up even more.
"Hngh, hngh, hngh-ik?!"
Now, I had no intention of covering myself at all.
Rather than being embarrassed, I was ashamed,
And rather than being ashamed, I was humiliated.
But why did this humiliation drive me crazy?
Perhaps this body, no. 'My' sexual preference was...........
'Was I always this perverted.....'
What was Mari thinking right now?
Would she think of me, someone who seemed so unlike this, stripping and masturbating my nipples, as vulgar?
Or would she at least despise me for stripping in front of someone like a whore?
"Hngh...❤️"
Just imagining this made my body react.
Ah, what a lewd body this was.
Or not.
Maybe I was just lewd.
-Squish....
"Heugh."
I finally put my hand on my pussy.
My mind had long been dominated by lust, and my pussy was already wet with vulgar, sticky Arousal Fluid.
-Squeeze...❤️
As I inserted my finger into my vagina, my pussy mistook my finger for a man's cock and squeezed it diligently.
Moving my finger inside my now tight pussy, I began to feel the sensation.
"Hngh, haa-ngh..."
A seductive voice flowed out involuntarily.
It was my own voice, but even to my ears, it was completely different from my everyday speaking voice, imbued with sensuality.
"Lunia-ssi....."
Mari still just called my name, without taking any stance.
But I, in fact, was masturbating while feeling Mari's gaze.
After poking my finger around for a while, when my pussy was completely soaked with Arousal Fluid,
-Thump, thump.
"Lu, nia.....?"
Reed, who had finished scouting, finally saw me.
"Aah-hngh~❤️!"
And at the same time, though very slightly, I came.
If there was one thing I wanted to hide,
It was that—
'Look, look more! With eyes that call me vulgar.....! Hngh-hngh❤️'
My heart was also beginning to corrupt.
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"Lu, nia....."
"Hah, hngh."
From behind, a voice that couldn't hide its bewilderment flowed out.
A unique, sweet, mid-low tone.
Even without seeing him, the owner of the voice was Reed.
What kind of face would Reed be making?
A disgusted face?
Or a hateful face?
No, that couldn't be.
Men are creatures who can't help but like lewd and sexy 'women'.
"Hngh~❤️"
Isn't a man a creature who gets an erection just by hearing a slightly sensual moan like this?
One of the criticisms passed down through the ages about men is that they are people whose brains are controlled by their dicks, isn't it?
"Ree, Reed...! Don't look!"
Then Mari began to try and cover Reed's eyes.
Yes, she probably couldn't tolerate her boyfriend-to-be seeing another woman's body, especially masturbating.
Or perhaps she wanted to protect me, who had succumbed to an Aphrodisiac.
I don't care.
In fact, I wish he would look.....
Perhaps because of the Aphrodisiac, I couldn't control the instincts that kept leaking out.
So, the desire for him to look wasn't my true feeling, but an instinct that had succumbed to lust.....
It was already too late to make such an excuse, though.
-Squish, squish...
In the quiet cave, the vulgar sound echoed even louder.
And of course, it must have been clearly heard by the two who couldn't cover their ears.
Mari and Reed, whom I glanced back at, had red cheeks.
Was Mari a virgin too?
Well, if Reed was a virgin, she'd probably want to give her first time to someone she loved.
Compared to that, my—
My first time was rape.
My Hymen was forcibly torn,
And even when I screamed in pain, they mercilessly widened me inside.
And eventually, my vagina, widened all the way to the cervix, forcibly brought forth pleasure,
Even though I didn't want to feel it, I involuntarily began to sob,
Even though I didn't want to come, I was forcibly made to come.
"Ha."
-Squish! Squish!
Was it because I compared myself to Mari?
The reality that my first time was so tragic made me look so pathetic.
So I began to scratch inside my pussy nervously.
It was the same when I masturbated in an inn for the first time in a woman's body.
No matter how much I wanted to caress and enjoy foreplay, because it was lacking and insufficient, I would masturbate by imagining being forcibly taken by Kalena Mark.
So, this situation was the same.
It was no different from before.
Ultimately, I couldn't escape this curse.
That fact, this reality, was so unfair and infuriating.
Nevertheless, I was so happy that 'I' could feel such ecstasy.
Even though I hated feeling such joy.
I guess I had finally succumbed to lust.
Among the items Mari had laid out, there was also a rope.
My gaze went to that rope first.
I stopped my masturbation and crawled on all fours.
Mari and Reed looked at me with questioning expressions.
Still, I had no intention of stopping.
Finally, I reached the rope, and holding it, I approached Mari.
"Lunia-ssi...?"
Mari called out to me with a bewildered look, but
"Mari, I'm sorry?"
"...Yes?"
I apologized to Mari, then pushed her.
-Thud!
"Kyaak!"
Perhaps not expecting me to do this, Mari, caught off guard, fell helplessly to the ground.
Before Mari could even ask what I was doing, I pounced on her.
And with the rope I had brought, I tied Mari up.
"Ugh, ugh-ik! Lunia-ssi, what are you...!"
Mari, with her hands tied behind her back, couldn't move no matter how much she struggled.
Mari's posture was that of having fallen backward, hitting her bottom.
Because I had thrown my upper body over her.
And Mari looked intently at my face, then suddenly began to turn pale.
"Lu, Lunia-ssi? Wait. Don't, absolutely...!"
Ah, it seemed Mari had figured out what I was going to do.