First Masturbation
First Masturbation
"Uuung..."
I gently caress my hardened nipples with my index finger.
Despite such a minor stimulation, I couldn't hold back my voice.
From top to bottom.
And then, pressing and twisting.
"Ah-hut!"
It hurt a little, but I definitely felt it.
I stimulated myself like that for 5, then 10 minutes.
But,
But my body wasn't fully developed, and it was hard to climax with just my nipples.
"It's not enough....."
When I was forced.
Since no one was touching me like back then, it was difficult to reach the end with just my breasts.
That was the problem.
When it came to experiencing and learning about sex, the best way was to feel and experience it oneself,
But instead of naturally experiencing it through acts like masturbation, I had immediately felt the strong stimulation of sex all at once.
That's why.
I decided to try Insertion Masturbation, which I hadn't intended to do at first.
10 minutes, 20 minutes.
No matter how much I touched my breasts, my body only yearned, but I couldn't climax.
"Haa-eueu...."
I really didn't want to admit it, but just touching my breasts wasn't enough.
The hand covering my mouth remained.
Instead, I pushed the hand that had been touching my nipples between my thighs.
And then, I poked at my smooth pussy with my finger.
At the very top, I felt the bumpy clitoris.
Below that was the urethral opening where urine comes out,
And at the very bottom, there was the vaginal opening.
Slowly, I pushed my middle finger into my vagina.
-Jjeueuk.....
"Hee-eup...!"
Pushing aside the already sticky Arousal Fluid, I forcibly widened the narrow opening.
It was so narrow that I understood why that bastard Mark said it was so tight.
Forcibly pushing something so big into such a narrow hole, of course it would hurt.
A woman's body should be caressed gently.
"Ha-eung....."
Before I knew it, I had pushed one finger all the way in.
The Hymen I felt was already gone.
Of course, because Mark had miserably torn it.
-Jjil-kkeok....
"Heu-eut!"
So, with no Hymen left to protect, I had no hesitation in moving my finger.
'Wait.... why should I protect my Hymen..... Hieek?!'
It didn't matter anymore.
Right now, no matter what I thought, no matter what desire I felt, I just wanted to clear my mind and feel only the climax.
I started moving the finger I had inserted into my vagina back and forth, as if a penis were going in and out.
"Heu-eup, heu-eung.... Ugh, ha-eup."
Before I knew it, the moans from the next room no longer registered in my ears.
Judging by the faint sounds still audible, it seemed they were still having sex,
But my mind was already filled with the squelching sounds from inside my vagina.
-Jjil-kkeok, jjil-kkeok.
I never knew my body held so much fluid.
Though I had only inserted one middle finger, my entire hand was already drenched with the overflowing Arousal Fluid.
Even so, I didn't stop fingering myself.
-Jjil-kkeok-jjil-kkeok-jjil-kkeok!
"He-euk, heu-euk...!"
'It feels so good.....'
My head was getting hotter and hotter.
At the same time, my thoughts began to simplify.
All I felt was the already copious Arousal Fluid, and my mind growing hazy.
As my thoughts simplified, my actions also began to simplify.
And the starting point for that was increasing the number of inserted fingers from one to two.
'It's not enough-ah.....'
So I inserted another finger, my ring finger.
Then I overlapped the two fingers and thrust them in wildly.
"Heu-eung?! Heung-at! Heup, Hieek!"
It felt even better.
Adding one more finger doubled the excitement.
I kept moving like that.
They said women take longer to get aroused than men, and the longer they go, the higher their satisfaction gets, didn't they?
That statement was true.
It felt like I'd been doing it for about 30-40 minutes, but it still wasn't enough.
It was completely different from a man's penis, which 'dies' after one ejaculation.
I couldn't stop masturbating.
Just 10 more minutes like this,
If I found an even better way, then another 20 minutes like this.
To be honest, I had already experienced several minor climaxes.
But the more my fingers squelched inside, the more I felt it.
That a bigger, truly proper climax, unlike any I'd felt before, was approaching.
The more I felt that way, the more I couldn't stop, and as I continued, my body craved more.
And the word 'restraint' no longer existed in my mind.
My body wanted more, and I simply indulged it.
With my thumb, I began to stimulate my clitoris.
And for greater stimulation, I began to imagine more provocative images.
All the countless lewd images, porn videos, and Adult Games I had encountered before possessing this body, I excluded them all.
And what came to mind was Mark's rape.
That was the most stimulating image in my mind.
The past I had directly experienced in a woman's body, and the shocking fact that I had been forcibly, unwillingly raped. And the sense of depravity that my body had become aroused during the rape.
Mark's dick was far too small to compare to my two fingers,
But I still tried my best to imitate Mark's fucking.
In my imagination, I recreated that situation.
Even if I begged him to stop, saying it hurt, he wouldn't.
His mercilessness, thrusting into my pussy solely to release his own lust, regardless of what I felt.
-Jjil-kkeok-jjil-kkeok-jjil-kkeok!
"Ha-ak! Hu-beup! Heu-eung!"
And the most exciting moment.
That feeling I had forcibly pushed into a corner of my heart and ignored.
The primal instinct of a female, happy to accept a man regardless of my will.
When I caught a glimpse of that fragment of emotion, when I was scared that I was losing myself.
Paradoxically, that was when I was most aroused.
-Jjil-kkeo-eok❤️
"Heu-eup?! Heu-aa-aang❤️"
And at that moment, I reached the climax I had been waiting for.
"He-euk, he-euk. Heu-geu-eut..."
The climax didn't wait for even a moment of my aroused body.
##
"Ah, fuck....."
I want to die.
I just want to bite my tongue off right now.
"Why did I think that.....?"
This isn't my fault.
Before my mind went hazy, I was just going to relieve my aroused body and lust, and then sleep.
But my mind went hazy—and I ended up acting purely on instinct.
Yes, it's instinct.
Because this isn't 'my' instinct, but a 'woman's' instinct.....
Anyway, there's no way I would really do this.
"Haa...."
Although I was the only one in the room, I still looked around, wondering if anyone might have been eavesdropping.
Let's push this memory somewhere into the abyss, just like 'that feeling'.
Because if only I forget, no one will ever know.
Still, from now on, I should stop having strange fantasies and just satisfy my lust appropriately.
Thinking of not masturbating at all?
There's no such thing.
I know that once you've discovered sexual desire, you can't go back to how things were before.
It was the same when I was a man, before I came here.
They say a man's life changes before and after masturbation.
Wouldn't it be similar for women?
Anyway.
So, whenever I really can't stand it, I'll just relieve my sexual urges once in a while.
Honestly, rather than doing it with some shitty man, I'd rather do it with a woman.
If possible, it would be best if I could see the ending without doing either.
And then return to my original body in my original world.
Today, I especially missed my original world.
I want to eat greasy fried chicken, and I want to drink cola.
"Ehyu..... I'll be able to go back someday, right?"
Thinking such thoughts, I tried to sleep.
And that day, for some reason, I had a particularly restless night.
Was it because so many thoughts ran through my mind?
One of those thoughts was..................
Honestly, masturbating in a woman's body was unexpectedly much better.
..................To the point of addiction.
##
A languid afternoon.
I welcomed Mari, who had come to see me since morning, and we went shopping together.
And I bought the Subspace Pouch I had been searching for.
The price was roughly 80 Silver.
.....It was damn expensive.
Still, thanks to buying the Subspace Pouch, it was convenient to carry various things around.
I also put in the Flint that used to take up one slot in my Inventory.
Since I always carry my Magic Staff, I now have 2 Inventory slots left, excluding the small knife.
Just in case an emergency arose, I didn't fill up my Inventory right away.
It was also good to have some leeway.
Anyway, following Mari's guidance, we also visited a general store.
The general store literally sold all sorts of things, like a Daiso.
As if to truly show it was a fantasy, they even sold things like Healing Potions,
And if there were Healing Potions, then of course, Mana Recovery Potions, which couldn't be left out, also existed.
"Grandma Mel!"
"Is that you, Mari?"
"Give me the same as last time!"
"Alright."
As expected, the friendly Mari already seemed close with the general store owner.
The general store owner, called Mel, brought two Healing Potions and three new pieces of cloth.
"Here, 10 Silver."
"Alright."
Mari put the items she received into her Subspace Pouch.
Then she turned to me and said,
"Lunia-ssi, you should buy what you need too! If you're an adventurer, you should always carry enough Healing Potions to have spares. Just in case not only I, but others might need them."
What should I buy?
As Mari said, I decided to buy a few Healing Potions,
And I decided to look around more, wondering if there were any other necessary items.
'I guess I'll need Mana Recovery Potions too.....?'
I heard Reed takes the vanguard using a sword, and Mari takes a relatively rear position, handling scouting, gathering, and carrying luggage.
Since I use magic, I suppose I'll take the middle position between them.
Sometimes, I'll probably have to stand on the front lines with them too.
I placed two Healing Potions and two Mana Recovery Potions on the counter.
"That'll be 16 Silver."
"Here you go."
"Alright."
Once the payment was done, Mari urged me.
"Mari, I'm sorry, but could you wait outside first?"
"Huh? Okay...? "
Mari, with a puzzled expression, still followed my words and left the general store.
Then I picked up the item I had found earlier and placed it on the counter.
"Heh heh, you're a more promiscuous young lady than you look....."
"Ugh, it's not like that."
"Alright, alright."
As soon as the payment was done, I shoved it into my Inventory.
It hasn't been a month yet.....
By my calculations, there are still about two weeks left.