Only I'm Getting Off

-*Chwaak!*

"*Hik?!*"

".......?!!"

Five fountains of blood gushed out from all directions.

Looking around, five heads of their owners were already rolling on the floor.

Blood spatters from the fountains began to splatter all over me, who was covered in semen.

"............Ah, ah."

I had no time to worry about the semen flowing from my pussy, or the unknown liquid that had almost entered my mouth disappearing.

Everything else was secondary; what filled my mind at that moment was nothing but 'fear' itself.

My breathing grew ragged, and my mind began to waver.

If I stayed like this, I felt like I would truly fall into a panic.

A panic born from fear of my Master-nim.

I was scared.

Even when I committed my first murder, I suffered for days, retching constantly.

Experiencing another murder right here, so close, I couldn't possibly feel alright.

Am I foolish?

Am I weak?

Even if these men treated me roughly, and even if they drugged me and gang-raped me, I hadn't wished for their deaths.

Perhaps it was because I held the ethics of modern society, not of this place.

No, in fact, I had realized it to some extent.

After all, I had almost become Mark's sex slave for life after he took my first time.

"............Haa, haa."

I wasn't unaware that murder was unavoidable while living in this world.

But yes, by continuously avoiding and postponing it, I had ultimately ended up in this unpleasant situation.

"Ah, Disciple-ya."

I heard Master-nim's voice calling me, but I couldn't bring myself to lift my head towards her.

Not only had I failed to keep my promise to Master-nim to diligently attend classes, but the semen and blood covering my body were utterly repulsive.

Though I hadn't directly laid a hand on them, it was ultimately the blood of people who died because of me.

Wasn't it practically the same as if I had killed them myself?

".....Ah."

Thinking that, my head spun, and I felt like I was about to faint.

Perhaps losing consciousness and fainting right then might have been better for the mental shock.

However, Master-nim did not allow it.

-*Tak.*

As Master-nim snapped her fingers, my body and surroundings became clean as if nothing had ever been there.

Given the absence of the thick, sticky smell of semen and blood, it wasn't just simple Clean Magic.

Perhaps it was a type of time magic that negated existence itself—Reset Magic, I thought.

Thanks to that, my body didn't just feel washed; it became soft and fragrant, as if it had been meticulously cared for and anointed with perfume.

"My beloved Disciple, come here."

-*Pook.*

Master-nim carefully embraced my now pristine naked body.

However, contrary to Master-nim's feelings,

I, whose body and skin felt utterly repulsive, struggled to push away Master-nim, who was touching my unclean body.

-*Kkoook...*

The more I struggled, the tighter Master-nim held me in her embrace, and eventually, I felt the revulsion I had been feeling gradually fade away.

"Are you calm now?"

"............Yes."

Master-nim then clothed me with magic, and as she slowly began to pull away—

"Ung, no, I don't want to............"

Fearing that even a little of her warmth leaving would make me feel the same revulsion as before, I burrowed my head with all my might between Master-nim's breasts.

"Hehe, you're such a spoiled child."

Enjoying Master-nim's chest, which I hadn't felt in a long time, to the fullest, I was patted gently.

How many minutes had passed like that?

Master-nim, still holding me, asked me a question.

"Alright, can you tell your Master-nim now?"

-............*Doki-doki.*

I knew what Master-nim wanted to hear.

She probably wanted to know why I had ended up in such a state.

But I wished Master-nim wouldn't know.

I could tell Master-nim, "I ended up like this because Jerad caught me masturbating."

Though shame existed, I could tell Master-nim.

However, despite that, I wished Master-nim wouldn't know.

Because I knew how dearly Master-nim thought of me, and how worried she would be.

So, I acted spoiled towards Master-nim once again, but then,

"Actually, I heard everything from that child."

-*Heumchit.*

"Lu, Lunia-yang. That is............"

As the arrow suddenly turned towards her, Yuriana trembled all over, looking like she was desperately trying to make an excuse, but,

"............I'll tell you."

If Lady Ehiton had already heard it, there was nothing I could do, so I decided to reveal everything.

Praying that Master-nim wouldn't come to dislike me.

"Eh, Lunia-yang. That's not it."

I was in the middle of truthfully recounting what had happened to Master-nim.

From the time I became addicted to outdoor masturbation because I found myself so beautiful and noble after choosing pretty clothes, and couldn't resist myself.

All the way to how I ended up giving my body to Jerad.

However, during my explanation, Yuriana denied a certain part of my account.

"............Huh?"

Honestly, I didn't know why Lady Ehiton, who should have disliked me, was approaching me so gently and comforting me alongside Master-nim, but,

it was a bit more embarrassing to talk about my outdoor masturbation addiction in front of Lady Ehiton than to Master-nim.

Anyway, Lady Ehiton, who had been blushing and getting angry at Jerad with me, directly denied my words.

And that part was the lie Jerad had told Lady Ehiton, almost as a provocation, to drive a wedge between us.

Jerad had surely told that lie without much thought, but Lady Ehiton believed it wholeheartedly, and she misunderstood that because of her, I had been caught by Jerad and forced to sell my body to other classmates.

Should I call it a blessing, or an unexpected turn of events?

Lady Ehiton suddenly bowed her head in front of me and began to apologize.

She said that no matter how angry she had been back then, she shouldn't have pushed me away.

She explained that it was Jerad's tactic to drive a wedge between us and make one of us despair, and asked me to forgive her past self.

"Uh, um............"

By then, I was starting to get confused.

I wondered if this was truly something I should be apologized for.

In truth, I had betrayed Lady Ehiton first back then, and unlike her pushing me away, the real issue was the bet I had made with Jerad.

However, at Lady Ehiton's insistence that she had to apologize so thoroughly, I eventually had no choice but to forgive her—

"Y-you really forgive me?! Lunia!"

Seeing her so overjoyed, I couldn't bring myself to explain that her misunderstanding was false.

"Indeed, so that's what happened."

In the end, even Master-nim, swayed by Lady Ehiton's eloquent words, began to place all the blame on Jerad.

"Um, Master-nim............"

I grabbed Master-nim once more and hugged her close.

Then, Master-nim smiled and said,

"Alright, for my Disciple's sake, I won't kill him."

Fortunately, my intentions seemed to have been ‍‍‌‌⁠​​⁠‌​​‍​​‍​‌​⁠‍‌‍⁠⁠‌⁠‌‍‌‍‌‌‌‍⁠​‌​‌​‌‍‌‌‌⁠‍​​‌‍⁠‌‌⁠⁠well conveyed to Master-nim.

"Hmph, hmph. Lunia-yang is surprisingly good at aegyo............"

"??"

Aegyo? Was I the type to be good at aegyo?

For me, who didn't even know the 'ae' in aegyo, it was a rather trivial comment.

As I widened my ‍‍‌‌⁠​​⁠‌​​‍​​‍​‌​⁠‍‌‍⁠⁠‌⁠‌‍‌‍‌‌‌‍⁠​‌​‌​‌‍‌‌‌⁠‍​​‌‍⁠‌‌⁠⁠eyes at the sudden mention of aegyo and remained silent,

Lady Ehiton was looking at me, ‍‍‌‌⁠​​⁠‌​​‍​​‍​‌​⁠‍‌‍⁠⁠‌⁠‌‍‌‍‌‌‌‍⁠​‌​‌​‌‍‌‌‌⁠‍​​‌‍⁠‌‌⁠⁠nestled in Master-nim's arms, with eyes that seemed to want to pet me endlessly.

Of course, Master-nim also felt that gaze ‍‍‌‌⁠​​⁠‌​​‍​​‍​‌​⁠‍‌‍⁠⁠‌⁠‌‍‌‍‌‌‌‍⁠​‌​‌​‌‍‌‌‌⁠‍​​‌‍⁠‌‌⁠⁠and pulled my face closer to her chest, as if she would never hand me over.

I'm not a puppy, you know.

But even being treated like a puppy, I didn't feel that bad.

Why?

Was it because they were people I liked, or was it simply because I enjoyed being petted?

Perhaps I actually liked having my head stroked.

'...................Hmm.'

However, for now, I just liked being like this, without any thoughts.

Honestly, whether it was by my own will or forced, having sex had been difficult.

In this harsh world, where law and order weren't as good as in modern times, the result of my efforts to level up so that my body wouldn't be violated,

had ultimately led to me so easily giving myself to those who coveted my body.

Perhaps I had been a little tired all this time.

Perhaps I had been lonely because there was no one to confide in.

Nevertheless.

Despite everything,

looking at this Level written in the Status Window, I felt like I could finally rest a little.

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Level: 98

..............

..........

.....

.....But for me, who had already discovered the pleasure of a female, it might be too late.