Chapter 32
Chapter 32
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Translator: MadScientist
Chapter: 32
Chapter Title: Meditation (1)
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After finishing the special training over the weekend, I couldn't throw myself into studying.
As the saying goes, late-acquired vices are the scariest—my body kept heating up uncontrollably.
I'd wanted to spend a steamy day tangled up with Yu-jeong sunbae this weekend, but our training schedules overlapped, leaving no chance.
No matter if I exercised or studied, those nagging thoughts wouldn't settle down.
Closing my eyes brought visions of Yu-jeong sunbae naked; opening them surged my lust sky-high.
I wanted to see her.
But on weekdays, I had training, and she had work, making it tough to sync our schedules.
We'd made plans to meet again next weekend, but I was already agonizing over whether I could hold out that long.
Forcing down my boiling urges, I trudged home today as well.
"I'm home."
"Yeah. You seen the nail clippers?"
Dad was standing blankly in the living room, searching for the nail clippers.
I shook my head and said,
"No. Maybe Mom put them somewhere else?"
"Yeah? Got it. You doing that meditation thing in your room again today? Before you start, check if the nail clippers are in there."
"Sure."
I had no intention of looking.
I never clipped my nails in my room, so they wouldn't be there anyway.
I gave a vague nod, headed to my room, and stripped off my clothes.
After training with the Omnipotent Being, my body was drenched in sweat, making my clothes uncomfortable.
I sat comfortably on the bed and repeated deep breaths in and out.
In my mind, I called the Omnipotent Being's name and pictured myself standing before her.
◇◇◇◆◇◇◇ The Omnipotent Being's breasts were undulating like waves crashing against a breakwater.
She effortlessly dodged the punch I'd thrown at her head.
I quickly withdrew my hand that had cut through empty air and rolled backward.
She stomped down on the spot where I'd been.
As she bent at the waist, the soft curves of her breasts revealed themselves flexibly through her flowing robes.
She took another step forward and reached out toward me.
Her fingers brushed perilously close to my eyes.
The Omnipotent Being's breasts shook dramatically.
She froze mid-reach.
I teetered, unbalanced, on the verge of falling.
Today, I hadn't landed a single hit on her, and she'd nearly killed me five times.
She withdrew her hand and looked at me.
I stared at the Omnipotent Being's breasts and took a deep breath.
She said,
"You're not focused."
"Ah, yes..."
"Tell me what's going on. If distracting thoughts plague you, your cultivation can never be complete."
"Th-that..."
I felt my face flush hot.
I couldn't focus on cultivation because of my sexual frustration.
I hesitated, unsure how to even explain it.
Seemingly interpreting my pause, the Omnipotent Being sat down on the ground and spoke to me.
Her breasts still shook prominently.
She narrowed her benevolent face into a stern expression and spoke in a gentle voice.
"Come sit here. It seems we need to talk. You can't grow if you're hung up on worries. Confide in me and find your peace."
"Ah, that..."
I hesitated before sitting down in front of the Omnipotent Being.
She put on a relaxed smile again and asked me,
"So, what worry is keeping you from focusing?"
"Ah, well... you see..."
"You see?"
How was I supposed to explain this?
'I can't focus because I haven't had sex?' 'I can't concentrate at all until I relieve my sexual urges?'
After agonizing over it for a while, I finally opened my mouth.
Whatever I said here wouldn't spread as gossip anyway.
"Well, you see..."
I began my story very cautiously, careful not to give her the wrong idea.
About first meeting Yu-jeong sunbae and deciding to date.
And how after doing it once with her, I couldn't focus on training because of those thoughts.
Even draining it with masturbation didn't quell my desire for actual sex.
The Omnipotent Being listened to my story with a serious expression.
I was certain she'd scold me.
The usual her would definitely lecture me on my attitude and focus.
She took a breath as if searching for words and looked at me.
"Then, if that problem is resolved, can you focus on cultivation again?"
"Pardon?"
"I mean, if that problem is solved, can you focus on your cultivation?"
"Ah... yeah. I think so."
I nodded.
And curiosity began to bubble up about how the Omnipotent Being planned to resolve my issue.
Did she intend to castrate me or something?
She leaned in carefully and asked me,
"What should I do for you?"
"Pardon?"
I couldn't comprehend her words.
Her question left me counter-questioning in confusion.
The Omnipotent Being said,
"You've shared your worry with me, but regrettably, I don't know a clear solution for such matters. Telling you to bear it or overcome it through effort is no true fix. As one who claims to be your master, it's embarrassing, but I must ask you. What should I do?"
I glanced at the Omnipotent Being's breasts.
Large and voluptuous.
At the same time, Yu-jeong sunbae's face flashed in my mind.
I asked,
"R-really... anything at all?"
"Even if you say 'anything,' I don't know what you desire. Tell me what you want."
"Well..."
No matter that this was just my mental world and not reality, I lacked the courage to ask her for sex even once.
It felt like cheating on Yu-jeong sunbae, and sullying the Omnipotent Being's chaste, beautiful appearance like this seemed like committing a sin.
"What do you desire?"
"Th-that..."
But I couldn't just let my boiling lust fester like this.
"Speak it."
The Omnipotent Being kept pressing me to vent my desires, and she was far too beautiful.
And this was inside my mental world.
In a way, it was no different from having lewd fantasies.
So, wasn't this not cheating?
If fantasizing about other women counted as cheating every time, I'd be cheating daily.
So this wasn't cheating.
This was an unavoidable act for my cultivation.
With that in mind, I steeled my resolve.
"Yes, Omnipotent Being... w-well... you see..."
"Speak."
"If you... did it with your hand... I think that might work."
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"Is this how you want it?"
I didn't have the guts to ask for sex outright.
I decided to settle for a handjob instead.
We were now sitting side by side in a corner of the white mental space.
It was a position where a glance to the side gave a clear view into her cleavage.
"Yes... um... just hold it like this with your hand. Rub up and down."
"Like this?"
She carefully grasped my dick and slowly stroked along the shaft.
Just the brush of her relaxed fingers had me spurting precum in excitement.
I took a deep breath and said,
"Yes...! Th-that, a little faster please."
"Is this pace right?"
The Omnipotent Being stroked my dick very slowly as she asked.
Her slender fingers would squeeze my lower half tight, then release with perfect timing when it bordered on pain.
Her thin, long fingers felt like they were coiling around my dick like a rope as they slid.
"Should I keep going like this?"
She whispered right by my ear.
I gathered my dizzy mind and nodded.
Just the skin-on-skin contact with a woman after so long had me thrilled already.
A glance to the side showed the Omnipotent Being's full, white breasts.
I said,
"Um... if you bend your waist a bit more, I'd be grateful."
"Like this?"
She bent her waist a little more.
Her cleavage came into even more brazen view.
She said,
"Is this really enough for you?"
"Hoo...! Yes... f-faster, please."
I nodded and took another deep breath.
Each time her hand moved a bit faster, I felt cramps in my thighs and tremors in my legs from the pleasure.
Unknowingly, I clutched at the hem of her robes and let out ragged breaths.
The Omnipotent Being's figure began to blur.
The entire mental world was fuzzing out and scattering.
I startled and said to her,
"Om-Omnipotent Being! My vision's going weird... hoo... weird...!"
"It's because the pleasure broke your concentration. Don't worry. Compose yourself, gather your mind, and call for me again—I'll be right here."
"Omnipo...!"
Her hand was speeding up bit by bit.
My legs went white as I squeezed my eyes shut tight.
I felt my pent-up urges explode like a fountain.
Unable to withstand the pleasure, I let out a roar.
"ROOOOAR!"
In that instant, I felt myself returning to reality.
The door burst open as Dad came in.
Scratching his head, he said to me,
"So, no nail clippers in the roo—"
Splurt! Spurt! Spluuurt! Spurt!
Semen shot up like a fountain.
White fluid arcing up to the height of my head.
My sweat-soaked body.
Dad staring up at me, head raised.
We watched the white droplets scatter like we'd met in a snowy field.
"Uh, uh, that's..."
Dad stared at me wordlessly, cleared his throat awkwardly, and grabbed the doorknob again.
"......Sorry for interrupting when you're busy."
"No, Dad! Wait a sec! Dad! This is, you know!"
Click!
"Dad! Hear me out!"
The door shut.
Panting, all I could do was yell.
"No fucking way, I was clearly deep in meditation!"