Ep.2 - Knight Commander Neva (5)
Ep.2 - Knight Commander Neva (5)
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"Hieoyooh... Hieoo..."
"Hyoo... I can't help it, alright. It's not like I'm doing this because I enjoy it."
A lie. But why was she making such a lewd face...
"Hieooo... Euh! Uuh!"
Tears streamed down at Neva's deeply touching care as she chewed the food thoroughly and fed it to me mouth-to-mouth so I could swallow it easily.
I thought maybe I should have just starved for a few days.
"Puhu... You wanted to eat so badly, so I had to at least do this much..."
"Aiyaa... Hieooo..."
Neva carefully chewed another mouthful, preparing to feed me again.
Seeing this, I tried to crawl away as far as I could,
but unable to get off the bed, my body was inevitably caught by her hands...
"Uuuung!! Uuuuu!"
...and I received it in that state.
Like a baby bird receiving food regurgitated by its mother—something I once saw in a documentary.
That mother's love, continuing endlessly without end, made me feel like I was going to die.
"Eue... Uuh..."
Neva eventually fed me with such devoted care until my stomach was full, but let's just gloss over that horrible, slimy mealtime and not speak of it further.
Because if I think about it again, the stuff I barely managed to keep down might surge up, and I'd be subjected to Neva's cold and firm [feeding] once more.
"Uuuu..."
As I lay face down on the bed, struggling to soothe my stomach, Neva sat beside me, stroking my head as if to show she was pleased I had eaten well without throwing a tantrum.
My cheek resting on her thigh, she used her gentle hand to stroke my head and cheek,
gazing down at me with a faint smile and eyes dripping with love.
"I did it all out of concern, so don't be too upset. When you're struggling, you need to accept help."
I hate this kind of help...
I just want to go home...
"Anyway. From now on, the two of us will be staying here together. We don't know when Philmark might barge in, so we have to stay glued together like this. Ah! But don't worry too much. I will protect you, even if it costs me my life..."
This female knight's head seemed to hold no other thoughts; it was filled exclusively with thoughts of me and Philmark.
The tragic part was that I wasn't given any choices, and I had to lie still on this bed and wait for the two women's next moves.
I hate a life where I'm pushed around like this...!
"Delin. Your answer?"
Neva paused her stroking hand and waited for my answer.
Whenever she sensed I wasn't reacting, she would wait for an answer in that way.
She never let it slide, not even once. We hadn't known each other long, but I could vividly feel that she was strangely desperate for my response.
"..."
Even forcing out a slurred sound was too difficult, so I just nodded my head.
Only then, as if satisfied, did Neva stroke my head a couple more times, then pull me up into her embrace.
"It's all because of that bastard... Don't worry. Philmark will definitely come here. There's no way she'd give up on you. I know it."
Hugging me a little tighter as she thought about Philmark, Neva seemed to be demonstrating with her actions that she would never let anyone take me away.
"Once I heal my leg and tongue, I'll kill her right away. So she can never torment you again..."
Such vicious words delivered in that lovely, clear voice with a calm, noble expression sent chills down my spine.
But since I wasn't in a position to be picky, I could only hope that Neva would successfully fend off Philmark and fix my leg and tongue.
If things work out, I'm bolting right away...
My cohabitation with Neva continued from then on.
Under the pretext that we couldn't be apart for even a moment, she bathed me, put me to sleep, fed me, hugged me, and held me.
While doing so, we pressed our heated, bare bodies together and shared deep, sticky kisses,
and then she would curse and loathe Philmark, hug me again, and repeat dozens of times that she would protect me...
In this bizarre routine, I became stained by her:
by her scent, her soft body,
her sticky saliva,
her warm touch,
and I seemed to melt into her affectionate and earnest embraces.
"Delin. Delin... Haah... Uth..."
Her melting voice, which made me forget even my old name, seeped into my ears and brain.
This...
This is protecting me, right?
This is supposed to be protecting me, right...?
"Jjyoop♡"
Neva sucked my helpless tongue into her mouth and rolled it around.
The image of the strong, trustworthy female knight was nowhere to be found; only a single beautiful woman, flushed entirely with heat, stood before my eyes.
"Chyuu... Chup... Puhu... Delin...!"
Her steaming breath scattered over my face.
"I love you. I love you... I will protect you. I swear..."
Just how many times had I heard the word 'protect' recently...
"My Delin..."
My Delin.
My mind was being dyed by those two words.
No matter how long I waited, Philmark did not come for me.
No. Perhaps my sense of time had been numbed by the daily routine of clinging to Neva in this bed all day.
But it was certain that my mind was being stained by those intense moments with Neva, and an anxiety began creeping in that if things went on like this, I would truly become a helpless invalid who can't do anything on his own.
I couldn't abandon my earlier vow to return to my original world. Absolutely not.
"Hieo... Ihe heuahae..."
"Delin..."
But whether Neva couldn't understand my words, or understood and simply ignored them...
She paid no mind to my rejection and kept pressing her body against mine.
Even if my words didn't get through, my gestures and expressions should have sufficiently conveyed my refusal to her...
"Why do you keep trying to avoid it when you like it so much? Delin... don't be anxious. I'll take responsibility. I can support not only you, but our children for life as well. I'll always, always stay by your side. Are you worried because I'm a knight? Afraid I'll die on a campaign? If that's what you want, I can give up my knighthood entirely. So please, open up your heart to me now."
Yeah.
As I thought, she knows my true feelings too.
She must have noticed that I am trying to escape from her,
that I am trying not to hand over the initiative to her.
But I absolutely cannot give up. I must return to my original world...
"Look at me. Come on."
Neva fixed my face in place.
Her deep, persistent gaze poured down upon me, intent on possessing me.
"Nod your head. Just that, and we'll be together forever from now on, living happily for the rest of our lives. Nod."
But I deliberately averted my eyes and avoided her gaze. Even if I couldn't turn my head, I could still move my pupils.
"Delin."
But her face drew closer, and eventually her soft lips gently landed just past my face,
and now she was so near that I couldn't look away from her anymore.
"Delin. Nod. I don't know what you're thinking, but forget it all and live with me. In this house."
No...!
I don't know what kind of crap the men here do to get by, but I can't live like that!
I'm not even a person of this world—I have my original home to return to...!
"Delin."
Jjook—
She began with a gentle kiss.
"Come on. I'll make you happy. More than anyone else ever could."
Jjook—
Those loving kisses, delivered after every single sentence, had such fierce power that they threatened to shake even the values and outlook on life I held.
"Uuuu..."
I... I can't live my whole life as a kept man like this...
I have to go back...
"Delin. I love you. I truly do. Let's promise each other forever. Be my man. I will become Delin's knight."
Jjook—
"We'll have children who look like us, and we'll build a happy family with those children."
Jjook—
"He... euh..."
"Okay?"
Jjook—
"Hieoo..."
"Delin. Don't be stubborn. I'll make you forget everything. Whatever life you've lived up until now, whoever you've met... I'll give you a life so happy you won't even remember it."
Ah...
Wouldn't it be okay to just give up on everything and live like this...?
Come to think of it, my mom and dad probably don't care that much either, and the others would likely do just fine without me...
Rather than my original world where I sucked at studying and didn't have much money, living here as the husband of a knight commander, just taking it easy and lazing around...
Ttok ttok—
Ah...
Just as I was about to falter, someone knocked on the door, and I barely snapped back to my senses.
What the hell was I thinking just now?
I have to go back. Fuck...
"Uut..."
Neva momentarily let go of my face and shouted angrily toward the door.
"Leave it in front of the door!"
The maid who had probably brought the food must have been startled by her scolding and fled in a hurry.
"Haa..."
Neva let out a deep sigh, then got off me and spoke, as if making an excuse.
"Well... anyway, since we are now lovers, I believe you will soon open the door to your heart as well. Just wait a little. Let's eat."
She opened the door and dragged in a cart laden with dishes.
Just the two of us, sharing a meal once again today.
Neva picked up a knife and fork, cut a piece of steak into a bite-sized piece, and put it in her mouth.
She chewed it first, breaking it down into tiny bits,
then leaned in to place it into my mouth...
Fuck...
But something was strange.
"...!"
As if she sensed something, Neva quickly spat out the meat and reached for her water to rinse her mouth.
"Huh...?"
Kudangtang—
Unfortunately, she failed to properly grasp her water bottle and collapsed forward.
What?
What is this?
"It touched your mucous membrane, so you should just die."
A familiar voice spoke from outside the door.
"Dumbass."