It Wouldn't Go Down
It wouldn't settle down. June 3rd. I caught Shin Soye secretly sighing to herself after I'd soothed Im Haeun and was left alone with her. Taking care of the lead singer's mental state is part of a manager's job too, so I comforted her as best I could. I told her she was doing amazing so far, that The Queens were running so smoothly thanks to her, and that I, Lee Sejin, was drawing so much strength from her too. She blushed but looked pleased. Seeing her regain her energy in the time we had left confirmed my words had hit home.
June 5th. I bought Shin Soye some konjac noodles and sugar-free drinks while she was struggling with her diet. The low calories didn't matter much—it seemed the simple act of eating something lifted her spirits. Figuring she'd push harder if she had someone suffering alongside her, I declared I was starting a diet too. She laughed at that, and sure enough, she dove back into her evening workouts with renewed vigor.
June 9th. In the morning, I spotted Kim Su-hyeok hitting on Shin Soye and then sniping at her when she brushed him off. Thinking it'd help her out to see him get his comeuppance, I anonymously leaked two of the secrets I'd gathered on him to the Idol Division Chief. Then, right in front of her, I orchestrated his scolding. Soye seemed to catch on that it was my doing, but it clearly lightened her mood even more.
June 13th. On the way to the MacX photoshoot with Shin Soye, she started some small talk. To keep tending to her mental state, I gave her only the responses she'd like, and she seemed thoroughly satisfied.
June 16th. I saw her looking utterly drained in the afternoon while talking with Kim Su-hyeok, and again in the evening while I was looking after Im Haeun. On the way back to the dorm after work, to care for her mentality, I took her to a cocktail bar and listened to her vent as much as possible. I stayed up all night hearing out every grievance, picking only the words she'd love to hear. By the end, she looked completely content.
June 17th. While driving Shin Soye and Park Minji, Soye brought up dating talk this time. I gave responses tailored to what she'd like, and following through, I gifted her a bouquet of freesias that evening. Chatting about her favorite songs, she showed real satisfaction.
June 18th. I bought her a necklace in her favorite style and gifted it to her. Along with that, I promised to keep Kim Su-hyeok from pulling any more nonsense. She seemed pleased with the promise.
June 19th. Shin Soye gifted me some men's cologne. Judging that I could leverage her growing fondness to make caring for her even easier going forward, I tested the waters with a small box of chocolates—and she lit up with joy over it.
June 20th. It was Soye's off day, but to keep tending her mental state, I visited her after work and gave her roses. Delighted, she treated me to dinner. Later that night, we strolled through the park together as I listened to her stories. I confirmed her total satisfaction as she headed back to the dorm.
June 22nd. Soye got serious about dating talk, so I carefully chose words that wouldn't disappoint or hurt her. Once the conversation wrapped, she straight-up suggested we date—and since rejecting her could've crushed her, I accepted.
June 25th. Soye seemed thrilled thanks to our secret relationship. To boost her condition even higher, I kept up the surprise gifts and attentive listening.
June 26th. Sensing she craved some skinship, I obliged. She looked thrilled by the fresh excitement.
June 27th. She seemed to want skinship again, so I went along with it. She appeared somewhat satisfied.
June 28th. More skinship vibes from her, so I matched her energy. She said she wanted something stronger, but the timing wasn't right, so I couldn't deliver.
June 29th. I directly blocked Kim Su-hyeok's advances on Shin Soye. I figured her suffering was worse for the job than any backlash from him. The division folks and Soye backed me up, resolving the clash without disrupting work.
June 30th. She wanted skinship again, so I played along. At her request, I promised to make time for sex.
"Whoa... I did all that?"
Even under hypnosis, I'd somehow filmed a full-on romance drama without knowing it.
"I hypnotized myself to work harder..."
Damn, I'd nailed the job thorough as hell. Well, it was a job, sure. But succeeding in winning her heart meant I'd done way better than the dry log suggested. You know how they say you can exert several times your normal strength when hyped up? Guess that's how the romance went.
"At least... I never used the hypnosis app on Shin Soye."
That fact brought me real relief. I'm no saint, but getting her heart purely like this made me happy. As long as I play the boyfriend role right from here, no issues should arise.
"...Guess I'll sleep on it."
Sleep hit me like a truck. Glancing at the time, it was already 3 a.m. After all-day sex earlier and then writing and reviewing this diary all night, I was beyond exhausted. I just lay down right there and closed my eyes.
Lust isn't just a guy's thing. Women have it too, of course—and the healthier the body, the stronger it burns. Heading to work, I was reminded of that obvious truth anew by Shin Soye, who kept whining for attention every spare moment all day.
"Mmm..."
Alone in the van, back seat. I'd pulled Soye onto my lap up front and was comforting her. My left middle and index fingers plunged into her pussy while my right hand slipped under her clothes to grope her breasts. I teased her nipples gently—not painfully—pinching them softly. They stood stiff like erections, reveling in my touch.
Squelch, squelch... Her pussy soaked in seconds, quickly making lewd noises. The tips of my fingers inside her panties were drenched in her juices right away. I kept scraping her inner walls lightly and rubbing her clit.
"Haa, haa..."
Soye's excited breaths came rough. Like a thirsty woman craving water, she savored every bit of my touch.
"The others'll be here soon."
"Nngh, haa, haa... Not yet... just a bit more..."
A fondling session she'd begged for while the other Queens members were away briefly. I'd desperately talked her out of full insertion due to the risk, and this was the compromise.
"More, more..."
Like a switch had flipped from the teasing, she started begging harder.
Slurp...
Soye twisted to claim my lips. I kissed her back. She shoved her tongue wildly into my mouth, licking mine like it was candy.
"Mm."
Meanwhile, one of her hands had found my cock. She rubbed the bulging spot on my pants furiously, then shoved her hand inside. She gripped my dick through my underwear, stroking it clumsily but urgently, like she wanted to do something with it right now.
"I want it..."
"No can do."
Who wouldn't? I wanted to pound her senseless. But checking the time, the others would hit the van in 10 minutes. Time to stop.
"Just a little... just a little more..."
Soye begged like a puppy. Then suddenly, she stood from my lap, spun around, and squatted facing me. Before I could protest, she unzipped my pants and pulled out my cock. It sprang up stiff right in front of her face.
"Haa, haa..."
She stared at it, breathing heavily. Her hot breath hit it, making my dick throb and twitch.
She took the pulsing shaft straight into her mouth. Slurp, slurrrp... Soye sucked me like a maniac. Her tongue lapped the entire length of my shaft as she bobbed her head fast, slurping at the tip relentlessly. It was pure, selfish devouring—zero thought for me, just her hunger to eat my cock.
"Wait a sec..."
Slurp, slurp. Ignoring me, she kept devouring. Her warm mouth and tongue worked my dick over. She licked every inch of the shaft like it was honey, sucking up my precum greedily.
"I'm... gonna cum."
Soye didn't care, sucking harder like she was demanding my load. She went back down on me—
Clunk, clunk... Thud thud.
That was the moment. The van door rattled.
"What? Nobody here?"
Soye startled and shoved me into the back corner, then opened the door. Slide.
Im Haeun and Park Minji stood there.
"Oh, you girls are here?"
To keep them from entering, Soye stepped out and blocked them with her body.
"Why'd you lock the door?"
"Just changing clothes quick..."
With that, Soye hurriedly spun Haeun around and pushed her.
"Haeun, let's grab some snacks real quick."
"Sejin's ordering. Where's that jerk?"
"Bathroom. Hurry, the convenience store's right there."
"Ugh, such a pain..."
"Come on, come on."
Soye laughed as she led them out. I stayed hidden in the back seat, dead quiet.
That was close as fuck.
Could've gotten busted. The door was locked, sure, but delaying would've raised suspicions from Haeun or Minji. Especially Haeun—she's too sharp for her own good...
"........."
Throb, throb. My cock, right on the edge, trembled stiffly. Swollen to bursting, it pulsed like it was begging to blow.
"Hoo..."
A messy sigh of relief, tension, and raw need escaped me. I wanted to stuff it back in Soye's mouth and unload deep, grab her head and mark her throat with my cum.
"Fuck..."
A curse slipped out—whether to calm the lust or fuel it, who knows. I took deep breaths to steady myself, then quietly slipped to the front seat.
About 10 minutes later, Soye and the others returned. But even then, my dick still wouldn't go down.