Memories of My First Time
Jeong Sua trudged toward her room with weary steps, then shot a sharp, irritated glare at Jeong Subin who was trailing right behind her. Ever since they’d stepped inside the house, her sister had been silently following her like a shadow.
“Why are you following me…”
“I just want to talk to you in your room. Hehe.”
Her sister’s face was full of mischievous playfulness. Talk? Yeah, right. She was obviously going to pester her with a million nosy questions. Sua stopped walking.
“Go back to your own room.”
She pointed firmly at her sister’s door. Making such a huge fuss over a first time like it was some grand event felt like she was being treated like a child, and Sua hated it. She was a proper adult now. She wasn’t a virgin anymore. Though whether the process itself had been very adult-like… well, that was debatable. She had screamed like a little kid that it hurt, sobbed, and even let out beastly moans. But Oppa had told her she did well for her first time. Those happy memories were hers alone. She didn’t want her sister turning them into entertainment.
“Just talk to me for a bit. It’ll only take a second.”
“I have nothing to say to you, so go away.”
“Huu… I really didn’t want to go this far, but I guess I have no choice. Then I’ll just push my way in.”
“W-what?! W-wait, stop—”
Her sister started shoving her forward by force. Sua tried to resist with her strength, but it was no use. Her muscles were sore all over, so she couldn’t muster any real power and ended up being pushed straight into her room.
“Stop pushing me…! Seriously, why are you being like this…! I told you I have nothing to say… ugh…!”
Bang.
After finally shoving her all the way inside, Subin quickly closed the door behind them. ‘I’m so tired, I just want to rest…’ The fact that her sister had forced her way into her room and wouldn’t even let her rest made Sua explode with anger.
“Unnie! What the hell is wrong with you?!”
“Wow, look at you raising your voice at your own big sister. In front of your boyfriend you were the picture of a refined young lady, but now that he’s not around, this is how you act?”
“It’s because you barged into my room without permission… I’m tired. Get out.”
“You must be tired. A soft-hearted girl like you probably gave a man everything—liver, gallbladder, the whole works—without even realizing how scary guys can be.”
“That’s not true! Ijin Oppa isn’t like that!”
At the insult toward her boyfriend, Sua instinctively flared up. She knew it too. Men always acted like they weren’t, but they were constantly thinking dirty thoughts. Sua had been born with a beautiful face. She had lived her whole life under those kinds of leering, perverted gazes from men. That was exactly why she hated sleazy, thuggish guys. They made it painfully obvious that their only goal was her body.
Ijin Oppa had been the same—every time they met, he looked at her with those sharp, appraising eyes like he was sizing her up. But once she fell for him, that gaze didn’t feel bad anymore. Because she knew it was proof that he truly loved her. He made dirty jokes and had dirty thoughts often, but if she ever said she didn’t like it, he never forced the issue. His behavior might be rough and his words crude, but toward her, he was gentler and more considerate than anyone. Even at the motel, if she had said she didn’t want to, Ijin Oppa definitely would have stopped. She was certain of it. After all, he was the man who had confessed to her sincerely and consistently for such a long time.
However… her sister, who had only just met Oppa for the first time, couldn’t possibly know any of his good points.
“You’ve got some serious rose-tinted glasses on. If you’re that proud of your boyfriend, you should’ve gotten permission from Mom and Dad and stayed out properly. You lied and said you were sleeping at a friend’s house because you felt guilty, didn’t you?”
“T-that’s…”
Sua froze, completely at a loss. Her sister had hit her weak spot dead-on, and she stuttered, unable to find a response. Everything Subin said was true. No matter how trustworthy her boyfriend was, she had still lied to their parents. There was no way they would have allowed her to stay out overnight. And objectively speaking, Ijin Oppa gave off more of a bad-boy impression than a good-guy one.
‘It’s not like I did anything I could be proud of…’
Once she fully realized that, Sua’s momentum slowly deflated. Jeong Subin let out a small chuckle and dragged her over to the bed, making her sit down.
“Anywhere on your body hurting?”
“My legs hurt a little from muscle soreness…”
“It’s like that for everyone the first time. The pain is usually stronger than the pleasure.”
“?”
Sua shrugged, unable to relate to that statement at all. For once, she thought her sister was completely wrong.
“Huh? For me, it felt way better than it hurt?”
She recalled everything that had happened yesterday. It had been happy. Sweet. The way her pulse was racing in a good way only reinforced that feeling. The stimulation had been so intense that her mind kept flickering in and out. But it wasn’t because it hurt—it was because it felt too good. She really thought she was going to lose her mind. No, she actually had lost it for a little while.
The beast-like gaze that looked like it wanted to devour her whole. Every time their eyes met, a pleasant shiver ran down her spine. The pleasure that flowed from her lower belly and spread throughout her entire body was strong enough to completely cancel out the pain of losing her virginity. When she came back to her senses, she was panting with a flushed face underneath Oppa. Drunk on the pleasure he gave her, she had clenched tightly around him, desperately craving more.
‘Haa…’
Just remembering the sensations from that time made her body start heating up again. Actually, it had started the moment she was kissing Oppa in front of the house. He had pinned her against the wall and slipped his leg between hers, right under her womanhood. Just that alone had made her completely wet. If her sister hadn’t caught them… she probably would have burned up right there and done all sorts of things with him again.
“Did it hurt a lot for you the first time, Unnie?”
“Hurt? It felt like all my organs were pouring out downward.”
“Ohh… is that so?”
“What’s with that smug look on your face?”
“Nothing. Hehe.”
She felt like she had won somehow. Because her boyfriend was so incredibly gentle that her first time had been happy, completely different from her sister’s. Sua debated whether she should brag about that feeling, but ultimately decided against it. It wasn’t like her sister was ever going to sleep with Ijin Oppa. And more than anything, she had zero intention of ever sharing him. She planned to remain Oppa’s girlfriend until the very end.
“Do you like your boyfriend that much?”
At the question, Sua nodded vigorously as if it were the most obvious thing in the world. But after nodding so enthusiastically, she felt embarrassed by how blatant she had been and tried hard to calm her pounding heart in secret.
“Yeah. I like him. Even though he acts like he isn’t, he’s kind, gentle, fun to be with… and he takes care of me in every little detail.”
She listed all the strengths she saw in Ijin Oppa. He wasn’t without flaws, but his good points far outweighed them. As she spoke, a smile naturally formed on Sua’s lips. Watching her, Jeong Subin wore an expression that said she wasn’t entirely convinced.
“Really? With those sharp eyes, he doesn’t exactly look all that kind… Oh! But he was pretty polite and well-mannered. That part was nice.”
“If you actually spend time with him, you’ll see how gentle he is… And I’d appreciate it if you didn’t judge my boyfriend just by his face.”
It was an unavoidable reaction for anyone seeing Ijin Oppa for the first time. Even she had thought he was a delinquent thug at first and hadn’t even considered him as a potential boyfriend. But look at her now. The guy she wouldn’t even glance at had become the person she loved most in the world. She wanted to let her sister know what a good person he really was. But she couldn’t think of a proper way to do it, which left her feeling frustrated.
“You’ve never dated anyone before, so of course the first guy you go out with seems nice.”
“It’s not that he ‘seems’ nice—he is nice.”
“How would I know that?”
“I’m telling you he is!”
“Haa… Fine, he’s nice. Happy now? Seriously… You’re so head-over-heels that I can’t even give you any advice. They say late bloomers are the scariest.”
Watching her sister mock her with a proverb, Sua huffed through her nose and declared confidently.
“I don’t need any advice. Ijin Oppa and I are doing just fine on our own without your help, Unnie.”
“Yeah, yeah. My little sister is so amazing.”
Jeong Subin gave a tired chuckle, looking fed up. “If he’s that great, then tell me the details. I’m dying of curiosity here.”
“Y-you want me to talk about that?!”
“Yeah, you dummy. Stop hiding it and spill~ Was it good? How big was it? While you’re at it, go ahead and brag about your boyfriend too.”
She had zero tolerance for this kind of conversation, so there was no way she could say anything. But her mouth kept itching to speak. It was only human nature to want to brag when you had something others didn’t. And Sua was no exception. What she wanted to brag about, of course, was Kang Ijin—and the memory of lying beneath him, letting out sweet moans of pleasure.
“It started in the car…”
Once Sua opened her mouth, she slowly began to recount the memories of that day. What kind of things Oppa had said to her, how he had touched her, which spots felt the best when he touched them, and exactly what it had felt like.
“Oh my god. Is that for real?!”
Her sister’s reactions were so good that Sua got completely carried away and ended up telling her everything. Roughly how big Oppa’s manhood was, what positions they had done. In the process, she also learned that Oppa was much larger than most other men. Seeing her sister’s shocked face made her feel incredibly proud. The entire time she was spilling every detail, a smile never left Jeong Sua’s face.