The Doll's Refuge
Lee Han gently scooped up the exhausted Park Mina and laid her onto the sofa. Every time his hands brushed against her, her body flinched. Having been tormented by the devices all day, she had already reached her limit. As Lee Han peeled away her sweat-drenched clothes, the tension in Park Mina finally snapped, and she could hold back no longer. Like a breaking dam, a wave of climax surged through her, and she let out a flood of fluids, eventually even losing control of her bladder.
Park Mina burst into tears, sobbing uncontrollably. Shame, guilt, and lingering pleasure tangled together, making her body tremble. Lee Han held her tenderly, stroking her back. As her crying slowly subsided, he removed her damp undergarments and began to meticulously clean her entire body with a warm towel.
"Manager, I'm so sorry... for letting you see me like this..."
Her face burned with embarrassment, but Lee Han simply smiled. He wiped away the moisture with the towel and neatly folded her clothes. Then, he took a large towel and wrapped it around her naked body. Carefully, he hoisted her onto his back and stepped out of the office.
The warmth of Lee Han’s body through the towel felt cozy and secure. Yet, as they moved through the apartment complex, the feeling of being exposed to the eyes of others while completely bare was terrifying.
'What if someone recognizes me...'
Terrified, Park Mina buried her face in Lee Han’s back. He held her firmly, as if carrying something precious, and quickened his pace.
Soon, they arrived at Park Mina’s home, and Lee Han gently laid her on the bed. He kissed her forehead and whispered for her to rest. She felt more ashamed of showing him her messy room than her naked body. With a bright red face, Park Mina muttered a thank you, then quickly hid herself under the covers.
Lee Han closed the bedroom door carefully and vanished. After he left, Park Mina curled up beneath the duvet. The events of the day flashed through her mind like a revolving lantern: Lee Han’s touch, the stimulation of the devices, the moment of climax, and even the shameful accident. Despite the humiliating nature of the experience, her heart felt strangely at ease.
'The Manager loves me. He cherishes me and takes such good care of me...'
The things he had done for her filled her thoughts. The way he tenderly cleaned her, the way he carried her home on his back. Even the look in his eyes, as if she were a treasure. She truly believed all of this was an expression of sincere affection.
'I want to make him happy, too. I’ll do anything for him.'
She believed that obeying his demands and accepting everything was the way to prove her love. No matter how painful or shameful it might be, she felt she could gladly endure it. A life of complete submission to him. Her mind was filled with ecstasy.
However, along with those feelings, she also felt a sense of emptiness. A hollow feeling, as if something had been lost. Something within her was breaking and crumbling. The more that happened, the deeper her dependence on Lee Han grew. It felt as though she could not live without his love.
Tears welled up, but she soon drifted into a deep sleep. In her dreams, Lee Han was smiling tenderly. He praised her and held her in exchange for her accepting everything. Her whole body melted into his warmth. With a happy smile on her lips, she sank deep into the world of dreams.
And so, Park Mina’s reality became twisted and distorted. She came to view Lee Han’s control and abuse as love. Her sound judgment clouded, and her self-esteem collapsed. Becoming his doll had become the entirety of her life.
As Lee Han periodically forced Park Mina to wear the devices, her daily life slowly began to change. What had initially been uncomfortable and bewildering became increasingly habitual. She developed a routine of stopping by the management office before heading to work. Putting on the devices Lee Han handed her became as natural an action as putting on socks or underwear.
Even at work, she worked as if nothing were wrong, despite her body trembling from the stimulation caused by the device. Going to the restroom to secretly remove and clean the device was no longer strange. During lunch, even while eating with her female colleagues, she focused on the conversation while desperately ignoring the vibrations coming from the device. Swallowing the heat that slowly bloomed in her lower abdomen and forcing a smile had become her daily life.
After work, she headed straight to the management office to see Lee Han. She longed for his touch, for the way he would hold and stroke her every time. Lee Han would remove the device and cool down her heated body. Sometimes, he would introduce a new device. Though the size or shape might change, Park Mina accepted them obediently. She was ready to follow any of his demands.
Wearing the devices and surrendering her body to Lee Han’s touch seeped deeper into Park Mina’s daily life. Even if it looked like Lee Han was just playing with her, she considered it an expression of love. It felt as if the relationship she had with him had become her entire life.
Yet, deep down, a question was beginning to sprout. The fact that she had never truly become one with Lee Han. Sometimes, she doubted if she was just being treated like a toy. The more she thought about it, the greater her anxiety toward Lee Han grew. A void that couldn't be filled deepened. Such thoughts circled in her mind, tormenting her.
Afraid of being rejected, she was terrified to voice her doubts. After agonizing for a long time, Park Mina picked up her phone and contacted an old friend. Talking after such a long time made her stress melt away like snow. She cautiously asked a question about relationships between men and women.
"Wait, do you finally have a boyfriend? How far have you gone? Tell me everything!"
At her friend’s excited voice, a smile spread across Park Mina’s face.
"Um... well, you see..."
She spoke cautiously about Lee Han. However, she hid the embarrassing parts like the exhibitionism and the use of devices, mentioning only the foreplay.
"But I'm worried... isn't he just treating you like a toy?"
At her friend’s worried question, Park Mina was startled.
"No, that’s absolutely not it! He cherishes and loves me so much."
Only after denying it strongly did her heart calm down.
"Okay, sorry. But you need to be more assertive. That’s how a relationship develops."
Her friend advised her to take the initiative. Park Mina, lost in thought, took her friend’s words to heart.
After the call, Park Mina pondered deeply about her relationship with Lee Han. She kept wondering why he never went all the way with her.
Throughout the morning at work, Park Mina’s mind was entirely consumed by the thought that she needed to have a real relationship with Lee Han.
'I have to ask him directly. I'll tell him tonight.'
While she was focused on her work with that resolve, she felt a strange sensation in her lower abdomen.
'Oh... I let my guard down.'
Her underwear was slightly damp. Such things happened often since she had adapted to the device. She quickly stood up and headed to the restroom.
Sitting on the toilet, she carefully removed the device. A thrilling sensation surged through her entire body. She covered her mouth to barely suppress a sound. She sighed as she wiped the fluids that had soaked into her crotch with a tissue. That was when she realized: she didn't have her usual spare underwear.
'What do I do... should I just go without underwear?'
She was lost in thought for a moment. Then, Lee Han’s face came to mind.
'Maybe... would the Manager like this?'
It was half expectation, half fear.
After hesitating, Park Mina decided to wear only the device without underwear. She carefully pushed the device back in and pulled up her pants. Without underwear, it felt much closer to her lower abdomen. Every time she walked, the device poked at her inner walls. It was ticklish, yet thrilling.
Her face burned, but she gritted her teeth and returned to her desk. To think she had to endure the whole day without panties. Just imagining it made her dizzy. Still, her heart fluttered at the thought that it would be a special gift for Lee Han. She bit her lip, imagining what would happen tonight if she confessed her resolve.
In the exhausted afternoon, Park Mina headed to the breakroom to try and get some energy. As she stood in front of the coffee pot and poured coffee into a paper cup, a familiar voice drifted over.
"Mina, how is work life lately?"
When she turned around, Department Head Lee Minho was standing right behind her. He smiled with his eyes and placed a hand on Park Mina’s shoulder.
"Oh, it's fine. I've been busy adapting."
Park Mina answered quickly, trying to hide her discomfort. She twisted her body slightly to avoid his hand on her shoulder. That was when it happened. His hand slid craftily down toward her buttocks.
'Wh-what?!'
The moment she spun around in surprise, her legs, sensitized by wearing the device without underwear, gave way under the sudden stimulation.
"Eek!"
With a short scream, she collapsed. At the same time as the thud, a transparent liquid seeped through her pants, and the floor became wet. A flustered Department Head Lee Minho stepped back. Park Mina, who had fallen onto her buttocks, bowed her head in shame and couldn't stand up.
"What is this..."
His face was full of bewilderment. A female colleague who had run over at the sound quickly realized the situation. She wrapped a towel from the breakroom around Park Mina’s waist and chased Department Head Lee Minho out.
"Department Head, please leave!"
Once the commotion in the office subsided, Park Mina was called into the Director’s office. The Director said with a troubled expression.
"Mina, I heard about what happened today. You must have been very startled. Take care of yourself today. Go home early and rest."
Park Mina just nodded. She desperately swallowed the circumstances she couldn't voice.
"I'm sorry... it was an accident because it's that time of the month..."
She didn't particularly like lying, but there seemed to be no other option. It seemed the company didn't want to make a big deal out of this.
"No, I understand. Your health is the priority. Rest well today."
The Director continued with a difficult expression.
"Oh, and... about what happened today... we'll just say it was because of your period, so will that be alright? Also, I'm planning to proceed with your conversion to a full-time employee because of your hard work. I'll give you some leave, so rest well through the weekend and come in next week."
Park Mina nodded with a dazed expression.
"Yes, that's fine. Thank you."
After finishing her conversation with the Director, Park Mina left the office with a confused heart. As she walked down the hallway, she chewed over what had happened today. Department Head Lee Minho’s shameless behavior, her own difficult situation, and even the company’s irresponsible attitude.
'Even though something like this happened, they just want to cover it up. As if it were my fault...'
A bitter laugh escaped her. She ground her teeth at the unfairness she had to endure just because she was an intern. But reality was cruel. She knew well that there was nowhere else for her to go if not for this company.
'What can I do? I have no choice but to do as they say.'
With a self-deprecating sigh, Park Mina trudged along. A sense of helplessness bloomed in her chest. At some point, she had started living a life swayed by the gazes and evaluations of others. It felt like she was a doll.
'Should I just quit and leave?'
She chuckled to herself at the thought passing through her mind. But such a choice was a luxury she couldn't afford from the start. She was in a position where she had to solve the worry of how to eat and live right away. There seemed to be no other choice.
As Park Mina walked down the alley, a familiar building caught her eye. There, only one person would be waiting for her. She could rely only on him.
'If it's Lee Han, he'll understand me...'
Gaining strength from that thought, Park Mina trudged toward the management office. She tried to steady her heart, which wanted to collapse, and climbed the stairs. Soon, she reached the familiar door.
She caught her breath for a moment and knocked. Her heart pounded at the sound of footsteps coming from inside. Soon, the door opened, and the face she missed appeared. Park Mina threw herself into Lee Han’s arms. As she surrendered her body to his warmth, everything that happened today felt like the distant past.
"Manager... today was hard... it was so hard..."
Tears she could no longer hold back burst forth. She sobbed, burying her face in his chest. It felt as if no one in the world would protect her. Only this man was her sole sanctuary. She couldn't see anything else. Only this moment, right now, was precious.