The Price of Devotion
Before heading to Lee Han's office, Han Sujin washed her face in the restroom. She stared at her reflection in the mirror, steeling her resolve.
Everything I am doing right now is for Taeyoung. I can do anything to protect our family.
When she entered the office, Lee Han was waiting. With a practiced motion, he handed her a device, and Han Sujin accepted it.
Under the scorching midday sun, the two of them went on their patrol. Han Sujin writhed, overwhelmed by a stimulation and excitement she hadn't felt in a long time—an urge she could no longer suppress.
After barely finishing the patrol, they headed to Han Sujin’s home. In the now-familiar space, they began to explore each other’s bodies. Hot breaths and relentless caresses. Han Sujin struggled to accommodate every one of Lee Han’s desires.
Han Sujin took Lee Han’s climax into her mouth. Just as she was trying to catch her breath, Lee Han suddenly stood up and grabbed her legs, spreading them wide. Han Sujin twisted her weak body, attempting to resist.
"Wait... please..."
But Lee Han ignored her pleas and continued to push forward. Tears streamed down Han Sujin’s face. Watching her go limp, as if she had lost all her strength, Lee Han suddenly seemed to lose interest.
"Well then, let's stop here."
With a cold voice, Lee Han rose to his feet. Just as he was about to stand up from the sofa, Han Sujin called out to him.
"I understand... I'll keep going."
The words were spat out through gritted teeth. Despair radiated from Han Sujin’s back as she bowed her head. Seeing this, a triumphant smile curled on Lee Han’s lips.
To Lee Han, Han Sujin was now a creature entirely in his grasp. The more she resisted, the more thrilling the pleasure he felt in breaking her down.
Lee Han approached her again. His hand slid up her thigh. Han Sujin squeezed her eyes shut, having no choice but to accept everything.
Lee Han’s fingers stimulated her, digging deeper and deeper into her most sensitive spots. Her body, already accustomed to his touch, began to react instantly.
No, I shouldn't be doing this...
Her mind tried to resist, but her flushed body was honest. Han Sujin felt a sense of despair as she found herself arching her back, unconsciously trying to take him in deeper.
"Hurry... finish it..."
Han Sujin muttered weakly. Lee Han pushed his member inside, very slowly, very deliberately. Her insides were already slick and ready, accepting him with ease.
"Hnn... ah..."
At the searing sensation, Han Sujin groaned against her will. A sense of fullness, as if her very core was being completely occupied. It should have been painful, but her body, now conditioned, was instead enjoying the sensation.
Every time Lee Han’s member struck her inner walls and plunged deep, an intense pleasure that threatened to wipe her mind blank washed over her entire body.
"Hnn... ah... no..."
Despite her words, Han Sujin’s body thrashed as if begging for him to take her deeper. Her sensitized interior recognized the shape of his member and gripped it tight.
Lee Han whispered into her ear, thrusting his hips even more violently.
"Sujin, you know you like it too... being this wet..."
Han Sujin gasped for air at the sensation of her slick, throbbing core. Her face burned with shame, but her body was already wide open to Lee Han.
"Ah-h... hnn... I hate this..."
As pleasure surged like a tidal wave, Han Sujin shook her head and let out a sob mixed with a moan. Even as the soaring pleasure made her feel like she was losing her mind, she couldn't help but blame herself.
I shouldn't be like this... Why am I doing this...
Wrestling between guilt and pleasure, Han Sujin gritted her teeth and swallowed her cries. But as he began to strike her insides roughly, she finally broke.
"Ugh... hnn...!"
Han Sujin gasped, muttering in a bitter voice.
"Can't we... stop now?"
She begged, as if she could no longer endure it. Deep agony and despair lingered in her eyes.
"Ah-h... hnn..."
Even while crying, Han Sujin found herself swaying her hips to match Lee Han’s rough movements. The contradiction between her desire to resist and her body’s reaction to welcome him deep inside was agonizing.
"Ugh! No...!"
With a breathless cry, Han Sujin’s entire body convulsed, and a wave of sweet climax swept through her. Intense pleasure mingled with terrible shame. Han Sujin couldn't help but sob at the contradictory emotions.
Even while engulfed in the climax, Han Sujin begged desperately.
"Please... don't do it inside..."
Barely holding onto her sanity, she rejected his ejaculation. At the very last moment, she wanted to protect her own choice.
Lee Han smiled, nodded, and pulled out, ejaculating over Han Sujin’s stomach. Hot semen flowed down her skin.
Han Sujin gasped, startled by the sensation. Simultaneously, relief and shame washed over her. It was a line she had barely managed to defend, but it wasn't enough to overcome her self-loathing.
Once the aftershocks of the climax faded and she regained her senses, Han Sujin stared blankly into space. Lee Han was still on top of her, smiling. The reality of being toyed with by this man was painful.
Han Sujin muttered through her tears.
"Why are you doing this to me..."
Despairing at her own helplessness, she shed bitter tears. She was terrified that she was succumbing to desire and falling into depravity.
In contrast to the bright sunlight streaming in, Han Sujin’s inner world was growing darker. Trapped between physical pleasure and the resistance of her reason, she was sinking into a deep abyss.
After the routine was over and Lee Han had left, Han Sujin sat there in a daze for a long time. With empty eyes staring into the void, she looked like someone who had lost the will to live.
But soon, she thought of her family and stood up again. She couldn't give up hope just yet. For the sake of the tomorrow that would come, Han Sujin began to pull herself together once more. She wiped away her tears, hid her wounds, and forced a smile.
To meet Park Taeyoung, to return to being an ordinary wife.
Late in the evening, Park Taeyoung arrived home looking exhausted. Han Sujin greeted him with a warm smile and was preparing dinner.
"Honey, you worked hard today. Go wash up and get some rest."
Park Taeyoung hugged his wife gratefully and sat down. Looking at the carefully prepared dinner table in front of him, Han Sujin spoke up cautiously.
"I decided to take on the job of the women's association president again today."
"Really? If that's what you want, I'll support you. But your health hasn't been great. Don't force yourself."
Han Sujin let out a sigh of relief as she watched Park Taeyoung’s reaction. Her husband was supporting and happy about her association activities. He would never know the truth hidden behind it.
Continuing this work is for our family. I can do anything for Taeyoung.
Han Sujin repeated to herself that her choice to maintain the relationship with Lee Han was the right one. Having confirmed her husband’s support, her resolve became even firmer.
Even if it was accompanied by a guilt that gnawed away at her, it felt as though she could willingly endure it for her family. A strong will to protect her loved ones was what kept her going.
But perhaps Han Sujin’s belief was nothing more than self-consolation. The realization that she was, in some way, even exploiting her affection for her husband would always torment her.
Nevertheless, Han Sujin could not stop this path. In the name of family, she was slowly falling into the abyss.
"I'm fine. I want to do this work. Thank you for worrying about me."
Park Taeyoung smiled contentedly as he looked at his lovely wife.
After finishing dinner, the two went to bed. It had been a long time since they had a comfortable moment. Park Taeyoung, missing his wife, moved closer. The moment he placed a hand on Han Sujin’s shoulder and tried to pull her into his arms, she flinched and pulled away. Fearing that Lee Han’s traces might still remain, she had avoided his touch.
Han Sujin realized her reaction had been too extreme. Her eyes wavered in panic. Park Taeyoung laughed awkwardly and withdrew his hand. He scratched his head, looking embarrassed, and averted his gaze.
"Ah... I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that so suddenly..."
Park Taeyoung, flustered, laughed awkwardly and pulled back. A mix of disappointment and apology flickered across his face. Seeing her husband’s reaction made Han Sujin feel even more miserable.
"No, I'm sorry. I think I was just a bit tired."
Park Taeyoung looked at the restless Han Sujin with a warm gaze.
"Right, you had a hard day today. Get some good rest."
At his consideration, Han Sujin felt a lump in her throat. She soon moved closer, hugged Park Taeyoung, and patted his back. Park Taeyoung fell asleep, entrusting his tired body to his wife’s warmth. Han Sujin sighed as she watched him sleep. She slowly lowered her head and closed her eyes, but she couldn't fall asleep for a long time. Guilt and self-loathing swirled within her.
It's okay, Han Sujin. Everything I'm doing is for our family.
Han Sujin squeezed her eyes shut as if to shake it off, comforting herself. But Lee Han’s voice still echoed in her ears. Memories of sin that wouldn't fade no matter how hard she tried to erase them. All of it was blocking Han Sujin from sleep.
In the middle of the night, she suddenly woke up and stared at her husband’s sleeping face. Her heart ached with remorse. Han Sujin’s voice, whispered low, echoed in the darkness.
"Honey... I'm so sorry..."
Stroking Park Taeyoung’s cheek with a trembling hand, Han Sujin finally burst into tears. As if foreseeing the path of hardship laid out before her, she sobbed, trembling with fear.
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Every day after the patrol ended, Han Sujin headed to her home with Lee Han. The two of them mixing their bodies had become a daily routine. At first, she had been plagued by guilt, but before she knew it, she had come to take the pleasure she felt in that relationship for granted.
"Ah... hnn..."
Han Sujin groaned at Lee Han’s movements as he violently shook her body. In the past, she would have resisted and pulled away, but for the current her, there was no reason or need to do so. She had become honest with the sensations her body felt. The resistance had long since disappeared, and it had even become a time she looked forward to.
This is all for Taeyoung. To protect our family, this much is...
Han Sujin repeated to herself. Her love for her husband remained unchanged. She had simply come to believe that she could endure dirtying her body if it meant protecting that love. Her distorted affection was dragging her into a deeper abyss.
At night, Han Sujin would embrace Park Taeyoung as if nothing had happened. But whenever she felt her husband’s touch, she would suddenly be reminded of the hot caresses she shared with Lee Han. Han Sujin was confused by her own changing self. She was terrified by the fact that accepting Lee Han’s touch was no longer painful.
I am changing little by little. But... this is all for Taeyoung, whom I love.
Even though she knew it in her mind, a corner of her heart ached. She was rationalizing herself in the name of love, but Han Sujin could feel that it was becoming increasingly distorted. Yet, she couldn't stop. Step by step, she was walking the path of depravity. She wanted to believe it was a path she chose to protect her family, but Han Sujin knew she had reached a point of no return.
Love was the force supporting her, and at the same time, the reason leading her to ruin. Han Sujin swallowed her tears and buried herself in her husband’s arms. She herself didn't know how long she could bear this contradictory heart.