Chapter 320
Chapter 320
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Translator: Vine
Chapter: 320
Chapter Title: Kalli's Jealousy - Endless Affection (2)
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“Hah…”
Her hot breath washed over me.
...And I, too, let out a heated breath, trying to steady my own breathing.
Softly.
Her fiery red hair, as vibrant as ever, captivated my gaze. At the same time, I felt my heart being drawn to Kalli once again.
‘Was this the right move?’
From the moment I entered the training hall, Kalli had seemed to be in a bad mood.
I felt it from the very beginning. That was why I was more cautious, and a sense of guilt pricked at my conscience as I faced her.
Because just moments ago… I had shared a tender moment with Millia.
That was why I had been constantly worried, even during our spar.
How could I put her mind at ease? How should I show my affection to Kalli, who was so clearly upset with me?
That was why I had acted on impulse and kissed her.
My action seemed to have soothed her heart. Because until now, she had always been the one to approach me or express affection first.
This time, I had taken a more direct step, and now that the kiss was over, my own heart was filled with immense joy.
“……”
Meeting her silent gaze, I gently pressed my face against her cheek.
Gently…
Our cheeks, now touching, were incredibly hot.
I couldn't tell if it was the heat radiating from my body or Kalli's warmth. But it felt as if it were fanning a greater flame between us, intensifying the heat.
Despite being such a simple act, it brought a more sensual and direct feeling than I had imagined.
“Really… so suddenly.”
Then, as Kalli opened her mouth to speak softly, I smiled unconsciously and gently rubbed my cheek against hers.
“I know it was sudden. But looking at you, Instructor, I just wanted to kiss you.”
When I laid my feelings bare, she flinched, then shot me a sidelong glance.
As our gazes met in that strange way, I felt a great, overwhelming happiness in my heart.
It wasn’t a passionate kiss, our lips pressed together, but a simple touch. Just whispering to each other like this, with our cheeks pressed together, brought a deep sense of happiness.
Really… just by having our cheeks together, I felt a deeper affection, and the sense of fulfillment welling up in my heart was extraordinary.
‘Do I deserve to feel this much happiness?’
That thought crossed my mind without me even realizing it.
Because every moment is so happy… am I enjoying an excessive amount of happiness?
‘I never thought Kalli and I would end up like this…’
I had even questioned whether I had the luxury of having a lover at all. But looking back now, all of that was just needless worry.
“You really are…”
Hearing her soft words, I gazed into her eyes and felt it.
It was just as they say—you never truly know until you have it. I was experiencing the full weight of that saying.
The time I spent hesitating and wavering seemed ridiculous… building a relationship filled with affection brought such a pure sense of happiness.
“……”
I waited for her to continue, but suddenly I felt her hands grasp my shoulders.
Slowly.
As she gradually pushed me away, our cheeks naturally separated, and the intense heat where we touched began to fade.
It felt as if a deep trace of Kalli remained on my cheek, and seeing her own slightly more flushed cheek, I realized I wasn't the only one.
“Hoo.”
Her heated breath tickled my neck. As her narrowed, hazy eyes stared at me, I waited calmly.
Just as I had expressed great affection with that kiss, I felt it was now my turn to listen to what she had to say.
“Don't hesitate. You can say what's on your mind.”
As I spoke lightly to encourage her, Kalli, who had been hesitating, suddenly broke into a strange smile.
Then, with a slight shake of her head, she finally spoke to me.
“…It’s nothing. Nothing big. I was just a little upset with you.”
“Were you very upset?”
When I asked back naturally, she slowly nodded.
“To be honest, yes. Because I could smell another woman on you.”
At her words, I could no longer face her nonchalantly.
I paused… and just gave an awkward smile.
‘…So that was the reason.’
Perhaps I had been too careless.
I should have properly considered why Kalli was treating me more fiercely during the spar and why she was in a bad mood, but I failed to do so.
I should have properly erased any trace of Millia after holding her before coming to this training room. I felt a surge of guilt for not being more considerate of Kalli.
“I’m sorry.”
When I offered a careful apology rather than making excuses, I saw Kalli’s smile widen.
“It’s fine.”
Her reply was crisp, and her gaze held none of the hostility I had expected.
…Even if she got angry or spoke more harshly, I should have accepted it humbly. But strangely, it felt like she was forgiving me.
“You know.”
Then, as I felt strength coming from the hands on my shoulders, my body naturally leaned forward.
Suddenly.
…And this time, I found myself pulled into her embrace.
“Because I figure I’ll be the same way.”
“…The same way?”
“Like now, as I hold you and kiss you… my scent will be left on your body too, won’t it?”
At her unreserved words, I blankly raised my head and saw her unique, faintly glowing red eyes.
…Was the emotion in those eyes greed, or desire?
The heat in Kalli’s eyes seemed even greater than before, and for a moment, it felt as if my gaze would be sucked right in.
An intense gaze that seemed to hold an obsessive craving for me.
“So, I have to accept it. The other women who hold a piece of your heart will surely react the same way to my scent.”
Hearing words beyond anything I could have imagined, my mouth fell open.
‘How…’
How could she think like this?
That was a thought I could never have. Kalli, who said she was displeased because she could smell another woman on me. But now, she was saying something completely different.
That it was fine because her scent was also left on me…
Her voice, as if satisfied at having left a deep mark on me, sounded alluring.
Gently.
…And as she softly stroked my hair, I could only accept her touch while held in her embrace.
It was so strange.
That a woman who could embrace me like this could be so captivating.
Even though this world allows relationships like ours, and even if she accepted me, I thought my heart would never be completely at ease.
Because the more I thought about it, the more I felt they were losing out by being in a relationship with me.
So I had thought I was the only one being selfish in this relationship.
“…Instructor Kalli.”
“What.”
“Do you not hate me?”
Without even realizing it, I found myself asking.
Held in her arms like this, accepting her touch, I wondered if she truly felt that way.
Until now, I hadn't dared to ask.
To the women who accepted me, even allowing this kind of relationship. I felt I had no right to say such a thing.
“Why would you think I’d hate you?”
“No. It’s just… I was wondering if I’m being too selfish.”
Even as I said it, I thought I was being a coward.
After already establishing the relationships, here I was, asking the woman I’m with if it’s okay.
—Asking if even someone like me is okay.
I was sure I needed to be confident and claim them as my own.
That if I passively accepted the relationships, I would only end up hurting them.
So, rather than constantly worrying and agonizing, I thought I needed to raise my own value and rise to a position where I could have them.
And yet, my heart would suddenly grow weak.
Especially at times like this… when I could feel their true feelings.
How much they liked me, loved me, and kept me in their hearts. I could feel with my body and soul that none of it was a lighthearted feeling.
That’s why, no matter how shamelessly or selfishly I tried to be, there were times when I just couldn’t.
Like right now…
“Cadet Han Cheon-seong, you’re allowed to be selfish.”
Despite that, Kalli’s voice was endlessly gentle.
Even though the true intention behind my words was to have her rebuke me, to say harsh things to me…
“…Why?”
“Because that’s how much more I love you. So, if I can be with you even like this, that alone makes my heart happy. More than any other moment.”
As Kalli whispered words of love and held me tighter, I couldn't say anything in response.
…It didn’t make sense.
But she was telling me this thing that didn’t make sense.
I could feel her trying to show me even greater affection now.
“Cadet Han Cheon-seong, I think you’re misunderstanding something right now. To be clear… I have never once lowered myself. Not when I was a cadet, not when I served on the front lines as an officer, and not even now as an instructor. I never once thought I would be in a relationship where I'd have to cling to someone or be tied down.”
“……”
Her following words traveled through my ears and began to pound powerfully against my heart.
“So why do you think someone like me would allow this kind of relationship with you, Cadet Han Cheon-seong?”
“That’s……”
The moment my mind went blank.
“Because I love you.”
Her voice was radiant.
As if trying to shake my entire heart. Her pounding had grown even stronger.
“Because that’s how much… I love you, so even a relationship like this is fine. Just having you look at me like you are now makes me so happy.”