The White Wind Howls (14)
The White Wind Howls (14)
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I pushed my hips forward, little by little.
As the glans began to slowly spread Lucien's tight hole, her eyes widened and I could feel her fighting back the pain.
"Ugh— D-Do-yun... it hurts..."
With the merciless pressure of my cock pushing inside, tears began to gather in Lucien's eyes.
Even those tears looked so impossibly beautiful that I couldn't control my desire. So I stopped moving and gently stroked her back, whispering.
"Lucien, please hold on a little longer. The first time hurts, but you'll gradually get used to the pressure."
Push—
When my huge cock was about halfway inside her anus, Lucien's body trembled violently, and I saw her hands clutching the sleeping bag spread across the floor.
"Ooh— oohg... it's big♥"
"What's big?"
"Th-the thing inside..."
"What's the thing inside?"
"The co-cock..."
"Where did the cock go inside?"
"Lu-Lucien's backside..."
Hm.
As a general rule, I believed that every human action and thought took on different meaning and value depending on which words were chosen to explain it.
It was a creed I'd picked up with my body while being worked like a slave in all sorts of places before entering the academy.
Even when you were in the same space doing the same work, the atmosphere, people's attitudes, even the way the world looked could change, word by word.
So, in short, correcting Lucien's vocabulary was, ultimately, an essential task for the sake of a smooth relationship between Lucien and me.
"Backside? No such word exists on the human body. It's not your backside, it's Lucien's butthole. The hole you shit from, isn't it? Now, say it properly."
"........."
With an expression like she was about to cry, Lucien turned her head to look back at me.
Ah, damn, she was cute.
Smack—!!!!
"Hikyak!"
"Come on, say it. Where's my cock inside?"
"... Lu-Lucien's backside..."
Smack!
A light tap. As red marks bloomed across her fair, plump ass, Lucien finally let out a voice as if she'd given up on something.
"H-her butthole..."
"Whose?"
"Lu-Lucien's butthole... Do-yun's cock is inside Lucien's butthole... and it's big..."
As a general rule, I thought the appeal of a woman with Lucien's personality lay in taming her. Of course, the basis for that was purely my own delusion.
I'd tame her my way.
"How does it feel? Big or not?"
"......"
"Say it quickly."
"E-eek— th-the cock feels like it's reached all the way into my stomach... I can feel the size of the cock inside my stomach..."
"Hm. Did you know?"
"Y-yes?"
"A woman's stomach has almost no nerves capable of feeling anything."
"S-so what?"
"It means you don't have the sensory ability to accurately judge the exact size of a cock inside your stomach."
Of course, I didn't know for sure either.
But think about it. Last time when I did enema play with Lily, if that much water had gone into her abdomen, Lily should've practically passed out from the pain.
The fact that she hadn't probably meant you felt almost nothing inside the abdomen, right? If not, oh well. I wasn't a doctor!
Still, since Lily is Sione's daughter, she probably has some medical knowledge, so I'd ask her later.
"Therefore, feeling that my cock is big through your stomach's senses is a false claim on Lucien's part."
And lies deserve punishment.
Squelch. Squelch.
"Ooh, ooooh♥ don't do it— s-stooop♥"
Squelch squelch squelch squelch squelch———
"Ugh—♥"
"That's a nice voice. But until you tell the truth, I'll keep enjoying Lucien's butthole as I please."
"Haah—♥ O-okay... I'll tell the truth, soo—!! Stop ramming my butthole!"
I stopped.
I stopped moving and looked at Lucien's face. Her face had turned red, like a time bomb about to explode— no, it had probably already exploded.
"Hah... hah... Lu-Lucien felt that the cock inside her sphincter was big!"
While gently stroking her reddened ass, I interrogated her.
"Be specific. And answer not 'sphincter' but 'butthole ring.' Describe in detail what you felt."
"Lu-Lucien's butthole ring was stretched wide... it tried to push it out—! But something bigger than the biggest shit Lucien has ever taken— it stretched Lucien's hole until it felt like it would tear... I've never taken a size this big in my life..."
Um— well, that wasn't exactly what I was expecting her to say.
No, I meant, I wasn't into scat, everyone.
"Uh, —huh?"
As if realizing what she'd just said, Lucien's face became the very picture of a ripened persimmon. For the record, "ripened persimmon" meant a human ripened red.
"N-no—! Lucien didn't mean it that way—!"
"What does it matter. I shit too. Doesn't every human shit and all that? Sometimes you take a big shit, sometimes small, it's all the same. So don't worry too much about it—"
Thud.
Her head dropped to the floor. At the same time, the strength drained from the anus that had my cock half-inserted, and her pert ass fell to the floor too.
Lucien, now curled up nearly into the shape of a pill bug, started mumbling something.
"Uu... I'm done... Lucien doesn't want to... hate this..."
"H-hey, Lucien?"
"Go away."
"Huh?"
Suddenly acting like this?
"Go away. Lucien is a filthy woman who compares a cock to her excrement."
"Wh-what?"
She began snapping at me in a suddenly very articulate manner. And before I knew it, I sensed that her eyes, now carrying both sadness and anger, were glaring at me from her curled-up position.
"Lucien is a woman who measures cocks with her butthole, puts cocks inside it, and pushes them out like excrement. So she can't be with a kind person like Do-yun anymore."
"..."
"Do-yun has other young successors of the Count Houses beside him, after all. A vulgar woman like me is no match for cute girls like Estelle or Lily. I'm an idiot for even thinking I could have a little bit of Do-yun's love. I hate myself for challenging even though I knew I was destined to lose..."
It seemed I had really, majorly hit a nerve.
"Lucien was never supposed to be this kind of woman... she carries the noble bloodline that inherited Verciel's magic— but now the Verciel family is finished. If grandmother is watching from heaven, she'd definitely say it's all over now."
"......"
I approached her to put my arm around her shoulders.
But no such luck.
"Go away—!!"
"Lucien, I'm sorr—"
"I said go away—! This isn't the love I expected—!!!"
But I had said I was sorry...
"Th-the love I expected was talking romantically and tenderly gazing into each other's eyes! Even suggesting anal sex was something I only did for you because I knew you'd like it—!"
"I'm truly sorry."
"Worst worst worst worst."
Lucien's tone had somehow fully shifted to casual speech, so cold that it felt like my heart would be sliced open rather than just ache.
"Uuuuu..."
Seeing her sob made me realize, bone-deep, just how thoughtless I'd been in my relationship with Lucien.
Getting cocky just because I'd had sex with Risie or Lily once or twice.
Every person had different tendencies. I was the fool for thinking that what worked on the women before would work on the delicate and tender Lucien. Truly, an unparalleled fool.
"Hngh— uuu..."
As I saw teardrops drip onto the sleeping bag on the floor, my heart grew heavier and heavier.
"Uuu..."
......... To think I'd been muttering to myself about taming someone who was this sensitive and delicate. I was simply pathetic.
Thud.
I assumed a perfect dogeza posture in front of her.
"Lucien, just once. Please, give me just one more chance. I was wrong."
Slowly—
I felt her looking at me, but no answer came back.
"I will never again say anything that offends Lucien. I mean it."
"Liar."
"It's the truth."
"How am I supposed to believe that. And the water's already been spilled. Do-yun has no need for a dirty woman like me."
My mind went blank, unable to offer any retort.
I could've made plenty of excuses. That I hadn't meant that kind of play in that way. That I hadn't been making fun of her, that she should please take it more positively.
But all those words were probably just cowardly self-rationalizing. The classic claim of an offender, perhaps?
The one who was hurt was Lucien. No matter how I explained my intentions, it would be closer to avoidance than a real apology.
With my forehead still pressed to the floor, I slowly opened my mouth.
"I was truly in the wrong. You must have felt so embarrassed and mortified. Instead of soothing that, I only tore into you further."
My throat went completely dry, but I didn't stop speaking.
"Maybe because Lucien kept accommodating me, I'd been thinking arrogantly that I could do anything, that I could treat Lucien like my possession in bed."
I felt a shift in the air, as if her body gave a small tremble.
"So I failed to truly see with what kind of heart Lucien came all the way here."
Still unable to lift my head, I continued to my last words.
"Please, give me one chance. Please— I'm begging you."
Did my sincere dogeza get through?
A voice came back, seeming just the tiniest bit softened.
"Anyone can say words."
"What?"
"I'm asking how you'll prove it."
"That's..."
"And Lucien is a dirty woman anyway... so it's probably best that Do-yun doesn't get tangled up with me. You can stop now... I'll accept your apology. So sleep well—"
Was it no use?
No.
Giving up here would be the true, complete betrayal of Lucien.
I tossed aside excuses laden with unnecessary justifications and decided to approach her as my most honest self.
Lifting my head and looking directly at her, I opened my mouth.
"You're not dirty."
"......"
"In the first place, the thing I liked when Lucien allowed anal intercourse was the thrill of being able to enter Lucien's secret place."
Lucien was looking at me with an expression of exasperation, but I kept going.
"What's wrong with liking something dirty. That's a kind of instinct too. Thinking this might be the end, I'll say my true feelings completely honestly. I want to conquer everything about Lucien. Literally everything. From the most sublime spiritual love, down to your most base aspects."
"......"
"I want all of Lucien. And likewise, I want to give all of myself to Lucien. You were embarrassed and mortified by the things you said earlier, but to me, there were no words more arousing."
"Of course, from now on, I will only act within a mutually agreed upon range. Truly. If that's not true, you can cut off this thing of mine engraved with the Imprint."
"... So. You're saying that the words I said were truly okay? Not dirty?"
"Yes. Not dirty at all. Honestly, I want to hear them tens of thousands more times. I have never once thought Lucien was vulgar or strange."
"You said 'Lucien was never supposed to be this kind of woman.' I think I understand what that meant."
Before I knew it, her large, beautiful eyes, from which the tears had stopped, were staring straight into mine.
"You wanted to be sincerely loved and to sincerely love from the very beginning. I think you wished to be treated preciously, and wanted to hear tender words. But I ruined that because of my own selfishness."
Her fingertips gripped the floor tightly.
"So."
Looking into Lucien's beautiful eyes, I said.
"Truly, please give me one more chance. And this time, let me hear what Lucien desires."
A quiet silence followed my words.
And at last, Lucien spoke very quietly.
"—I will."
"What?"
"Th-then I'll forgive you... But make sure to tell me in advance just how rough you'll be... because it's embarrassing."
Perhaps because it was illuminated by moonlight, her face as she averted her eyes and mumbled was... so lovely.
"B-but instead..."
"Instead?"
"Teach me how to feel good with Lucien's butthole, too."
Huh?
"Teach me what really, really good is..."
As you wish.