The First Breastfeeding and the Duke's Sudden Visit
I stared down at my hands—my very first look at them in this life. They were slender. Yet they bore calluses. Still, they were unmistakably the delicate bones of a woman. Jiggle. A heavy, alien weight swayed from my chest. Long strands of hair fell across my vision.
“......Haa, haa. This… no way.”
A clear, feminine voice in her twenties slipped from my lips. With trembling hands, I groped at my chest and face. Squeeze, squeeze.Whoa, so soft… The undeniable reality hit me with crystal clarity.
“Fuck. A TS trope?! The possession glitched, you crazy bastard!!” I screamed.
This was the absolute worst development. Instead of the alpha-male Northern Duke, I’d ended up possessing a woman—and not just any woman, but Sena, the wet nurse who was little more than a slave to the ducal family!
Maybe my scream startled him. Or perhaps the baby Lucian instinctively sensed the strange aura coming from a Sena who felt somehow… off. The infant in my arms scrunched up his tiny face and immediately burst into ear-splitting wails.
“Waaaaah!! Wah!!”
The baby’s piercing cries mixed with my own panic until my brain felt ready to explode.
Shit’s fucked. Forget the male lead’s mom—this possession is already ruined from the start! Why the hell do I have to become a woman?! This isn’t my problem, I need to get the fuck out of this stupid situation!
My mind spun at full speed. First, I had to run. This body belonged to Sena, who possessed Knight-Captain Level physical ability. Even though I was now a woman, with this kind of physique…
I can easily escape the castle, become a mercenary, hunt monsters—there’s no problem surviving on my own!!
Lucian? The male lead? None of my business. My own life mattered more.
“Shut up! Be quiet!”
I almost hurled the crying baby Lucian onto the bed—but stopped myself and gently laid him down instead. Then I shot to my feet. I strode straight toward the large window of the nursery.
Whoosh! I flung the window open. The northern wind slapped my cheeks. It looked high, but with Sena’s physical prowess, I’d land without issue.
Let’s go. Goodbye, you shitty romance-fantasy world. I’m leaving to find my freedom.
The moment I placed my foot on the windowsill and prepared to leap—
Grab—!!
“......?! Urk!”
My right hand suddenly shot up on its own and clamped viciously around my own throat. My breath was cut off instantly.
“Khhk……! W-what the hell is this?!”
I hadn’t done it. It moved completely against my will. Sena’s body was acting on its own.
Is this a fucking self-rotation?! What the shit?!
The right hand squeezed my neck hard enough to dig into the flesh, while the left hand violently yanked me down from the windowsill. Crash! I slammed onto the floor, gasping and choking. The grip around my throat grew tighter and tighter. It felt as if the body itself was radiating murderous intent toward my soul, issuing a clear warning.
Go to Lucian right now. If you try to run, I’ll kill you.
It was the instinct engraved into the flesh—motherhood. A blind, overwhelming, and violently obsessive force that easily crushed the shallow will of a mere possessor. The character setting of Sena, who had been taken in by the Duke after growing up an orphan and whose entire reason for living was to protect and raise Lucian, was strangling my soul.
“Khk, cough! Fine, fine! Fuck…… let go already!”
The moment I strongly projected my intention to abandon escape, the choking grip slowly loosened. I lay sprawled on the floor, coughing violently as I gasped for air. From the cradle, Lucian was still screaming his lungs out. His face had turned bright red from exhaustion. He seemed hungry.
You little shit……
I staggered over to the cradle. Becoming a woman was already driving me insane with resentment, and now I couldn’t even run away—I had to deal with a one-year-old’s feeding tantrum. The humiliation shattered every last ounce of pride left in the twenty-eight-year-old manly soul inside me. But I had no choice. If I didn’t, this crazy body would strangle me again and try to self-harm. I was forced to submit.
Goddammit! Goddammit!
With shaking hands, I began unbuttoning Sena’s top. The instant I parted the collar and exposed my breasts, my gaze instinctively dropped downward.
“......Oh.”
They were bigger than I’d expected. Absolutely magnificent. Snow-white, firm skin. The ideal shape. I hadn’t looked in a mirror, but I could tell the face was probably quite beautiful too. Since the core of me was still thoroughly male, even though it was my own body, primal curiosity and visual stimulation slammed into my brain.
Well, the figure gets a passing grade. To think I’d get to own a body like this myself……
I stared blankly at my chest, muttering to myself, until a wave of self-loathing crashed over me.
No, you idiot!! Is this really the time to admire your own body?!
I slapped my own cheek to snap out of it, but tears welled up anyway. TS possession—fine, I could accept that after a hundred concessions. But the very first ordeal I had to face right after turning into a woman was breastfeeding? This was the final stage of female corruption, the very bottom of the abyss. I had to bare my chest and feed milk to a kid I didn’t even give birth to?
“Haa………”
I leaned back against the wall in resignation. I rummaged through memories from media—or rather, from the adult content I’d seen before that featured breastfeeding scenes—trying to recall how to express milk. Carefully, I cupped both breasts with my hands and squeezed.
Squirt!
“Hngh! It’s coming out! It really squirted! Hic…!”
Confirming that breast milk was actually flowing, I trembled with a strange sense of accomplishment and overwhelming shame at the same time.
“But it hurts a bit? Doesn’t it usually come out in a steady stream? Do I have to keep squeezing like this? Doesn’t it hurt when babies suck?”
I was trying to escape reality by indulging in scholarly curiosity about the principles of nursing when—
Slap—!!
My right hand suddenly flew up and smacked me hard across the cheek. The blow was so fierce my head whipped to the side.
“Ouch! Fuck, why again?!”
The body was warning me once more. Stop wasting time and milk, and immediately put my breast into that starving Lucian’s mouth. The killing intent that said it wouldn’t stop at choking this time pricked my skin.
“I get it! I’ll feed him, I’ll feed him! You crazy bitch, it’s your body so handle it more gently!”
Crying tears of bitter defeat, I lifted the wailing baby Lucian into my arms. The warm, soft weight of the infant against my chest felt strangely poignant. With clumsy hands, I brought my breast to his mouth.
“Mama… ahgu…!”
Slurp!
“Hngh!”
Lucian instinctively found the nipple, latched on, and began sucking vigorously with loud, greedy gulps.
“Uhh……! Hey, hey! Gentle! You already have teeth, you little rascal!”
An unfamiliar, ticklish, yet electrifying pain shot through my entire body. The macho soul inside me screamed, but… slurp, slurp! The powerful maternal love deeply engraved into Sena’s body mercilessly crushed my reason. Before I knew it, I had forgotten all thoughts of resistance. One hand gently stroked the baby’s head as I continued to nurse him.
“That’s right, drink up a lot…… Grow big and strong and become the Northern Duke, you brat……”
“Abu…. babba…”
After sucking for a long while, Lucian finally released the nipple with a satisfied, drowsy expression. Then my body moved on its own again. Naturally, I lifted the baby to my shoulder and began rhythmically patting his tiny back.
Pat. Pat.
Burp—
Hearing the small, adorable burp, a smile unconsciously spread across my lips.
……Well, he is pretty cute. The male lead kid.
His face, full and peacefully asleep, looked like an angel. I stared at him in a daze for a moment before violently shaking my head to regain my senses.
Crazy! What the hell am I thinking right now?! Is the female corruption already complete?!
I rubbed my cheeks with both hands. I needed to reassess the situation. Of all people, why did it have to be the wet nurse Sena? I desperately searched my memories for what kind of character Sena was in the original story and what fatal settings were attached to her.
Knight-Captain Level combat ability. Lucian’s future swordsmanship instructor. And……
And what else? There was one incredibly fatal setting for Sena……
The most important core detail hovered just out of reach in my mind. As I furrowed my brow trying to recall it—
Creak—
The nursery door behind me slowly opened.
“......!”
My body froze in shock. Who would come to the nursery at this hour? I slowly turned my head toward the door.
A man with neatly swept-back black hair and gleaming red eyes stood there. The current ruler of the Gestein Grand Duchy. Lucian’s father and the tyrant of the North. It was Duke Lumican Gestein.
W-why is the Duke here? Oh, he must have come to check on his son.
Even while panicking, I tried to act as normal as possible. I hurriedly laid baby Lucian back in the cradle and pulled up my disheveled top to cover my exposed chest. But before I could even finish buttoning it, the Duke’s first words as he approached with slow steps completely blanked out my mind.
“Was Lucian crying.”
His voice sounded indifferent yet somehow affectionate, caressing my ears. But Duke Lumican’s red eyes were not on the baby in the cradle. Instead, they were…
Ah, that’s right……
Greedily licking over my still partially exposed chest.
Fuck……! That’s right!! These two were secretly fucking each other!!!
The reason Sena had earned the Duke’s absolute trust in the original story and survived despite the Duchess’s checks. And the reason she died after the Duke’s death. It was because Sena wasn’t an ordinary wet nurse—she was Duke Lumican’s secret mistress!
“Eek……!”
I staggered backward in horror. My hands shook violently as I tried to close my collar. However, Duke Lumican’s large hand caught my wrist with a grip that was gentle yet impossibly strong.
“Haa… Sena…”
His breath brushed against my ear. Lumican smiled, his voice cracked with hunger as he whispered.
“Don’t put it on, Sena.”
“......Pardon?”
“Give me milk too.”
“......Excuse me?!”
I doubted my own ears. The statement was that insane. I was already dying of humiliation from having to breastfeed a two-year-old, and now I was about to bare my chest for the fully grown Northern Duke as well. Watching the Duke approach while licking his lips with a lewd expression, the male ego inside me foamed at the mouth and promptly fainted.
Fuck, someone save me.
I pulled my upper body back and opened my mouth.
“L-Lucian is watching, Your Grace…”
I tried to refuse as politely and firmly as possible. But Lumican’s eyes had already grown hazy and clouded.
“Lucian is asleep.”
The Duke’s hand lightly ignored my resistance and reached down along my collarbone toward my breast.
Ah, shit……!
Goosebumps raced down my spine. At the same time, a hypothesis flashed through my mind.
Wait, earlier when I tried not to feed Lucian, the body slapped me and threatened me, right? Don’t tell me right now…… Sena’s body is forcing me to do the breastfeeding play with the Duke too?!
The dogshit original setting that Duke Lumican was Sena’s secret lover. If that was the case, wouldn’t this insane body obediently comply with the Duke’s filthy demand and either choke me again or start stripping on its own?
Just as I was about to resign myself—
Swoosh—!
My right arm sliced through the air like a bee’s sting.
“Huh……?”
Thud—!!
A dull impact echoed through the nursery. The edge of my hand struck the back of the Duke’s neck—fast, precise, and utterly merciless.
“Kk……”
Lumican’s red eyes rolled back, and with a heavy thump! he collapsed to the floor like a felled tree.
……Huh?
I stared blankly back and forth between the fallen Duke and my right hand. What just happened? I hadn’t been the one to knock him out. It was the very same Sena’s body that had been controlling me moments ago acting on its own.
Ah…… so even Sena hated this too?
I could now painfully feel the absolute priority engraved into this body. Sena’s number one priority was Lucian alone. No matter how much she served him as her lord and secret lover, any human who tried to covet and waste the breast milk that belonged to her beloved Lucian would not be forgiven—even if it was the Duke himself.
“Haa……”
I let out a long sigh and relaxed. If I clumsily tried to deal with the collapsed Duke now, this extreme body might slap me again.
Haa… Fine, you handle it yourself. I don’t even know the way around here anyway.
I emptied my mind completely, handing full control over to the body. Immediately, my body began moving on its own with practiced efficiency. Sena’s body grabbed the Northern Duke by the collar where he lay sprawled, then hoisted the massive man over her shoulder as easily as if he were a sack of rice.
Even though it was Knight-Captain Level physical ability…
Wow, this strength is seriously insane……
Carrying a huge adult male didn’t even make my breathing rough. As if familiar with the route, the body left the nursery and strode briskly down the long, dark corridors of the ducal castle. The destination was obvious. The place to dump this cumbersome, perverted piece of baggage. My body walked silently toward the Duke’s bedchamber.