The Girl's True Joy
"It's fun, really fun. Being with you, Ung-ssi, has always been fun, but..."
Thud! Thump!
"I'm sure... right now is the most fun of all."
A woman's voice echoed softly in my head. My eyelids fluttered slowly, opening and closing. Each time they did, a cool sensation washed over me.
"...Ah...?"
Before I knew it, I was lying naked on the bed. Through my wavering vision, I saw my own manhood standing rigidly toward the ceiling, and a beautiful woman with lavender hair slowly approaching.
"My memories have remained ever since I first took on a human form, but they were all lies."
"...Lav..."
"I have the memories, but without the accompanying emotions, they become nothing more than tedious stories that can't even be called recollections."
Swish, rustle... Thud.
She stood at the edge of the bed, slipped off the only dress she had been wearing, crawled between my legs, and positioned my erect manhood right in front of her face. A warm breath escaped her lips.
"I don't remember what my original form was like, but if I look back on all the big and small incidents I've caused... there was only ever one thing I truly wanted."
"Ugh...?"
She firmly grasped the shaft of my manhood and whispered to it rather than to my ear.
"...I want the attention and love of others. And right now, more than anyone else, I desperately want yours... your attention and your love."
She gently stroked me with a light grip that didn't hurt, watching with genuine delight as my manhood twitched in eager response.
"So for now... I'll start by finding the form that perfectly matches your ideal."
When had she developed such a strong sense of self? In a way, it could be called a success for the project, but even I found her obsessive level of affection toward me questionable.
"When... exactly did you realize you were drawn to me?"
It was the best I could manage while she blew hot breaths across my length.
Without a proper sense of self, true feelings like affection couldn't exist. This meant her ego had grown to the point where she could generate emotions on her own, much like I could.
But it was fast. I knew her intelligence wasn't low; she simply hadn't understood the concept of self or emotions yet. Still, this was far too quick.
It had only been two weeks since the team leader and I started the project to create a friendly ego within her. The team leader had predicted it would take at least a month or two.
"Kiss... Well, it's been since the very beginning."
"Ugh?!"
She kissed the tip of my glans and answered while gently caressing my boiling testicles from below, as if she somehow knew exactly how to do this.
"It was the moment I first ate the meal someone had personally prepared for me."
"From that time...?"
She clarified that it was actually the second time, the very moment my other ability had manifested in front of her. This was long before the project had even begun.
"I'm a little sorry to Ung-ssi, who carefully prepared each ingredient with such sincerity, but... at the time, I felt nothing except that it was hot. This body, built purely from survival instincts and necessity, had no real need for a sense of taste."
There had been speculation that she created a human body through her false manifestation ability. Outwardly and under examination, it was no different from a human body, but because it was faithful to instinct, anything unnecessary for seducing people had been boldly excluded.
So the reason she had suddenly asked me to cook for her back then was simply one of her attempts to seduce me.
...Perhaps her anomaly of ideal transformation wasn't limited to just appearance and voice after all?
"But back then... you clearly said it was delicious..."
"Yes. The moment I connected with you, completely new sensations and emotions flooded in. Ugh... It was a tremendous shock for me."
"Ugh... Ugh..."
"Suck... Haa, kiss."
The soft, squishy sensation of her pointed tongue tip and the plump, saliva-slicked feel of her lips meticulously licked beneath my glans, making my hips twitch involuntarily.
Why... was she so good at this...
"Ufufu... The sincere attention you showed me back then... was truly delicious."
"...So 'delicious' meant that kind of feeling."
"Haa... Chuuup..."
"Ugh..."
With my dazed mind still trying to think, I was constantly shaken by the dizzying pleasure being given to my manhood. I felt the looming crisis of my mind breaking, yet the reason I hadn't given up until now was because I still couldn't shake my worry over what she had said about the others.
Possessiveness.
"Chuuup, chuup..."
Jealousy.
"Hyaaup... Hoo... Kiss."
And even the hatred that had clearly felt like hostility.
'I'm jealous. I'm envious too. Whoever made you feel these emotions toward Ung-ssi... I want to find them and make them disappear from this world.'
Last night, there had been a major incident that revealed Yerin-ssi's secret sexual preferences. Thinking back on who had passed out first and who had to wash, wipe, and dress that beautiful, dirtied body...
In my case, the lingering effects of the unresolved pheromones might have been the decisive spark for this accident.
However, those feelings of jealousy and hatred weren't limited to the women around me like Yerin-ssi. They clearly included Harpy, toward whom I felt more than just goodwill.
Until I resolved that somehow... Ugh,
"Nerup, haaup... Chuuup... That tremendous shock I received back then had already sprouted the seeds of emotion deep within my heart. The flower called 'self' bloomed... ufuu... the moment you gave me a name."
...I couldn't afford to fall like this. Even before the team leader and I came up with this dangerous plan to create a friendly ego for her, she had already been growing in secret.
"For breasts... do you prefer them large after all? Or would a modest size be...?"
Perhaps because of last night's incident, when I recalled the firm, modest breasts that fit neatly in my palm as my hands traveled up her slender waist, I thought they had their own charm too...
Unlike before, when I had thought bigger was always better, the idea that modest ones were quite nice as well had mixed in, leaving her unable to decide easily. This gave me a brief moment to catch my breath.
"..."
She looked at my manhood, now glistening with saliva from her careful licking, with greedy eyes while cupping her own breasts. It was obvious what she would do next.
Before that, I needed to say something, anything...
"Mm... Still, Ung-ssi, you did cast sticky glances more often when my breasts were larger."
...Oh no.
"Was I... that obvious?"
"My heart pounded. You even teased me with it when I wasn't yet used to sexual desire, didn't you? I remember everything."
"...Ugh?!"
With another blink, my manhood was already trapped between her ample breasts without any chance to escape, only the tip peeking out from her cleavage as it twitched vigorously with joy.
Using her lips was one thing... Given how many deep kisses I'd already shared with her while bewitched, I could somehow understand that, but...
"How do you even know how to do this..."
"Because I've bewitched many people until now. Um, are you disappointed?"
"Ugh..."
Her charming eyes curved playfully as she teased me with that question. Even though the sensation felt so good I was melting, a complicated mix of frustration stirred within me.
These kinds of things... these pleasant feelings... how many people had she...
"Hah...?"
Drip...
She pursed her lips and let sticky saliva drip onto the head of my manhood, then began shaking her breasts with care. While doing so, she teased me with a face barely holding back laughter at my complicated expression.
"Fufu, that was a lie. When you stir up jealousy like this, people become desperate to monopolize and possess me. Now I think I understand their feelings a little too."
"..."
"Their appearances seem quite ugly when I think about them now... but your reaction is, how should I put it... cute."
Her gradually sharpening features bore a slight resemblance to Harpy's because of her gentle eyes and motherly breasts, but she appeared more mature, exuding the charm of an older woman.
It was like watching a teenage girl who had shamelessly lied and craved attention and affection grow into a captivating woman who could now easily toy with a man in her grasp.
Combined with the pleasure rising from my manhood enjoying the supreme embrace and smooth skin lubricated by the added saliva between her breasts, I could feel my heartbeat pounding strongly and rapidly.
"Don't worry. This is all... just me acting according to your desires. You should give up any hope that you can escape from me, who can read whatever you consider ideal."
"Aah..."
There would be more things to update in her profile. Ultimately, I had heard directly from her about her dining conditions and the fact that her ideal transformation went beyond simply mirroring my ideals—it was closer to mind-reading similar to my own ability.
...Everything was going according to her plan.
If I just stayed like this and took it, I felt like I would never be able to escape, just as she said.
Swish, swish... Plop... Plop, squelch...
Because she had begun properly enveloping my manhood deeply between her breasts and stimulating it, words no longer came out and my thoughts broke off.
"Ugh... Ugh..."
It was like a compromise between Harpy and Yerin-ssi's figures... The golden-ratio size that reminded me of the field team leader's body I had seen last night—large yet never excessive.
The generous, soft embrace of large breasts, the yielding softness that swallowed fingers, yet with firm elasticity and smooth skin that reached deep inside, ensuring the stimulation never grew dull for a man. It was an ideal pleasure, almost luxurious.
"Does it feel good?"
"Ugh..."
Every time she carefully stroked up and down while holding her breasts, I wanted to bury my face in that lavender hair swaying gently. Moreover, her eyes, filled with obsession as she lightly bit her lip and looked down at me as if she couldn't hold back how good it felt, made my spine shiver and urged me toward climax.
I'm... about to come soon.
My thighs tightened from within, and the testicles in my scrotum, which had been toyed with since earlier, churned with the lumps of desire I hadn't fully released yesterday, trembling as if about to explode.
"Hoo, now... Ugh?"
But just as I thought that and began lifting my hips while writhing on the bed, she immediately removed her hands from her breasts and stood up, straightening her knees as if tidying up the spot.
"Ah...?"
Even though I knew this wasn't the time for it, a moan mixed with regret and resentment escaped me on its own. Because she had stopped right before climax, my manhood stood even larger and harder than before, twitching obscenely in all directions.
"Fufu... No."
She smiled as if to say whining wouldn't work, then slowly lowered one hand that had been holding her breast, extending only her index finger. It traced down my navel line and stopped precisely at my lower abdomen.
That... was a gesture pointing at something. And in this situation, there was only one place it could be pointing to.
"The thickest first shot... right here..."