A Twenty-Year-Old Repeat Examinee Is Full of Vigor
The next morning, Seo Jian had just finished showering and was perched on the edge of her bed. Even though she’d dried her body and hair with a towel, a warm, fluffy heat still rose from her skin. The phrase “young and bouncy” described her perfectly right now.
Beside her lay the clothes and underwear she would wear today. It had already been three or four months since Seo Jian had grown used to wearing women’s underwear. The stubborn phase of swearing she would never wear the damn things had lasted only the first month or two. Her chest was simply too large, and after going braless to the neighborhood mart a few times… her nipples showed. At least, that’s how it looked in her own eyes.
These uselessly big breasts came with uselessly big nipples on top of it all. For a bit of extra information, her areolas weren’t overly large. Still, as she reached for her clothes, Seo Jian found herself fiddling with her phone instead.
So what was she doing right now?
Click.
“……”
She had taken a photo. Her legs were crossed so her crotch wasn’t visible, but the shot fully exposed her chest—an erotic picture. Since her face wasn’t in the frame, even if she uploaded it online, no one would recognize her.
This is me.
She could barely believe it herself. Who would look at this photo and think of the old Seo Jiwon? Seo Jiwon no longer existed. Only Seo Jian remained—someone who looked like a girl no matter which way you sliced it.
Seo Jian cupped her breasts and took another picture… and at that exact moment—
Click.
Without even knocking, Seo Jihyun barged into the room.
“Sis, can I borrow a pad… huh?”
“Hey! Hey! Knock before you come in, damn it!”
Seo Jian curled in on herself. Whether lucky or unlucky, the way she was holding her chest with both arms made it look like she was covering herself. She naturally hunched over in a way that hid her breasts. Of course, even covered, her naked body was the kind that made anyone who saw it think all sorts of things.
Seo Jihyun grinned.
“Sis. Your boobs are seriously huge. Can I touch them? Just once?”
“Like hell you can?! You say that again and I’m telling Mom!”
“Tch. We’re both girls. It’s not like they’ll wear out.”
Both girls.
Seo Jian’s little sister, Seo Jihyun, didn’t seem particularly bothered that her older brother had turned into this. Or rather, it wasn’t that she didn’t care—she had accepted it almost immediately. That attitude was something to be grateful for, yet it was also what made Seo Jian feel even more uncomfortable. After all, she still hadn’t fully accepted herself.
“And I’m not completely used to being called ‘sis’ yet, okay? When it’s just the two of us, can’t you just talk to me like before…?”
“Come on. What’s with the sulking? If you look like this and I don’t call you sis, that’d be way weirder. Your chest is bigger than mine, for crying out loud.”
“……”
Seo Jihyun made an exaggerated gesture outlining huge breasts over her own clothes. At her cheeky teasing, Seo Jian flushed bright red and bit her lip hard.
Just as her sister said, Seo Jian was becoming a woman in more ways than one. Wearing women’s underwear no longer felt strange—that was old news now. Beyond the physical changes, her emotions had grown more volatile, probably from the hormones. The short haircut she’d had right after the transformation had grown out a little, reaching a length that looked quite feminine. She wanted to chop it all off, but their mom kept saying it looked nice, so she couldn’t bring herself to do it.
As for makeup, she still hadn’t touched it properly. She had always been interested in skincare, so the creams and lotions she used were pretty much the same as before. But that was as far as it went. Seo Jihyun had forced a few unused cosmetics on her, claiming she didn’t need them, but Seo Jian had yet to try any.
And lately, she had noticed that Kim Hanbin kept sneaking glances at her chest. Even though she deliberately wore only baggy hoodies with zero skin exposure, he still did it every time.
“I’ll just grab a few pads from here, okay?”
While Seo Jian was lost in thought, Seo Jihyun had already opened the drawer, rummaged through the pad pouch, and asked.
“Ugh, seriously! Fine, just take them and get out already!”
“Got it, got it. All done. I’ll pay you back later~”
Seo Jihyun waved cheekily and left the room. Seo Jian stared at the closed door and let out a long, heavy sigh.
Life had reached the point where keeping a stash of pads in the corner of her room felt completely normal. That was how thoroughly Seo Jian was becoming a woman.
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It was strange. Ever since yesterday, Seo Jian kept appearing in my head. The image of her standing in front of me, taking off her clothes, putting them back on, and even slipping out of her panties.
The moment I got home last night, I’d tossed my bag by the front door and run straight to the park. It was all because of that. Even though I told myself I shouldn’t, I couldn’t erase the sight of her from my mind.
I’d told Jian that I usually jog around the park once or twice anyway. But yesterday was the first time I’d ever run like a madman for that long. I ran until I was gasping and nearly throwing up… and still, the image of her naked body kept flashing through my head.
I really shouldn’t be doing this. This was something a friend absolutely shouldn’t do.
And then this morning. The instant I saw Seo Jian again at the reading room, I realized every desperate effort I’d made from last night until this morning had been completely pointless.
…Seo Jian looked like a woman to me now.
It had only been a little over a month since we became friends. In comparison, I had known Seo Jiwon for nearly a full year during our third year of high school. Yet somehow, things had turned out like this.
“Today, let’s each study hard on our own until lunch. I’ll help you with your studies after we eat. That okay with you?”
“Yeah, I don’t mind. Just help whenever you have time. That’s plenty.”
I tried to sound as casual as possible. Then Seo Jian and I headed straight to our separate seats in the reading room. For the record, her seat was on the diagonal opposite side of mine.
When individuals consciously attempt to suppress specific thoughts, those thoughts paradoxically become hyper-accessible in their minds…
What the hell does that even mean?
I gripped my mechanical pencil and stared hard at the English passage. If I were to translate it… it basically said that when you deliberately try to push a thought down, it ironically gets lodged even deeper in your brain. It was explaining the white bear effect, but the more I read it, the more Seo Jian popped into my head.
Was I seriously this far gone?
I clutched my throbbing head and rubbed my temples. Fine. Let’s stop trying to force it out. It was obviously because yesterday’s memory had been so intense that it kept resurfacing.
I glanced behind me. The reading room at this early hour was usually empty, so there was no one around. That meant no one would walk past and peek at my desk. Seo Jian was probably still sitting and studying too.
I immediately pulled out my phone. I plugged in both Bluetooth earbuds, turned the screen brightness all the way down, and played the adult video I had saved in a hidden folder.
People would call me crazy… but I genuinely couldn’t focus on studying at all. If I could just overwrite the image with something else—anything.
The video showed a man and woman having sex from the side. The way her heavy, gravity-defying breasts bounced was shot perfectly to be arousing. One coincidence was that the woman’s hair wasn’t extremely long. Roughly, it looked about the same length as Seo Jian’s. Another coincidence: she was a cat-like beauty, just like Seo Jian. And yet another: she had quite large breasts. Her hips and ass were also impressively full to match that volume.
Since I hadn’t gotten a proper look at Seo Jian’s ass even when she was showering, my eyes unconsciously kept drifting to the woman’s backside in the video.
I had turned it on to erase Seo Jian from my mind, but before I knew it, the woman in the video had started to look exactly like her.
…Had I really lost my mind?
Before I could think anything even more pathetic, I quickly stopped the video. Then I whipped my head around.
“Hup!!!”
“……”
Shit.
Seo Jian was standing right behind me!
I yanked out one earbud, mouth opening and closing uselessly. I was so shocked I couldn’t even form proper words. How long had she been standing there?
She stood with her arms crossed, brows furrowed, looking down at me. I couldn’t meet her eyes. My throat burned, so I swallowed hard.
Without a word, Seo Jian jerked her chin toward the reading room entrance. Then she spun on her heel and walked out.
It was clearly a sign to follow her.
Like a criminal caught red-handed, I trailed after Jian. I thought we were heading to the rest area, but she put on her shoes, left the reading room, and went straight down to the first floor outside the building.
“Hey.”
“…Yeah.”
“Let’s make a contract. Just one.”
And that was how I ended up hearing words I had never expected in a million years.