Chapter 32
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Translator: MadScientist
Chapter: 32
Chapter Title: Hyun-soo, What Should I Do?
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Hyun-soo. What am I gonna do?
I can't sleep.
No matter how hard I try to close my eyes, sleep just won't come.
Instead... all I can think about is that.
"Haa."
I opened my eyes again and stared up at the ceiling.
I could see the colorful glow-in-the-dark stickers prettily stuck up there.
Hyun-soo had put them up when he came over to my place.
He said looking at them would soothe my heart when sleep wouldn't come.
And sure enough, I'd fallen asleep many times just gazing at those glowing stars.
But tonight...
"......"
Sleep was the last thing on my mind. All sorts of complicated thoughts kept swirling instead.
"Stupid... why did I let it happen."
I'd agreed to Min-seong's request because I felt so guilty about him stealing my item.
That ridiculous request.
But no matter how I thought about it, it felt like a mistake.
I didn't even need to grant a request like that in the first place.
It was absurd.
"So why... did I."
Why did I allow it? Why did I say yes?
Maybe I was too emotionally shaken.
I was a bit tipsy, and I felt so sorry for Min-seong, so that must've been it.
Plus, I'd touched his dick first.
Even so, Min-seong went too far.
I'd planned to just finish it with a handjob.
"Choi Min-seong. You bastard."
I thought he was a good junior.
But he'd been eyeing me with lustful eyes.
He revealed that desire with those big hands of his.
Touching me all over, greedily indulging himself.
"I'm crazy. Han Yu-ra."
The problem was me.
The longer Min-seong's hands lingered on my body.
The more he gently wrapped around me, roughly groped me, ravished me like I was his to plunder.
The hotter my body got.
I know that was arousal.
The first time a man's hands had ever touched me like that, and it excited me more than I'd imagined.
And because I'd let him touch my pussy too...
"......"
I even squirted like I was peeing.
Climaxing from my junior's touch.
That must've been an orgasm, right?
It was my first time experiencing it, but I knew I'd reached my peak.
And in that moment, my vision flashed white, and an immense wave of pleasure hit me.
"No. No."
I can't admit it.
It was my first time being caressed, so my body was just extra sensitive.
Yeah. Maybe I'd held back for so long that it built up.
"Forget it. I have to forget."
I've lived just fine without knowing those feelings until now.
That pleasure or whatever—being with Hyun-soo was more than enough.
I only need Hyun-soo.
That's what I promised myself.
"......"
But.
I'd touched Min-seong's cock.
Sucked on that huge thing with my mouth.
I'd been proactive to make him cum without penetration, sure.
But as my mouth got used to that cock... it became harder and harder to stop.
My pussy throbbed. My breath quickened, and my body heated up more and more.
Unknowingly, my hand drifted to my lips.
I'd given a blowjob to Min-seong—something I never did for Hyun-soo.
Self-loathing and guilt washed over me, but that hot excitement kept replaying in my mind.
'Get a grip, Han Yu-ra.'
Even as I tried to steel myself.
That white-hot flash of pleasure wouldn't leave my head.
Am I really a woman with such weak self-control?
I've held back fine all this time—why can't I shake this off?
"Hoo."
I'm not some lewd woman.
I'm just flustered by these unexpected feelings.
I deliberately closed my eyes, but sleep still wouldn't come.
"Hyun-soo... what am I gonna do."
Touching and sucking Min-seong's cock, even orgasming from his hands—it tormented me with massive guilt.
The image of my face dirtied by his cum only added to the confusion.
****
"What the hell have I done."
The drinking party I'd set up to get the truth about the stolen item.
It turned into new info on Kang Hyun-soo, Han Yu-ra's virginity story, handjob, and even a blowjob.
Unbelievable developments unfolded.
Unlike Kang Seo-yoon, I'd never intended to mess with Han Yu-ra.
Go Nan-young had chewed me out so much, and Kang Seo-yoon toyed with me too, so I got greedy.
But Han Yu-ra was a senior I'd known since college, someone kinder and better than anyone—I'd tried to hold back.
"That's why desire is so scary."
From the moment I carried Han Yu-ra on my back to the company, her warmth had aroused me.
And when she mistook me for Kang Hyun-soo and grabbed my cock, I lost all reason.
If not for that, none of it would've happened.
"I feel kinda bad."
Still, it felt good.
It was an ecstatic night.
Those thoughts kept replaying, making it hard to sleep.
"Kang Hyun-soo, you fool."
Even if just for a short time.
I'd learned Han Yu-ra had a lewd, wild side.
I couldn't fathom why he'd never touched a woman like that.
If she'd given him a handjob first, he should've jumped her.
Well, thanks to that, she stayed a virgin—which made me even happier.
The hope of leaving my footprints on an unclimbed snow mountain thrilled me more.
"But can I really take her?"
I didn't know Kang Hyun-soo's exact goals. But it felt like he was using Han Yu-ra for them.
Han Yu-ra loved Kang Hyun-soo.
It seemed like a weird relationship to me, but not necessarily wrong.
They might have their own circumstances.
For now, I tried to sleep and headed to work.
Today was a shooting day.
Right before shooting my item, so I had to observe extra carefully to make the most of it.
On shooting days like this, we usually called in external crews too.
We had our own team, but it wasn't enough.
The gear had been sent ahead, so we could take the bus comfortably to the site.
"Senior. Hello."
"......"
Han Yu-ra just nodded curtly at my greeting and went to sit far away from me.
Normally, she'd sit next to me since it's comfy.
'Even I think I went too far.'
Turning a handjob situation into orgasms and a blowjob.
She probably needs time, so I left her be and caught up on sleep on the way.
At the site, the early teams were bustling with shoot prep.
Including the external crew.
"Whoa, our Min-seong's really starting to shine now, huh?"
And there, camera in hand, was Kang Hyun-soo.
"Hello, Senior."
"Hahaha. Long time no see. Heard you're holding up well."
"Thanks to Yu-ra Senior looking after me."
"Yeah, yeah. Yu-ra's so thoughtful. She'll be a big help to you."
Even seeing him again, he was so gentlemanly and cool.
That face that could charm celebrities if dolled up, plus a deep, trustworthy voice.
"But Min-seong, I've got a question."
"Yes?"
"The next item after today—it's yours, right? That's true?"
"Ah, yeah. It just kinda happened that way."
"And you've only been here a month and change?"
"Got lucky. It wasn't a big deal."
"Hmm. Yu-ra still hasn't gotten a chance like that..."
For a split second, disappointment flickered in Kang Hyun-soo's eyes.
He was looking at Han Yu-ra's back as she sorted props in the distance.
"She's been here over a year... and you beat her to it."
Not the gentle, cool senior I knew.
Maybe because I suspected he managed his image for his goals, a fake.
His gaze looked definitely different now.
And I could feel it.
This guy didn't love Han Yu-ra that much.
****
Kang Hyun-soo, after spitting those disappointing words at Han Yu-ra, threw himself into his work.
He worked hard.
Just like the senior from college days I admired.
Respected by others, considerate of them.
Worked harder than anyone, and talented too.
"Yu-ra, how the heck did you land a guy like that?"
"I'm so jealous. Handsome, great at his job. Rich family too? Seriously jealous, Yu-ra."
Lee Yu-jin and Choi Sung-hwa's words.
Han Yu-ra just smiled and focused on her tasks.
Shooting began.
Go PD might have a crap personality, but he knew how to make the show pop.
Seeing the item we'd agonized over come alive filled me with pride.
After afternoon shooting ended, there was a short break before evening shoot.
Of course, I couldn't rest—I had to prep the next one.
'Weird.'
Thanks to the perk from hitting Level 2, my fatigue was way down.
Moving like usual, but not as tired as before.
So I could focus more, and even got some praise from around.
'Hm?'
In the bustle, I spotted Kang Hyun-soo and Han Yu-ra talking in a secluded corner.
Curiosity piqued, I pretended to pass by and eavesdropped from hiding.
"Yu-ra, why are you disappointing me?"
"......Sorry. I'm trying my best."
"You got outdone by Min-seong too? Losing to a guy who's not even been here two months? Is that all you're worth?"
"Sorry. Really... sorry. Hyun-soo, just give me a little time and I..."
Why's she acting so servile, Han Yu-ra?
"I've told you so many times, Yu-ra. I'm gonna be the best. So you need to be a woman who matches that. At least surpass Kang Seo-yoon as a writer."
"U-uh, yeah. Got it. I'll try harder."
"Heard there was an issue with casting too? Your screw-up?"
"Th-that... yeah. My fault."
"Why make mistakes like that? Min-seong's using you well. That's why I recommended him there."
What?
"Min-seong was smart in college too. Creative ideas, even wrote web novels, right? So he's got good items—take care of him and use him."
My chest went ice-cold.
So that's why he recommended me here.
"Flash him a smile and he'd hand over his liver and gall bladder. Make him useful now, and you can boss him around easily later. Gotta use guys like that to become big. Got it, Yu-ra?"
'Disappointing, Kang Hyun-soo.'
I'd sensed he wore a mask around Han Yu-ra.
But without direct proof, there was some disconnect.
Now I knew the truth for sure—betrayal, disappointment, irritation surged up.
To think I'd admired and liked a guy like that.
"I... don't wanna do that to Min-seong."
Even after what happened with me, Han Yu-ra saying that made her seem impressive.
"Hm. You're too kind, Yu-ra. Listen up. To climb high, you gotta step on the people below. Use them right. You can't work under Kang Seo-yoon forever, right? So use kids like Min-seong well."
"......"
"And later you'll boss around lots of people. Start by handling underlings now. Guys like Min-seong are perfect—use 'em up and toss 'em, no problem."
More vile than I'd thought.
Never imagined someone so two-faced.
"Let's not talk about Min-seong, Hyun-soo."
"What, attached after a bit of work? Fine, I get it. Still, stay cold. You gotta be the best woman everyone envies. Then you'll match the top guy I become. So work hard. Effort. Whatever it takes."
"Uh... yeah. Got it."
"Good. Then I can love you forever."
"O-okay."
"Gotta work. You too."
"H-Hyun-soo."
"What now."
"I'm off the day after tomorrow, Wednesday. Wanna... date maybe?"
"Busy that day. Lots of work."
"......I see."
His cold rejection didn't match the sweet, caring Kang Hyun-soo image at all.
At that level, isn't he a sociopath?
'You've been fooled, Han Yu-ra.'
A guy with that true nature could've easily manipulated someone like her on purpose.
"......"
Seeing that made Han Yu-ra seem so pitiful.
Pathetic, Kang Hyun-soo.