I Really Can’t Do It While Looking at Your Face…?
My chest felt so full it might burst. And this wasn’t just from physical arousal.
“Haa…”
My heart had been swollen to the point of exploding for a while now. My head was spinning, and there wasn’t a single coherent thought left in my mind. Meanwhile, the ‘little sister’s’ thighs kept squeezing my knee like they were trying to tell me something. As if answering her, I lowered my head again.
“…Chu. Chuu.”
“Haa… chu, chu.”
They were her lips, pushed forward cutely. But these weren’t the usual pouty, sulky lips that stuck out when she was annoyed.
“Chuu, chup, chuu-chuu.”
“Huu… chuu… chu.”
Because we both wanted this, because we both desired it, our lips met with careful tenderness. And we kept kissing like that, lost in each other, until our breaths grew heavy again.
“Ha, haaang…”
The hand that had been stroking my hair flopped limply to the side. Our faces drew apart once more. Our eyes met again. In that gaze, we were both completely filled with each other.
“……”
“……”
We continued our quiet standoff. Or rather, we simply held our breath and watched one another.
“Haa…”
Right now, we were like a meticulously built tower that would collapse from the slightest misstep. That was why we were being so careful. So we simply looked at each other without saying a word. The suffocating silence stretched on.
The ‘little sister’ was the first to lower her gaze.
“…I’m thirsty…”
“…Want some water?”
“…Yeah.”
Our voices sounded strangely unlike our usual selves. The moment she said she was thirsty, I was already halfway to the mini-fridge.
“…Ah, how about a drink instead?”
“Nooo… water.”
There was only one bottle of water in the small mini-fridge. But I noticed the cap had already been opened.
“…This looks like it’s been recycled. Should I run out and buy some fresh ones?”
“Ah, no… I’ll just have a drink…”
I reached for a beverage, then paused. After thinking it over for a moment, I quickly came to a decision.
“Well, we’re going to need water anyway… I’ll just run to the convenience store real quick.”
“No, it’s really fine. Just give me what’s there…”
“I’ll drink some too if there’s any. Just wait a bit.”
I said that and checked my clothes. …My pants were bulging so much it looked like they might rip, but I managed to lay it sideways to make it less obvious.
“Ah, I said it’s really fine…”
“I’ll be right back. There’s a convenience store right next door.”
Leaving those words behind, I moved quickly. I dashed to the elevator, reached the first floor, and broke into a run. Luckily the store was right next to the motel. I grabbed several 500ml bottles of water. Then I went to the counter.
Beep— beep— The barcode scanner rang out. I kept glancing nervously under the counter.
“That’ll be 3,400 won.”
“Ah, just a second.”
I had no idea how many we might need. So I grabbed whatever I could reach. Thud— thududuk— A pile of condoms spilled onto the counter from both hands. Since I’d never used them before, I’d picked up as many different kinds as possible.
“…Should I ring all of these up?”
“Ah, yes.”
“Would you like a bag?”
“…Yes, please.”
It was a little embarrassing, but the part-timer guy looked completely used to it as he bagged the condoms and water bottles.
“Here you go. Paid with this card.”
I trembled with nerves the entire time I handed over the card and got it back. Then, bag in hand, I sprinted back the way I came.
“Haa, ha, haaa…!”
The vivid sensations from earlier still had me completely worked up. My chest and groin throbbed with excitement as I waited for the elevator. Finally, I arrived in front of the motel room where the ‘little sister’ was waiting.
Knock— knock—
“…Hey, can you open the door?”
It felt awkward. The fact that we’d come to a motel together. The fact that she was waiting for me inside.
“…Just a minute!”
Her reply came a little late. The soundproofing really was terrible. For a moment I worried that someone might have heard our earlier moans, but then the door rattled open.
Inside, the ‘little sister’ stood with messy bed hair as she held the door open.
“…You’re back?”
Maybe she felt shy, because she immediately turned and went back inside.
“Yeah. Here’s the water, ah…”
At some point her outfit had changed. Of course, I hadn’t expected her to suddenly greet me naked. But the loose shorts she’d been wearing earlier were gone. Now she had on tight blue jeans. That was completely unexpected.
“…Come in.”
“Ah, uh, um…”
The ‘little sister’ sat down on the bed where we’d been rolling around earlier. She gathered her hair at the back, tied it into a single bundle, and held her hand out to me.
“…I told you that you didn’t have to buy any… why did you go through the trouble…”
I stood there in a daze and pulled a water bottle from the bag, handing it to her.
“H-here…”
“Anyway, thanks. I’ll drink it well.”
“Y-yeah…”
As far as I was concerned, this was a polite rejection. I never imagined she’d brought jeans with her. And I definitely didn’t expect her to put them on while I was gone. If I’d known, I would’ve just used the motel’s condoms. Regret washed over me.
“Gulp, gulp… huu. Here.”
“…Ah, yeah.”
The ‘little sister’ who offered me the bottle she’d been drinking from was treating me like usual. Of course her expression and complexion were completely different from normal, but she was clearly trying her hardest not to seem awkward. She was putting in every effort not to show it.
“……”
“……”
This silence was a little different from before. The room was still filled with the heat we’d created, but I could tell it was slowly cooling down.
“Gulp, gulp… huu…”
The cold water slid down my throat and into my stomach. My burning hot body gradually, steadily cooled off.
. . .
“…Isn’t that uncomfortable?”
“Ah, yeah. How many times are you going to ask?”
“It has to be uncomfortable…”
We were lying on the same bed. The blanket between us felt unreasonably cruel.
“Is the TV interesting?”
“…It’s whatever. Why do you keep asking?”
“No, just… I’m bored.”
The ‘little sister’ treated me with a hint of annoyance and stared hard at the TV again. My hand, which had been waiting for an opening, crept slowly across the blanket.
Slap—
“Ah…”
“Can’t you stay still?”
“…Yeah.”
Her changed attitude somehow hurt my feelings a little. And once again, regret flooded in. If I’d known this would happen, I should’ve brought condoms from the start. Still, using the motel ones felt gross. But not using any protection at all was unimaginable.
“Hey…”
“Huu, why do you keep bothering me?”
“…Is this how it ends?”
“What?”
“No, what we were doing earlier…”
“Haa…”
Honestly, I didn’t want to sound this pathetic. It hurt my pride as a man, and it really made me look bad.
“Eun-yeong, huh? Like this. I’ll just use my hands, okay?”
But my erection refused to go down. It kept throbbing, and all I could think about was finding a way to get with the ‘little sister’.
“Ah, I said nooo…”
Once again she slapped the back of my hand.
“Hey… It’s not even normal clothes. You’re really wearing jeans right now?”
“…Ugh, is the guy going to keep whining?”
“If you’d kept even one promise, would I be acting like this?”
“…What promise did I not keep?”
“You said you’d do it with your hand. But you’re not doing it. Earlier you even—”
“Aish! Will you shut up?”
The ‘little sister’ snapped and cut me off. She rolled over, buried her face in the pillow, and started kicking her legs wildly.
“Aaaaaah…!!”
She let out what sounded like a painful groan. She clenched her fists and pounded the bed. She even undid her carefully tied hair and scratched at it frantically.
“Haa, haaa… huu!”
A deep sigh followed. Then she whipped her head around and glared at me.
“…You just want me to use my hand?”
“Are you trying to brush me off with words again?”
“No, I’m asking if it’s really okay if I only use my hand.”
“Ah…”
The word “sex” echoed in my head. But then I thought that rushing things wouldn’t be good. Slowly, step by step, that might be better.
“…Yeah.”
The ‘little sister’ who had been glaring at me finally sat up as if she’d made up her mind.
*
I almost got into serious trouble. Or maybe the real trouble had started long ago. But if things continued like this, something even worse was definitely going to happen. So the only thing I could do right now was change into the jeans I’d brought and tighten my belt, even though it was uncomfortable.
“…You’re really only going to use your hand, right?”
“……Yeah.”
Oppa was nodding. I wondered if he knew what I was feeling right now… or not.
“…Gulp.”
I looked at the huge bulge in Oppa’s pants. I thought I’d be used to it by now, but I still felt overwhelmed by its size. If that thing went inside me, just by guessing, it would easily reach up to my—
“Aaaaaah—!!”
I fell into dirty thoughts again. My lower belly tingled. My crotch was getting wet.
We can’t do this. We really can’t. I repeated it to myself over and over.
“Huu…”
But my eyes kept drifting to Oppa’s lips and his crotch. It wasn’t on purpose. My gaze just kept following them.
“…Honestly… I really can’t do it while looking at your face…?”
“Yeah, so…?”
“Turn around. So I can’t see your face…”
The moment I finished speaking, Oppa turned his body to the side. I moved behind him.
“…Don’t look back. Don’t talk to me. Just don’t do anything.”
“……Okay.”
I didn’t want him to see my bright red face. I didn’t want him to see the expression I couldn’t stop making. I reached out from behind him. My fingertips were trembling. Then they moved toward Oppa’s massively swollen crotch.