Pathetic Excuses
My whole body broke out in goosebumps the instant I heard that low, raspy voice. What do I do? What the hell do I do? It’s the middle of the night. Practically dawn. There’s no one here to help me.
“I asked what the fuck you’re doing….”
“⋯.”
He grabbed my wrist and yanked me up. Whether it was misfortune or a stroke of luck, the fact that all the strength had drained from my hand meant the phone wasn’t in it anymore. It’s okay. I can still make an excuse. From his voice alone, it sounds like I just woke him up, so it should be fine. Think. Just think….
“Why were you digging through someone else’s pockets?”
“⋯Y-you touched my chest too….”
“Ah, so that’s what you’re going with?”
The moment I blurted out the first excuse that popped into my head, Kang Juhyuk, who had been half-asleep, suddenly burst into loud laughter and pulled me into an even tighter embrace. So tight I could barely breathe. He squeezed.
“What the hell. I held back because you told me not to do anything weird, but now you’re the one doing weird shit?”
“Weird shit…?”
He moved my clenched wrist back to its original position. He laced his fingers over the back of my hand and shoved it straight into his pocket. Deep. All the way in.
“Hey, stop…!”
“If you wanted to touch it, you should’ve just said so. I would’ve let you feel as much as you wanted.”
Through the fabric of his pants, I could feel the texture of the convenience-store underwear. And beneath that, the thick, disgustingly huge outline of his cock—thicker than anything I’d seen in the dirty video on Kang Juhyuk’s phone earlier. It was revolting….
“Isn’t it super perverted to secretly touch a guy’s dick while he’s sleeping?”
“N-no! When did I ever—!”
“Then why were you rummaging through someone else’s pockets? Looking for a wallet or something…?”
“That’s not it either….”
“If it’s not that, then it has to be this… Be honest.”
No matter how hard I tried to argue, every reply only dragged me deeper into the swamp. His teasing questions, asked with that sly little laugh, tightened around my heart like a vice.
⋯Which option would let me slip past Kang Juhyuk? If I just admitted I went through his phone… No. I’d actually die.
“I-I woke up and your hand was just… there….”
“Did you dream about fucking me?”
“No, no! That’s not it….”
“Then you wanna do it now? Since you’re already awake.”
“Ah, wait—let go…!”
In the end, I tried to muddle through with a pathetic excuse, but Kang Juhyuk naturally ignored me and slid his hand under my clothes. His hard, calloused fingers brushed across my stomach. Like a bug crawling, they slowly traveled up my skin until they reached my bra. He fumbled around my back trying to find the hook, but the moment he realized it was a hookless style, he shoved me onto my side.
“Hands up. I’m taking it off.”
“Wait, wait, stop…!”
“I said hands up.”
Before I could even flail in panic, he climbed onto my back while I was facedown. He yanked both my arms upward and stripped off my t-shirt. It came off. Once it was halfway gone, he shoved his hands into my bra and yanked that off too. In the blink of an eye, with no time to resist, I was left half-naked in front of him.
“Hey, Kang Juhyuk…!”
“Whoa. You were wearing a bra and still had tits this small? Holy shit….”
“Ah, that’s just what I wear to sleep….”
“Didn’t you notice the convenience store clerk staring at you like you were crazy? You were probably wearing this then too.”
When I twisted my head around, he was twirling my gray sports bra around his finger. I wished the room had been too dark to see, but my eyes had already adjusted to the gloom, burning that humiliating sight into my brain.
“Don’t wear crap like this anymore. From now on, wear something sexy even to bed. Or just don’t wear anything. That’d be better.”
“Why should I—… Mmph….”
He didn’t even give me time to answer. He shoved my face into the pillow, yanked off his own top, and threw it aside. By the time I managed to turn my head again, he had already stripped off his underwear. His cock— the same one I’d touched earlier—was twitching as he stared down at me with eyes that said he was going to devour me.
“We already did it four times today, and the woman is still seducing me. This is a first. Aren’t you tired since it’s your first time?”
“W-who seduced you…!”
I heard clothes hitting the floor, then the sound of the phone in his pocket dropping. I should have felt relieved that I’d dodged the biggest danger, but the dizzying pleasure that had melted my brain earlier came rushing back.
“You were touching my dick and seducing me. ⋯Waking me up so I’d fuck you.”
My body was already trembling violently, my heart pounding. No. I can’t take any more… I can’t….
“You threw such a fucking fit when I bought condoms earlier. ⋯Though it was less painful when I fucked you raw, wasn’t it?”
“N-no…! That’s not true!”
“Want me to fuck you without a condom? I’ve never done it raw before. I’m scared of STDs.”
“Just—let go…!”
“But you’ve never been with anyone, so it should be fine, right? Oh, don’t worry about me. I get checked at the hospital whenever I’m bored, so I’ve confirmed everything.”
The man pinning me down from above now reached for my pants. He grabbed my panties along with them, yanked them down slightly, and gave my exposed ass a sharp smack. He couldn’t have used much force, but his hand was so hard and huge that it hurt. The way he immediately grabbed and squeezed afterward was painful and heavy. Knowing what was coming next made it even more terrifying.
“Lift your knees. So I can take them off.”
“I told you that’s not what I was doing, I swear…!”
“Ah, fine. Okay, okay. I’ll go get a condom, so take them off yourself. If you don’t, I’ll just rip them off, yeah?”
“⋯.”
He shoved an undeniable truth in my face and forced me to choose the lesser lie. His voice still sounded sleepy and hoarse, yet those lewd hands showed not a trace of drowsiness.
⋯He really is a fucking perverted dog who’s addicted to sex….
That perverted bastard even turned on the light before leaving my room. Left behind on the bed in my humiliating state, I struggled to sit up, let out a shaky breath, and eventually took off the rest of my clothes.
⋯They were going to come off anyway. It was better to take them off myself than let a bastard like him do it. When I tossed the discarded clothes onto the floor, they tangled disgustingly with his, as if they were already mixing scents. Just like I would be soon.
“It’s good that you’re naked, but why are you sitting with your back turned like that?”
“Because I want to….”
As I sat on the bed with my back to him, he climbed up with a soft chuckle. He slipped a hand under my armpit, squeezed my breast once, traced my ribs down to my navel, and then started reaching even lower. I wanted to slap his hand away, but I knew it would be pointless.
⋯My body remembered all too clearly just how violent and massive this man was.
“How do you want me to fuck you? From behind? Or face to face?”
“⋯Do whatever you want….”
“Oh, really? Then I’ll just lie down. You get on top. Since you were the one in heat touching my dick, that’d be better.”
“G-get on top…?”
“You don’t know cowgirl? Well, I guess if you’ve never had sex, you wouldn’t know positions.”
The man who had been touching my trembling body suddenly said something I could barely understand and lay back on the bed. Then he tossed a box at me and pointed at his cock with his finger.
“Put it on first. Ah, but you have to get it hard before you can put it on. Want to stroke it with your hand? If I say ‘handjob’ you probably won’t understand that either, right?”
“H-handjob…?”
“It means jerk me off. You must have jerked off before, right? Masturbation. Masturbation.”
The way that man looked at me with such cute eyes while his mouth was full of every vulgar word imaginable was incredibly irritating. Irritating, but terrifying.
⋯I was scared that if I didn’t touch it, he’d shove it in my mouth instead. What the hell. He wants me to get it hard? Erection… I know what that means. It gets bigger. ⋯Even bigger than this? This thing? Come to think of it, it seemed a little smaller than before….
“Stop staring and touch it already. Let’s finish quick so we can sleep. You must be tired too, right?”
“⋯.”
Pressured by Kang Juhyuk’s constant urging, my hand moved toward his cock on its own. It was hot—no, warm—and felt like a soft, squishy rod. The moment I touched it I flinched and pulled back, but when I grabbed it again I could feel the previously limp thing gradually growing firm.
⋯What the hell. I was just touching it….
“Yeah, like that. Hold it and shake. Slowly. You just need to get it hard anyway.”
“L-like this…?”
“Yeah. You can use both hands too. Your hands are tiny anyway.”
“⋯.”
I gripped his grotesque, hardening rod with both hands and stroked it up and down. The more I stroked, the bigger it grew, rising upward just like he said. The dry tip twitched and began to leak something sticky and disgusting.
⋯This… this thing was stirring around violently inside me earlier. Ugh….
“⋯Don’t you watch porn or anything?”
“I-I do! I watch it too, at least that much….”
“Then why are you acting like a virgin who’s never seen a dick at your age? You’re driving me crazy. Here.”
It wasn’t that I didn’t know what a cock was. It was just… the tip was a bit swollen, it had two balls hanging under the rod shape, and it had some hair like mine. I knew that much! But I didn’t know it could get veiny and bulging like this… or that it would twitch like it wanted to devour me. Even though I’d been violated so brutally earlier, I hadn’t really looked. ⋯Because I was too scared to look.
“Ah, fuck. Never mind. Seeing you act this clueless is making me not even want it anymore. Just put the condom on. This is enough.”
“⋯Y-yeah….”
I let go of the bizarre, hideous cock I couldn’t tear my eyes from and picked up the box he had thrown earlier. I pulled out the packaging. It looked like some weird vitamin wrapper. When I tore it open, something shaped like a nipple popped out.
⋯I know how to use it. You just… roll it on like this….
“Haeun. Hey. It’s upside down. Upside down.”
“Huh…?”
“I said it’s upside down. Put it on the other way. The other way.”
“⋯⋯.”
“⋯Are you really twenty-six? Even a sixteen-year-old would know better than you.”
“Shut up…!”
⋯The way he looked at me like I was a child felt more humiliating than any of the shame or degradation I had felt today. Seriously… haa. It’s not a crime to have never done dirty things like this, you perverted bastard….